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The Mother’s Day Mix

Here in the U.S. it is Mother’s Day. While Mother’s do deserve the praise and a day I am just not feeling it. For myself mind you… I sent a text to Mom and I got a lovely text from my Mother-in-law that I responded to in kind. No this is my first Mother’s Day without Moose. Yes I have the girls and I love them dearly but I had a special connection with Moosie. I have to work today so I guess it will be another work day for me.

I did survive last night. Quite well as it turned out. We had customers late and I had to turn away several people after we closed. Everyone was nice but peeved. It didn’t help that we were short staffed. But all turned out well. I even made great strides in mastering the paperwork. Which is a good thing since I will be completely on my own next week. So I am pretty proud of that.

The sun is out for the second day in a row. It is a nice change from the dark, rain and cold. I am hoping tomorrow will be more of the same. It is chilly if you are not in the sun but I am usually in the sun so…. Tomorrow at this time I should be home from physical therapy. I have a meeting tomorrow night then another Tuesday morning. My days off are tomorrow then Saturday so I can spend some time with Chris.

I am contemplating how to spend my little bit of time before work today. There is a list of things I should do (like clean out the photos in my cache here, on my phone and on the camera) as well as things I could do (which includes reading, working on my novel, writing my penpal, working in the yard (not a good idea with my back but…)). But I’m not sure what I will do though. Both girls are outside. I think outside is a good place to start. Even if I am just sitting.

Sorry this is short and kind of all over the place. I am trying not to think too much about Moose. But everything seems to pull me back to him today. I will add a few photos from the past few days. I hope you all have a great day and to those who are celebrating have an awesome Mother’s Day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Brief but colorful

My body just would not let me sleep last night. I got maybe three hours if I was lucky. Work went really well. I was surprised at how much I remembered from working in the deli last (which was a few months ago). So go me!

I’m not looking forward to today. Just get it over with. No schedule yet for next week. I guess someone turned in some day off requests very late (like Friday morning late). I’m really hoping for Monday off, The sun is out so we will probably be busy today.

Not sure what is going on with either the laptop of the WordPress site right now. I’ll be typing along and everything just stops working. No key strokes are registered etc. Very annoying.

I did get some interesting last minute photos yesterday. After I got home Essie just was running up and down the fence barking like crazy. Well it turns out that it was a neighbor’s dog that had gotten loose and decided to come over for a visit. I got a few photos of him. The clouds last night were really cool so there are a lot of those. I will need to pick and chose since I still haven’t taken the time to clean out my old photos from here.

Sorry this is so short. I have a bunch of stuff to do before I head out to work today. I hope you like the photos! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Hunting Monsters

Well I survived. I did pretty well too. I had a very irate customer leave laughing so I guess I did the right thing. The closing thing went fairly smoothly. Matt gave a few pointers here and there but pretty much left me to my own devices and just stayed incase I had questions. I said he would do the same on Saturday (I am grateful as it will be a very long day (11am-8pm but longer for me since I have to close up the store). Sooooo there we are. I’m not sure how busy we will be Saturday. We weren’t too bad yesterday but we had our moments.

I asked for either Saturday or Sunday of next week off so I could spend time with Chris. I’ve worked the past two weekends and my one weekend day was our one day together. We’ll see what happens.

There is nothing on the web site about tonight’s meeting. I don’t know if it is a Zoom meeting or in person. The last one got cancelled because they did not have enough board members present. So after I finish this I will have to call the government office. I also need to call the vet to get medicine for the girls. Today is their heartworm and flea and tick medicine dose due date. I will probably stop by work to get the girls their meat for dinner as well.

It is dark but pleasant outside. I feel comfortable with the door open. The big question is do I do my running before or after Chris gets up? I can make good reasons for either. I guess it will depend on when the vet can have my medicine ready.

I feel guilty because I have not done my reading/critique on the novel I am beta reading because I have been working on my own novel. I am way behind for her. I sent her an email a few weeks ago apologizing for not having sent her a response yet and explained why. Is that a legit excuse?

Gah… I hear my neighbor across the street mowing. I need to think about mowing the backyard here soon. The front yard is a batch of unimpressive weeds. Short weeds at that. The back however is a receptacle for pounds of dog poop and is thriving. At the very least I need to get out the weed whacker and trim in the gardens. Hopefully the battery is still plugged in in the garage. I will have to check.

