Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Sorting Through

The sun is out today. That is a good start. Yesterday seemed to get more tangled as the day progressed. The inspector was late (over an hour) coming to the house and no one could find him or get ahold of him. The fixes that Chris did passed. Yay! But the stairs have to be redone. Wait…. what?! Why wasn’t this brought up before? So we are back to square one. On the plus side we won’t have to pay for any inspections (the gal that is at the office is very nice and easy to talk to). But…. Then I get home to find that the print I inadvertently ordered arrived. I was excited. The tube was the size for a regular poster. Then I opened the tube. The print inside was about 8×10. 8×10. Not at all what I expected. Or wanted. So I shot off a message to her on Messenger. I was as polite as possible but I was blunt. A few hours later (she lives in Hawaii) I got a response. She was apologizing and offered to send another print for free (oh and she had talked about it being very expensive to send things from Hawaii and she said she would cover the cost of shipping…. it was $5 to send the tube). I haven’t responded to her yet.

I am hoping that today goes a little smoother. The nearby gun shots are a bit much. They sound like they are next door rather than in the far back where everyone seems to normally shoot.

I put out some suet for the birds since the weather has turned to bitter cold. Someone was desperate to get to one of the cakes as the metal grill holding it to the bird feeder has been pried almost off. Racoon? I hope it wasn’t Stella. I think she is the only one that Chris let out after we went to bed. The suet cake on the other side is fine.

I think I might brave the cold and try to get a few photos today. I didn’t take any yesterday with everything going on. Looks like some of the birds have found the suet. I hear chirping outside my window and looked to see some little sparrows hanging around the feeder and eating the remaining berries off the bush.

Moose is asleep behind me. He doesn’t like the click of the mouse but he is ok with the clicking of the keys as I type. I need to get my article written and turned in for Thursday’s meeting. That is my only real to do today. I should water the plants too. I think some of them have dried out a bit with the furnace going. I’m looking around my office and wondering if I should take some of my stuffed animals and pose them outside. I have a teddy bear in a bomber jacket and leather hat that might look cute frolicking outside. Then there are all my dragons that I could pose…. and my unicorns. And I’d forgotten about all the Minions in the bedroom. That could be a fun scene. So may be that will a fun thing I do today. And I might try writing a short story from one of the prompts I found. We’ll see. I’m also looking at my desk and wondering if I would ever want to refinish it. It wouldn’t be hard. Dad and I refinished an old treadle sewing machine. We redid the wooden base that it sat in as well as the wooden case that went over the machine when it wasn’t in use. I miss sewing on that. I made all kinds of clothes for me and my stuffed animals. (I had very few dolls when I was little. I preferred animals even then.)

Anyway… I should get this posted so I can get things started around here. I hope everyone is having a great day. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Life, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Finding What Needs to Be Done

Another early morning. The kids have eaten and gone back to bed. Moose did not eat breakfast but he did take his medicine. A lot got done yesterday but not what I had hoped. I seem to have chosen keeping the house clean over my writing. I did journal quite a bit and I even had a few ideas on the story but no real work on the novel. But I did put pen to paper more than normal so that is a good sign.

Last night’s meeting was changed to tonight. Hopefully it will be a short one since I have to be to work early. We’ll see. It is a meeting that I have never covered before so I have no idea what to expect. The kids will be happy since this means I will be home. I know I will be.

Speaking of being happy… I have been talking with a lot of my creative friends (mostly on Facebook) and I am not the only one going through a bout of depression and problems creating. There are a lot of us out there who feel like we’ve hit a wall of some kind. That makes me feel a little better but it also makes me wonder what the cause is. There are too many for it to just be a coincidence. Something to ponder.

Since I need to wrap this up…. I took photos last night with both the Nikon and my phone camera so see the difference. I thought the results were interesting. Let me know what you think. I was surprised at the difference. The first group are from the Nikon and the second group are from the phone camera.

Sorry this is a short one. I hope everyone has great day. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Cloudy With A Chance of…. ???

