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Another Gone

I woke to the news that my Aunt is gone. I am glad she is fiBally at peace. I honestly want to just back sleep for a few hours. And I could. All I’d have to do is message the closing manager. But I’m not going to make her work an open to close. I will however ask her to come in early.

I am glad I have the next two days off. I will probably just tell everyone that I will be out of touch for awhile. I tend to just be alone at times like this.

I am looking at the clock and wondering about going in now. I just don’t want to be around people. They try to help but I am one of those that seems to grow thorns to keep everyone at a distance. But I don’t have enough work to keep me busy for that long and I refuse to just sit around. I might go in a bit earlier. I don’t want to have to explain things to the deli (on Sundays they come in with me).

Whelp, that is all I have right now. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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A Hard Hit

Once again January is proving to be incompatible with me. I got messaged last night that one of my Aunts is in ICU. She is not expected to make it. She is one of my favorites so this is hard. I did not sleep well.

Yesterday was either off or on at work. I did not do much due to my anxiety issues. We had more strangers there from the new company. It sounds like a lot of changes are coming down the pipe. Rumor has it March. No one is going to know where things are. Everyone is a bit uncomfortable with this but what can you do.

I did get the newsletter finalized and sent to the store owner. It wasn’t exact as I was missing some of my pages but I improvised. It took a lot longer as well. Not only did I have to replicate the font (style and size) but I had to fit in photos. And the photos did not behave the way I needed them to. It’s not my best effort (it didn’t help that I had just found out about my Aunt) but not bad considering.

I hope to get through as much of today as I can. Chris is working and working early so I will miss seeing him until he gets home tonight. Even then I might be asleep since I have to be up at 4am. If something happens to my Aunt I will make arrangements to come home. I am still sick and cannot deal with that and grieving.

Archie has been beside me as much as he can. If he’s not there Stella is. So we’ll see. We’ll see. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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From the Trenches

Yesterday was hard. I was tempted to come home several times. But I stuck it out. Work was busy in that we have a store reset going on as well as several delivery trucks coming in. Oh and they are working on building the new smokehouse as well. The frustrating part is that there was no parking for us employees. The builders and people that work for Spartan took up all our parking.

I’m not sure how today will be. I think the reset is done but since I went out the front door I have no idea on the progress of the smokehouse. Since it is Friday it could be busy or it could be slow. Normally we would be going into our slow time but…

I am struggling to stay awake. I kept waking up. I have essentially been awake since around 4 or 5am. One of those you peer at the clock every little while to see how much more “sleep” you can get. I just want to curl up back in bed with the family.

Anxiety was a fun added spice this morning. I have nothing to be anxious about yet here I am. It didn’t help that something got Archie’s attention this morning. My quiet boy was looking toward the far kitchen window with a few woofs and growling. No idea what he saw.

I supposed I had better get to it. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Struggling Through

Aaaaaand here we are back at dark o’clock. Oof. Stella has gone back to bed. Archie came in first and was on the love seat. She didn’t want to fight for space. She stood and looked at me after looking at the bedroom and I told her to go ahead. I got a tail wag and heard her hop on the bed shortly after. Archie’s has been up and down on the love seat because he doesn’t like me being in my phone. He thinks the screen is too bright. Even on it’s lowest setting.

I’m not sure if I’m feeling better or worse. I just know I’m really tired and it hurts everything to cough even a little. Bah humbug.

I got everything I needed done yesterday. It was a near thing at times because it was hard to function. Despite this I was proclaimed the favorite manager of most of the staff last night.

Today I need to touch base with the store owner so I can get the newsletter printed. I have my photos to put in but I need whatever he is going to write in his section. So we’ll hope for the best.

I’d better get myself together to go in. Thanks for reading and stay safe.!

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Finding Forward

I stare at the flashing cursor and listen to the crows out front. I still need to water my plants. Trash also needs to get wheeled out to the road. Archie is enthusiastically chewing a bone. Stella is asleep on her back behind me, in a nest of blankets. The skies are dark. The snow is pretty much gone with the exception of a small pile here and there in the front yard. More rain is in the forecast.

I am feeling very blah at the moment. Tomorrow is the two year anniversary since I lost Moose. I did talk with my Uncle yesterday afternoon. It was a short conversation as he was at work but we exchanged a lot of information. I think he does want to reconnect with us but I am sure that Mom will not make the effort. So I guess it falls to me to be liaison. She does want to know things as she peppered me with questions. Atleast there is that.

I honestly didn’t do much other than watch tv yesterday. I worked on my novel a little after I got my blog posted. I was reading through one of my writing magazines and a few of the articles struck a note in the novel for me. So that was good.

I feel as though I should’ve gotten that dirt the other day on the way home. My violet is not a happy plant. But I am happy to say that my pineapple is doing well. It has been in dirt for a week or so now. I am very excited! So that gives me my banana tree, orange tree and pineapple that I am growing from scratch. Well, my pepper plants too since I started them from seed.

I am not looking forward to work but all I will do here is curl up on the couch and watch tv. I need to go in to work. I told myself that if I still felt bad tomorrow I would consider calling in. I just have too much to do today to call in. And since Thursday is an early shift I probably will not call in then either. We’ll see.

I guess I ought to wrap this up. I need to atleast water my plants before I go. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Family, New and Old

This morning is dark and gloomy. Again. I don’t remember the last time I saw the sun. We are supposed to get rain, freezing rain and maybe even a little snow. Yay. I know Archie won’t care but Stella will. Even living close to work I am not going to be a big fan if things get bad.