I took an after sunset photo when I got home last night. I only had my phone camera on me (I was taking trash out). I also took several of my patient pups last night. They didn’t eat until around 10pm (I didn’t get home until around 9:30pm and then had to cut up and cook the chicken for them). They both wanted to go right to bed but I needed to unwind so I found a werewolf documentary to watch. It was only an hour or so and it dealt with some local legends (we have the Dogman up here in Northern Michigan). They stayed out on the couch while I watched my program.

I suppose I should call the vet and then get my running done. Oh and call the government building to find out what is going on with tonight’s meeting. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Looking Within… A Little Too Deep

Stella is curled up behind me on the love seat. She has been my shadow since yesterday. Essie has curled up in the man cave. I shut the door to the bedroom while the girls were eating so Chris could get some sleep without them getting up and down from the bed. I don’t know what Stella’s issue was last night but she was in and out of bed til around 2:30am. She would get up and pace and then need to go outside every little while. I didn’t get much sleep. My back has found new and interesting ways to hurt as well.

I am trying not to think about work today. Me being anxious isn’t going to help anything. But I can feel the panic and anxiety building behind the wall I put up around it. I can also feel the little naysayers in my head starting to wake up too. On the plus side I have tomorrow off. I will have Matt there with me tonight working so if I have any problems or questions I will be ok. In theory. I still don’t know if I will walk into having keys and codes this afternoon or not. I ended up leaving a note to remind the store manager.

Yesterday was not a flop but it feels like it. I had such grand plans in my head but I didn’t get near the amount of things done that I had hoped. The flip side of that is I was able to relax for a few hours. Which is really what I needed. I was able to breath and I played with the dogs enough that they would nap for extended periods. I did get some research done on my novel but I didn’t get the amount of work done on my novel that I wanted to. I did get some photos taken but I didn’t do anything with all the photos I already have. I talked with Mom because I was worried about her. She usually sends me updates on how the house clean out is going. She’s been doing pretty good with it. But I hadn’t heard anything in a while so I decided to call and check on her (even though I said I wasn’t going to call anyone). She was out and about so she called when she got home. Three hours later we hung up. I’m glad I called because she obviously needed to talk to someone. Then there is always the “but” in my head. It’s not like I would’ve done great things with my time if I wasn’t on the phone with her but my head always says “what if” and then goes from there. I was going through my Supernatural dvds and watching my favorite episodes when she called. Hardly earth shattering. Odds are I would’ve squeezed in a few more episodes before bed and that was it.

This morning I got a text from Dad and he’d not doing too good. He is getting more frustrated and scared with his condition. He can’t articulate the way he’s feeling physically or mentally. He is scared that early Alzheimer’s is setting in. I’ll tell you what freaks me out is that both my parents are going through the same thing. Mind you they are divorced and Mom wants nothing to do with Dad so I don’t really share any updates or anything. Neither really knows what the other is going through. But they do because they complain to me of the same things. Forgetting words or ideas mid-conversation, unable to focus especially for extended periods, unable to complete tasks because they forgot what they were doing or how to complete said task…. Some times it would be easy to forget which one I was talking to once they start voicing their concerns. It is scary.

I guess that is why yesterday feels so much like a failure. I had to face mortality and see that it didn’t matter what I did or said or wrote there was nothing I could do to stop it.

Well this isn’t where I had intended to go with the post this morning. I guess I had better wrap this up and either work on my novel or write to my pen pal. Which reminds me I need to get post card stamps on the way to work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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My Happy Place

My day off! Yesssss! It will be hard to do anything other than read and write today. I got my research books (although I am angry with UPS as it was raining out and they left the boxes out in the rain so some of the books got some water damage) and I got a letter from my pen pal. Giggity! I almost skipped this but it is a serious part of my writing routine and I can’t.

I want to give a shout out and a thank you to tanyafyfe for sending me a message yesterday to let me know that the rock eating dog Ike is still with us. He has been adopted yet again by a third person who has paid for his surgery (again). I hope Ike stops eating rocks. He is a very lucky boy to have all these people willing to help him. (Go check out her blog http://tanyafyfe.com/)

Despite the cold Nature is pushing forward with Spring. Things are greener and fuller each day. It has been raining on and off for several days now so there has been a lot of growth.

