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Pinball Mind

I feel like I am on an island chronicling my stay. Lol. Day 6 of 6. The end is in sight! I close tonight then I have the next two days off. I am so tired though… I will get sleep tonight. I will not binge watch CSI. Lol. I do have a new short story collection that got released today. It dropped on my Kindle this morning so I made sure that it downloaded.

Sweet…. I forgot (with everything I had going on this week) that I had a meeting next Tuesday. Thus I had not handed in a note for my schedule next week. But I just sent a text to the store manager and he has taken care of it. It still feels weird to have my job take care of me.

I find that I am feeling better now that I am journaling again as well as doing this. So I guess I need to keep it up. I had a good talk with Mom last night. We took some trips down memory lane. She was really pleasant. Not that she isn’t normally but she was very positive and good energies. It was good conversation.

I am sorry this is a rambling piece. I am just so ready for a day off that my mind is all over the place. I got the plants watered this morning before I did this. My orange plant and my avocados are doing really well too. I got both of the orchids watered. One takes four ice cubes in her pot and the smaller one gets soaked in water for 15 minutes.

I worry about friends and family in Texas. They currently have Michigan weather and they are not at all equipped for it. Not even the transplants. It will be a wild ride for everyone this winter it seems.

I’ve not done much with the camera this week. I have taken some photos of the girls and my plants with my phone. I will probably share those instead of repeating some of my outdoor shots. Since I have all the focus of a bee on a windscreen I am gonna wrap this up. Stay safe and thanks for reading!

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Being an Example

I have been doing so much this week that I have just set myself an alarm to make sure that I am not late for work. Essie is upset with me too. I just stepped out of my office to do something and she came running up to get love and play. Then she kind of looked at me. I told her I still had to do this and write my article. She looked at me one more time then went back to the couch and laid down. I was two hours late coming home last night because someone called in. I figured it was easier for me to stay than for them to find someone to work a few hours. Don’t laugh but I had Chris tell the girls that I would be home late. I know they can read the clocks and know what time to look for me.

Now I don’t know which way is up. I have another long day today which is going to be longer now that I see work has done a 10% off your grocery order today. We will probably be busy. But I have tomorrow off. And tomorrow I HAVE to write the book review and article for my online editor. I blew it off Wednesday to talk to Dad. Too many writing projects due at once. If I can get them written early then I can use the rest of the day to play with the girls and spend time with Chris.

I don’t have any meetings next week but (depending on how I am scheduled) I will be working straight through til next weekend. Wednesday is our anniversary (30 years if you can believe it!) but we are going to celebrate next weekend. The schedule will be out either today or tomorrow. I also need to spend some time on my classes. The frustrating thing is that the problems I am having with my photography will be addressed in my classwork. The same for my writing (oh and I do need to make more of an effort for my novel, it thinks that I don’t love it anymore). Sigh.

Next week should be easier even if I am working. I can pace myself to get writing done in the morning and late at night before bed. Classwork I can do after work when I work mornings. I just need to stay focused. On that note I do need to write the article for the paper and get that sent in. Thanks for reading and stay safe! And thank you for all the wonderful comments!

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Missing Me

And here we are again. It looks as though we got several more inches of snow over night. The plow trucks have been by several times. I don’t want to go to work. Truth be told I’d rather hibernate til Spring. I am tired of the cold and snow. I feel a funk coming on and there isn’t much I can do about it. This week has kicked my butt.

Essie has been my constant companion since Moose has been gone. Stella is there for me a lot more too. We played a lot yesterday. I am teaching Stella how to open the sliding glass door (Chris installed one of those electric door openers so we just push a pad on the door or use the remote). She’s slowly getting the hang of it.

I got nothing done yesterday. Atleast nothing beyond this and the article for the paper. I had to run and get groceries once Chris got up. But then he got called into work early. Then Dad and I talked pretty much from when he left until my alarm for my meeting went off (I am so grateful I set that alarm because I had forgotten about the meeting). Once that was over I pretty much went to bed. I fell asleep right away but I didn’t sleep for very long. I’d wake up every few hours and then not be able to fall asleep for an hour or more.

