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Helping Or Not?

It always hurts when you can’t help someone you care about. Especially when the person is completely aware of the damage and potential damage they can be doing to themselves and others. My dear friend from work came over yesterday after Chris left or work. She had been in a deep depression. Still was but she was reaching out. I call her Stella’s Auntie and that makes her smile. Stella adores having her over because she gets spoiled rotten. She stayed til well after 11pm last night. We watched a few movies but mostly did a lot of talking. I dried a lot of tears. She is in a messed up relationship that she can’t/won’t get herself out of. There is also the alcohol and drug use. She is trying. She knows full well what can/will happen if all this continues. She is better for smaller and smaller increments of time. At this point all I can do is listen and be there for her.

The morning has dawned cold and dark. It sprinkles once in a while. Stella is curled up beneath a pile of blankets on the couch. She started to dig in the pile of blankets at the other end so I took the hint and made her a small nest before covering her up. She sighed happily before she fell asleep.

It is one of those days you just want to hunker in and do nothing all day. But I need to do a few things around the house. Laundry is finishing up in the dryer. I want to do something with my plants (water, trim back, back room for the ones that need to come in soon etc). I wanted to make time for my novel since I couldn’t yesterday. I am thinking I might vacuum. Dishes need to get done and I need to shower.

I didn’t do much of what I’d intended yesterday. Mostly because of having company. So I will try again today. I guess I could get started right now. I didn’t get any new photos so it will be more repeats. I hope you enjoy them. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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I feel a bit like I’ve been hit like a bus. I did manage to sleep 11 hours though. I ended up playing many roles at work as we had more call ins. A lot of people in the area are getting sick. Kids at school, people at their jobs… I think it will be an interesting Fall and Winter. I am hoping that we don’t get hit as hard as they predict. I expect that it will get a bitter cold but the mounds of snow I can really do without.

I am not sure if Stella is doing better or not. She isn’t panting as hard. I always feel bad when she plays hard because she pants and that hurts her throat. But she wants to play. She has been very good about taking her medicine.

I don’t know what the day will bring. I am at a loss at to what to write. There are things I would like to do and even a few things that need to get done. I guess we’ll see what happens. Sorry this is so short. I am still moving forward but it is very slowly. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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I spent more time than I probably should have reading your blogs. It sounds like a lot of us have more than our fair share of crazy going on. One big group hug❤️‍🩹🥰

Work did not go much better. Several call ins so we were very short staffed. I’m not sure how today will be. I am pretty sure that I will have atleast one call in but if it stays raining we should be fairly slow. I hope. I can only do so many things.

Poor Stella is hurting. She wants to play but she pants which hurts her throat more. Which in turn makes her pant even more. She has been very good about taking all of her medicine and eating. I have been giving her Frosty Paws (essentially ice cream for dogs) to help with both the heat (we’ve had hot summer weather lately) as well as her throat. She ate her last one yesterday so I told her I would get more today. I have no idea how long this is supposed to last. And I noticed she is starting to lick her paws and legs again…..😳

I need to wrap this up so I can get to work. I keep telling myself I can sleep in tomorrow. No 4 or 5am alarms. Thank you so much to everyone who has reached out. It means a lot. ❤️ Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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More Visits

Well when I got home from work Stella had no voice. When she tried to bark she ended up coughing. So I when I got in the house I called the vet. You guessed it, yet another vet visit. Fortunately they could get us in about an hour later. We were almost late with other drivers going 40mph in a 55mph zone. These drivers had traffic backed up since there weren’t many places to pass.

The long and short of her visit is that she has laryngitis. She is on an antibiotic as well as a cough pill. The cough pill she can get as soon as every 4 hours if she needs it but the other is every 12 hours. Let’s not forget she’s still taking medicine from the last vet trip. She is running a slight fever. It’s not as bad as last night.

I tried to (finally) get Stella a harness yesterday. But when I got home I had grabbed the wrong size. So that needs to be exchanged. Bless Chris because he offered to do it on his way to work today.

I seem to have ended up planning a meeting for all our carry outs. I made the suggestion to the store manager and he thought it was such a good idea that I am in charge of it.

A bright spot for yesterday… that horror contest I am in? I finished first in my group and I have move on to the second tier. This one lasts a week before cuts are made.

I need to head to work. I feel like crap. Wish me luck. Have an amazing day❤️ Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Stella is beside me in the dark, dreaming of chasing something. She is all bundled up in blankets because it is that cold. I just wanna stay home and sleep. It was a late close last night. Then as I was finishing up I happened to check my phone and my tattoo artist’s wife and youngest daughter had been in a serious car accident (I’m pretty sure I heard the sirens) last night and the shop is closed until further notice. So I need to make sure my buddy knows that we aren’t getting any ink this afternoon. He doesn’t do the whole social media thing so he would have no idea.

My brain wouldn’t let me sleep. If I didn’t wake myself up then my surroundings did. I can barely keep my eyes open. But I am out at 2pm with no plans. As cold as it is now 47F or 8C) it is supposed to get up to 85F (29C) as our high today.

I see by the clock that I need to get this wrapped up. Thank you for all the love and support.❤️ It means a lot. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Today is my first day back to work. I am not sure how I feel about it to be honest. The morning has dawned cold. I still have a few things to do around here before the appraiser comes. Once this is done we should be able to get the money to fix the roof. Hopefully within the next few weeks.