After a miserable physical therapy appointment (my therapist has not given up per say but is at a loss as to what to do to help so we are just going to do the allotted amount so I can qualify to get the MRI done on my back to see what is going on) I came home and no one knew. I was home almost two hours when Chris and the girls got up. I was surprised that I was able to stay so quiet.

Even though I really need to work on my photography I need to work on my writing. I have been slacking on my beta novel reading again. So I will probably do another three chapters today. I am very excited about the research books I got! I managed to find just what I needed this round. And yes the photo does show a book teaching Norwegian. I am familiar with Italian (and I have language reference books because it is a language I hope to learn) but not so much with Norwegian. Since I am using both countries in my novel (yes it is getting bigger) I figured I should be familiar with the language (I plan to use brief bits of each countries language… yes I will translate). And since I have Norwegian blood in me…. why not!

Off I go to work on my novel and get my letter written to my pen pal (I still haven’t heard anything from my British one so I will assume after a few months that she is not interested in having me as a pen pal. Ah well. Thanks for reading and all the supportive comments! You folks rock! Stay safe!

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Putting It All Together

Such a day! The first part of my shift didn’t go all that well but it got better as it went along. When I got home I had the new issue of Rue Morgue waiting for me as well as my box of lotions from Bath & Body Works. Yay! I was also able to spend some quality time with the family. It has been a bit since we all spent more than a few minutes together. So the day ended on a good note. A coconut scented one too. I got a nice long shower in and I used one of my new lotions.

I have to make a special effort to remember what day it is. My schedule is all over the place since I took the promotion. I am a bit frustrated as I still have yet to get my keys and codes. If they are only going to train me for two days before letting me off on my own then I need to have all my equipment. I believe Wednesday and Saturday are my two nights I am manager this week. I also have to remember that I have a physical therapy appointment tomorrow morning. I set an alarm. With the way the days are blurring together I am worried about forgetting something. I made my car payment today as well. Before I forget that.

I am hoping that my day off Tuesday (I have a meeting that night to cover) will allow me to get my headspace cleared up. It feels like everything is rushing through changes and I am fighting to keep up. My big concern is the manager training. I don’t feel two days is enough before throwing me in the deep end. I talked to Matt (who is training me) and he has offered to stay with me one of the nights after close. I told him that I wanted to make myself a check list so that I had something to follow. I think that will be a big help having some thing to reference instead of trying to remember something I have only done twice.

I got a few photos taken yesterday. I found a rogue tulip in one of my gardens that has a big bud on it. I am excited to see what color it is! Hopefully the temperatures stay decent enough that it doesn’t die before it blooms. I also found a third type of daffodil in the garden! It has smaller flowers and blooms in clusters of three or so. Very delicate yellow color. I took some photos with both the Nikon and the cell phone camera of the sunset colors. There are almost no colors in the photos from the Nikon. Yet my phone camera can capture the colors. (Neither seems to capture the purples and blues for some reason.) I am still trying to work out that mystery.

Tomorrow’s blog should be at a regular early morning time since I have a physical therapy appointment. I’m still not sure about the rest of the week. I close all week but hopefully I can get myself to bed before 1am. I hope. Poor Essie. She can’t find a comfortable place to lay because she hurts (too much frisbee the past few days). You can see it’s her back legs and hips that are giving her trouble when she walks. Damn it. When I call to get their medicine tomorrow I will see if I can get her some pain medicine.

Ok, I am going to stop blathering on. Lol. Thanks for reading and thanks for the awesome comments as well as the support! Stay safe!

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Adulting Is Hard

I feel like I am underneath a brick wall right now. I didn’t get home until almost 10pm last night. Despite having done pretty much everything on Wednesday night I had a hard time remembering what needed to be done and in what order last night. Matt was very patient with me. It helps that our brains work the same way so he was able to help more than others could. Next week I am on my own. I won’t have a co-manager with me. I will have another manager working as cashier or at the gas counter but I am the lone wolf next week. Yay. I still don’t have my keys nor my codes. If I get them today I will feel a bit better about things. As it is I still haven’t been able to do everything because I don’t have my codes. We will see today when I get there.

