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Feeling Very Zen

This morning I am writing from my office desk instead of in the living room.  It feels different but comfortable.  Moose is sleeping behind me on the floor.  The girls are in their usual spots in the living room.  Stella wandered in a bit ago to see what was up.  Moose followed me in and has been here the whole time.

There are things I still need to tweak in here (my orchid is on my desk but I may move it as it is sort of taking up room… not a lot but we’ll see).  I also thought of another shelving unit I can put in the master bathroom to help get some of my book piles off the floor.  It does feel rather peaceful in here.

I find that I am calmer and more open lately.  Anxiety attacks are all but gone.  I am making a conscious effort to move forward with myself.  I am less tense and less of a worry wart which is a very welcome change.  I am able to appreciate the moment instead of play “what if” all the time.  The heat has also helped.  Because it is so hot there is not much you want to do.  So I am reading more and I am reading new books.  I’m not rereading comfort books to lose myself in familiar territory.

I found a Netflix series that uses the same story idea that I started with for one of my current stories.  I am going through that to see what they did, mostly for ideas and to make sure that I don’t use the same things in my story.  I am very excited as I have gotten a few ideas of my own from watching.  I sit with my notebook and fountain pen handy as I see how the story unfolds.  It is Italian but dubbed.  I am of two minds about it.  Dubbed means I can take in the whole experience without trying to rush to read the bottom of the screen before quickly taking in as much as I can of the background and what is going on before I have to read the next line on the bottom of the screen.  The other side of that is that I would like to learn Italian and I do enjoy the sound of the language.

I have to be careful that I don’t spend all

my time in front of the tv in this heat.  It is easy to do since the AC is right there in the window.  I try to get out in the yard.  If nothing else I water Minion’s garden under the tree and set up the sprinkler here and there as needed.  And of course take photos.  I got some beautiful ones of the sky last night.  I even got the colors!

I see that this post is a bit longer than usual.  I will add some photos from yesterday and upload for you reading pleasure.  Thanks for reading and stay safe!

 

There is a dragon fly landing to the left on the tiger lilies.

Animals, Being Pagan, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Gardening, Life, Nature, Thinking, Writing

Feeling the Connection

Today I am trying new old things.  I have lit a stick of my Creativity incense and I am listening to music via my ear buds.  Back when I was deep into my writing craft I would start every session of writing with some incense that I loved and music.  Unfortunately my stereo has ceased to function many years ago so all my CDs have been unused unless it is in the car.  I miss that.  I miss the music as I write.  So, here I am giving it another go.

I have also started watering more of the back gardens.  I was just watering the bases of the milkweed to keep them healthy for the bees and butterflies but since I purchased a round sprinkler I can cover more area so yesterday I watered two new spots.  The milkweed and pots that had been watered the night before didn’t show any visible signs of needing water despite the heat so I did two other gardens.  I may do some watering in the front but they are to the north and don’t need as much as what I have behind the house to the south.

I also finally planted Minion’s garden yesterday.   When Minion died I took his pool and cut it so it would fir around the base of the tree but I had minimal dirt and no money to get more so I put what I had in and left it.  It’s been that way for about two or three years… three years.  Well I got a big bag of dirt the other day and I looked at it yesterday morning and then looked at the half hearted project and decided to finish it.  I had some seeds left over so I planted some food stuffs to the south and the rest is flowers.  I watered it well.  I stepped back and was pleased with myself.  Finally a long ago project done.  And it felt good to garden.  I will try to water them every morning after Chris gets up (the hose turn on point is just outside the bedroom window).

I am also working on my spirituality.  Working in the gardens has gotten me back to my Wiccan roots.  I find myself being more in tune with my surroundings.  I notice more.  I can walk through all those flowers packed with bees and once I say excuse me (or us if the dogs are with me) none of the bees or other insects bother me/us.  And those flowers are packed with insects.  No one gets stung or even dive bombed by irritated insects.  Birds will hang out in the yard while we are all out there doing whatever.  It feels good to have that connection with things again.

So that is where I am right now.  As well as some of the places I’d like to go.  Thanks for reading!  Have a great day and stay safe!

Aging, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Love, Nature, Photography

A Little Drama Goes a Long Way

This will be a much shorter post than yesterday.  I’ve not been feeling good the past few days and not been getting much sleep.  This morning I am really wiped out.  I don’t think much is going to get done today.

