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It’s That Time

This is going to be a short one. My anxiety is up so sadly I have been awake since 4:30am. I don’t want to go, but I promised. Both pups are out here with me. I just released a big sigh and they did the same right after me.

I have no idea what to wear. I have been told not to wear black. I got everything together last night so I could just go at 7am. But I forgot to lay out what I was going to wear. So there I was at 6am with the flashlight on my phone trying to pick out what I was going to wear. I am going for fun casual. I think she would’ve liked that.

I have no idea where I am going. I clicked on the link in the obituary for the church. I hope google doesn’t screw it up. It’s going to be tight as it is if their time frame is correct. I don’t know if I am driving in the funeral procession or riding with someone else. If we are going to lunch right after I guess I’ll be driving myself. I hope to be on the road home well before dark.

I need to get myself together and head out the door. Wish me luck! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Holiday Angst

Bah humbug. The Blizzard warning stopped at 7am today. The only thing that has changed is that the wind is not as bad. And that is a very slight change. Trees are still sideways with some of these gusts. I woke up grumpy. I am trying hard not to be. I still need to wrap Chris’s gifts (don’t judge). He is still sleeping. Well, for now. Archie is desperate to play. He has just hauled a rope toy into the bedroom. It is quiet though.

People were very frustrating at work yesterday. I didn’t even get in the door and I had a woman pleading with me to let her in to shop. I repeated told her that we would open at 9am (it was around 8:30am). There were no tills in the registers and I was the only person there. “Please! I just need to get a few things!” Again no. I don’t even have a way to ring you up. She left. Only to be caught sneaking in the door with the staff (no the store still wasn’t open). That is how the day went. Just a bunch of selfish people. And that just makes me angry. I was encouraging people to stay home because it was so bad out and customers were whining because there were no eggs (eggs have been out all over for days due to deliveries not being made because of the storm).

I am trying to be in a positive headspace. I really am. I always get angry this time of year. I have seen people at their worst and is normally this time of year. Everyone feels entitled. I was happy for the whole Santa things because it atleast gives back to the community around here. This is also why I hate tourist season. They are very much the same. This is also why I prefer to stay home most of the time and have lots of animals.

I do have new photos to share. I will probably need to clear some more space in my media. One awesome thing from yesterday, I was able to come in the back door. Chris got out and shoveled the back porch and steps off for me while I was at work. I do need to get this posted and get things wrapped. I hope everyone has a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Blizzard Chronicle, Day 2

The wind is raging outside. We’ve probably gotten the promised 2 feet (61 cm) of snow and more. The wind is blowing things around just making things messy in general. We can barely get out of the sliding glass door. I don’t think I will be able to get out any other door to get to the garage. That bothers me because I will have to leave it unlocked when I leave if I go out that way.

We closed at 7pm last night due to the storm. This morning we aren’t opening until 9am. Fortunately I got my liquor order done yesterday so I didn’t have to be there extra early today. I think I was able to get ahold of everyone about the time change for opening. Some of the regulars will be put out. They will have to cope.

I just got a message from a coworker asking if we were even going to be open today. She says even the county trucks are getting stuck. I told her to stay home if it is too bad. They live about 20-30 minutes away on a good day. No idea how long it will take them in this stuff.

The pups are having a hard time getting out to go potty. It’s just too deep. Archie seems to like it though, the weirdo. He got sick this morning. Not sure what. Probably the book he shredded while I was at work.

I had better get going. Gonna be a long day. Thanks for reading and stay safe! I do have some photos of this weather but no time to download them. I will add them tomorrow.

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Loss

This morning I find myself in a funk. Before bed I found out that a regular customer (and family member of a coworker) died. He had been helping his wife recover from a stroke she had almost a year ago. It was always entertaining to see them together in the store. She was a tiny woman who was very feisty (the stroke was very hard for her as she is very independent) and he was the large man (over 6ft tall) who took all her remarks with a loving smile. I know that she is devastated. Then all over the news there seems to be an influx of death. More than normal.

