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Let the Busyness of Living Commence!

I sit here nursing my first big mug of coffee for the day. I look across the room at my little tiller that I need to finish putting together. I got it out of the box and everything laid out when Mom called last night. She cancelled for today. I am a bit upset because I raised a bit of a stink because I requested the day off and did not get it. Then a coworker offered to work it for me so I could spend the day with Mom. However I cannot message that coworker and offer to take my shift back because I said I would go and pick a friend/coworker up at the airport a 3:30pm today. So I will try to give Mom a call before I leave for the airport (Mom sleeps late and probably won’t see the message I sent her until well after noon).

Stella is asleep on her back on the couch. When she stretches all four legs go straight up in the air and the paws come together. Then they all fall back and there is a big sigh. I know her ball is still on the bed so we’ll have to find something for her to play with in the meantime. If she even wants to play. She has been snoozing.

I am trying to figure out what to do with my day. Get the tiller put together and work on the novel top the list. I also need to pull my cold weather gear from the car. I am going to cross my fingers that I won’t need any of it. I also need to check on a friend to make sure she is doing ok. She has been in a bad place mentally and I try to check in with her atleast once a day. I also need to check in with both my parents, even if it is just messaging (I worry that if Mom and I start talking it will be several hours until we hang up now that I think about it). I also want to spend time with Chris since this is his one day off. I have tomorrow off but I have a meeting at 9am and another at 6:30pm. Oh and I need to write down that last Thursday’s meeting has been rescheduled to this Thursday before I forget. I also need to start cleaning the house if we are having people over on the 20th for the BBQ. Which also means I need to start looking seriously at picnic tables. And I need to plan the day as well as set money aside for the meat. I am asking people to bring a dish to pass. I might have a few sides just incase. I have a sign up sheet in the office but most of the we’ll be there’s have been verbal. So I need to write down how many people are coming so far.

I guess I ought to wrap this up and get it together. Stella has gotten off the couch and shaken herself to let me know I have spent enough time on this. She is ready for her attention now, lol. On that note I hope you all have an amazing day! Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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To Do List Tackled

Here we are again. Chris and I will just miss seeing each other again. He has to be to work the same time I get out of work. But Stella won’t be alone very long atleast.

I did a lot yesterday. My chair got put outside along with a few plants, I finished up Chris’s laundry, the mouse cage got a god cleaning as did the snake cage. I also spent some quality time with our snake Calypso. It has been awhile since she has been out and about. Stella spent quality time outside too. Kitchen floor got swept and trash taken out.

I did do my half hour on the novel just before bed. Mostly what got written were questions about characters and storyline. I am doing so much within the story I am hoping to streamline more. There are things the reader needs to know I just have to figure out how to present them. Do I devote whole sections and tell the background story? Do I do it as a journal entry? Just word of mouth from my characters? That’s the kinds of things I was brain storming about.

I see that I need to wrap things up here. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Spring????

The morning has a slight chill but it is sunny. The wind comes and goes. When it does come it is a bit forceful. I would like to work a bit outside today. I am currently having a stand-off with a local red tailed squirrel. I refuse to put the bird feeder back up until it has left. I know fully well that it will come back at a later time to eat. It is the principle of the thing. Meantime it is on the porch. I’ll probably put it back up once I head out to do my writing. Hopefully things don’t get blown off the porch and table!

Yesterday was a good day at work despite the lack of sleep. I was a bit of a zombie off and on but I think I handled myself well. I joked around with our store manager and other management staff. It was nice to actually talk with everyone. Normally we are all so busy trying to get things done that it is a “Hi!” as we rush past.

I have taken on the role of friend/adopted daughter to one of my coworkers. We were friends way before he started working there but we have gotten closer. (This is the guy I has talking about the other day that had the stroke.) Yesterday was his first day back to work. He had to get a ride to work (his truck is still in Florida and I am pretty sure that he isn’t supposed to be driving anyway despite what he claims) and I came back to give him a ride home at the end of his shift. I have also offered to take him to any doctor appointments he might have. (His son lives with him but he can’t drive either.) It would be cheaper than him having to call a cab or “dial-a-ride” as he calls it since the appointments would be in Traverse.

He was refusing to eat as he had lost 12lbs (that he really can’t afford to lose) and he didn’t want to put it back on. I managed to convince him that he should atleast do something like Ensure since his body needs something for energy to continue to function. I bullied him a little but he took it all in stride. His brain is still bleeding slightly and he knows that he needs to get into the doctor. I know that work will be nice enough to work around any appointments that I might need to drive him to.

Stella is already outside enjoying the sun. I think I will wrap this up and join her. I have gotten a few more photos that I will share. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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I’m Sorry…. Whaa?

