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Thinking…

I am a bit behind this morning but I’m trying not to stress out. I still need to fill out pap work for my insurance so I can hand it in today. But I am making myself NOT go over everything that I didn’t do. I’m not going to beat myself up over what didn’t get done.

What did get done was both articles in short order. I don’t know if the second one was too long or not. I cut as much as I could and I can’t check my word count on my phone. I can count by hand but I had to have them both in by noon and I cut it very close because the meeting ran long so I didn’t get home til around 11am.

I also took some random photos in the yard so I have something new to share. I’ve got another meeting tonight so I plan on writing the article that one before I do this tomorrow morning. It shouldn’t take too long. If I have enough light I may try some photos before I write this as well. We’ll see.

I’m struggling not to write about what is going on in my part of the world. Things just seem to get worse. You don’t know who is telling the truth and who is lying because you can make a good case for whatever your view with everything that is going in here. It’s just overwhelming. And nobody wants to hear someone else’s viewpoint. Because they are wrong. There is so much hate going on right now. Families and friends are being torn apart by the hatred as well. Every conversation becomes heat of the moment. People’s feelings get hurt too easily. Everyone gets butt hurt instead of trying to compromise or find another way. It’s heartbreaking and scary.

I hate to end in that note but I’ve got just enough time to get my paperwork filled out. I hope everyone has a great day. Thanks for reading! Stay safe and stay strong.❤️

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Food, Holiday, Life, the World, Thinking, Writing

What Today Will Bring

I guess I will be doing this morning’s post on my phone. My laptop can’t seem to connect to the internet all of the sudden. My head hurts. It feels like I have been hit in the nose. I am hoping a nice hot shower will help. It has finally stopped snowing but it is very dark out.

I need to get laundry and dishes done today. Last night’s dinner (which turned out amazing) accumulated dishes in the sink and on the counter. Both need to get done before I shower. I hope.

I am angry with myself because I didn’t work on my writing yesterday. Instead I binge watched CSI. I am thinking either early morning or late at night seem to be too writing times for me. Everyone else is asleep or occupied so I don’t feel guilty about not spending time with my family. It took me awhile before I got into the habit of my daily blogging so I need to give myself time yet I need to get serious about it.

I hope today will not be any angry day for me. My head (mostly my face so it is sinus pressure) seems to be getting worse which will leave me quick to anger today. And I don’t like being like that.

Hang on a minute…,.Ok. I thought the door to go outside was open again. Moose has started opening the sliding glass door on his own again.

I will leave you will a smile though. Some of the toys the dogs got squeaked. Well there was a blue hay outside the bay windows that thought the toys squeaking was another blue jay family so he started talking back to the squeaking toys.

Animals, Creativity, dreams, Emotions, family, Friends, Holiday, Life, Music, Nature, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Holiday Cheer

It has been snowing since yesterday morning and we have about 4 inches (10 cm) of snow so far. It hasn’t let up much so we’ll see how much we end up with. Today is Christmas. That means I don’t have to hear Christmas music when I got to work on Sunday! Whoo hoo! It will be nice to get back to “normal” around here. Looks like the wind is going pretty good. The snow is blowing across the window instead of falling from the sky to the ground. I also need to go out and check the bird feeder. It should be ok but I may need to replace the suet on one side.

The other night I kept dreaming about trying to find one of my best friends from school. We lost touch when Chris and I still lived in Louisville, Kentucky. The last I heard from her she was going to have to go home and face her family because she wasn’t able to make it in Chicago. At one point she asked me to come and live with her there but I couldn’t. There was so much wrong with the way her family treated her and for her to have to come back to them…. I honestly wonder if she is alive. I put out the word to fellow classmates that I am still in touch with and no one has heard anything from her but me. A few times I have been tempted to send a letter to their address but I’m sure they have moved since then. I still might. I would really like to get back in touch with her. Short of hiring a private investigator I’ve tried everything else.

I am excited to give Chris his stuff when he gets up. I am grateful that Mom and I could go in together to get it for him. It is something that he really wants but could not get for himself. I like it when I can do things like that for him. He usually just gets stuff himself. Once he gets up the kids can get their gifts as well. Chris got them 2 toys each at the store the other day. I’m pretty sure that some of them squeak so I’ll wait to give them out.

