Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Things Are a Little Brighter

This morning has been busy already. I have emailed with Dad (he is home and there was a doctor there that actually paid attention to what Dad needed namely help with his physical pain because that was accelerating his depression). So Dad is on a new regiment that includes pain therapy. We are both very excited about this. Then I answered an email from my Aunt in Florida. But before all that I got my article written for the paper. It was a blessedly short meeting last night so I covered it even though my editor told me not to worry about it. The one I missed however might stay missed. I still have my classwork to do this morning before Chris gets up as well as meeting Mom at 1pm and then Facetiming with Dad this afternoon. I also need to make treats for the kids.

I left the plants outside last night but when I let Stella out a few times last night I was worried that it had been a bad idea. Everything seems to be ok this morning but I need to check everyone to make sure. We have beans too! I am so excited as I have never grown beans before. I will share photos. I am worried that the cold nights have affected the new goodies growing. I think that is what happened to the green pepper buds that I had going. It got too cold and they just fell off. I am happy to say that I have more buds growing in the memorial garden.

The sun is out but the wind is strong. I might need to see about propping some plants up. It is supposed to be nice and warm today so I plan on doing my usual shorts and a tank top. I do have a cool sweater that I want to try out but I can wait.

That is about all the news from here right now. I’d better refresh the coffee and get to watching my videos for class. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

Emotions, family, Life, Photography, Writing

Wide Eyed But Not Bushy Tailed

I have essentially been awake since 1:30am. I woke up with a panic attack and could not get back to sleep. I napped for maybe 15 minute increments only to wake to look at the clock and check the time. And so begins another fun filled day.

Dad will be evaluated later today and either sent home or kept up to two weeks. Dad said he would text me (he has his phone with him) and let me know. I left work last night around 6:20pm. I was working on not coming completely apart so I was given the option of going home. It was slow and I needed to get away from needy people.

I hope my mind is functional enough for the meeting tonight. I also need to listen to the recording of one that I missed this afternoon. Hopefully it was an hour meeting. We’ll see. I tried to listen last night but I just couldn’t focus. So I will have to do it this afternoon.

I took some more photos yesterday. Another (or the same) butterfly feeding on the butterfly bush in the afternoon sun. I also took some of a maple tree across the street that is changing color on a daily basis. I will try to share all those on this post. (Nuts… camera battery is low so we’ll see how many I am able to download.)

Tomorrow morning I will get up and hopefully get both article written then tomorrow afternoon I am meeting Mom for a little bit. It’s been over a month since we’ve seen each other. We are going to meet at McDonald’s and do lunch. It should be a fun time. Wonder if we’ll eat inside or in one of our vehicles. Speaking of vehicles I had planned on riding Rogue in but not with this little sleep. That is very frustrating. On the flip side I get to wear shorts to work again.

It looks like I will get most if not all of my photos downloaded before the camera battery dies. I will have to plug that in before I leave this morning. Oooo… I just remembered I need to watch my class videos tomorrow as well. That way I can get my paper written my next day off and turned in. I got all the photos I selected downloaded so I will share them here and then get ready to go to work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Gardening, Life, Nature, Reading, Thinking, Writing

A Quick Check In

It is cool and raining her this morning. I want to still be in bed asleep but apparently the power blipped out at one point because Essie came and got me directly. So we are up. Or rather I am. The kids are all asleep in the living room. I am tired and sore from all the yard work I did. The weather makes me want to curl up with a book but I still have stuff that I need to get done. Like an article and my classwork. I desperately don’t want to do either.

My mind is blank this morning. I sit here and look around the room and listen to the rain not thinking about anything. I find myself drifting around mentally. And noticing that I have a headache coming on. I think it is due to the weather. Yesterday was beautiful. I am glad that I was able to be outside.

I suppose that I should try to get the writing done. This will be a very short blog entry for today. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Books, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, History, Life, Love, Photography, Reading, the World, Thinking, Writing

A Day For Me

The sun is out in earnest this morning. And it will have a time of it warming things up. It was almost cold enough for frost this morning. That being said it is supposed to warm up quite a bit for the next few days so I may uncover the plants in the memorial garden and pull out the ones I brought in. I am hoping the nights stay as warm as they say or warmer. I don’t want to bring them all in and out everyday.