I wonder how busy we’ll be at work with the weather. I only work until 6pm. But I am wiped out. My day of rest wasn’t. I guess I should post this before it gets much later. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Staring Out the Window

It’s a steady snow this morning. Still very cold with the wind chill. I sat down and figured out the writing projects that I have lined up. That would be 8. That includes the three articles I am writing for the paper. I am actually pretty impressed. They are not hard projects but they do require me to sit down and actually compose. I heard from the potential interviewee that she is interested in doing the interview so I will need to start pulling questions together. Which I just did. Lol. I no sooner typed that then I had some going through my head. I just have to keep track of the piece of paper.

I got some of the first book review done yesterday. There is still more that I need to add to it. I may work on that before work. I need to do some work on the novel. With everything going on it has gotten pushed to the side. Even if it is just a page of work. I had everything set up to work on character outlines a few days ago but never started. Maybe that will be today’s goal.

I am also trying to relax some. I know this might be the last time for a few days. The house is silent. I can hear the huge woodpecker outside pecking at the suet. I should probably go out at one point and make sure everything is filled up. I have been trying to keep an eye on it from the window. I am also fighting myself not to get up and get my camera. Lol. I need to anyway to download some photos but I will probably be in here clicking away instead of doing this.

I’m still not sure how everything seems to be happening this week. I have no idea when I am going to get my training for work scheduled. I have to be to work at 6am tomorrow so I planned to ask Tim what was available. Tuesday morning would be best since I have a 9am meeting that I have to drive to in Elk Rapids which is where I would be doing my training. I could do it after the meeting. However I have to work at 11am. So that means the meeting had better not last two hours or I’m going to be late! If I’m lucky the meeting will get out at 10am. Regardless I will be dressing for work just incase.

I supposed I have done enough noodling on the page for now. Time to tackle a project. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Going a Little Cray Cray

I am experiencing one of those weeks where you have so much going on that you really have to take things day by day because you really aren’t sure what day it is thus what you have to do that day. This upcoming week is going to be beyond crazy. Three meetings (Monday night, Tuesday morning and Wednesday night), one article and one book review due, I have to set up training for work (we are getting a whole new system) and all that on top of my work schedule (I’ve never been trained for some of the stuff I am doing at work this week and I am going to be on my own so it will be interesting). This doesn’t include any class work, exercising or working on the novel.

I got Moose’s tattoo yesterday and I am beyond happy with it! No this did not hurt and even when it was done it just felt like a sunburn. Now I can’t even feel it. The piece is not only true to life in the way it looks but also the size. I guess my tattoo artist was surprised that I showed up yesterday. All his other appointments had cancelled due to weather. I told him a) the tattoo meant too much for me to not do it and b) I only lived down the street so I could’ve walked if needed.

I didn’t go to bed until late late last night and my brain had me up at 7:30am. I had all this great stuff I was going to talk about and share but it is all gone like wisps in the wind. My damn “n” button has something wrong with it. Half the time you push it and you have to push it again or go back and put it in because the key didn’t register the pressure. Grrr….

I did get some amazing photos (there goes that stupid “n” key) yesterday. I had to force myself to put my camera down so I wouldn’t be late for my appointment. Lol. Which reminds me I need to watch the next class on my photography course. And my writing one too. But I need to one thing at a time. (Sorry, I just paused there to get pictures of a new type of bird at the feeder.) The problem is I only have a little bit of time to get things done so I am trying to cram. And there is so much to do my days off don’t feel like days off. Just a day that I can cram more stuff that I have to do into. Sigh. How did my days get so full all the sudden?

I should wrap this up so I can share the photos with you all. I am pretty pleased with some of them! Thanks for reading and your support! Stay safe!

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New Adventures!

Tomorrow is my big day! Tomorrow I get Moose’s tattoo. I will share a photo probably Saturday morning. It has been a month today that I lost my Moose. And not a day goes by that I don’t think about him. I miss him.