I have a whole day in front of me. What shall I do? I know that I will be on the phone a lot but I would like to spend some time writing, even if it is just putting some of my short stories into WordPerfect. I have already used the program to do my word count for the paper. That was amazing to not have to count article by hand! Almost as good as not having to brush all this snow coming down off my car the next time I go to work!

I think I will wrap this up as I need some more coffee and I see that the holiday messages are coming fast and furious on my phone… oh and Chris is awake! Merry Christmas!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, Friends, Holiday, Life, Love, Nature, retail, the World, Thinking, Writing

Looking Through the Fog

Another dark morning. It is warm enough outside that the snow is melting and we are getting a thick fog. This morning is a rather blah morning. I got sleep but it was not a good sleep. Essie did not eat anything until late last night but Moose did eat both his meals. He wouldn’t eat this morning and I wonder if he doesn’t like the canned food. I didn’t put any thing but egg in the kibble for breakfast and then chicken broth for dinner. This morning I used canned and nothing doing. Sooooo… I guess I will try to find a different type of canned dog food for him.

I decided that I need a new routine. My morning routine is all well and good but that is my only routine. I need to incorporate one that I do my writing. If I don’t specifically say I am writing at this time (like I do for my blog) it will never get done. I will plan to do it at one point over the course of the day but I will never get to it (like yesterday). Since I have to wait an hour after Moose gets his first dose medicine before I can give him his second one I decided that in that hour of waiting I will work on my writing. Not journaling but I will pull out one of the novels and write. Even if I only get through a page of writing it will be something. I will give myself a break when I have a meeting to cover for the paper (if I need it).

Everyone seems to be getting into the holiday spirit here. I’m not necessarily bah humbug (atleast not all the time) but I really just want it over with. After working at Younker’s for so long I can’t shake the stressed out feeling that we got every year. Constant Christmas music doesn’t help but the stresses are definitely not there to sell, sell, sell. Christmas just doesn’t mean much to people anymore. I suppose things might be a little different this year with the pandemic and all. And I am not talking religious beliefs either (I am trying to stay off my soap box when it comes to that). I am talking just spending time with family and friends. The gifts don’t matter but spending time with loved ones does. Sure I like the excuse to get things for my loved ones but it shouldn’t be necessary.

I read all the other blogs and they write about things to help others and I sit here and essentially whine and talk about myself. Am I helping others? I don’t know. Maybe. Even if it is as simple as someone reading this and knowing that they aren’t alone in how they feel.

Looking at the clock (and the amount of in and out from the pups) I should wrap this up. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

Animals, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, retail, the World, Thinking

A Day to Just Be (and Our First Serious Snow)

The snow is falling thick and fast. I did some grocery shopping after work last night… just in case. Out here in the Great White North you never know if you may lose power or get snowed in. We have a bunch of water and we have a gas stove so we should be good for all the basics like cooking, drinking and I did laundry last night so that I had clean clothes for work tomorrow. It will be the first snow drive for Angus and I. I am kind of excited. Especially since work is close. It makes such a huge difference (that and actually liking your job).

We have the potential to get up to a foot of snow (.30 meter) today and tonight. You know I haven’t heard any cars go by at all. Atleast people are staying home of they can. I’m pretty sure in Traverse it is business as usual. I love that about the area. People stay home if they can in inclement weather. They don’t decide to go shopping because they have the day off due to weather. There was a lot of that when Younker’s was open.

Today is a lazy sleepy day. Moose is in here with me snoozing. The girls are in the living room. I am glad that I took care of both articles yesterday morning (about three hours of work). I can relax today and enjoy staying home. Some of the groceries I got are comfort food yet still good for me. The best example is my instant Cream of Wheat. I could live on that as a kid. I even had my on special pan to make it in (not the instant back then). I was talking with some of my older customers last night and we got talking about favorite foods this time of year. Mostly breakfast foods lol. Another favorite of mine and theirs seemed to be the big biscuits of shredded wheat. I remember Mom warming milk up on the stove and then pouring it over the biscuit and letting it soak in. So good on a cold winter morning!

And I think now I’m going to leave off this and go enjoy the day. Maybe even nap (I can hear my husband gasping as he reads this). I have taken a few photos as the snow has been coming down. So I hope those of my readers who don’t get snow enjoy them. Thanks so much for taking time out of your day to read this. Stay safe!