This morning is cloud but comfortable. I still have a meeting to cover this morning but last night’s was cancelled. For that I am grateful. I was so very very tired. It was nice to get to get a decent night’s sleep (Stella started barking pretty much from 2am until Chris got home). Despite good sleep I have a headache that has been starting….. I just had to retype the last two sentences. As I was typing the next one I couldn’t figure out what the typo was. Then I really looked and two sentences had disappeared. ??? I hope that I am not getting a strong case of my murphyionic field kicking in (electronics and I do not really get along, I have crashed computers at various jobs as well as at home just by being in the room…. no joke). The registers at the courtesy counter and gas window were acting up yesterday. The main machine was adding things to orders that were not there without the benefit of me touching any buttons as well as freezing up. It is 2020 so this could add unwanted energy to this “power” so watch out! Lol

I did try to work on my novel at work yesterday morning. I got a few ideas down as well as some suggestions for myself (don’t try to write a linear story right now, just write scenes and piece them together later) but things got crazy at work so I stashed my little notebook. I just want to stay home today. Preferably to sleep to be honest but just to chill out. My head is starting to pound. I know part of it is the weather. We are supposed to get rain later today. Another part is probably stress. I’m not quite sure what to do.

I am also trying to rack my brain (creatively) to come up with new shots. If I am going to take photos in the same area I need to start getting a little more interesting with the shots. No more point and shoot kind of thing. The dogs will be for it. Whenever I pick up the camera the dogs are like “Sweeeet! we’re going outside!” So I need to start looking at things in new ways. I am glad that I have the two lenses to chose from. That makes things a little funner.

I see by the clock I need to start getting ready to go. I don’t have to be to work until 2pm so I am hoping that I can get the article written before work. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Racing, Tattoos, Thinking

Looking Ahead

This morning hasn’t dawned yet but it is raining. We could use the rain. I took the tarp off of the memorial garden. Not because of the beautiful weather we have been having but because the storm last Sunday pretty much killed it. The winds were strong enough to get beneath the tarp and freeze the plants. I am hoping that most of them will come back in the Spring. It will be a wait and see. The nice weather has thrown everyone off as bad as the time change. It feels like June out even though it is November.

I am still on the look out for a “new” car. I plan to sit down and do a serious search after work today. I need to find something soon. I need to get Moose in for his check up too. If I don’t have a replacement vehicle then I’ll have to borrow Chris’s truck. Moose needs another test run for his kidney disease. His kibble arrived on Saturday and his medicine should hopefully get here today. Then we should be set for another few weeks.

I am gaining new respect for the local tattoo artist who has a shop at the other end of our street. I am seeing more and more of his work and I am impressed. So I may look into getting some ink once things settle down around here. His prices seem reasonable as well. And the best part is you can get in right away. Not like the guys I’ve been going to where they are like 6 months out. So I may start culling my list of ink I want to get. I really want to get a paw print below my family tattoo. But then I also want to do a group tattoo with Chris and some friends (the idea is to get the protection tattoo from “Supernatural”). Maybe both if the price is reasonable. Maybe a reason to get Mom out here too. We can do a mother/daughter day at the tattoo shop! Lol

Before I wrap this up I just wanted to share a cool thing I found at work last night. We carry Matchbox cars and I happened to be looking through them and I found a Mercedes Benz that had been driven by the female touring car Grand Prix winner Ewy Rosqvist. Her quote on the back is “They said I could never finish. So I finished first.” Love it! So I think I am going to do a bit of research on her. If you know anything or have heard of her let me know! As always thanks for reading and stay safe!

Aging, Creativity, dreams, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Finding a Path

This morning I am frustrated with myself. I got nothing done that I was supposed to. I spent the day outside either puttering in the yard or on the phone with family. None of my writing got done or even looked at. I can’t seem to find a rhythm to it all. With all the lack of sleep it has been hard to get motivated. I think I was able to catch up on some of it last night and the night before. But tonight and tomorrow… I don’t think I’ll get that much. We’ll see.

