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A Little Here And A Little There

Another day. It’s cloudy but the sun is filtering through. I am hoping the day at work goes fast like it did yesterday. I am just plain tired. Weekends are always hard for me. I usually close and on Sundays I am usually always manager. I get home late and stay up even later to spend time with the family. I don’t get much sleep because I have to get up at a relatively decent time to get everything done before I head back out. I am grateful that I only live about 5-10 minutes from work. If I was doing this and working in Traverse (especially this time of the year with all the tourists) I would barely be functioning.

We got our first batch of tomatoes from the plants the other day. They have been ripening about one a day. The average size is about the size of a tennis ball. They are very sweet! I am looking forward to more treats from our gardens this year. I am very excited to see how the pumpkins do. i need more dirt so I can plant some hot peppers (the seeds are a variety pack). I plan to do those in pots so I can keep them year round.

I got a lot done yesterday before work on my novel. It doesn’t look like much but I am pleased. This is gonna take a while at the current rate though. I am just too tired most days to even attempt working on it. But I want to keep going at it. I know we will slow down once summer is over (which sucks because I haven’t really been able to enjoy my favorite time of year and I have plenty of time during the season I am not very fond of) and I will have more free time.

I got a letter from one of my pen pals and I want to read it before I have to go to work. So I need to wrap this up. I will share some more photos from my little trip on Thursday. Have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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New Things, Old Feelings

Well I did it yesterday. After Chris got up I went to the art fair. I got some beautiful photos of the area. I had forgotten how much being by the water meant to me. As soon as I heard the waves on the sand I teared up. So much good has come when I am by water.

I also met some fabulous artists. The craftsmanship on so many of those pieces was AMAZING! It’s like when someone cooks something. You can feel the love and happiness put into the food. It is the same with the art. There were some there that had just as beautiful things but they felt different. So I got a few pieces from the ones that I liked. I wanted more believe me! I got business cards from each stall that I went to (one I didn’t have the funds to purchase her silver rings but there were a few rings that I really wanted) so I could either get more or just promote their stuff. All were very nice and explained about their art as well as the process.

As I said I took a ton of photos while I was there. Not of the event but of the area it took place. There were huge gnarly, wizened trees along the short cliff above the shoreline. There was the changing colors of the water as the depth below changed. There were the flowers (a magnificent red day lily that I found and now want). There was the ever changing shoreline as the waves rolled in. All this calmed and centered me. It made me happy.

I will share as many as I can over the coming days (there are a LOT of photos… I ran out the battery on my Nikon and took a bunch on my phone). Let me know what you think. I am excited because I now have some thing new to add to my photography web site! Thanks for reading and have a fab day! Stay safe!

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Possibilities

It has finally stopped raining and the temperature is going up. I don’t mind the storms (even if the girls do get spooked) but for me it’s all in the timing. In the wee hours of the morning just is not a good time for me. Everyone was falling asleep when the first rumbles started. It got louder and continued for a few hours. When Chris got home we were in bed with the light on. Now both are curled up asleep.

It is supposed to be cloudy all day but no more rain. We might venture outside. I forgot my meds yesterday for work. I meant to grab them on the way out the door but I forgot. Fortunately I was only working the gas window/ courtesy counter so I was out a decent time. It was still six hours after my designated time but there it is. I still need to take my morning dose.

I had a guy come in with some really cool jewelry yesterday. It turns out they are just down the road from work. I really haven’t traveled much down the road from work (Alden). I know there are a lot of cool places to shop and wander. I might go before (or after) Chris gets up. The craftsmanship on the jewelry was just gorgeous! I am worried about prices (and how much I might spend) but….

Sun?! Yay! It’s trying to shove it’s way through the clouds! I seriously think I might go out today. I think I might bring my camera with as well. I guess the bag too that way I can switch out lenses. I only seem to photograph around the house. I am going to wrap this up so I can take care of a few things before I head out for a bit. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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So Much

The sun is out and shining and I just want to go back to sleep. Part medicine and part everything going on. (I just lost a few sentences and I have no Idea what happened.) I am hoping a shower helps. I am manager today so I need to be functional. I have tomorrow “off” but Essie has an appointment and I have a meeting that night. I also need to get the article written. Grrrrr…. It says that the meeting will also be via Zoom yet the paperwork distinctly says that there will be no link. WTF?! You can’t have it both ways people! Feeling like I do I would prefer the Zoom but I guess I am driving again.

I was going to try to come home early last night from work but it turned out that I was the closing cashier. I would get teary off and on. There is just some much going on. it sounds like Essie had a bit of a hard day yesterday. I noticed a few times after I got home that she would try to get up from sitting and just end up moving sideways and laying down because she couldn’t get up. It breaks my heart. So I guess we’ll see what we see on Monday. I am grateful that the vet will let me pay later. I think this will be an expensive visit. But Essie is worth it. They all have been.

