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The Wall of Truth

It’s gonna be a long day and I really don’t want to be a part of it. These nine and ten hour days dealing with the public short staffed is wiping us all out. I am fried. No sleep because once I got to bed a storm rolled through for the next few hours and I had two freaked out Pittys to try to comfort as I fought the medication that was making me tired to take care of them. And then I’m back up at 8am to be to work by 10am.

I have tomorrow off. I plan to get groceries after work so I can stay home Saturday. I’m so tired on my days off I don’t want to do much of anything let alone make an effort to communicate with the outside world. (Side note… I have the sliding glass door open for the girls and our resident chipmunk just stepped in to say hi.)

My mind is drawing a blank as to what to write next. The birds are singing away. The skies are overcast but the temperature is rising. Weather-wise it is very comfortable. Both girls have gone back to bed.

I can never seem to take my medication on time. I always miss one or more doses. I do take them as soon as I realize. I have alarms set to remind me now. That being said my alarm for tomorrow morning’s pill is going to be turned off. I’m not getting up to an alarm. I will take the medicine when I get up. If I am up at that time all well and good. If I get up to an alarm I won’t be able to get back to sleep at all. And I desperately need a good night’s sleep. Several actually.

I’m going to wrap this up so I can head to work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Venting the Ship

I didn’t intend for this to be an angry post. But the more I read in the news the angrier I got. They are taking this author’s books away because they are racist, or they show this or talk about that. They have pulled this artist’s art work because they are offensive to this or that culture. I am over the cancel culture! Two problems for them. 1. You cannot and will not be able to please everyone. EVER. 2. YOU CANNOT CANCEL HISTORY! You can learn from other’s mistakes. But pulling down memorials and plaques and destroying things that are from that era that you think represent a bad thing isn’t going to change a damn thing. How about you step up and start at home by educating your kids to be decent human beings, whatever their race, religion, sexual orientation? The cancel culture is emulating what the people they are trying to erase are accused of doing. What happened to being a decent human being?

Ok. I am getting off my soap box. Rant over. Another thing I found while reading the news was rather interesting and very close to home. You may or may not know that I live in northern Michigan. I also have a love for archaeology. The article I stumbled on deals with a shipwreck that was found in Lake Michigan. I live next to that lake. The wreck site is across the lake slightly north of where I live. Another cool bit is that the ship was called The Griffin, which is my last name. It was considered a cursed ship and had disappeared on it’s maiden voyage. I don’t know a whole lot beyond that. And needless to say my interest is peaked. So do I continue to research this one? Or do I put it on a back burner (this is the second time this particular ship has popped on my radar in a few years, the last time I never followed through on any research despite my interest)? I am at a stuck point for my werewolf novel. I can go through my creativity books to try to get the juices flowing. Or…. I can start researching this. Comments? Suggestions? All are welcome!

I see that I need to wrap this up and get moving. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Sleepless In Michigan

Once again I am struggling with the early morning hours. I got my MRI for the morning thinking I would have the rest of the day. But I am so very very tired… I literally fell asleep while going through posts this morning. I’m not much better now. Part of it is that I stayed up so I could spend time with my family. Not late but enough that my lack of sleep from the night before has seriously caught up with me.

Yesterday the back got to the point I was going to be immobile. My leg would not work after a spasm (and my back was spasming a lot) and we were busier than all get out. It was just two of us from 7am until 10am and we had lines most of the time. There was no one in the deli til then either so I did a few orders in between waiting on customers. Everyone was very nice though. My coworkers were awesome. By the end of the shift I was miserable and almost in tears. I almost couldn’t drive myself home.

Chris was a jewel and took care of me as best he could once I got home. We had steaks, corn on the cob and pasta salad for dinner. The girls were very good too. Essie followed me everywhere. I slept pretty well once I got to bed. I am limping again this morning but not as bad as last night. I have to be there by 8am for the MRI. I still have another…. 45 minutes before I have to go. Apparently I overestimated how long my morning routine would take. Both girls have eaten breakfast and gone back to bed.