Dad has been having more and more panic attacks… severe ones.  They are getting more frequent.  I am trying to keep up with them but it is hard.  If I can get him to talk on Facetime I can usually talk him out of it.  It may take a few hours but it can be done.  I think Dad is realizing how much he is losing as he gets older.  He turned 78 years old on Thursday.  He has had both hips replaced, cataract surgery on both eyes, hearing aids in both ears…. then there are his physical and mental limitations.  All this is staring him in the face and he is terrified.  There is also the fact that he is gay and was not able to fully live openly until about 5 years ago when I encouraged him to move to Montreal and fulfil a life long dream.  Now he is seeing all that he missed and feels that he cannot have as an older gay man.  And all that keeps piling up on him mentally.  Each week is gradually gets worse.  The face that he is on lockdown doesn’t help either.  I am not sure what to do other than just listen.  His medication is losing it effectiveness as well.

So I am hoping that I don’t get any emergency phone calls today.  I need to rest but if Dad needs to talk I’ve got to be there for him.  I just called Essie in from barking.  She heard some thing (I thought it was someone on the 2 track) and went flying out to bark.  She sounded a bit intense and was heading to the opposite side of the yard so I saved this and went to see what was up.  Turns out the neighbor to the east of us (the trailer that burned down last summer, I guess the guy died in the fire (maybe if I had seen it sooner to call it in sooner?) and his son has been living in the house that they had been building just across the property) is once again fighting with someone.  It’s usually his girlfriend.  But in the past there have been gun shots so I try to get Essie to shut up and come inside.  I don’t need him coming over here to shut up the dogs with a gun.

I guess I will wrap up this drama filled episode and go outside and read for a bit.  It is still comfortable out so I will enjoy it before the temperature get too hot.  I’ve got some cool shots that I got with the camera yesterday that I will share as well.  I managed to sneak a photo of a hummingbird leaving the feeder last night.  When you look at the picture she is to the left flying at the camera.  I am pretty proud of that one.  I also took a bunch of a monarch butterfly that has been hanging around.  She even played in the sprinkler yesterday!  It was so fun to watch! I tried to photograph all sides of my faery rise bush. I realized I had been only taking pictures of one side. She is just bursting with blooms!

Well thanks for reading and I hope you have a great day!  Stay safe!

Animals, Books, Cooking/Baking, Dogs, Emotions, family, Holiday, Life, Nature, Photography, Reading, the World, Writing

Ahhhh… This Is What It Feels Like to Relax

Yesterday was a bit of a lazy day.  I got bills paid but when I tried to do the “free” car payment online it was $50 more than if I just sucked it up and dealt with traffic.  So I loaded up Moose and Stella and we went to the bank.  With Moose all but in my lap and Stella peering around my shoulder from the back seat the teller and I chatted for a bit about the times and dogs (it was video drive thru and there was no one behind me).  Once we got home (much swearing and the use of my phrase “damn tourists” repeated ad nauseum) we settled outside.  No I lie.  I wanted to bake the cupcakes for the kids birthdays before it got too hot (the one ac unit can’t keep up with all the heat and humidity this week).  Once those were done and cooling I did some thing unusual.  I grabbed my Minion quilt, my bag of books and writing, my camera bag and a few other things and we headed outside.  I laid out my quilt in the shade and set up shop.  Stella came and sat right next to me until I started to read my latest book The Fishermen by Chigozie Obioma then she laid down beside me.  Moose and Essie were in and out.  As the sun moved so did we and we moved across the whole yard by the day’s end.  The kids spent most of the time out with me despite the heat (it didn’t feel so hot laying in the shade).  It was a relaxing day had by all.

I got some cool photos (I will download them from the camera and put some in this post) yesterday as well.  I found myself playing with the light.  I think I paid more attention to it because we were in the shade most of the time.  Especially when sunset neared.  The lighting got really cool then.

The only downside to yesterday was the loud music and fireworks.  The music I could deal with.  When the fireworks started they were sparse so Essie was going around the yard barking at them (she does this when the locals are shooting too close to the house).  But as the displays ramped up (we seemed to have them on all sides) Stella started to really freak out.  Essie and Moose were uneasy but coping because I had background noises going and I was nonplussed with the noise.  Stella began pacing around the house, a sure sign that she is freaking out.  So I pulled out the anxiety meds and snuck them into a cupcake for each.  That seemed to help but Stella would wake up (I decided to hunker in bed and read so we’d all be together) with some of the louder fireworks and just stare to make sure all was ok.  Things wrapped up around midnight or so.

I got a few books yesterday.  Well one is actually a pamphlet but you get the idea.  The pamphlet and one books are on Michigan butterflies.  We have so many different varieties this year I wanted to know more.  So I can sit outside with my bird book and butterfly books and see what we have this year.  The third book is actually a memoir.  It is part of my learning about the surfing culture books that I have on my Amazon list.  It looks so good and I really want to start it but I am making myself finish The Fishermen first.  I am halfway done and it is a very good book.  I get lost in the story (and it’s in Nigeria) every time I pick up the book.  But I really really want to read the new one!  Barbarian Days A Surfing Life by William Finnegan looks so good!  And I have a first novel coming in a few weeks from a new writer I discovered John Fram.  So I will be busy reading.  I am hoping this will compel me to get more writing done.  We’ll see.  It seems to have worked today!  This is a long one!