I never got a response from the coworker that offered to switch shifts with me. I got ahold of the paper and explained the situation. Hopefully they did find someone to cover it. I got a response this morning that my coworker “just got” my message. I sent it yesterday morning and followed up several times. Of all the meetings I wanted to be able to go to this one and say goodbye. I will write an email and send it.

The pups are bored. Archie wants to be busy but Stella is used to the quiet in our morning routine. As the day wears on I am not thrilled about being outside so I try to encourage zoomies and playing so I can coax them outside to run around.

I still need to get myself together for the holidays. I have ideas but I have executed none. A guy is supposed to come out to look at both the oven and fridge between 11am and 2pm today. Hopefully it won’t cost an arm and a leg.

I am just sitting here staring at the screen. I guess I will take that as a hint and wrap this up. I should send in my word count for last month as well. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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A Day Out and About

I guess I should’ve plugged in the laptop after yesterday’s post. We’ll see how far we make it before the battery goes dead. Yesterday was a busy day. Chris and I spent some much needed time together doing early Christmas shopping. I came home with new boots and three new pairs of jeans. I really love my new boots! I have been dreading replacing my old boots because I don’t do frilly. I don’t need all the designs, colors and stitching on them. I just want a basic boot that is hard working (I wear my boots year round with the exception of Summer). And I think I got that in the new pair. They are comfortable even before being broken in.

Other goodies we came home with included a double bowl holder for the dogs as well as a new collar and harness for Archie Bear. He likes the new collar but is very unsure of the harness. It is the same one that Stella has but in red. I was over the moon about the bowl holder. It is supposed to be for a food bowl and water bowl but I am using it for their meals. It is so much easier for them to not have to bend all the way down to the floor when they eat! And Archie doesn’t chase his bowl around the room when he eats either. I wanted to make one from spare wood but I never got around to it. For me it was worth every penny. It is also easier to feed them. They are face to face instead of side by side as Bear tends to try to help Stella eat her food once he has finished his. This way she knows where he is as she eats. (I stay with them and keep him out of her business until she has finished eating.)

It was good to spend time with Chris. We do it so seldom with our work schedules. We chatted here and there but were content to just sit in silence while we drove (although the drive home we were singing to ZZ Top). We will have company for Thanksgiving this year. I invited a friend over (the same friend that lives down the street and has been having problems). It will be interesting to see how Archie Bear does with a new person. I want to take them both with me to work today but I’m not sure how long I will be. Atleast an hour. I don’t want them in the car for that long. But Stella needs to get out and I want to get Bear used to being in a car.

Well the battery is about gone. I will take a few quick clicks with the camera and add them to this post. A big thank you to everyone that has reached out over the past few weeks. It is great to hear from my readers! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Who Turned Out the Lights?

This is gonna be a short me it seems. Archie Bear and I fell asleep on the love seat. So I have almost no time to write this. I just gotta get through today and I have four days off. This is my mantra for the day.

I don’t know how busy we will be since Mother Nature has given us about a foot of snow, give or take. We have a bit of wind to move it around as well. We went in spurts yesterday as people tried to venture out between squalls.

I guess this is all I have time for this morning. Tomorrow I will need to delete a bunch of photos so I can share some more current ones. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Bright In the Dark

The struggle is real my friends. I am struggling to function. I have fallen asleep several times while trying to do this. Both pups want to go back to bed but are staying up with me. I am grateful.

Yesterday was a success at home and at work. At home the pups were angels while I was at work. At work I managed to get everything but my price checking done. My liquor order came in and it had a bunch of my gift sets so I had to do some rearranging as well as putting new prices into the system. I got the beer cave filled and my back stock rearranged. as well as my cigarette order completed.

