Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

A Little Piece of Me

Despite getting good solid sleep I am exhausted. On the positive side I have gotten two articles written and sent out. I plan to watch atleast one class video before work this morning. The sun is up and out so it should be a beautiful day. Even though I wish I could stay home it will be a good day to be out and about.

I got three tees from Maui Brewing Company yesterday and I love them all! You gotta love random choices!

I got some more photos over the course of the day yesterday. Some I think turned out pretty well while others will be used as a learning tool.

I am getting more and more antsy about Moose’s Friday appointment. I want to know now what is going on. I wonder if it had been one of the regular vet techs if we would have gotten in sooner. Moose does a little then sleeps a lot. He is down to pretty much one meal a day. He is drinking a lot of water as well. All bad signs with kidney disease. So we will see soon I guess. Just not soon enough for my liking.

My mind is kind of all over the place. I am trying to make sure that I get everything done I need to before work. I was supposed to add some thing to the grocery list for today but I have forgotten them. Grrrr… I will get another cup of coffee and then start watching my class videos. Sorry this is so short but I hope you enjoy the photos! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Emotions, Learning, Life, Love, Motorcycles, Photography, Riding, Thinking

And A Riding I Will Go

The goal today is to ride the motorcycle to work. Yep. And I don’t pick a nice day to do it (then I beat myself up if I don’t do it). No, I pick a cold day with frost in the morning. To ease the guilt if I back out? Maybe. Regardless I got all my gear etc laid out and ready last night so I don’t have to do anything but go today. As simple as just taking another vehicle. Atleast on the surface.

I have only allowed myself glimpses into the emotional box that I pulled out from under the bed by deciding to do this. If I pull the cover off and look inside I would never take the bike. So I peek beneath every once in a while to see if anything has changed, to see if I can control anything that is in the box. I allow myself little tastes of feeling in regards to the upcoming ride. I let myself feel a bit of excitement, but not too much because that can quickly turn to anxiety. I let myself think about where I will park once I get to work but not too much because then concerns over other things happening (or not happening) will take over. I do this for a little while then I shut the lid and make myself think about something else. I try not to wonder if it is a good idea or not. I try not to talk myself into it or out of it. I turn to just let it be.

The sun is out so that is a good sign. I checked all my gear so I will have music because my helmet Bluetooth is charged and paired with my phone. I am choosing to wear chaps instead of my full blown riding pants. Since I am only going a short distance I should be ok. If I was riding to Traverse I would put on the pants. I am not hooking up the heated gear again because of the short distance. I do have all the jacket liners zipped in and my purple Ride Like A Girl Racing hoodie to wear.

Another bonus of riding in is that I can’t buy anything. Last night I brought home four plastic trick or treat buckets that I am going to use as planters. I also brought home a mum plant to go in one of them.

The Jeep can’t go in for atleast another week due to unforeseen circumstances with our mechanic. So atleast I have a date of sorts. And if I am riding the bike now it will be less of a shock when I have to ride in colder weather. I am grateful I don’t have to ride all the way into Traverse anymore.

I think I will wrap this up for now. I’ll add a few photos I took yesterday around the yard. Probably the last nice day this week but we’ll see. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Life, Nature, Photography

Current Photos

I am worried about Moose. He is getting worse. Atleast he is still playing. I need to request the 25th off for his vet appointment. On a positive note I took a bunch of photos yesterday with the camera so I can share those today. I downloaded them last night since I knew it would take a while this morning. And I think that will be the bulk of today’s post. I just don’t have it in me this morning. I keep cramming everything into my days off. But I am mostly caught up with everything. So that is good. I hope you enjoy the photos. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Things Are a Little Brighter

This morning has been busy already. I have emailed with Dad (he is home and there was a doctor there that actually paid attention to what Dad needed namely help with his physical pain because that was accelerating his depression). So Dad is on a new regiment that includes pain therapy. We are both very excited about this. Then I answered an email from my Aunt in Florida. But before all that I got my article written for the paper. It was a blessedly short meeting last night so I covered it even though my editor told me not to worry about it. The one I missed however might stay missed. I still have my classwork to do this morning before Chris gets up as well as meeting Mom at 1pm and then Facetiming with Dad this afternoon. I also need to make treats for the kids.