I will stop for now and download some of the photos from yesterday.  Thanks so much for reading this long post!  Have a great day and stay safe!

Animals, Dogs, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Nature

New Adventures In the Garden

This is way early for me.  I have been awake for about to hours now.  I gave up laying in bed around 6am.  Even the dogs slowly trickled out of the bedroom.  It took them a few minutes to decide if they would get up with me.  I managed to get everyone to eat.  Essie did not eat at all yesterday.

Despite the heat and humidity here I did get a lot done outside.  One of my water hoses blew so I went to the store to replace it.  Not with what I wanted but I had to have something to reach the back yard (our only outdoor spigot is at the front of the house).  I also got a big and long planter box that I repotted the lone tomato plant, basil plant and a small cluster of green pepper plants all grown from seeds.  I repotted the orange pip that had sprouted to find that all of the orange pips had started to grow.  They are in a bigger pot and the dirt is Miracle Grow so hopefully that will encourage all of them to keep growing.  After I repotted them I let them sit for a little bit to get settled before I watered them.  Everyone seemed pretty happy this morning.  All the plants are green and standing upright.  I was worried because it got a little chilly overnight.  I also got two small metal fences to go around my smaller rose bushes that are out in the yard so the kids don’t run through them.

I made a discovery yesterday afternoon.  We have tadpoles in the small pond!  Over the course of the morning a nasty smelling chunky scum had come to the top of the water.  It smelled like someone forgot to flush the toilet after a few hours in the heat.  I decided to try to flush it out with the hose and replace it with clean water (the ponds never stay clean past a few days).  As I was watching the new water go in and the old water drain I saw something swimming.  Chris heard me say, “What the hell was that?!” and came to see.  It turned out there were a ton of tadpoles living in there!  Our ponds are manmade in plastic rims (this is what was here when we moved in).  We get maybe a frog every summer for atleast a month or so.  Earlier this year we had peepers.  The tadpoles look too big to be peepers but I guess we will find out.  I stopped filling the pond because it was stunning and killing the tadpoles.  So we will have to deal with the nastiness until they are grown.  I think out of all the ones I saw on the water only eight or so were actually dead.  Soooo… another new adventure!

So I did get a lot accomplished even if I did continually get overheated (damn hot flashes on top of heat and humidity… I can deal with one or the other but both make me sweat too much and feel sick).  Not sure what today will hold.  Today is Dad’s birthday.  He turns 78 years old.  We are going to try to talk later today.  Chris wants to go to the range and shoot guns for a bit plus there is some running we want to do.  Well I see that I have gone on for a bit.  Thanks for reading!  Stay safe and have a great day!

Animals, Cooking/Baking, Creativity, Dogs, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Feeling Better, Being Busy

Thank you to everyone who reached out to me yesterday.  I am still playing catch up with everything.  I took a break form everything yesterday.  Mostly.  I did no social media or phone (Mom will be upset as a I turned the phone off).  I rested and read more Terry Pratchett.  That being said I still did dishes (three times… no four.  If I let dishes sit we get ants), trash went out, laundry got put away, plants got watered, front yard got mowed.  I had planned to do the back yard as well but I got an email from the paper asking me to cover a meeting last minute so I showered and attended the meeting.

I’m not sure what today holds.  Poor Chris was up around 9am.  For the day.  He only has to get through tonight and he has the rest of the week off.  He has more than earned it.  It will be fun to see how far he can get with the project bike this week.  I have been taking photos as he progresses.  I’m not sure what we will do with them but we’ll see.  I have a few ideas.   One thing I do need to do is read more in my camera book.  I am getting frustrated with not being able to get the rich colors of our sunsets and when I try to photograph the moon it turns out fuzzy.  Not crisp like it looks in the view finder.  Soooo I’m sure there is something to do about it that I don’t know.

The sky is cloudy today but it is still warm.  After all the full sun intense heat of yesterday this is a welcome reprieve.  I will need to get out and do my thing out on the deck instead of staying inside.  I can pile all my books and such in a bag and head out there once I finish this.

I hope to make the new puppy treat recipe today.  I still haven’t made any for the kids.  They have not seemed to mind much.  Atleast I have all the ingredients.  I will let you know what they think of it.  These will be the first ones since Moose was diagnosed with kidney disease.  Speaking of which he goes in on the 10th of July for a recheck.

