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I Need To Be Here, There and Everywhere

Aaaaaand back to the late posts. 🙄 I felt so guilty leaving the girls yesterday morning! The storm really started kicking in about the time I left for work. Stella even came out of the bedroom and was shivering. But everyone was happy to see me when my grouchy self got home last night. (I just keep telling myself “one more shift and then you get a day off.”) Chris made an amazing dinner (no photos because I was too busy eating).

I enjoy my job, I really do. It’s just that we are busy and short handed (witness me being cashier and working in the deli today then next Sunday I am manager and working in the deli). everyone is just getting fried. We have had some job applications come back but not all are up to the task.

I have a small moth that is all over me and my laptop. I brush it away or blow at it and it comes back. Not sure why. I see that and think about my hand tattoo I am getting. I am very excited! I think that my artist is going to do a 3D rendering instead of just a straight picture of a Monarch butterfly.

The girls are restless and want to play. Me not so much. I am still tired. My mind is everywhere but here. It is one of those times where I could stay focused and get lost in a book but in the real life I don’t know where to focus. Do I play with the girls? Work on the novel? Photography? Think about work? Putter in the garden? I have too many distractions. I feel like there is so much I need to be doing. So I just sit and stare trying not to feel overwhelmed.

I had better wrap this up. I sit here and look around me at everything I haven’t done and should/need to do and I am getting myself overwhelmed and depressed. Sorry for a bit of a downer post. I hope everyone has a fab day! Thanks for reading and have stay safe!

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Looking Things Over

I am still tired this morning. We seem to get up at 9am instead of 8am (or even the 7am) that we used to. Some days I feel rushed while others seem to go ok. Then a long shift at work, come home and do it all again the next day. I like my job but I try to play with the girls when I get home because they have been inactive (I assume) the long time I’ve been gone. I try to play with them a little in the morning before I leave as well. But this morning? We’ll see.

We finally had another hummingbird yesterday. I’m not sure what happened. I was faithful about changing the feeder out and washing it. So I once again washed everything out and put fresh sugar water in. Now we wait. Lots of butterflies though. I am really looking forward to getting my Monarch tattoo. That will be on the 18th of August. I’ll share photos the following day.

Yesterday also was a good long chat with Dad. When we hung up he was in a very good mood and smiling. We had various trips down memory lane and I also got him up to speed with various happenings at my end. He is starting to get out more and experience his world rather than stay cooped up in his apartment. That is helping his mental attitude as well.

As for me I got laundry going, mowed the front lawn (after my four hour chat with Dad) and even spent time on my novel. The girls and I played off and on through out the day. I always feel that it’s never enough compared to what they should be getting. I also got a few photos in the yard.

I suppose I should wrap this up so I can get some stuff (quietly) done around here before I leave for work. Chris is still asleep so I will try to entertain the girls quietly. I also need to check all the plants inside and out to see who needs to be watered. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Blip On The Radar

Well the sun is out today. It never came out yesterday and a cold wind blew away any warmth. I got the plants watered and some appointments set up and that was it. Right now Essie is sitting in the porch sunning. Stella just came in from doing that and is snoozing on the couch. The only thing I did do was watch horror movies to try to cheer myself up. It worked for a little while. I think I just kept myself “on” for too long. Especially after Sunday. I would like to know if the person is ok. I keep running everything over in my mind. I wouldn’t have done anything differently. I know I couldn’t have done anymore.

So I guess all this has put me in a funk. No sun yesterday and blue skies today doesn’t help. I have to keep my chin up. If I can make it through tonight I have Thursday off. I’m trying to get my birthday tattoo scheduled. He keeps changing days on me. It’s very frustrating. He said weekends were good so I took the day before my birthday, the 15th, thinking that Chris could go with. No joy. Well then I’ll go on my birthday. Nope. He doesn’t work on Mondays. (Insert swear words here.) So now we are on to Tuesday morning at 11am. So. He is very good at what he does. Getting the timing down is the bugger.