I left the plants outside last night but when I let Stella out a few times last night I was worried that it had been a bad idea. Everything seems to be ok this morning but I need to check everyone to make sure. We have beans too! I am so excited as I have never grown beans before. I will share photos. I am worried that the cold nights have affected the new goodies growing. I think that is what happened to the green pepper buds that I had going. It got too cold and they just fell off. I am happy to say that I have more buds growing in the memorial garden.

The sun is out but the wind is strong. I might need to see about propping some plants up. It is supposed to be nice and warm today so I plan on doing my usual shorts and a tank top. I do have a cool sweater that I want to try out but I can wait.

That is about all the news from here right now. I’d better refresh the coffee and get to watching my videos for class. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

Emotions, family, Life, Photography, Writing

Wide Eyed But Not Bushy Tailed

I have essentially been awake since 1:30am. I woke up with a panic attack and could not get back to sleep. I napped for maybe 15 minute increments only to wake to look at the clock and check the time. And so begins another fun filled day.

Dad will be evaluated later today and either sent home or kept up to two weeks. Dad said he would text me (he has his phone with him) and let me know. I left work last night around 6:20pm. I was working on not coming completely apart so I was given the option of going home. It was slow and I needed to get away from needy people.

I hope my mind is functional enough for the meeting tonight. I also need to listen to the recording of one that I missed this afternoon. Hopefully it was an hour meeting. We’ll see. I tried to listen last night but I just couldn’t focus. So I will have to do it this afternoon.

I took some more photos yesterday. Another (or the same) butterfly feeding on the butterfly bush in the afternoon sun. I also took some of a maple tree across the street that is changing color on a daily basis. I will try to share all those on this post. (Nuts… camera battery is low so we’ll see how many I am able to download.)

Tomorrow morning I will get up and hopefully get both article written then tomorrow afternoon I am meeting Mom for a little bit. It’s been over a month since we’ve seen each other. We are going to meet at McDonald’s and do lunch. It should be a fun time. Wonder if we’ll eat inside or in one of our vehicles. Speaking of vehicles I had planned on riding Rogue in but not with this little sleep. That is very frustrating. On the flip side I get to wear shorts to work again.

It looks like I will get most if not all of my photos downloaded before the camera battery dies. I will have to plug that in before I leave this morning. Oooo… I just remembered I need to watch my class videos tomorrow as well. That way I can get my paper written my next day off and turned in. I got all the photos I selected downloaded so I will share them here and then get ready to go to work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Books, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, History, Life, Love, Photography, Reading, the World, Thinking, Writing

A Day For Me

The sun is out in earnest this morning. And it will have a time of it warming things up. It was almost cold enough for frost this morning. That being said it is supposed to warm up quite a bit for the next few days so I may uncover the plants in the memorial garden and pull out the ones I brought in. I am hoping the nights stay as warm as they say or warmer. I don’t want to bring them all in and out everyday.

Today is 9/11. It feels like a somber day for those of us that were alive when the 9/11 bombings happened here in the U.S. It seems as though we have gone from outside enemies to inside enemies since then. With no end in sight. I had to unfollow a fellow blogger this morning because of the posts they were writing. They were getting angrier and angrier. Anyone that did not do and think as that person did would incur the wrath of God because that person was right. I don’t need to see that on my feed. That type of thinking is part of the problem. It certainly is NOT part of the solution.

It feels weird not watching the clock to see how much time I have before I need to get ready to go. A good weird. I got a bunch of stuff done last night after I got home so that will be less I have to do today. I do need to see if I can get the mower going today. If not I may ask for help from our neighbors across the street.