My rock collection is growing through no fault of my own lol. One of my customers is a rock hound like myself and brings me stones from his various “therapy sessions’ as we call them (because just wandering in the woods or along the water looking for rocks is a great way to decompress). When I got out of work I had a small pile of rocks piled next to my car. It made me smile and grimace at the same time. I thought it was so sweet of him to do that but I also had to bend down and get them off the ground, something my body was loathe to do.

I should get going. I can use this extra time to take off my jewelry and such for the MRI. It will save time at the hospital. Hopefully we get the results soon. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Hiding Out

My heart aches as I write this. I found out last night that we lost a dear friend in an accidental fire. I Don’t want to be awake at this ungodly hour nor do all the things that I am slated to do today. Stella kept barking at things until I finally yelled at her to stop. That was around 2am. I was asleep by 11pm. Chris got home at 3:30am. I have been awake since 6am.

There is so much to do today. The meeting, work (I am going in a little early to water the plants for a coworker)…. Work is going to be interesting. I am on my own in the deli from 2:30pm on today. I got that little bomb dropped on me when I went in yesterday. I know that they are going to bust tail to have everything they can done for me but still… This whole being short staffed is starting to wear on us all. Everyone would rather stay home and get their free handouts rather than work. And to be fair you can earn more money staying home getting the handouts than if you go get a job. The whole thing is messed up.

I apologize for the less than happy words that seem to be pour out onto the page. I am just exhausted mentally and physically. Hopefully the next tow days will help me get into a better frame of mind. I did get some beautiful sunset photos that I will share. And Essie is feeling better. She ate all of her dinner and most of her breakfast. I am grateful for that. Thanks for reading and all your wonderful comments! Stay safe!

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Sooooo Now What?

What a mess… I feel like I have more questions than answers with my back. No examination or anything. I was given two medicines (one a muscle relaxer and the other for anxiety and sleep) and the wheels are in motion for an MRI. They are going to contact my insurance to see if they will cover it. If I don’t hear anything in a week I am supposed to call the doctor. So.

The medicine is a mixed bag. I am not sleeping any better. A loud noise woke me at 2am and I was wide awake (I was instructed to take one of each medication before bed). After staring into the dark for around 15 minutes I got up and took a sleeping pill. Then I read for an hour to fall asleep. I kept waking up from 6am on every little while to crack an eye at the clock. The pain portion of all this is…. interesting. The muscle relaxer has cleaned up the pain if you will. All the aches from limping and such have gone away. Now I know where all the pain is stemming from. The base of my spine and the backs of my hips. This pain is still very intense. An added bonus is that I found a rather large bruise on the bottom of my left heel. It feels like it goes all the way to the bone.

The downside of all this is that my novel has been ignored. So tomorrow I need to but some time in with that. I may do a bit this morning before work (fun fact: I work at 11am instead of 2pm like I thought so it will be atleast a 10 hour day today). I am so happy to not have to do anything on my day off! I have to get groceries but I will do that tonight. I don’t want to go anywhere tomorrow.

The heat is supposed to be record highs today and tomorrow. 90F (32.2C). I am glad Chris will be home with the girls and that the AC units are in!

Some bright spots from yesterday are I got some lovely gifts from one of my coworkers. She got my a beautiful best friend necklace that breaks in half and we each get a half as well as a very cool cup with my initial on it. I plan to use this tomorrow. The second bit of awesome that happened was I got my Supernatural box! I didn’t post that on my Facebook page yet. I didn’t want to have the gifts from my coworker over shadowed so I will post them today.

Ok, I will see how many photos I can add. I do have a bunch to share. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading!

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Staring at the Wall

I tried to get up a little early so I could ease into my day. I reset my alarm to get an extra hour of sleep anyway. I still have time but I am still very sleepy. Whenever I had to move I woke up. I have no idea how this 9 hour shift will be tonight. Or tomorrow for that matter. I am in the deli again tomorrow night. But it is what it is. We are short staffed so there is no help for it. We are all wondering if our store hours will change because of that.

I didn’t do much other than read yesterday. I am disappointed but there is no help for it. I might try to fill the bird feeder before work. I also need to change out the hummingbird feeder. I didn’t take any photos either. I’m just not feeling it right now. I will add some from the other day.