I look around the room at everything and see my past. So much of it…. Are there still things I want to do? I’m not sure. I’ve tried things I wanted to do (scuba diving comes to mind) to find out that I can’t or don’t want to anymore. So now what? Where do I go from here? No idea.

There are a lot of clouds out this morning. I feel cloudy myself. I don’t know what the day will bring (a week ago it brought a snow storm) but I had better face it. If I stop now I might just have enough time to write the article before work. Sorry it has been a bit of a downer post. I will share some photos I took yesterday though. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Finding Down Time

The mornings have begun as most Fall mornings. Sun comes up and the weather is cool but comfortable. As the days progress we seem to go back to lovely summer weather. Bright sunshine, temperatures around 70F (21C) or higher by early afternoon. It has been amazing!

Being around people all day has me reverting to wanting to be alone in my time off. I feel bad because friends and family alike want to spend time together and I just want to be alone. Things might be different if I had more than one day off at a time. One day for myself and then the other to spend with family and friends. I should mention this at work.

Now that I can share my photos again I will be using my Nikon more. I try to get out every day and take a few photos. I haven’t ventured out of the house/yard with my camera yet. I’m not sure why. Well, part of it is that I am a homebody. I leave the house because I have to not because I want to. What would be fun is to have someone else drive so that I can take photos as we go. But again that requires me leaving the house lol.

NaNoWriMo is not going at all as planned. Too much is going on. I will make an effort today to get some words down. It would be easier if there was less going on in life but such is not the case. Last night was a family night. We watched comedy specials and had dinner. It felt good to laugh and it was nice to spend the time together.

I still need to write the article for Thursday’s meeting so I should probably wrap this up. Today is going to be another beautiful summery day! Yay! Stay safe and thanks for reading!

Animals, Creativity, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Thinking, Writing

Lickety Split

Yesterday I fell way short of my word count. I got some writing done before work but after work I was too anxious and could not concentrate. So much going on here lately. I did play a lot with the kids last night. That helped. I have a bunch of bug bites I am trying desperately not to scratch. Apparently the bugs did not all die on Sunday with the storm. Shame. Lol. The worst are the two black fly bites on my neck.

Our small frog is still living in our pond. Poor guy, I cleaned the leaves out of both ponds thinking that I was helping and I pulled him up from the depths. He just kind of looked at me like, “Really?” I did apologize to him.

I set an alarm for myself for tonight. I have a 7pm meeting and I am willing to be that I would forget otherwise. I also remembered to write a note about my three meetings next week. I just need to remember to put it in the office once I get to work today. I also need to remember to get groceries either today or tomorrow. I will check the list and if we can go til tomorrow (I get out at 2pm) I will do it then. I would like to see Chris since I haven’t really since Sunday.

It is about time for me to get ready to go. I’m not sure how short tomorrow’s post will be. Be safe and thanks for reading!

Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Life, the World, Thinking, Writing

Haaaa haaa haaa haaaaa haa haaa! Wipeout!

Today I am wiped out. Borderline to calling in. My body is in rebellion. Stress and pushing my way through are finally taking their toll. Yesterday’s adventure was going to test drive a Jeep Wrangler after a long busy day at work. The dogs were very understanding but I should’ve stayed home. But had I not gone I would’ve been anxious all night that I missed some opportunity. So there it is. Bottom line is I really want it but it is not a good fit for what I need right now. And later I will text the dealership and tell them that.

The election is still not over. Hopefully soon. Atleast the results portion. Then we can move on to the chaos of whoever loses vs whoever wins. The one positive from yesterday was that after sending a message to Coursea over my grade still not appearing and getting no response on the forums (as well as questioning whether or not they were milking the timeframe so they could charge me for another month that I would not use since the course would be completed) I recieved my grade and certificate. I passed (with flying colors) all of the creative writing courses. Yay! The next problem is I have until the 8th to make sure that my subscription does not carry over. Right now I can’t connect to the app store nor to the school to discontinue payments. Not sure why. I am connected to the internet on all my devices. So I will keep trying. I also need to do bills and order Moose both his medicine and more kibble.