Today is 9/11. It feels like a somber day for those of us that were alive when the 9/11 bombings happened here in the U.S. It seems as though we have gone from outside enemies to inside enemies since then. With no end in sight. I had to unfollow a fellow blogger this morning because of the posts they were writing. They were getting angrier and angrier. Anyone that did not do and think as that person did would incur the wrath of God because that person was right. I don’t need to see that on my feed. That type of thinking is part of the problem. It certainly is NOT part of the solution.

It feels weird not watching the clock to see how much time I have before I need to get ready to go. A good weird. I got a bunch of stuff done last night after I got home so that will be less I have to do today. I do need to see if I can get the mower going today. If not I may ask for help from our neighbors across the street.

I feel like I want to work on my writing today. I got inspired by a documentary on Amazon last night about the controversial Scary Stories to Tell In the Dark. I had all three books as well as the on based on the movie (thanks Mom!). I really love the art and the content. For those who have never read the books they are a collection of scary stories and folktales from all over. This type of book is what got my love for horror started. Just sitting around telling stories to each other in the dark (or with just a flashlight). I still have my first collection that I convinced my parents to buy me (they were still married so I had to be in the single digits with my age). It was at the local bookstore in Ferndale, Michigan called “Paperback Books Unlimited.” This place was a staple of my childhood. I snuck a peek at my first Fangoria Magazine there as well. My parents tried to take me there as often as they could. I just dug the book out of my shelves. It was printed in 1973 so I had to be around 5 or 6 years old. Some Things Strange and Sinister edited by Joan Kahn is the book.

I have always loved short stories because they are small bites that you can snack on if you aren’t in the mood for a full novel (or don’t have the time). It has been a long time since I last wrote a short story. The last one I sent out into the world was college and was a runner up in a contest. They were only going to print the winners but they liked mine so much they made and exception. I still have the copy of the magazine. I have a few done that I need to polish and get out there. But, again, I need to get myself a copy of WordPerfect. Everything is digital now. Very few places will accept hard copy sent through the mail. So I need a reliable program that I can edit and send my work on. That may be something I save up for. I need to make sure bills get paid and Moose has a vet appointment coming up.

Ok, I see that I have talked quite a bit. I will wrap this up and share a few photos. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

One More Day

I just need to make it through my shift today. When I got home last night I got the kids fed, laundry done and showered. But this morning I am struggling to stay awake. Moose is back to not eating his breakfast. I also notice that Essie is eating less of hers. I am constantly finding Stella finishing it for her.

Stella is in the office with me while Moose keeps going in and out. He doesn’t look like he feels good. Poor babe. I am anxious about getting his bloodwork done to see what his kidney disease is doing. I have noticed some of the symptoms that I was warned about.

I honestly don’t know what to write about. I am tempted to work on one of the books or a short story. Something out of the now. Right now I have nothing to write about outside of my imagination since all I have been doing is work with a short stint at home between shifts. I am hoping to get the Jeep in soon to get fixed. I still haven’t heard anything though. I messaged our mechanic the other day. Usually he will get right back to me.

I will make an effort to take some photos to share over the next few days with the camera. I am excited to see what I can do once the Fall colors start (even though I am not looking forward to losing my Summer). Speaking of which the sun is actually out so I think I will take my coffee and go outside for a bit before work. The past few days have been cold, dark and rainy. When I get out of work it is almost dark now that the seasons are changing. I want to go enjoy the sun. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

The Wall

Making it through tonight and tomorrow are going to be harder than I thought. Last night I was atleast optimistic about only having two more days to go before my day off. But this morning… day six of seven is kicking my butt. I am mentally exhausted. Things are feeling overwhelming. I am closing in the deli so we’ll see what happens. I got out early last night but I was working at the registers by the end of my shift.

I got a new book yesterday in the mail for researching one of my writing projects. It is on learning how to surf. It will hopefully help me move forward in the book. I am stuck because I can’t describe a scene that involves surfing because I’ve never done it and only seen it on tv. My character is a novice surfer and I wanted to be able to describe her situation and sensations better. It looks like a good choice (I skimmed it last night before bed). I also received my new memory card for the camera so I can start taking photos again. I took a few last night that I will share. Essie was particularly enthusiastic about me using the camera to take her picture.

I got all my class videos watched before work yesterday so I will try to get the paper written Saturday or Sunday. We’ll see what happens. There is so much that needs to be done around here that I have put off due to work. Next week’s schedule comes out tomorrow so I am hoping for a reprieve since I have two meetings to cover as well.