I feel like I want to work on my writing today. I got inspired by a documentary on Amazon last night about the controversial Scary Stories to Tell In the Dark. I had all three books as well as the on based on the movie (thanks Mom!). I really love the art and the content. For those who have never read the books they are a collection of scary stories and folktales from all over. This type of book is what got my love for horror started. Just sitting around telling stories to each other in the dark (or with just a flashlight). I still have my first collection that I convinced my parents to buy me (they were still married so I had to be in the single digits with my age). It was at the local bookstore in Ferndale, Michigan called “Paperback Books Unlimited.” This place was a staple of my childhood. I snuck a peek at my first Fangoria Magazine there as well. My parents tried to take me there as often as they could. I just dug the book out of my shelves. It was printed in 1973 so I had to be around 5 or 6 years old. Some Things Strange and Sinister edited by Joan Kahn is the book.

I have always loved short stories because they are small bites that you can snack on if you aren’t in the mood for a full novel (or don’t have the time). It has been a long time since I last wrote a short story. The last one I sent out into the world was college and was a runner up in a contest. They were only going to print the winners but they liked mine so much they made and exception. I still have the copy of the magazine. I have a few done that I need to polish and get out there. But, again, I need to get myself a copy of WordPerfect. Everything is digital now. Very few places will accept hard copy sent through the mail. So I need a reliable program that I can edit and send my work on. That may be something I save up for. I need to make sure bills get paid and Moose has a vet appointment coming up.

Ok, I see that I have talked quite a bit. I will wrap this up and share a few photos. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

One More Day

I just need to make it through my shift today. When I got home last night I got the kids fed, laundry done and showered. But this morning I am struggling to stay awake. Moose is back to not eating his breakfast. I also notice that Essie is eating less of hers. I am constantly finding Stella finishing it for her.

Stella is in the office with me while Moose keeps going in and out. He doesn’t look like he feels good. Poor babe. I am anxious about getting his bloodwork done to see what his kidney disease is doing. I have noticed some of the symptoms that I was warned about.

I honestly don’t know what to write about. I am tempted to work on one of the books or a short story. Something out of the now. Right now I have nothing to write about outside of my imagination since all I have been doing is work with a short stint at home between shifts. I am hoping to get the Jeep in soon to get fixed. I still haven’t heard anything though. I messaged our mechanic the other day. Usually he will get right back to me.

I will make an effort to take some photos to share over the next few days with the camera. I am excited to see what I can do once the Fall colors start (even though I am not looking forward to losing my Summer). Speaking of which the sun is actually out so I think I will take my coffee and go outside for a bit before work. The past few days have been cold, dark and rainy. When I get out of work it is almost dark now that the seasons are changing. I want to go enjoy the sun. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

The Wall

Making it through tonight and tomorrow are going to be harder than I thought. Last night I was atleast optimistic about only having two more days to go before my day off. But this morning… day six of seven is kicking my butt. I am mentally exhausted. Things are feeling overwhelming. I am closing in the deli so we’ll see what happens. I got out early last night but I was working at the registers by the end of my shift.

I got a new book yesterday in the mail for researching one of my writing projects. It is on learning how to surf. It will hopefully help me move forward in the book. I am stuck because I can’t describe a scene that involves surfing because I’ve never done it and only seen it on tv. My character is a novice surfer and I wanted to be able to describe her situation and sensations better. It looks like a good choice (I skimmed it last night before bed). I also received my new memory card for the camera so I can start taking photos again. I took a few last night that I will share. Essie was particularly enthusiastic about me using the camera to take her picture.

I got all my class videos watched before work yesterday so I will try to get the paper written Saturday or Sunday. We’ll see what happens. There is so much that needs to be done around here that I have put off due to work. Next week’s schedule comes out tomorrow so I am hoping for a reprieve since I have two meetings to cover as well.