I think I will wrap this up. I don’t have much more to say. I think I’ll putter in the garden and read for a bit before I have to go to work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Going a Little Cray Cray

I am experiencing one of those weeks where you have so much going on that you really have to take things day by day because you really aren’t sure what day it is thus what you have to do that day. This upcoming week is going to be beyond crazy. Three meetings (Monday night, Tuesday morning and Wednesday night), one article and one book review due, I have to set up training for work (we are getting a whole new system) and all that on top of my work schedule (I’ve never been trained for some of the stuff I am doing at work this week and I am going to be on my own so it will be interesting). This doesn’t include any class work, exercising or working on the novel.

I got Moose’s tattoo yesterday and I am beyond happy with it! No this did not hurt and even when it was done it just felt like a sunburn. Now I can’t even feel it. The piece is not only true to life in the way it looks but also the size. I guess my tattoo artist was surprised that I showed up yesterday. All his other appointments had cancelled due to weather. I told him a) the tattoo meant too much for me to not do it and b) I only lived down the street so I could’ve walked if needed.

I didn’t go to bed until late late last night and my brain had me up at 7:30am. I had all this great stuff I was going to talk about and share but it is all gone like wisps in the wind. My damn “n” button has something wrong with it. Half the time you push it and you have to push it again or go back and put it in because the key didn’t register the pressure. Grrr….

I did get some amazing photos (there goes that stupid “n” key) yesterday. I had to force myself to put my camera down so I wouldn’t be late for my appointment. Lol. Which reminds me I need to watch the next class on my photography course. And my writing one too. But I need to one thing at a time. (Sorry, I just paused there to get pictures of a new type of bird at the feeder.) The problem is I only have a little bit of time to get things done so I am trying to cram. And there is so much to do my days off don’t feel like days off. Just a day that I can cram more stuff that I have to do into. Sigh. How did my days get so full all the sudden?

I should wrap this up so I can share the photos with you all. I am pretty pleased with some of them! Thanks for reading and your support! Stay safe!

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Almost There….

Well today is the big day. I sit here and anxiously stare out the window. We got hit with a storm last night and it is still snowing. A light snow to be sure but my mind is concerned that I won’t be able to get my tattoo. My heart is ignoring my head because it doesn’t even want to consider that possibility. I will probably cry a lot today. Yesterday was the month anniversary of Moose’s death.

The wind has shifted since last night. Last night is was blowing from East to West. This morning it is blowing West to East. That is never a good thing for us. We are in a storm “watch” until 7pm tonight. Since it has already dumped a lot of snow one would think it would be changed to a warning but I am no meteorologist.

https://horrortree.com/

Above is the link to the article I wrote last week. I’m sorry I didn’t share sooner. I would always remember after I had posted my blog for the day. Better late than never! And feel free to share the information with any fantasy writers you know.

There are no birds or other critters out this morning. I am going to have to check the feeder tomorrow. Everything looks full now but once the weather clears a bit there might be a big hit on the feeder. I hope all of them have a safe and warm place to hunker in today. Oh! There is a little chickadee! And the small woodpecker has arrived as well!

I am just clock watching now. I have another hour before I plan to get ready. I will leave a bit early and get out some extra money incase the price is more than he guessed. I always hate when I have to wait because that seems to be all I can do. My mind won’t focus on anything else.

I will try to add some more photos from Wednesday. I am sorry if I duplicate. I will try to go back and forth with my blog post to make sure that I don’t but just in case. Thanks for reading and thank you for all the support and comments! Stay safe!

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New Adventures!

Tomorrow is my big day! Tomorrow I get Moose’s tattoo. I will share a photo probably Saturday morning. It has been a month today that I lost my Moose. And not a day goes by that I don’t think about him. I miss him.

Well yesterday was an adventure! I had to go get new tires for Angus, my Subaru Crosstrek. I got there a little early. Once I checked in I noticed that they put my car on the lift but nothing was going on. Mechanics came out and talked with the guys at the desk. Had I told them the wrong size tire? (I was pretty sure I had not but still.) I got called up to the desk and things were explained to me. My tires had been ordered when I made the appointment Monday but they still hadn’t been delivered (I guess they normally get deliveries every day but this week seemed to be an exception). At this point I’m thinking I will have to reschedule. Then he drops the bomb. Would I like to upgrade to the next tire in the Cooper line up for the same price? (He looked at his manager who looked a bit sick but ok’ed it.) Why yes I would thank you! What made all this so amazing was the fact that they had matched a lower price from another shop to begin with. That was $30 or so cheaper. The upgrade to my tires was about $32 a tire so you figure another $128? So I saved about $160 yesterday. AND I was able to come home for an hour or so to spend time with the girls before work.