I didn’t get to bed until late again. Getting home so late is hard because my brain won’t let me sleep for a few hours after I get home. Sooooo I’m gonna be lacking in the sleep department again for a bit. Essie and I still try to get up at 8am (that didn’t happen today mind you) because that is my quiet time to get my writing done. This is going to be difficult if I’m not get to bed until late. But I need to keep trying.

Today is International Female Ride Day. Besides how I feel it is supposed to rain. So my ride today will be a bust. I am disappointed. I had hoped to pull out Rogue (my motorcycle) and atleast shake some dust off my riding skills. Yesterday it was just going to be overcast. As of this morning it will be rain. But it might be a blessing in disguise. My head it just not in it with everything going on at work. And not sure about parking either. With construction going on with the building expansion employee parking has been squished into the main lot. No one wants to park near the entrance due to the craziness of many of the drivers. And I am not sure there would be a safe spot to park Rogue. So maybe that is ok. I can’t spend my whole shift worrying about whether or not some idiot has backed over my bike.

I got a load of laundry done and dishes caught up when I got home last night. So I feel good about that. The girls and I played a bit so they were a bit tired out when we went to bed. Although they we not happy with me leaving the light on for so long.

Monday I have physical therapy early and then I work that night. Such a joy that will be! But I do have Tuesday off so I can hopefully stay home and work on my writing. A bunch of my research books are due to arrive Monday. I am looking forward to that!

I went through my backlog of emails this morning as well. I deleted A LOT. I had things from two and three years ago. I kept some stuff like birthday wishes from various sources but I got rid of a couple hundred emails. Yay!

I should wrap this up. I need to delete some of my old photos from when I first started this blog as I am running out of space to upload my new photos. So there may be a few posts without photos in the near future. Hopefully not but we’ll see. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Making A Way Forward

Have you ever gotten so much accomplished on your day off that you are exhausted the next day? That is me. I got work done on my novel, I got caught up on the chapters I am going over as a beta reader, I talked to both my parents, I did some housework and I finally caught up on the Supernatural series. The last one was hard. 15 years I have watched the series and it has come to an end.

The girls and I went to bed at a decent time but I still feel like I didn’t get enough sleep. I still have to go get groceries before I work this afternoon. I work at 1pm but I wanted to get groceries before since it is a fairly big list this week. Then I can come home and shower and head back out for work.

Essie has been coming out to get love from me every few minutes. I’m not sure why. Stella went right back into bed after she ate. I found two accidents in the hall. It was raining when we went to bed so even though I got both girls to go outside there is no guarantee that they went potty. I’m pretty sure it was Stella that had the accidents.

I keep watching all the birds go by outside. The sky is blue and the sun is out (for once). The grass is a lush green. I’m going to have to mow the yard soon. I know the battery is charged so that will make it easy. I need to check the bird feeder again today since it has been so busy the past few days. I also need to check my plants. When I did the other day no one seemed to need any water but it gets so dry in the house that I try to check them every few days.

The wind has really picked up outside. Must be why my mind feels so restless. It can focus but when it get s windy like this it just feels like it is pacing in a cage. I did get a few photos taken yesterday. Some of them turned out pretty good. I still need to sit down with my photography site and figure out what I want to do with it. All I have done it add photos here and there and occasionally share the link. If I am going to be serious about selling my photos I need to do a bit more than that. So some thing for my next day off. If I try it today then I will not have time to get groceries or get other things done before work. So on the check list for later.

Speaking of which I do need to get this wrapped up if I am going to get everything done. Oh please little bird don’t try to come in the house…. there is a small birch hanging around just outside the sliding glass door. Some times they try to come inside when the door is open. Ok, the little one flew off. So I will download some photos and get this posted. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Feeling Good

The first night of training is under my belt. It lasted about an hour and a half longer than if I was just on the floor but that’s ok. I did learn a lot. I just have to retain it. I have today off then I got at it again on Friday. On of my coworkers was so funny. He’s maybe 16 or 17 years old and kept going on about how I was growing up so fast when he learned that I was doing the training. He’s just a sweet nut! Lol.