I didn’t make my word count last night because I was just too tired. I did get close though so it shouldn’t be big deal to catch up. When we were slow at work (the first few hours) I pulled out my small notebook and wrote a bit so that helped. Won’t happen tonight though as I am working deli. And I have to be back at 7am the next morning. So the word count will be tight today. Some will probably carry through on to tomorrow’s.

I am going to wrap this up so I can try to get some writing done on the novel before work. Thanks for reading and thanks for all the comments. Stay safe!

Creativity, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, the World, Thinking, Writing

A Little Bit of Crazy

Yesterday was a crazy day. I don’t know how today will turn out. Yesterday was mostly anxiety attacks and randomly doing things to keep busy. This morning feels a little calmer. I went to bed very late but happy. Over the course of the day I managed to get my word count in for NaNoWriMo. I feel good about the story and could get into the flow with it. The last time I tried I had no idea what to write about. I gave up after the first week. This time I think I might be able to go all the way!

My cousin and his family are parked out in the front yard for the night. I don’t know if they will be there when I get home (I am up way early as I open at work) or not. Today is Chris’s birthday (happy birthday my Love) and I won’t see him at all. He plans to leave early so he can vote before work. I did my by mail a few months ago so now I just sit and wait.

I forgot that Trump was holding a rally in Traverse yesterday. I am glad I live out here because it was chaos from what I could tell. I happily stayed home with the dogs. I will be so glad when all this is over. Sadly it won’t be for a while. Whoever wins chaos will ensue. I don’t blame my cousin and his family for using this time to vacation (they live in Detroit).

Just about all the snow that stuck Sunday is gone. The rest of the week it is supposed to warm up to Spring temperatures (60F+ (15C+)). Welcome to northern Michigan weather! But I will take as much warm weather as we can get. I’m not ready for winter.

I had better get ready for work. Thanks for reading, thanks for caring and stay safe!

Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Life, Nature, Thinking, Writing

The Wonder of It All

We have internet and power but I’m not sure about the rest of our little town. All day we were hit by hard, cold winds and heavy (at times) snow. We only got a few inches but the combination of the two caused city wide power outages yesterday. My store was the only one open in Rapid City. All the others had lost power. Our power went off and on a few times wreaking havoc with the computers but we pulled through.

This morning has dawned cold and dark. I am upset because when I let the kids out this morning I saw that the winds had pulled the tarp mostly off of the memorial garden. I’m going to try to cover it back up but I fear the damage has already been done.

I am still dragging my feet about replacing the Jeep. It has to be done. The cold isn’t doing it any better and I really don’t know how much longer the Jeep will last. Today just feels overwhelming. I’m trying to make some life changes personally and then It feels as though everything else needs to be tended to instead of being able to focus on what I need to do. So I suppose it is back to my lists. I will sit down and write everything that I need to do and then figure out what comes first etc. The dark skies aren’t helping.

Dad messaged me last night at work with a deep depression. I had to explain to him that I was at work and couldn’t talk. Everything he tried to do felt like a major disaster to him because he couldn’t understand what was wrong (his text messages to me say “sent by Echo” and he has no idea what it is or how to just send a regular text). Trying to help between customers was near impossible.

Today is the second day of NaNoWriMo and I have not written a single word. After I finished with this anxiety kicked in and I spent the remaining time before work on the couch with the dogs. I woke up a few times in the night and spent the time trying to fall asleep thinking about the novel and ideas for the story. Hopefully today I can atleast get my first days numbers in. If I can do more great but I want atleast day one.

I need to change all the calendars today as well. The one that takes the most time is my Winnie the Pooh perpetual calendar. I have to replace the honey pot shaped dish (each month has a different scene related to that month) as well as replace all the little wooden bits that have the days listed on them. I also have special wooden bits for holidays and birthdays that I can put in as well.

I suppose I should stop here. I am procrastinating the rest of my day. Ahhhh… but Mother Nature does care! The sun has just come out and is streaming into my office. Yay! Thanks for reading and stay safe!