I am trying hard to be positive. I am trying hard not to fall back into the pit. I keep looking around the room. Trying to find something to write about. Something that I won’t turn into a negative.

I am worried that I am going to have to take Stella into the vet’s. Her cough and sore throat don’t seem to be going away. I might try to call and ask what to do for her at home. It seems that I did not get paid for my time off on vacation. Only the times I went into work. So there is something there, but not much. (I just checked my balance.)

I am going to wrap this up and call work then the vet’s office. I hope the day goes well for all of us. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Who Hit The Fast Forward Button?

Yesterday was too much. It all got done but I am wiped out. I still need to write both my articles for my meetings. I will conquer that after I post this. I am glad that Mom cancelled because I didn’t have a lot of downtime as it was. I got my order placed and my shelves stocked in record time so I came back home before my first meeting. Chris was up by the time I got home from Traverse and we ended up trying to get the truck to the engine shop. We didn’t even make it to M-72 before I saw the engine smoking. So we limped it to the local plant nursery and got it towed from there. Once back home we discussed what still needed to be addressed regarding the loan for the roof replacement. Once he left for work I puttered around the house til my second meeting.

Stella is sick again. This time she has a sore throat. I thought her barking seemed off. She is coughing a lot and she can’t “talk” like she normally does. It is a gruff hoarse sound instead of her usual voice. We tried singing and playing tea kettle yesterday and she ended up coughing more than anything. She’s sleeping a lot too. I am giving her honey every little while so I am hoping that helps. I don’t want another trip to the vet’s office. If she doesn’t improve in a few days then I will call the vet to see what they suggest.

We have one last hurtle before replacing the roof. An appraiser is coming out tomorrow morning. Once that is done we should just need to sign paperwork. We are hoping to get the roof done before the snow flies. I am not sure how far out the roofers are as far as scheduling. October would be nice.

I am wrapping this up so I can get my articles written. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Cleansing Rain

For once the rain started when the weather app said it would. Almost to the minute. It has been raining off and on ever since. It is currently on. I am grateful. It should be good sleeping weather. And it was until 2:30 am when something woke me from my sleep. I have been awake ever since.

My alarm was due to go off at 4 am because the ordering site was down when I went to work. A coworker messaged me an hour or so later to tell me it was up but I didn’t feel like running back to the store and dealing with people. So here I am. My goal is to get it done before my 9 am meeting. Mom and I aren’t getting together (this time she called it off… her depression has worsened as well) so I will run to the bank after my first meeting then head home til the next one.

Part of me is glad the week is over because I have been so miserable. I hated not spending more time with loved ones but I just couldn’t. I needed to be alone. Not much has changed. I feel a little better but I can also feel the darkness rippling beneath the surface.

I supposed if I wrap this up I can get my order done sooner. I may try to slide to the bank before the meeting depending on how much time I have. That way I won’t wake Chris and Stella. No new photos but I hope you like the ones I pick. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Fumbling But Forward

This morning is overcast. The clouds started rolling in yesterday afternoon. We need the rain. It is supposed to start this afternoon and go almost through Tuesday. I spent pretty much my whole day outside reading beneath the boys’ tree. I mostly ignored my phone. I got all the way through one of my Elizabeth Peters novels and started a Richard Matheson one. There is a good chance I will finish that one today.

After I get this posted I am heading in to do my liquor order. I am hoping it won’t take too long. I would like to come home as soon as I can. The trees have suddenly started changing color. Things were pretty much all green when the sun when down last night. This morning I see that many trees across the way have atleast half of their leaves yellow. I should figure out where all my outdoor plants will be going soon. I think I will have enough room but it might be tight. There are several large pots this year.

Today will be a struggle but not as hard as yesterday was. I am hoping for small improvements everyday. Tomorrow I have both a morning and an evening meeting. Between those Mom and I are hoping to get together. I will be in Traverse regardless. If it is raining Mom might cancel. Thank you for the kind words and support over the past week or so. It means a lot to me. I am going to wrap this up so I can go make my order. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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A Break in the Clouds

I am debating about not going rock hunting tomorrow. I am just not feeling it. We would leave tomorrow morning and return sometime Sunday. I think I would rather have my last two days at home. I will have to message the Girls and let them know. I hope they won’t be too upset with me.

I had a meeting last night. It went well. I was a bit apprehensive about going but I did alright in the end. That was a relief. It was a fun one to cover. I plan to write the article once I finish this. Then I think I will pull out my novel. I have a few ideas that I would like to get on paper.

I was gifted two beautiful rocks by one of my customers when I went to put gas in my car yesterday. He said he thought of me with the one rock he had painted. It is actually my favorite of the two he gave me. My werewolf also (finally) arrived from Build-A-Bear. He has a Nightmare Before Christmas hoodie and red high tops. I believe that the hoodie glows in the dark as well. I now have my first werewolf!

Part of the post that never was able to post (that’s a mouthful) from the other day included some of the stuff we got done around the house. Chris got our security cameras up and running and our awesome neighbor not only mowed the front yard for us but he also came over to help trim back the two trees beside the house. I am so grateful for the help.

I think I will wrap this up and get my article written. I feel a bit better than I did yesterday morning at this time. I might bite the bullet and take Stella to the park. If she is not limping. She seems to be tweaking either her ankle or shoulder on a regular basis. And if I do go out I may slip into Traverse to the bank. I still need to deposit a check. Onward and upward. Thanks for reading and stay safe!