I will download the few photos I took last night and sign off of here. I am just too tired to focus. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

dreams, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Nature, Thinking, Writing

Trying to Tap the Tapped Out

I should be at work right now but they needed someone to close tonight so here I am. I’m only working the deli until 3pm then I am at a register til close. It was nice night to have to get up in the dark but I will miss having the afternoon and evening free. Friday will be the new day to try to mow the yard etc. When I got home last night (afternoon really) I was just too exhausted. That being said I did get the plants covered and the moveable ones inside so that the temperature drop did not hurt them.

Since I don’t have to be to work until noon once I finish this the game plan is to watch my videos for class so I can get as much done as possible. Then Saturday I will write my paper. Monday and Tuesday I have meetings so I assume that he will give them to me off. It is what he has done thus far. We’ll see.

I am trying to stay focused. I am trying to remember the goals I have set for myself as well as what I need to do. Part of me feels bad because there are times that I don’t have much energy to spend on the family. Chris has been awesome about keeping the kids busy and keeping up with the everyday stuff while I have been working this 7 day stretch. But I get home from work and I am just tapped out. I don’t like that feeling. And I still have two more days after this.

It sounds like they really want me to work in the deli. A well as everywhere else. I am temped to say no but I think the plan is that when we start to slow down that I have some place else that I can work so that I don’t lose hours. We’ll see. There is a lot to learn there.

I have a new leave growing on my orchid. I am so happy! I think I need to add more dirt to the pot but I don’t think regular potting soil is an option. I need to find out what I need to do. She might need a bigger pot as well. I worry about the shock of going from one pot to another. I have lost many plants that way. I will add a picture of the new leave and wrap this up. A fresh cup of coffee and then off to study. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Thinking, Writing

I’m Sorry…?! What?

Things are going to be a bit crazy this week so I’m not sure how long the posts will be. When I got my work schedule for this upcoming week I find that I am working 7 days straight. My next day off will be next Friday. I was hoping for a day off during the week to get some things done but I will have to make due. Things will have to get done either before or after work. I’m not looking forward to any of this but things need to be done around here and I can’t shirk. Tomorrow is going to be the real tough one. I close tonight and I have to be at work by 7am tomorrow morning (I am finally training in the deli). I also have my paper for class due Monday morning. I can’t get up earlier than 6am and expect my brain to function. Not with everything going on. So I will either have to figure out what to do after work tonight or try to get it all down on paper and type it in tomorrow sometime.

Trying to keep a positive attitude with all this is a bit much. I get things under control and even more things are piled on my plate. Moose doesn’t seem to do well in the mornings. I think he doesn’t eat because he will get sick. This morning he was licking his chops but refused to eat. Not long after that he wandered outside (he looked like he wanted to be sick). That’s another thing. I need to make puppy treats but when? I guess try to tack it on to everything Monday (I’m going to try to mow and then do treats… talking to Dad will need to wait until Tuesday or later).

On a good note I did get to come home an hour early last night. We were over staffed (they thought we would be as busy as we were on Friday and we weren’t by a long shot) so they were sending people home. I am glad. It was an extra hour of daylight with the family.

As I am looking at the clock I might be able to get atleast part of my paper done and handed in if I give it a go now. So I will stop here. Thanks for all the support and for reading! Stay safe!

Animals, Dogs, family, Gardening, Nature, Thinking, Writing

Planning

No one wanted to get up this morning. We all slept long and hard last night. Yesterday at work was as intense as Black Friday at Younker’s. We had lines pretty much my whole shift. I came home exhausted. I did get to spend some time with the family though so that was good. Hopefully the schedule will be out today. We lost some people so he had to redo the schedule last minute.

I still need to finish writing my piece for class. I did get my article done yesterday for the paper. Classwork is due Monday. I don’t have any meetings nest week so I may use that to get ahead in class again. It will depend on my work schedule.

Today is one of those days that I just want to stay home and work in the yard. There is a lot that needs to be done, especially will Fall coming on. I replaced the battery into the mower. Hopefully she will fire up when needed now. The flower beds up front and on the side of the house need to be cleaned out. I also need to remove a bunch of saplings that I have let go for too long. At this point I might just cut them down and worry about digging them up later. I need to go through the backyard and clean up the branches that have fallen from the various trees before I mow. I got rid of a pretty big branch that came down in the winds when I got home last night.