I was struggling to stay upright with my daytime cold medicine. I usually do the liquid gels but we only had the caplets so I went with them. Once again they made me sicker. I found myself struggling not to pass out as the medicine made me very lightheaded. The flip side is that without it I could get a tickle in my throat and start coughing uncontrollably at the drop of a hat. I did just that because I did not take my last does of the day. I just couldn’t.

One of the bright spots was one of my customers who makes his own jewelry gave me a beautiful glass capsule filled with opals.❤️ I just love it! I will try to get a photo of it at one point.

I see by the clock I need to get myself moving. A storm is supposed to roll through today. We’ll see how bad it gets. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Craziness… But Fun

Today is Veteran’s Day. We are grateful for the military that has fought for and protected us. Most of my family members are military.

Today is the complete opposite of yesterday. We had Summer temperatures yesterday with sunshine. Today it is cold, dark and overcast. We are supposed get a snow storm this weekend. This will be a short post for several reasons. One is that I have less than 7 percent of my battery power left in my laptop. I am too tired to pull it all back into my office and plug it in. Also Stella is asleep behind me. The second reason is that I am not feeling any better. I need to rest as much as I can since this will be another 10 hour shift with me being back at 6:30am on Saturday. We are talking about maybe going to see the new pup together on Sunday after work. Hopefully I will be on the mend by then.

Craziness reigned again at work yesterday. Reps arrived to talk, business was booming despite very limited parking, orders arrived, issues needed to be handled, new phones are still now working properly nor has anyone been properly trained to share with others…. Madness I tell you! Lol. Everyone was in a good mood because the weather was so nice. That helped tremendously! I also got to change the gas prices again. This time they went down (I was asked my opinion and I said that we would sell more gas if it went down because so many of the locals drive a long distance to get to their jobs that people would actually go out of their way to gas up for cheaper).

Ok, battery is almost at 1 percent. I am sorry this is so brief and all over the place. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Fall Is Here

My body is rebelling again. If I am not feeling sick to my stomach then everything hurts. The sharp pain in my right side is getting more persistent as well. My back woke me several times over the night. For some reason my throat is sore as well. The time change hasn’t helped. I am really hoping that we finally do away with it.

My phone has been blowing up the past few days with messages from various friends that I haven’t talked to in a while. It feels pretty good to know that I’ve not been forgotten about. Several friends are moving forward in exciting ways and wanted to share. I am so happy for them!

The winds are picking up again. I cleaned up the branches in the backyard after I got home so Stella doesn’t accidentally impale herself. I also got the bird feeder filled and back up in the maple trees. The chickadees found it within minutes. Then the woodpeckers and blue jays. I need to make sure that I am keeping an eye on it daily. Payday I need to get some suet to put in either side of the feeder.

The trees are all but naked with the winds we have had. Everything just looks so sad. I think I will be looking into building myself a very basic greenhouse for the backyard. Just something to keep food growing in year round. I will start with deciding which plants I want to start with. Once I figure that then I can work on size and what type of containers I will need to set up. I am a bit excited!

Miss Stella has gotten up and apparently requires my undivided love so I had better wrap this up for now. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Here and Black(out) Again

Here I am at my dark o’clock with Miss Stella at my side. I did not know if I would be able to post today. The winds kept getting stronger and strong last night. We lost power several times. It seems to be relatively calm outside now though. I am grateful. I did not want to have to deal with work not having power. We have a large generator but when the power goes so does the internet which would mean cash only transactions at the registers as well as countless other headaches.

I just need to get through today. Then two days off. I think this week and next will be overtime checks for me. The extra hours I get on the second closing shift bumps me up and over. The checks will be nice though. I should start doing my holiday shopping.

The trees are pretty much bare after yesterday/ last night. I should get out in the yard and pick up branches when I get home. I worry that when Stella goes running after her ball she will impale something. She won’t go around anything when she is chasing her ball. It’s usually through any obstacles in her way. She’s come close a few times to either a stick in the face or another body part.

The phone clock says it is time to get moving (the kitchen clock is still flashing from the power outage). I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!