I did get the brief piece written and turned in yesterday. Truthfully it wasn’t very good. It had two things going against it. One I had little to no information to go with (I made up a lot of fluff) and two I just didn’t want to do it. I hurt and I was tired. Much like right now. So I don’t know whether or not the piece will get used. I won’t be upset if it doesn’t get used.

If Chris can get the mower functioning I may try to get atleast the front mowed after work one day. I don’t think I will have time before work on any given day this week. I need to look through the backyard for toys as well. I think we have all of them inside now but there might be a few stragglers. That way when I have a chance to do the backyard I can just do it.

I’m going to get this posted so I can have one more cup of coffee and then go to work. Thanks for reading. I hope you have a great day. Stay safe.

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Finding the Sun In the Clouds

The back has taken a severe turn for the worst. They sent me home from work about two hours early yesterday because of it. It has gotten progressively worse. I can’t stay in any position for very long. I did a lot of pacing both inside and outside. Right now the pain in barely manageable. My doctor appointment is Friday. What a fun week this will be! I am hoping not to have to end up in ER. But I worry on that account as my legs will go numb every once in a while now.

I have today off and it feels very weird. I am used to doing this and then having to get myself together for work. I di have an article that I need to write for an online publication when I finish this. I really regret saying yes to this one. Not that it is a bad topic or anything. I just hurt so much that I don’t think I am going to do it very well. And right now I really don’t want to do anything. But I said I would so I need to follow through. I have an in person meeting on Thursday in Elk Rapids. I am concerned about attending that one. I don’t know if I can sit for that long with my back. I will wait and see. BUT an added bonus is that I did get a raise! I am up to !6 cents a word now! Whoot whoot! I was very pleased at finding that out. ❤

Some other good news is that all my plants seem to be doing very well despite the very cold nights. I did catch a bunny in on one garden. I need to see what damage was done. I may have to take drastic measures this year. I never had problems with them in my gardens until we got the fence up. I’m not sure why. I also got a visit from a Monarch butterfly the day before yesterday! She was going to all the milkweed that has come up and doing her thing. That brought a big smile to my face! AND my orchid has started to bloom!!!! It is sooo beautiful!

The sun is out and shining and the girls are in and out. I am hoping to spend some time outside today. I just hope my back will let me. It will be hard to not do anything in the gardens. I might pull a few weeds… 😁 I did not stop and get anything after work yesterday. I just came straight home. I still need another hose, spray nozzle for said hose, dirt, seeds and plants. Next weekend is our plant sale at work. I am hoping to sweet talk the store manager to setting some stuff aside for me. Dirt for sure…. I can do the seeds at the dollar store down the road. But the plants and dirt I want to get at work. The thing is it will be crazy because it sounds like a lot of places are out of plants and won’t be getting anymore around here. Soooo I will have to be extra good so they will let me have first dibs.

I need to wrap this up. I will share a few photos as well. I hope all of you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Emotions Unmasked

I love Scooby Doo. I grew up with him and the Gang (not Our Gang). It is where I got my love of mysteries. I remember when we would get our Girl Scout cookies (always the Samoas) I was allowed three to last me through my episode. After watching Birds of Prey I asked if we could watch Scoob! since it was available. And we did. And it was good. And I cried. A lot.

Scooby and Shaggy are very much like Moose and I. Too much. I thought I was healed enough to enjoy the movie. I was not but I watched it anyway. The strain of being short staffed and such did not help. I stayed up way past when I should’ve gone to bed as well.

I think what started the whole thing was the “support dog” (it was an ankle biter and he had nothing on to indicate that he was a support dog like he is supposed to). I got the people in my line yesterday and we got to talking. It reminded me of Moose because he was very much my emotional support dog. And I miss him. Terribly.

And I apologize for the abruptness of all this. I got up at 6am and I have to be to work at 7am. Which means that I need to wrap this up and get out the door. I hope you all have a great day and thanks for reading. Stay safe!