I guess I should finish this and get in the shower so I can get ready for work. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Rolling with the Punches

Well it must be a work day. The sun is out. Sigh… Oh well. The plants will be happy. Normally I write my article before I write this but I can’t seem to wake up. Yesterday tapped me out. I don’t think the girls are too happy with me either. I didn’t spend much time at the house yesterday. I left a little after 1pm, came back a little after 4pm only to leave again around 6pm and get back around 9pm. Then I was awake until 2am.

I did get everything done that needed to be done. Including getting a floating appointment for Essie on Monday. I asked for pain meds for her. I am also contemplating x-rays. So the vet tech is going to our doctor and let me know what is what. Part of my problem is that everyone was chatty with me and I of course returned in kind. I was actually able to go into the vet’s office so I was catching up with the ladies there.

Lunch was the high point of the day. It was so good to see my friend! Our last lunch was the end of April. We decided to get together once a month. Well this was our second outing together. We both needed this little respite. We have been dealing with similar type problems. So it was nice to be able to complain and cry to someone that knew what it was all about. She and I both teared up several times during our talk. The food was AMAZING! I had another Moose burger (yes I was teary). This time I had the Firecracker. And it was goooooood! Fresh cut jalapeños with hot pepper jack cheese and a lovely spicy sauce….. sigh. My mouth is watering again! I also had a cappuccino while we chatted then a spiced chai latte when we left. Both were delicious! We sat at or usual table because it was one of those tall ones as neither of us could sit very well nor for very long. As it turned out she was equally stressed and tired from her medical travails. She had just had her 5th and final radiation session that morning.

I see by the clock that I need to get this done so I can get that article written. I hope you all have a great day! Thank you for all the support! As always thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Today’s Challenges

I went to sleep with a headache and woke up with one. I even had fun in my dreams which usually dispels any stress headaches. So is it the weather or just stubborn? I know I went to bed frustrated with my novel. Writing in general if I am honest. I am not happy with myself or my work. Yesterday sparkled in front of me like a happy dream. A whole two days to do whatever I wanted. But I didn’t do that. Instead I did dishes, laundry, swept and washed the kitchen floor (I even scrubbed on my hands and knees…. yes stupid idea with my back but there we are), paid bills, set up appointments for today and played with the girls. No writing at all was in there. And when I did pull it all out I hit a mental wall. Now I have today off but it will pretty much be filled. I have appointments and running to do. (I’m not looking forward to the meeting tonight. The drive and I won’t be able to sit in the chairs with my tailbone.) I find myself feeling very glum.

Now I know that there will be spare moments. But I honestly think those spare moments will be spent trying to breathe. I just feel rushed and overwhelmed. Even when I’m not. Today will be busy but everything can fit and get done. Things might not be comfortable (I whine about going to the meeting but the driving that I have to do before that will be worse and I have no idea if I can sit when we go out for lunch this afternoon) but things will work out. But I still need time to breathe and not feel overwhelmed. And writing. I need to get back to that too. All I seem to do is this and my personal journal. There’s all the writing stuff that should/needs to be done for others. There is a lot that I just need to let go of. I missed the boat and need to move on. I still haven’t done anything for the editor of the local paper that offered to look at my writing for possible publication. (In my defense work has been hugely busy since she and I talked.) There is just so much…..

Today is another rain filled day. I had hoped to use my new swing (yes the same one I fell out of and broke my tailbone) but no joy. Both girls are asleep. Atleast the plants outside have gotten a good stead watering. I am training some of the beans to go up the tree they are planted under. The pumpkin seeds have taken off so I think we will have a bumper crop this fall. Good thing I know people with kids! (I got the big jack-o-lantern type of pumpkin seeds.)

I see that I have gone on at length. Thanks for listening… I will share some cool photos. One is of an Imperial moth that has been hanging out on our back door for the past day or so. He is as big as the palm of my hand! Beautiful too! I think the poor thing is trying to dry off (good luck in this weather!). I was tempted to move it say under the roof of the motorcycle pad but I didn’t want to do the wrong thing. So now I just try to be careful when I go in and out of the house.

See? There I go again. Chattering away… Ok so I am wrapping this up (I tell myself sternly). Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Fuzzy Focus

It’s early. Way too early for how late I went to bed. But my body and mind are used to staying up after I get home from work, not going right to bed. And it has been busy don our road too. Busier than normal.

My doctor’s appointment is at 9am. I want to go but I also really want to stay home and get some sleep. I made a physical list of things I want to talk to her about this time. I know that I will forget things when I am tired and just want to get things over with.

I want to keep going with my novel today. Even if it is just to take some more notes about the plot or various characters. I ought to start going through the recent batch of research books too. I am hoping that the girls will let me do my thing when I get home from the doctor. That is also assuming that I don’t just curl up on the couch and sleep.