Cripes, I can barely keep my eyes open. It was a long night at work. A long day period. But it had it’s good spots. Not only did I take Stella for a ride but we even got to finally walk the full loop at the park. So she was much happier today. My goal is to do it only a week. Morning’s seem best as there was no one there.

Work was busy. Especially since I had no carry out for the last hour. So that meant I had to pull and vacuum rugs, close up outside, and pull all the shades as well as my normal closing duties. When I go in this morning I get to see if my updates that I started before I left last night worked. Once I got got home I still had to shower and do a load of laundry.

I am sorely tempted to see if someone else can cover tonight’s meeting. I am going to try to though. Hopefully things go well.

I need to get this posted. I did get some photos yesterday. I will try to get them uploaded. If not then I will reshare what I have. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Just Another Day

This is the first time in about a month that Stella has eaten breakfast! We had a good cuddle and played a lot when I got home from work. She is still in a bit of a funk but this morning the sun is out so hopefully that and a car ride will help. I need to pick up my prescription after I post this.

Last night was a tearful night. I dried many tears last night. One was due to bullying and the others recent deaths. So, it was a bit somber for a while. We still laughed but it wasn’t as happy as normal.

I think I might stop at McDonald’s and get Stella and I a little something. I am not up to going through the whole making coffee with the French press. Truth be told I haven’t been for a few days now. I just make myself tea. This morning I would like coffee. I know they were supposed to be doing a remodel, but I don’t know when.

I want to say thank you to everyone that reached out over the past few days. It means a lot when I am a bit down on myself. I did try to do some work on the novel, but I just stared at the page. I hope to be able to do some work today, but it will depend on how long it takes to run to Kalkaska and back.

I know this is short and relatively uneventful. Not much is going on here. Tomorrow will be another short one as I will close tonight and have to be back at 6:30am tomorrow morning. Thanks for reading and stay safe! I’ve not taken any new photos so I will share some of my old ones.

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Feeling Broken

This morning neither Stella nor I feel good. We were both in a funk last night and this morning isn’t much better. We woke up with upset stomachs around 2:30am. Stella had to keep going out. This morning she went out and stayed out a long time. She is curled up on the couch under some blankets. I am not much better. My body is having a hard time getting around. I think/hope that it is temporary from everything I did over the past few days.

I am not in a good head space either. Part of it is lack of sun but part of it is watching things around me fall apart. I talked with one of my coworkers (he was a friend even before he started working with me). He has been in Floridia for the past month visiting family. He drove down because he had several stops along the way. He is in his 80s. Turns out he had a stroke while he was down there. He seems to be ok but I’ve not seen him in person yet. He can’t drive his truck so he has flown back. He will arrange to have the truck shipped back. But we talked and he is going to stop by the store to talk to me. I’m not sure if he will have to quit or what. Then Mom pulls a “who’s that?” when I ask her if she would reach out to a mutual friend. I tried to remind her of who the person was. A few hours later she claims that she was only joking. She knew who it was. I’m not so sure.

On a positive note I did get work done on my novel. That’s all I have. I’m sure there are other things but right now my mind isn’t there. So this will be a short post. I will have to recycle some photos as I got none taken yesterday. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Day Off: Round 2

This morning I hurt in bad ways. I can barely move at times. Sitting down to write this brought tears to my eyes. My core hates me. It is a cold and dreary day so I am seriously thinking about making this a reading day. I did work on the novel and made some very good progress. I will give myself 30 minutes to work on my novel but the rest of the day I will work on my research. I am beat.

Yesterday I chatted with Mom on the phone while Chris chatted with his Dad. That was after swapping out the couch in Chris’s office with the one in the living room. To be fair Chris did most of the work. I just complained because I wanted to just hunker in for the day. Laundry got done (the cushion covers and such got washed) and the mattress got aired out (the one in his office had a pullout bed). Dishes still need to be done. I should finish vacuuming but I honestly don’t think my body will let me do much today.

I made myself get up this morning. I really wanted to stay in bed and sleep. I did not reset the clock in the bedroom correctly. It is an hour off. I thought I was getting up at 9:30am when in fact it was 8:30am. So that actually worked in my favor. I will need to change it when Chris gets up though. I have no idea what day it is anymore. It feels like a Sunday. And apparently, I am opening manager on Thursdays and Saturdays now. I am ok with that. I will be able to talk to my tobacco rep. then.