Animals, Dogs, Emotions, family, Holiday, Life, Nature, retail, the World, Thinking

Putting the Bits and Bobs Together

A day off. Yay! I need to try to relax today. Dad and I are going to chat and I think I might do some stuff around the house. I also need to spend more time with the family. I’ve got all three dogs in here looking for attention… Moose and Stella have laid down on the floor. Chris and I need some time together too. So we’ll see how the day pans out.

I got some more holiday gifts ordered yesterday before work. I am still trying to figure out what to do for people. I don’t want to get al kinds of stuff but what I do get I want to mean something. Or at the very last something they can have fun with. Dad is the only one that wants practical stuff. His Amazon list is clothes. And there is nothing he needs or wants so I guess clothes it is. Oooo but I do have the two movies I can get him. Again. This will be the fourth time and no more. If he loses them again he will have to replace them himself.

I am a bit concerned as we had a customer yesterday that came in to shop who should’ve been at home in quarantine. Her daughter had been diagnosed with COVID and she lives with her (this is an older lady) and she decided to come in and shop. This is a recent diagnosis like within the past few days. So we wiped down what we could after she left and when I got home I washed all my clothes as soon as I pulled them off and hopped into the shower. I guess the store manager talked to her but I’m not sure if she got escorted out before she bought her groceries. Fun, fun, fun!

Work was pretty fun as I got to restock shelves. I have always enjoyed putting truck away. Even at Younker’s. I bagged a little, learned a few new things to do and put stock away. It is also nice because I can learn where stuff is.

I am very upset with our vet. She was supposed to call me with the results of Moose’s tests yesterday (especially the lumps we found) and nothing. So I called on my break at work. She had already left for the day. I’m sorry? What?! Apparently I sounded a bit pissed off so the tech put me on hold and when she came back said that it looked like they were just fatty lumps but if they weren’t the vet would call me Monday. Gee thanks.

Looking outside I have only seen the woodpeckers at the suet I put out. I wonder if the “new flavor” doesn’t appeal to the feathered crowd around here. I got one of each that was available. So I guess I will have to just get two at a time both the same flavor and see which ones they prefer.

I see that I have gone on for rather a long time here. My mind is kind of all over this morning. I think I’ll stop here for now. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

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What We Can Learn

This morning is the opposite of yesterday. As bright as it was the shadows today are darker. The sky looks cold and about to cry. Essie doesn’t feel well this morning. She didn’t eat breakfast and has been outside several times. Moose and Stella are curled up in the pile of blankets on the couch. I need to pull out two of those blankets to go in my car, Angus, soon. Moose needs to go to the vet this morning to get further tests on his kidney disease. His medicine should arrive today as well. Lol. I just let Essie back in and she made a beeline for the couch and is currently looking for a spot to lay with her siblings.

As I was watching and chatting with customers it struck me that all the “old” people were once young and all the young people will (possibly) become old. I listen to the stories of the older folks and laugh with them at the antics they got away with when they were younger. Then there are the older ones that flirt shamelessly cheeky monkeys that they are. They all have stories to tell. They have lived adventures we never can, survived things that we can’t understand. To ignore them is a shame on us. No matter how old they still have things to teach us.

And the young do too. They can teach us how to live life instead of worry about every little thing (although the pandemic is making a lot of them grow up and worry too soon). Thy remind us that we have imaginations that can take us anywhere, we just need to follow our hearts.

I guess the point is that we can still learn from each other. If we make the effort. Stay safe and thanks for reading.

Dogs, Emotions, Life, Nature, the World, Thinking, Writing

Early and Brief

It is way too early. It is hard to keep my eyes open. I closed last night and am back at 7am. I get out at 3pm but I still gotta make it through the day. It has been snowing and the wind sounds really strong out there. And with the new restrictions it is hard to say how busy we will be. Yesterday we were busier than normal for a Sunday.

The article I sent out the other day is missing. Not only did it never arrive at it’s destination but I can’t find a copy of it anywhere. So when I get home I am going to have to rewrite the piece. It makes me mad because that piece was actually sent out o time now it is like 3 days late. The editor is being very understanding about it but I am really put out. Grrrrr…..