Well yesterday was an adventure! I had to go get new tires for Angus, my Subaru Crosstrek. I got there a little early. Once I checked in I noticed that they put my car on the lift but nothing was going on. Mechanics came out and talked with the guys at the desk. Had I told them the wrong size tire? (I was pretty sure I had not but still.) I got called up to the desk and things were explained to me. My tires had been ordered when I made the appointment Monday but they still hadn’t been delivered (I guess they normally get deliveries every day but this week seemed to be an exception). At this point I’m thinking I will have to reschedule. Then he drops the bomb. Would I like to upgrade to the next tire in the Cooper line up for the same price? (He looked at his manager who looked a bit sick but ok’ed it.) Why yes I would thank you! What made all this so amazing was the fact that they had matched a lower price from another shop to begin with. That was $30 or so cheaper. The upgrade to my tires was about $32 a tire so you figure another $128? So I saved about $160 yesterday. AND I was able to come home for an hour or so to spend time with the girls before work.

Then when I got to work I was the greeter at the door. Or as I liked to call it… the Mask Police. For the most part everyone was nice. I had one or two that were stinkers but they left. What really happened is that I ended up chatting with everyone for most of the day. When I am at a register I have a limited time frame to talk to people. But at the door I can literally stand around and talk as long as I want. And I did lol. I met some very interesting people as well. There was the guy fresh from the east side of Chicago who did repo work (who knew that I would be able to carry on that conversation!) so we exchanged stories. The conversation with him started with “What are these things?” (he was looking at boxes of Paczkis). I learned some new and interesting stories about some of my regulars (interesting fact… most of the guys have ridden motorcycles). I even talked fire arms with one of our older patrons. I think I went up a few notches with him because I could talk about them intelligently (thank you Hungee). All in all it was a fun day. And it blew by!

The only bad thing last night was Essie being sick. No idea why. When I got home she wouldn’t eat dinner and you could hear her tummy gurgling and grumbling a few miles away. It was LOUD! We played a bit but she got up twice to get sick then the last time she just spontaneously got sick on the bed. That was around 1:30am. This morning she is fine. She had a good appetite and everything. She also wanted to get up at 8am. Momma was not. Momma was sleeping hard. Ah well. I can try again tonight right? Lol.

This has turned into a long one. Sorry about that. I will share some cool photos I took when I got home from getting the tires. The sun was blazing and we had a hard frost from the night before. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Sleep, But Not Enough

I am sorry this is so late. I had an alarm set for 7am but I just couldn’t do it. I have been so tired in the mornings regardless of when I go to bed. This morning it was just overwhelming. I got up before my alarm and just turned it off. I close tonight and have to be back at work at 6am tomorrow so I’ll need to get a bunch of pictures taken before work. Right now it is snowing hard.

I did get a lot done yesterday. I did my exercise routine, mailed out my car payment, played a little with the girls before work, got my article submitted, did research on tires for the Subie. Then after work I watched one of my videos for class, read the next chapter in the accompanying book, showered, played some more with the girls, worked on my novel, read more research for same novel and did some journaling.

Yesterday I took pictures mostly with my phone. I couldn’t get the lighting right with the camera and the pictures of the girls the phone was right there. If I’d gotten up to get the camera the moment would’ve been lost. So the photos I plan to share today are all from the camera on my phone.

As I reread my post am I doing too much? I don’t know. Maybe I need to find a happy medium. I think my original plan was to watch my videos for class on non exercise days since I am supposed to do that every other day. But I wanted to make sure that I kept up with both. I am trying to make sure that I don’t become too lazy. I know if I give myself free rein then I will end up getting nothing done.

Chris got me a trickle charger for the motorcycle. This keeps just enough juice going in the battery so that I can leave it in the bike instead of pulling it out for the winter. I need to get that installed. It has been bitterly cold out so I have been putting it off. Saturday I will have the whole day so I think that would be a good time to do it. I also need to take back bottles and cans. Well bottles. And I may do that today. If I load up Angus when I go start him to warm him up I can open the back and then load him up. If I leave a few minutes early then I can roll them in and get my money before work. Everything is beginning to build up in the corner we keep bottles and cans (we couldn’t return them for months and now it is just a habit of not returning them). So I think that will be the plan.

I am going to wrap this up. Again I am sorry for this being so late. I know I missed a lot of my early morning readers today. On the plus side I definitely won’t tomorrow! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Changing Mindset

It is hard to change one’s mindset when you have drilled it into your own head for years. I did some much at Younker’s that seemingly anything I did extra curricular I could turn into a imposition because I was doing too much and I hated my job. I didn’t matter if I enjoyed said activity or not. In the years that have followed that job it has been difficult to undo that mindset. But I am, slowly and brick by brick.