Then when I got to work I was the greeter at the door. Or as I liked to call it… the Mask Police. For the most part everyone was nice. I had one or two that were stinkers but they left. What really happened is that I ended up chatting with everyone for most of the day. When I am at a register I have a limited time frame to talk to people. But at the door I can literally stand around and talk as long as I want. And I did lol. I met some very interesting people as well. There was the guy fresh from the east side of Chicago who did repo work (who knew that I would be able to carry on that conversation!) so we exchanged stories. The conversation with him started with “What are these things?” (he was looking at boxes of Paczkis). I learned some new and interesting stories about some of my regulars (interesting fact… most of the guys have ridden motorcycles). I even talked fire arms with one of our older patrons. I think I went up a few notches with him because I could talk about them intelligently (thank you Hungee). All in all it was a fun day. And it blew by!

The only bad thing last night was Essie being sick. No idea why. When I got home she wouldn’t eat dinner and you could hear her tummy gurgling and grumbling a few miles away. It was LOUD! We played a bit but she got up twice to get sick then the last time she just spontaneously got sick on the bed. That was around 1:30am. This morning she is fine. She had a good appetite and everything. She also wanted to get up at 8am. Momma was not. Momma was sleeping hard. Ah well. I can try again tonight right? Lol.

This has turned into a long one. Sorry about that. I will share some cool photos I took when I got home from getting the tires. The sun was blazing and we had a hard frost from the night before. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Prioritizing

Yesterday was a success. I didn’t get everything done but I got the important things done. I got the time with my family (both at home and on the phone), I exercised and I got the article first draft written. Once I finish this I will go over the rough draft and polish it up then send it in. Today I feel relatively sedate. But I can feel panic trying to creep in. I really wish it would go away.

Yesterday I spent more time out of the house than I planned. Chris needed a few more things to make us potato soup so I said I would go to the store. I decided to take the long way “around the block” (the same route I use to take Rogue out for a ride (my motorcycle)) before going to the store. Angus (my Subie) has just been going the short distance for home to work all the time and I try to run him through his paces once a week or so to keep the engine happy. When I got to the store I ended up chatting with seemingly everyone employees and customers alike. I also picked up my schedule for next week. I need to take to the manager because despite me having left him a note about my appointment on Friday morning at 11am he has scheduled me at 11am to work. And that appointment is for my tattoo of Moose’s paw. I have waited 3 weeks and I’m not rescheduling it. I know he will fix my schedule but I am still annoyed that it even happened. What will probably happen is that I will come on after I am done. I have door duty that day so we’ll see. (We now have to have a greeter at the door because it is mandatory to have a mask on when you come in to shop. The nice thing is it sounds like it is an extra $5 an hour when you are the greeter. I am a greeter twice this upcoming week. That will be a nice addition to my check!)

The day has dawned a bit overcast. It is still a bitter cold so I haven’t got the trickle charger hooked up on the motorcycle. Sigh. Call me a wuss. When my hands get too cold though they hurt and I’m pretty sure that they would get very very cold outside trying to get everything hooked up. I still might try before work. We’ll see how the final draft goes. Speaking of which I need to wrap this up and get that written. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Looking Ahead

This morning hasn’t dawned yet but it is raining. We could use the rain. I took the tarp off of the memorial garden. Not because of the beautiful weather we have been having but because the storm last Sunday pretty much killed it. The winds were strong enough to get beneath the tarp and freeze the plants. I am hoping that most of them will come back in the Spring. It will be a wait and see. The nice weather has thrown everyone off as bad as the time change. It feels like June out even though it is November.

I am still on the look out for a “new” car. I plan to sit down and do a serious search after work today. I need to find something soon. I need to get Moose in for his check up too. If I don’t have a replacement vehicle then I’ll have to borrow Chris’s truck. Moose needs another test run for his kidney disease. His kibble arrived on Saturday and his medicine should hopefully get here today. Then we should be set for another few weeks.