I am going to need to get the garage cleaned out if the snow is going to start in earnest. It needs to have things moved around and swept out again. There are nails etc from the repairs done on the tresses. Then we can start parking the vehicles in there. It will be nice not to have to brush the car off before work.

The latest ploy for getting Moose to take his medicine is working. I got some lactose free milk (some vet sites say he’s not supposed to have milk products) and I put his medicine in a small bowl of that (the medicine is white and they thought making it a mint flavor was a good idea… ha!). He has been drinking the bowl every morning and night for a few days now. I hope it continues. I am as tired as he is with trying to squirt it down his throat every morning.

I see by the clock that I need to wrap this up and get going for work. I hope you all have a great day and thanks for reading!

Creativity, Dogs, family, Gardening, Holiday, Life, Nature, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Tinkering (or a Bit of Everything)

The sun is out again this morning. Yay! But I’m not sure if leaving the mums out was good or bad. I found mites on the one plant and put them both out yesterday morning. Vinegar and water did not work as they came back on two of my plants. The one plant I’m sure isn’t going to make it no matter what I do. But I’ve had it for a few years so I guess… It seems prone to the mites whenever I have to bring it in for the winter and I have no way to prevent it. I don’t want to go with the stuff they sell at the stores because it could hurt the dogs.

I spent the chunk of yesterday talking with Dad. A good thing but the problem is that I got nothing done that I was supposed to. And since I’ve not slept well the past few nights I was falling asleep not long after dark. So I went to bed much earlier than I intended. This morning I need to crank out the second article I was supposed to submit yesterday. I got my research done before Dad called but nothing more. I just hope it turns out ok.

I took photos at odd moments yesterday but I’ve not looked to see if they turned out. Most of them were the kids while I was talking to Dad. I will share what I have. I got a nice one this morning of the sun coming up. Not quite sure what just happened but the sun suddenly flooded the room. There are no clouds out so I don’t know why it was so sudden.

I need to expand my vocabulary. I find myself using the same words and phrases, some times in the same paragraph. I need more variety. I might get myself one of those desk calendars that you learn a new word each day. I’ll wait until after the holidays though.

I have been blocking these random text messages from strangers the past two days. I’m pretty sure that the video sent this morning was not something I needed to see if you follow me. I had another one yesterday. I blocked both numbers but I want to know how my number got in their hands to begin with. I’ve not had any problems until now with stuff like that. Mom has been getting texts like that two over the past month.

I guess I should stop here and add the photos so I have enough time to write the article and get it out to the editor. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Creativity, Emotions, Holiday, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Working On Writing

It feels strange to not have the over head light on as I write. Not only is it daylight but the sun is actually out. So much is going through my head this morning. There are things I need to do and then there are things I have to do. The have to do stuff requires me to put my big girl pants on. And we all know how I feel about dragging those on! All kidding aside it is serious enough that I’m… not worried so much as I don’t want to hear that I am right in this instance. (I am purposely being vague, sorry.) As to the need to do I have an article to write. I get frustrated sometimes because I feel like I am working in a vacuum. Outside of the paper I get no real feedback on my writing when I send it out. They either like it or they don’t and request changes or find a polite way to say no to the piece. I have no writing group to turn to anymore to throw out suggestions and tell me when something isn’t working right on the page. I miss that.

I need that give and take as a writer. I’m not sure what to do about it. There is nothing locally and I’m not sure I want to try to set something up in Traverse City with winter coming on. Well that won’t work either way regardless. COVID has everyone either concerned or angry it seems. It would be fun to have a monthly Zoom meeting and everyone either email a few pages before said meeting or just read it out loud at the meeting. But finding the writers and a time that works for everyone (depending on the size of the group)…. that could be difficult. Especially with the holidays coming up.

I have a web site I could try to set things up on but everyone is from all over the world and not necessarily consistent. I would like a group of the same people to meet not just a rotation of fellow writers. I want to get a feel for someone’s writing and watch them grow. Not try to gauge if this or that comment will set someone off or if this is what they really meant when they wrote that. So I just don’t know.

Oof…. I just realized how late this post is! Sorry about that! I’m a few hours behind. Which reminds me that I need to get going on my article as well. I will try to get some new photos to share for tomorrow. I did get a few of this morning’s sunrise. Not great but I loved how the sun was gradually lighting things up. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!