I started thinking about all this this morning after I got up. I was waiting for the girls to come in from going potty and the laptop to warm up. I was trying to go over what I could get done this morning and what I would need to do after work. My brain started getting anxious and angry. There was simply too much to do! I calmed my brain and looked at it all. I could get my article written, this written and my exercises doe before work. I had ample time. I could also get in my two photography classes after work. It would be only an hour. And this stuff wasn’t an inconvenience. These things were for me. They are to help me. And with the exception of the exercising I enjoy doing all of it. My mind was determined to not enjoy any of it. Because of past experiences. I have to keep changing my mind set. Once I get myself to seriously look at things instead of assume I can take another brick out of the wall. Having a job that I enjoy and don’t bring home every night helps more than you would think.

I just looked out the window and it is snowing big fat flakes. I still can’t seem to catch them in a photograph…. Some thing to work on in class. Since I have more to do yet before work I’m going to wrap this up. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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My Little Bubble

Essie and I are out here in the living room this morning. It is hard not having the laptop online but I want to sit down with Chris to reset up my internet connection and that can’t happen until Saturday. So tonight’s meeting will be on my phone as well. I set myself an alarm since I can promise I won’t remember once I get home. Once I get home I just spend time with the girls and remembering Moose.

I just want to stay home today. I’ve not really had time to process everything. They vet got here at 5pm or so and I had to work the next day. And the next four all told. (This isn’t work’s fault. I picked the next day I had off once I got my schedule for Moose since he was getting worse quickly.)

An interesting thing happened at work yesterday. I caught a shoplifter and got him to pay for everything. I wasn’t going to say anything since no one else was there but I mentioned it to the day shift manager and she said I needed to tell the store manager. When all was said and done I got handed a check for $100 and a thank you.

Since Moose has been gone the usual sleeping arrangement seems to be one pup at my back/beside me and the other at/between my legs. I am still having my crying jags but they are easier to hide. Once I am alone though all bets are off.

I have had time (or light) to take any photos except a few of the girls. I’ll see if I can find some good ones to repeat from previous posts. I

am overwhelmed at the wonderful support from my readers! Thank you again for reaching out and sharing your stories!❤️🐾

Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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What the New Year Brings

Sigh…. None of the pups got up with me this morning. No one has eaten breakfast. Stella had diarrhea in two big spots on the carpet (I let both her and Essie out around 5:30am). Not long after I got my laptop up and going Moose threw up. Yay 2021.

I sent a text to our vet (it turns out that the office is closed through the weekend because of the holiday) and she called me back. She apologized for not calling sooner. She was just getting ready to call the ER vet to get my phone number from our records. Well the news wasn’t good. My options are to take him to the ER vet and have them give him fluids to keep him alive a few more days/weeks or I can euthanize him.

I was able to come home early last night from work. About 5:30pm instead of 7pm. To be fair I was a mess. Today we are open from 9am til 5pm. I’m working the full day. We’ll see how the day goes. All three dogs are asleep on the bed. Chris is up finishing the rest of the clean up on the stains on the carpet from Stella so I can get this done before work (bestest husband ever).

We stayed up to see the new year in. I got us a bottle of champagne to celebrate. We were binge watching CSI (we are about halfway through season 3) and talking. Moose kept trying to get me to go to bed. He finally gave up around 11pm and went in on his own.

Moose just came into my office to see if I was coming back to bed. He tried really hard to get me to. But I told him I had to go to work and he just looked at me and then went in by himself. My heart feels like it is shattering in pieces this morning.

I hope we are slow. I honestly don’t want to deal with people that much. People I don’t know I can be polite and ring up. People I know expect me to be chatty and carry on a conversation. Not gonna happen today. I had a few regulars try to be cute (read joking and teasing) and that just made me angry. Kept my mouth shut but that just made them try harder until I finally told them about Moose so they would stop and go away. They were suitably chagrined but I am not up to speaking about it without starting to cry.

Still no more photos. No time nor inclination. I have tomorrow off. Hopefully there will be sun. I will pick a few to add that are repeats. I hope everyone has a great 2021. Thanks for reading and stay safe!