There is a fog coming in from the south. I can hear bits of rain falling. The birds are singing away. I think it is time for me to hunker in. I did get the camera out yesterday so I have some new photos to share. Both buds on my orchid have opened! AND I have two, count them two!, cucumbers growing! Yay! On that note I hoe you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Life

Chaos at the Gas Pumps

After this past week my body is in complete rebellion. I have done way too much and it wants nothing to do with me anymore. I blame yesterday. It was the straw that broke the camels back. Among the general chaos of the day (call ins, big oil spill in the deli, not enough staff) was the big whammy. We were getting extra busy because a text was sent out to customers that they could get 10 cents off a gallon of gas when they filled up if they showed the text. That increase in business is about the time all the gas pumps started to go down one by one. In order to fix things we would need to do a system reboot. In order to do that we would have to clear all the pumps. In order to clear all the pumps we would have to be able to ring up those sales but we couldn’t even get into the register to do that. So. What I ended up doing was running across the store to another register to get the people who had pumped taken care of (there were about 10-15). After that we bagged all the pumps and I went running from vehicle to vehicle as people pulled in to tell them what was going on and ask them to wait if they wanted to since it would (hopefully) only be no more than 15 minutes to get things rolling again. Thankfully everyone was more than understanding and very nice about things. I am very grateful that my staff stepped up as well. Things could have gone so badly but even with a few hiccups (the deli staff had a few issues ringing people up… I had to pull them because we had customers lined up down two aisles almost to the other end of the store) we got things rolling again. A lot of the people came back and we chatted. It ended up being a good thing.

However… all that running! Lol. That’s ok though. I have the next two days off. I don’t have much planned other than work on my novel. I will see where the days lead. I think once I get this posted I will head outside and sit. This is late late because the wind knocked our power out around 3am so I had no idea what time it was when I finally got up. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Start, Stop, Repeat

Eh? What? Already? But I just shut my eyes! Fine. I’m up. 😢😴

Yesterday was one of my longest work days. I got to fill out an accident report (my first since I stepped up to management), we had yet another drive off, two call-ins which meant I did some work in the deli again. Oh and a lot of unhappy coworkers.

I have been given the option to get out early if I want. A mere phone call away. We’ll see what the day brings. It is supposed to rain at one point. We need it. Things are drying out. The temperatures are becoming steadily warmer. Dare I start to move plants outside? Is that you Spring?

I have the next two days off so I might putter in the gardens. I want to get my little tiller put together and maybe try it out as well. Even if it is just one of the raised gardens that gets cleaned up.

I am worried about making it through the day. I am well and truly tapped out. But I see by the clock I need to get going. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Spring Happenings🦋

I am wiped out. Yesterday at work was crazy. Between the people and all the chaos… Then I got home and Chris and I hauled a bunch of stuff out to the curb (tomorrow is our annual clean up day with the county, this year they are picking the stuff up at the curb instead of us hauling it to them). After Chris went to work I hauled a bunch more stuff out on my own. Funnily enough it is not my lower back that is sore. It is my upper back and shoulders. So hopefully that is a good thing showing that I did not over tax my lower back. I may need to go out and move things around though. It is funny watching people drive by and stop to take a look at what we have hauled to the curb. It’s like a rolling yard sale, but everything is free! The two AC units we put out there were gone within minutes. And I have to say that our yard looks a lot better. I hauled out stuff left by the builders (I use the term loosely) when they built our garage as well as just general stuff that had not been even looked at for years. Tomorrow sometime will be the pick up. They will have their work cut out for them looking at everything that has been hauled out. I hope they use all their trucks!

Stella also was busy. She got the zoomies and went tearing through the yard several times. I threw the ball all over the place too. So hopefully she got her exercise. She still won’t eat breakfast and she didn’t eat all of her dinner either. But she ate and she seemed a little perkier. But there is still something bothering her. Depression? Anxiety? I’m not sure. But both of us will be home on Sunday so hopefully that will cheer her.

The grass in the backyard is actually green! The front yard not so much. But that is ok. We plan to get some grass seed planted this Spring. When we go over for Mother’s Day next Saturday I hope to get a general idea of what Mom wants out front in her yard. I told her I would help her get it all set up and seeded. I have gotten her some seeds for her garden. I want to get her some more but I need to get to the store. I need to start getting some dirt as well (for my gardens though). We sell mulch at work so I am thinking that once I get the front flower beds cleaned up (and I mean a good deep digging out) I will borrow both Chris and his truck to get some and get it spread out. If that does well I will do the same with the gardens across the back of the house. The other gardens will need to be weeded on a regular basis though. I need to decide if I want black or red mulch. Although I could just mix them…

I got some decent photos yesterday. The waxwings are not shy at all. They have no problems with me taking photos of them. Some of the birds, like the cardinals, are very shy when they see me come out with the camera. If it is just me no big deal but if I have the camera they will fly off. I still need to go to mhy neighbor’s and take a few photos of her trees. The way they are lined up is just so cool!

I should probably wrap this up and go check the bird feeder. It sounds like we have a new bird by the singing I just heard. Oh! I forgot to share! The birds nest that is in the awning over the motorcycle pad has been claimed by a robin so I might try to sneak a few photos over the next few weeks. Thank you for all your comments and support! Thanks for reading and stay safe!