I am gaining new respect for the local tattoo artist who has a shop at the other end of our street. I am seeing more and more of his work and I am impressed. So I may look into getting some ink once things settle down around here. His prices seem reasonable as well. And the best part is you can get in right away. Not like the guys I’ve been going to where they are like 6 months out. So I may start culling my list of ink I want to get. I really want to get a paw print below my family tattoo. But then I also want to do a group tattoo with Chris and some friends (the idea is to get the protection tattoo from “Supernatural”). Maybe both if the price is reasonable. Maybe a reason to get Mom out here too. We can do a mother/daughter day at the tattoo shop! Lol

Before I wrap this up I just wanted to share a cool thing I found at work last night. We carry Matchbox cars and I happened to be looking through them and I found a Mercedes Benz that had been driven by the female touring car Grand Prix winner Ewy Rosqvist. Her quote on the back is “They said I could never finish. So I finished first.” Love it! So I think I am going to do a bit of research on her. If you know anything or have heard of her let me know! As always thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Dreams and Games

I had a dream I was running way late for work (that last 30 minutes before the alarm went off) and now I am.  Weird dreams from my past mixing with the present.  Weird is the right word.  Oh well.  I did come up with a cool tattoo for the next time the local tattoo parlor is having one of those Friday the 13th specials (you get a tat for $13).  Since they only do smaller ones I thought (for those of you familar with Stephen King and It) A small red balloon.  So I did get something useful out of my weird dreams this morning!

Yesterday because sunny and warm as the day progressed.  We had the door open and toys were tossed and dogs chased.  By the time we got to dinner I felt like someone just flipped my off switch.  I was just suddenly exhausted.  But the kids had a fun day.  We did a LOT of tug-of-war and tossing of toys.  I even got a big scene in the novel written before Chris got up.  Mom and I had a good chat.  She hadn’t played solitare with cards in so long she wanted to make sure she had the game right.  Which got us talking about canasta, card decks we have, backgammon, 31 (don’t ask, I just know that it is some kind of card game) and… nuts.  I can’t remember the last card game.  But it was kind of fun.  I will probably be printing up various game rules for her over the next week.

Everyone has gone back to sleep.  Today is rather scary at work.  The last of the personal property goes out today.  The only thing that will be left at the lot are four vehicles.  To my knowledge no one else has been hired.  So I am just counting down my days I guess.  I don’t want to have to find another job.  But since I still have this one I need to get moving.  Thanks for reading!  I hope you have a great day!

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Remembering the Past While Working to the Future

It is bitterly cold but not snowing.   My car is no longer stuck.  Both the yard and driveway have been plowed.  All four dogs are sleeping as I write this.  Moose and I curled up on the couch together after they ate and went outside this morning.  It helped but I have a feeling that I’m fighting a losing battle with this cold or whatever it is.  But I will still fight it.  May be it won’t hit as hard.

I got a bit of frostbite on my calf from getting the car out.  Who needs post cards from adventures?  I collect scars and other marks.  Lol.  That is the big reason I have my tattoos and will continue to get them.  My family has a history of dementia.  I want to be able to look at my body and use it to remember myself.  Be it a scar or a piece of ink it all happened as a result of something that happened to me.  That is also why I carry around a 3×5 card with all the tattoos I still want to get around in my wallet like some kind of donor card.

Some designs are more pressing than others.  I have paw prints that I want to get for my kids.  I have my infinity symbol with family written in it over my heart.  I plan to put a paw print below that for the kids.  I also want to do some kind of memorial tattoo for the ones that have passed.  I’ve thought about either a bracelet around my wrist or around my ankle for them.  There have been a lot and I still have four alive so I may do both.

The flip side of all this is moving forward and looking to the future.  In that regard I am trying as well.  I got two small articles published this week.  They arrived yesterday in the local paper.  I need to find a job (even if I start part time and work my way up) to move forward with things.  The local paper wants to keep me but it is small enough that only the owner is full time.  Everyone else comes in and lends a hand as they can.  So that means I need something to go with that.

It’s hard to think about moving forward under all this snow.  That has been my big stumbling block.  I just want to hibernate til Spring.  Part of me worries that I am making the future look better for doing things rather than right now.  Regardless things still are going to get done now.  They have to.

My coffee is almost gone and I need to take a round of medicine to fight whatever I have so I will end this for now.  I’ll share a few photos of the morning.   Cheers!