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And the Next Spicy Nugget…

Sooooo glad that day is over! 😱 Wow! From beginning to end! So after I posted this I decided to take a few photos before I left. I have acquired several tulips that I never planted. Lol. We also have ivy that is growing all over because I feel guilty cutting it down. Well no more! As I was walking across the yard (why does my cursor disappear along with what I am typing every few lines?) with my camera around my neck when my foot caught in a bit of the ivy root that was coming out of the ground. I tried to catch myself several times but couldn’t so I fell in this awkward twisted position so I could protect my camera. And I did. Meanwhile I sprained my right ankle, both my wrists and I will have a lovely bruise on my right hip. Oh and apparently I all but crushed the camera to my chest because it hurts in the middle of my chest. I’m sure there is more but that is the immediate aftermath. And yes I did jack up my back some more.

So I go to work (I really wanted to call in but I was closing manager). I let everyone know what happened so I don’t have to explain multiple times why I am limping. (Make the gossip grapevine work for you I say!) I get through my shift. Everyone has gone home but our produce manager who has come in to stock after a busy day. I hear someone using the bottle and can machines outside and continue count down my drawers. After about 30 minutes or so the machines stopped. The produce manager stuck his head in to see how I was doing. We chit chatted and he ducked into the office next door to wait for me (I am forever grateful). A few minutes later the guy who had been filling up the machines starts knocking on the windows. First the glass doors then around to the gas window. We give no response so he starts pounding harder on all the glass windows and doors. Then he starts yelling while he pounds. We thought he would break the glass! So the produce manger goes to the gas window while the guy is pounding and screaming at us and tells him that he needs to leave. The guy (obviously something is wrong with him be it alcohol or some thing else) bellows that he wants us to cash in his bottle slips. He is politely told no that he needs to come back when the store is open. After a heated exchange (on his part, the produce manager was calm) he declared that he hated us and was never coming back. After the guy left I tried to hustle my way through the last of my counting so we could get the hell out of there.

Once I got home and got Angus parking in the garage I had to go back out to get stuff I’d forgotten three separate times! Sigh… And of course we stayed up late because there was no way I was sleepy after all that. It was blue sky when we got up the thick clouds have come it. Not fair! The past few days have been beautiful! I get a day off and the sun disappears. Oh well, the girls and I will be outside regardless. And it is time to get there. Thanks for reading and have a great day! Stay safe!

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Is It Saturday Yet?

And so it begins….yesterday was hell on many levels. We were short staffed (we only had four people between the deli and front line workers), the tourists are starting to arrive (this is a mixed bag as some are very nice then there are the others that are just there to “enjoy the peace and quiet” by making more noise and mess) and the CDC lifted the mask rule. A lot of folks aren’t happy about wearing a mask. I get it. I’m not either. But ever since the announcement yesterday afternoon we have had people coming in without masks proclaiming that they no longer had to wear them. Well guess what? Our bosses said that they still had to be worn in the store so you have to have them on when you are in the store! Oh and by the way you have to have proof that you were vaccinated to not have to wear the mask. You can’t just opt out. And tonight I am closing manager.

The doctor needs to figure out what is going on with my back. Normally I can fake my way through work then just nurse my back at home. Not so yesterday. It hurt going into work and by the time I was done I just wanted to cry. Once home I could barely walk. A shower didn’t help either. This morning is rough going. And it will be another 10+ hour day.

The girls have been very sweet. Right now Stella is laying next to me on the floor. Essie has been in and out this morning (this sun is out and the temperature is rising at a steady rate). She is my little sun bunny. Both of them have been keeping an eye on me.

A bright spot yesterday is that my new lounge chair arrived. I am finally replacing my old one. It is 6 or 7 years old and in need of repairs. The new one is a lovely convertible chair. It can be stretched out so I can lay in the sun or set up as a zero gravity chair. I tried it out last night. It is wonderful! It even has a small removable pillow. I am hoping to spend quality time using it tomorrow.

Sadly I have to leave the house tomorrow. I need to get groceries and the ingredients for Saturday’s dinner. Armadillo eggs. Yep. I thought the same thing when I heard it. In short it is jalapeño peppers (cleaned out) stuffed with cream cheese, wrapped in a layer of Italian sausage which is in turned wrapped in a layer of bacon. This is smoked for several hours then (I believe) grilled. We are both looking forward to this culinary delight! I just don’t want to leave the house let alone go to my place of work on my day off. Oh well!

I need to wrap this up. (Pardon the pun.) Sorry about the complaining. Thanks for reading and stay safe!