Archie made lots of new friends yesterday. He did very well in the car. He shook and whined a lot on the way there but he adapted well. He wasn’t at all sure about the vet’s office. Everyone just loved him though. It made me feel good when the vet told me that when she was giving Archie his exam she told him that he was a lucky dog because he would be set for his life with me as his Mom. He got plenty of treats and lots of love. After that we went to my work to get meat for them (I meant to get two days worth but I was busy talking to people and only got enough for yesterday). While we were there several people came out to meet Archie. He did very well. And of curse everyone loved him. I am very proud of him! Oh, the “little” boy weighs 84lbs at almost 7 months old.

I got a shocker phone call last night a little after 8:30pm. I did not recognize the phone number so I let it go to voicemail. It turned out to be my Uncle Chris (Mom’s brother). He was trying to get ahold of Mom. I am guessing it has something to do with things from Gramps estate. I won’t go into detail but things went south because of how things got handled as and after Gramps died. Mom and I no longer talk to Uncle Chris and his family, I am the only one who has been in touch with my other uncle and his wife in Floridia. Mom has cut herself off from everyone but me. I will probably call him once Chris gets up. I don’t want to talk to him but I also know if I just give him Mom’s number she won’t either. So I am going to try to get information to both. Mom will cut her nose off to spite her face. If this is even the slightest beneficial to her she will say no just because she doesn’t like Uncle Chris and his family. So I guess it’s up to me.

I am going to wrap this up. I’m not feeling any better. Worse if truth be told. It’s mostly from the neck up (I did manage to stay in bed all night but because I was sleeping at a weird angle my neck is all jacked). I am keeping up with the warm fluids. That atleast sooths my raw throat. I also have some water with orange rind, cinnamon and cloves simmering on the stove top. That seems to be helping. I don’t see me doing a whole lot today. Take care and thanks for reading!

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A Bit of Blah

Today is going to be a hard day. My whole neck hurts due to the fact that I had to come out to the living room and sleep sitting up in the love seat around 6:30am. I got to 5:30am in bed before I had to try to sleep sitting up. If I didn’t my throat would get a tickle and I would start coughing. My throat is sore and swollen. Sometimes it is hard to swallow. It’s like it is swelling shut sometimes. So I am trying to drink hot liquids. That helps.

Laundry got started yesterday. With Chris’s help I now only have one load to go. So once this is posted I will fold what is in the dryer and rung the last load through. I will stop for meat for the pups on the way home from the vet’s with Archie. I might stop for dirt. I have several plants that need to be repotted. But if I’m not going to do it I won’t pick the dirt up. I have no place to keep it unless I use it. (Even then I have too many potted plants in the house, lol.)

There isn’t much else to tell. I am extremely sore and tired. I would read but I would probably fall asleep. I will have to find something to keep myself occupied for a bit before we have to leave. It has been dark and dreary here. Not much in the way of things being photogenic. So I have been recycling older photos from years past. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Trying Again

Well here we are in 2023. Yesterday was crazy but fun at work. Inventory went well. I stayed up with Chris to ring in the new year. Barely. I kept falling asleep. But I promised myself that I would. The new year has dawned dark, wet and chilly. Not much above freezing but it looks warmer outside since the snow is melting. I have also awakened with a sore throat. I had planned to try to sleep in but I got a tickle in my throat that would not go away. I think the new year brought a bug from last year with it. Everyone at work has been getting sick (the joys of customers coughing on seemingly everything). I guess it’s my turn. Hopefully I can still function tomorrow. I have Archie’s vet appointment. I had to wait almost a month to get it so I can’t cancel. He needs his first round of shots and I want him microchipped. I also need to set up an appointment to get him fixed. I would prefer that done sooner rather than later.

And craziness at work. I have just spent the last 10 minutes trying to help them at work via text messages. Now Archie thinks I need to be done with this and spend the rest of my time with him. It is play time. But we need to stay quiet because Chris is still asleep.

When I got home from work yesterday Chris had made his famous potato soup. It is amazing as always. It should last us several days. I believe it was the first thing he made in his big cast iron pot. That will probably be my breakfast, lol.

2022 had one more surprise left for me. I found out last night that my former store manager from Younker’s died of a massive heart attack. We butted heads a lot but I still really liked her. I am glad she was able to fulfill her dream of retiring to Floridia. Her birthday would’ve been the 27th of December.

I’m sorry I’m not more bright and shiny for the new year. I’m hoping my three days off will help. I wish all of you the best 2023 you can have! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Almost There

I only have a few minutes before I need to get ready. It feels like I just got home. I did get my inventory done with the exception of the damages. I had two vendors nice enough to count their own stuff but they did not put any prices so I had to do it anyway (good thing I did since he put some of the beers together that were different prices).

I do get a three day weekend this weekend. I just need to make it through today. I will go in and do my liquor order and then crank through my damages. Hopefully the back won’t give out. It was a near thing yesterday. Too much heavy lifting and doing that lifting in cramped spaces.

I guess I’ll wrap this up. I still need to take photos for the newsletter for work and get that written up. I will try to remember to take the photos today. I have been hauling my camera back and forth for three days now. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Tail Chasing

Gah… who set an alarm for this early? I thought the kids would go to bed with Chris but both Stella and Archie have stayed up with me.

Yesterday went quickly despite a long shift. It was crazy busy at times. I had to rework my beer backstock because despite my notes asking for them to pay attention to where they put things they just shoved my delivery wherever. I have another delivery tomorrow of both beer and liquor so there isn’t really much I can precount, A hurry up and wait. I don’t want to save it til the last minute but the way things are scheduled I have to. And Friday is my short shift with no extra help. I’m not sure how all this is going to get done.

I talked to everyone about getting me stuff for the monthly newsletter as well. I think I will bring my camera and take a few photos today. If I remember I will take some of the beer cave. A lot of you have asked about it.

I gotta wrap this up and get ready to go. Wish me luck! Thanks for reading and stay safe!