I will download the few photos I took last night and sign off of here. I am just too tired to focus. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking

Keeping It Together

This morning I am worried about Moose. I feel that there is something wrong that I cannot see. I don’t think he feels good. He is slightly off this morning. I can’t tell you what but he is. I need to get him in to the vet to get his blood checked again. I think I will leave a few minutes early in hopes that the schedule for next week is out so I can set up an appointment. If push comes to shove I will tell them I will be late coming in one day so I can take him in. My worry for him will probably be with me all day. Especially if we need to wait for an appointment.

I had a good chat with Mom yesterday. We hadn’t texted since Tuesday and I was concerned. I saw that she had read what I sent but I got no response. All is well. She is making great progress getting her backyard cleaned up. I am excited to see the results!

We ate our first tomato off the plant yesterday. It was soooo good! Sadly though I looked at the green pepper plant last night and it dropped the peppers that were growing so it doesn’t look like we will get any peppers. The ones in the memorial garden seem to be doing well but the nights are getting chilly and I worry that it will be too much for the plants. We will see!

I keep looking at Moose. He just looks so sad and venerable.

I was out taking photos of the sunset last night (I deleted some photos so that I had room for a few because of the colors in the sky) when our neighbor stopped by as he was walking his dog. We started chatting and I showed him some of the photos I had taken. He was amazed at all the technology that was available: being able to view and delete photos without wasting film, the amount of photos I could take with my 16GB memory card (332) and all the other fun things you can do with my camera. It was a fun chat. His dog Pumpkin actually came into the yard to greet me. She never does that to anyone. She always stays at the side of the road by him. I felt proud that she liked me enough to come over and see me.

I was able to watch the meeting last night. It was a near thing though. I could not find a link. It took a few tries before I did and then I couldn’t get the damn thing to work on my laptop so I was scrambling to get it to work on my phone at the last minute. It was a short meeting but I guess I need to get my bicycle ready or next month as we are going to pedal around to all of the parks in the Village and see what (if anything) needs to be done. I need to have Chris fix my front brake on my bicycle so I can ride it. The brake keeps sticking and gradually closes as I ride. Very frustrating when you are pedaling at speed.

I am downloading some photos from last night’s sunset. I am pretty pleased with the color results. My new memory card should be here…. Wednesday. So I will be able to start taking a lot more photos. Time to get ready for work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Writing

Gratitude

This morning’s coffee of choice is the BOLD (says so on the outside of the box) vanilla cream puff.  And at 6am I need all the bold (sorry BOLD) I can get.  I am becoming a night person again but I still have to get up early in the morning to have my writing time since that is when everyone is asleep.  It is so weird being up when it is dark out…

Today I will share some short video clips of the hummingbird encounter from yesterday morning.  I had a few minutes to sit outside with the kids before I needed to get out the door for work.  As I sat there a hummingbird came right up to me and hung out for a bit.  I was even able to take some photos (they are “live” photos but in order to share all of the moments I just changed them to video).  It was very cool!

Another big thing happened yesterday… (drum roll please!)  My blog hit over 1000 followers!  🤗 I am so excited!  It was a milestone that I wondered if I would ever hit and I have so thank you to everyone!  It is so awesome to think that over 1000 people around the world read what I write!

Essie keeps wandering in here to get love or to see what I am doing.  Silly pup.  I got home from work last night and was able to get a bunch of stuff done off my list.  I am also trying to get Dad to FaceTime today (I almost wrote tomorrow because it is dark outside still) after I get home from work.  Tomorrow is just too full.  And most importantly that is supposed to be my day with Chris.  I don’t want to spend it on the phone (Dad and I literally can talk for hours).  So we’ll see if I get an email back today.  It sounds like he is getting his new laptop set up as close to his old computer as he can get.  Jean Luc has got him a special account set up on Amazon so he can make his own purchases (no more PayPaling me the money yay!).

I had better get going.  I just looked at the clock.  Thanks so much for reading and following my blog!  Stay safe and have a great day!