I did manage to eek in my Morning Pages yesterday. That is also one of the reasons I was up so late. Between me and Stella getting up several times to go outside I think we got to bed around 2:30-3am. Essie was up and ready to go at 8am. So here we are. I am glad I have to day off. I plan to work on my novel as well as take notes on the book I am beta reader for. I am behind a few days so I need to reread atleast three chapters today. I also need to see if Dad will Facetime. He is having a very hard time of it lately. He is scared that it is an onset of Alzheimer’s. Living alone with no real contact with the outside (he lives in Montreal and they are under quarantine) is also a contributing factor. But it happened to his mother and he has been terrified of it ever since. And getting a response from his doctor is near impossible. So I will try to help if he can deal with the physical pain (he has arthritis in his neck and back as well as fused discs for starters). We’ll see.

I remembered to put in my events that I had for next week even though I got my physical therapy time wrong. I wrote 8:15am instead of 8:45am. I had forgotten to grab my note paper when I left for work so I was winging it. So I hope the schedule for next week is ok. I am paranoid that I got my days or times wrong. Which I did but not too bad. My brain is still worrying on it though. Unfixable mistakes is what the brain is worried about.

I am going to (hopefully) share a short video clip with you. We have the two ponds in the backyard. This year we have two peepers that are living there. Right now they are in the big pond but I have heard them in the smaller one as well. Last night I was able to record them singing together. I hope the clip posts!

I didn’t get any photos before work so I don’t really have much new to share. I did get a cute picture of Essie with my phone. I was shocked that she actually posed for the phone photo. she normally won’t look at the camera if she knows that I am using the phone camera. I will make it a point to get some new photos today. I do need to download photos onto my laptop both off my phone and camera. My phone has over 11,000 photos. Holy crap! And yes most of them are dogs photos. Don’t judge. Lol.

I’d better wrap this up so I can get it posted. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Treating Myself

It has been a busy morning after a rather sleepless night. Last night was filled with late night Stella barkings and early morning storms so I didn’t get much sleep. We had rumbles of thunder all afternoon and early evening yesterday. But it really hit last night in the wee hours. With Moose gone both girls pant and shake during a storm.

I woke to find several messages (that I still need to reply to) from friends and I have written the article for last night’s meeting and sent it in. The skies are grey and the weather is cool. I am glad that I filled the bird feeder yesterday. It has been busy this morning with a multitude of feathered friends!

We went to Moose and Stella’s for lunch. I had a Moose burger that was called the Bad Boy. Yes I cried (several times) and the burger was delicious.

Yesterday was actually pretty fun. I did get all my running done (except for going to Bath and Body Works, I caved and ordered online after I came home) and arrived at lunch on time. My friend was in bad shape worried that her cancer may have come back. She had two doctors appointments that afternoon. But we sat and talked for a long time over lunch (I was concerned because she hardly ate anything despite being hungry). As we were getting ready to leave she asked if I wanted to go to a resale shop. Well yaaaa! Lol. So off we go! A pile of books and a trinket box later we part ways with the promise to make this a regular thing. We are heading to a used bookstore in Interlochen for our next adventure.

The trinket box is in the right top corner

I got a lot accomplished once I got home too. I got things ordered that I needed or wanted to as well as finally getting the printer hooked up to the new laptop. That last part took some doing. I had two plugs that were supposed to go into the laptop but I did not have the right sized port for on of them. I was pretty sure that I could do the wi-fi thing with it and not have to plug it in to the laptop but Mom didn’t give me any paperwork so I had to wing it via menus and my install wizard on the laptop. But it works! And I think that Chris can use it from his office as well. We haven’t tested that yet.

I also treated myself to several things. I got a pair of very fun shoes (I usually don’t do much in the way of clothing or shoes I just wear the same stuff til it wears out) that are really comfortable. I’ll wear them to work today (my first day as a manager on the floor). I also ordered some research books for the novel and a bikini. Now that last item might not seem like a big deal. I live in my bikinis during the warmer months. A few years ago I found a place that makes bikinis that fit everyone, not just the tiny models. It is called Fused. I have wanted to try one for a long time. I belong to their group online and it is a very warm and supportive community of women. This is my dream bikini. I hope. I opted for a surprise bottom piece. But I am very excited! I also treated myself to my coconut scented lotions from Bath and Body Works. When I worked at Younker’s one of their stores was just outside our front door so I could get them when I ran out. Sadly I have been out for probably a year or longer. But I couldn’t justify spending the money on myself. So I splurged on myself yesterday.

I will share pictures of everything as it comes in. I should wrap this up before it gets much longer. I hope you all have an awesome day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!