I need to research more about the milkweed plant. Pretty much all of them have pods now. Can I cut them down safely? I think I can with the ones that have had all their leaves eaten by the caterpillars but I’m not sure about the rest. I let them go wild so that the Monarchs and other critters would have some place to eat and stay. But now it is the end of the season and it just looks messy with the plants standing naked of leaves and falling over. The butterfly bush is going strong. I am very happy about that as the other four have died over the years. That again came down to knowing when to cut them back for the season. I cut them back at the wrong time and it killed them. Again more research. I find if I don’t do it as soon as I find out what to do then I manage to forget which season it is to cut things back. It doesn’t help that some of the plants I have get cut back in the Fall while others it is the Spring. What I need is just a day to work in just the yard. I could get a lot of the stuff done over the course of the day. Again this will depend on my days off. I try to mow when Chris is not here because of his allergies so if I have a week day off I can work on everything else until Chris goes to work then mow the yard. If I time it right I should be able to do the front and back the same day. We’ll see.

I see I have gone on a bit. The kids are bugging me to go outside with them. The sun has come out and is warming things up. Which means probably another busy day at work. Atleast the time goes faster that way. But I need to wrap this up and spend some time outside. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Cooking/Baking, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Food, Learning, Life, Thinking, Writing

Trying New Things

Well this will be interesting… I guess the new template for the blog dropped today. Needless to say I have never taken the time to see what it’s all about since they told us about it back in June or so. So if this looks weird when I am done you know why. Lol.

Stella has been a bit of a pain since last night. After we went to bed every little while she would find something to bark at. She was constantly barking the hour that Chris got home. Then she was a mess when he came to bed smacking Moose and I with her tail. Ironically she is in my office with me right now sleeping at my feet. With her ball. Moose has gone back into the living room to sleep on the couch.

Yesterday’s work started with me freezing my butt off in the cooler to stock the grocery cases. Because no one thought to mention I should bring a jacket (I didn’t really find out that I was in grocery til that morning) I ended up buying one of the Torch Lake zip up hoodies (we mostly sell them for the tourists but I like it). Then I was courtesy counter the rest of my shift. This was the second day in a row there. The day before we had a call off. Annoyingly I am picking things up there so I am pretty good at it. So we’ll see how often I get put there.

I pause every once in a while to look at the “new tools” to the left on my screen for the blog. Hmmmm… it seems ok. It will take a little bit of hit and miss but I think that this might be a better version, once I learn where everything is. I thought that I might go back to the original editor on here but now that I am messing around I think I will keep the new one. I wonder what the phone app will look like. I usually write on my laptop then use my phone to add photos etc. I’ll let you know.

I am trying not to psych myself out. I have things to do but not an overwhelming amount. It involves a lot of phone calls as I tried to do the other stuff over the rest of the week. Last night I cleaned out the mouse cage instead of saving it for today. The only non phone things I have to do are get gas for the mower (please let it start!), grab my paycheck and deposit it (easy enough since I will get gas at work and deposit my check via my phone app) and make treats. Oh and I am making lasagna for dinner tonight. I have a meeting to cover at 7pm via Zoom so that will have to be taken into consideration as to how late we eat. But all in all not too much work. Mentally I still feel overwhelmed because I want a day of rest where I don’t do anything but hang out with the family at the house.

While Dad and I were talking last night I found out that I have actually put down roots here. Now that I am an active part of the local community (not driving all the way to Traverse City to work) I feel more connected. Even the short period of time that I have been at the grocery store I have my regulars. As a matter of fact I guess one of the guys went to management to make sure they did not overwhelm me by sticking me by myself in the gas window on my first days. He wanted to make sure I was going to stay and then asked me if I was staying. So it’s nice to be a part of that. If I need something I can usually find someone to help instead of freaking out trying to think if there is some place (usually expensive) in Traverse that I can get something or get something fixed. We really do have all we need here in tiny little Rapid City.

I usually look in the lower right of my screen for my word count to see how long I have been going on but that seems to have disappeared with the new editor on here. So I may have gone on a bit more than normal. Sorry about that! I’d better get going though. I need to work on my classwork and make my phone calls. Hopefully I can get all that and make treats before Chris gets up. I’ll probably take the kids to go get the gas and my paycheck as it is a bit chilly this morning and I’m sure they would like the break from staying at the house all the time. Sigh…. sorry. I see I am rambling on again. Lol. Everyone take care and thank you so much for reading!

Both photos are from yesterday morning as I headed to the Jeep to go to work.