I was reading over the notes I took about the book I am reviewing for a friend. I think I will just write it as it is. So that is some thing I can do and then it will be off my plate. One less thing to beat myself up about. I think I will also make a master list (if you will) of what I need to be doing. Not just things like bills but also working on my novel, research, writing for various people etc.

I’m sorry this is so short. I am fighting to keep my eyes open. That means I need a way to wake up so I can drive to my appointment. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Big Step

Today may be the big day. After I am finished with this I am going to clean out the Jeep. Chris is going to follow me into Traverse incase something happens with my engine and I have two vehicles to look at. Hopefully I can get things done in one.

I am being vague about everything because I need this car shopping to be over. I need that issue off my plate so that I can concentrate on other things. So wherever you are please have a good thought for us today. I have looked around and consulted with both Chris and our mechanic on my choices and been given the thumbs up. So….

If all goes well then I will stop by Mom’s for a little bit. We’ve not seen each other for a while. I can see her two pups as well. Depending on when I get home I may call Dad on Facetime. We’ll see. And I might take the kids for a ride. See what they think of the new vehicle.

Despite getting sleep my eyes are sore and I have a constant ache just behind my left ear going from the top of my head down. I’m not sure if it is from wearing masks or not. I notice that it seems to flare up when I have a mask on.

The sun is out so that is a good sign. Despite getting up early I feel like I’m behind. I should wrap this up and get the car cleaned out. Everything will just go in a trash bag for now. I forgot to grab a box from work. It shouldn’t take long but I am becoming antsy. I need to get Chris up in a little over two hours. I think I will let the kids out in the yard while I clean out the Jeep. We’ll see. Sorry this is all over the place. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Tell Sleep I Miss It…

I am so overwhelmingly tired right now.  Pretty sure I didn’t fall asleep before 2am.  Essie wanted to get up around 8am.  But of course I was awake and trying to go back to sleep since 6am again.  Moose was all about staying in bed.  Every time I tried to get up he draped his head across me to keep me laying down.

Chris and I did a little road trip and acquired two used AC units for the house.  One is still in the bed of the truck (I told Chris he can put it in his office as I prefer to keep my window open in mine) but the other is in the bedroom.  With the fan going it cools the room right down.  We need to lengthen the felt cover that is over the window.  Even with the blinds down it gets bright in there when the sun is out.

I got my latest reading material in the mail yesterday.  The debut novel The Bright Lands by John Fram.  It’s a mystery set in a small Texas town.  It reminds me of Christopher Rice and some of his early novels so I thought why not.  Even though I am still reading the other book I am going to start this one.

I got another box from Amazon yesterday.  Amazon UK to be exact.  It contained a 3-in-1 nail gun (it does nails, staples and little U shaped thingys) as well as cardboard letters.  What is this for? you might ask.  I know I did because I never ordered it.  I got ahold of someone from Amazon once we had gotten settled in (we were gone most of the day so the kids needed to be fed dinner, groceries needed to be unloaded and put away and the AC units switched out).  I was told that I could keep it. So I have a new tool in my arsenal.

I can’t keep my eyes open.  I’m going to wrap this up and then curl up with the book outside.  Thanks for reading!  I hope you have a great day!  Stay safe!

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The Realities

We awoke to ice bits hitting the windows this morning.  Winter is being a stinker!  Happy St. Patrick’s Day!  Not much celebrating will be done this year as all the restaurants and bars (along with gyms and such) have been closed by our governor.  Only thing available with them will be take out.  That being said apparently there is a special unemployment thing for those that get laid off because of all this.  And I think that is a good idea.  So many people are living paycheck to paycheck.  We’ll see how all that works.  So far we are both still employed.

I am having a hell of a time finding any motivation in all this.  I have time, I have energy but I don’t have the motivation.  There is nothing making me want to work on my writing.  And if I can get myself to finally face it I have no idea what to do with it.  No idea where my story is going… and the reviews should be fairly easy to write but no.  The words don’t seem to want to come for any of it.  So I just sit and stare at my notebook with pen in hand.  It is very annoying.  I am going to pull out some of my writing books that have exercises in them and try a few of those.  Something has got to give.

The world is a scary place right now.  Dad is in Montreal and if something should happen to him I won’t be able to get there if they close the border between the U.S. and Canada.  I know he’s not doing well.  His arthritis in his neck (it is actually all through his neck and back) is getting really bad.  He has problems holding his head up because of the pain.  But his doctor says there is nothing they can do to stop the pain.  I know he has had nerve endings cauterized in his back from the pain there.  He has problems sitting for any amount of time now so he spends most of his days either in his recliner or on the couch trying to get comfortable.  He will go days without contacting me because it hurts to sit at his computer (and that is saying something… he has been a computer programmer his whole life and has never been without a computer it seems).  So I don’t know.  I see his health getting worse and nothing can be done to help him.

It looks as though the sun is coming out and the clouds are disappearing.  Something good this morning.  Maybe it will warm up too.  Thanks for reading!  I hope you have a great day!