I am in need of sitting down and figuring out what I need to do with my writing as well.  The newspaper is a nice steady but there are other projects that I am missing out on due to procrastination.  So a list needs to be made and priorities need to be made.  And followed through on.  And on that determined note I will sign off and get things moving here.  Thanks for reading!  Stay safe!

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Butterflies and Writing

As I write this everyone is up.  Chris has gotten up because allergies.  The kids are up and about because Chris is up so that means that they don’t have to be quiet.  Meanwhile I am trying to do this (for once I am on time) but the dogs are insisting that I play because Chris is up.  Stella has gotten the hint and has gone outside to lay in the sun with her ball.  Essie and Moose have gone into Chris’s office with him.

I read through all of the current issue of Poets and Writers and am currently going through the current issue of Writer’s Digest.  I seem to be supplementing with various research books on werewolves.  I’m not sure why.  That is what seems to have pull for me right now.  So maybe I will incorporate this in the short story?  I hadn’t intended to but it might be a good spin to put on s cursed village.  I’ll keep reading and writing and see what happens.

Dad and I had a nice talk yesterday.  I had to hang up with him because my phone kept getting hotter and hotter.  I am hoping if I replace the battery all will be well.  I don’t want to get another phone.  So for now I will keep an eye on the phone.  I have to get the Jeep in for repairs first.  Hopefully Tuesday or so I will be able to get it in.  Chris’s truck is supposed to be done Monday.

I am afraid to turn the AC on.  It was making weird noises last night so I turned it off.  I is on most of the time either as a fan or for actual AC.  We could be down to no AC (which is bad with the dogs) and no dishwasher.  Luxuries to be sure but the AC is what I am most concerned with because of the dogs.  It can get very hot in the house even with the windows open.  None of them enjoy water other than to drink so putting out the kiddie pool that we had for Minion won’t make a difference.  And there is only so much ice that can be made at a time.

We had a monarch butterfly in the yard yesterday.  So that makes three different kinds of butterfly.  I need to get a reference so I can tell the difference instead of just by color.  I know that there is a butterfly that is similar to the monarch but the pattern on the wings is slightly different.  I always enjoy learning stuff like that.  I wasn’t able to get many pictures but I got a few.

I’m going to wrap this up.  I need to get to the grocery store for things for dinner.  I will download a few photos before I go.  I am frustrated with the monarch photos because whenever I pressed the shutter button the photos would go out of focus. Thanks for reading!  Stay safe!  I hope you have a great day!

Dogs, Gardening, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking

Making the Most of It All

This is another late one.  It seems that it doesn’t matter when I go to bed I can’t seem to get enough sleep.  Yesterday I did a lot of weed pulling.  A LOT.  Probably 6 or more great big wheelbarrows full (I am guestimating here as I hauled everything in bunches and dumped them with my arms).  I enjoyed it even if I was dripping in sweat by the time I was done.  I could see a huge difference.  And even when I said I was done I went out and would pick at it.  Oh look!  I didn’t see this patch that need to be cleaned!  That kind of thing.

I also was finally able to get some pictures of butterflies one the milkweed.  Every time I tried before the butterfly would leave.  I have the same problem with the birds.  I think they are slowly getting used to the camera so when I do pull it out it doesn’t freak them out and they leave.  I will share some of the butterfly shots on here today.

I just got my paperwork for renewing my driver’s license as well as tabs for both the motorcycle and Jeep.  I have the choice to do things online, via the mail or make an appointment to go in person.  It is weird to have them pushing do things without going in.  Normally there is next to no wait at the Secretary of State office here.  But I get it with the COVID-19 issues.  I’ve not decided which I will do yet.

Eeew… that last sip of cold coffee tasted like fish.  Blah!  Spit!  Spit!  Gah!  Big drink of water to get that taste out of my mouth!

Moose has his follow up appointment for his kidneys on the 10th of July.  It will be nice to be done with vet visits for awhile.  Which reminds me I have to get their monthly meds soon.  The 7th is the next dose.

WordPress is acting wonky (doing things like moving the cursor back to the top of the screen at random times) so I am going to wrap this up.  I hope you have a great day!  Thanks for reading!

 

Animals, Cooking/Baking, Dogs, Life, Nature, Photography

Keepin’ It Real

The day had dawned sunny and stayed that way.  the dogs have been rotating outside to lay in the sun then come in and lay in front of the fan to cool off.  Then head back out.  So I think I will be spending the day outside myself.  I do need to make some pico today though.  I told Chris he’d better savor the tomato taste as it cost $20 for the bag of tomatoes (I got some for the recipe and also for eating on sandwiches).  I about fell over when they rang them up at the store!

I got my absentee ballot for August’s election here.  So all I need to do is sit down and do my research on the various selections on the ballot.  I’ll probably do that either tomorrow or Saturday.

Yesterday I managed to get the backyard mowed and trimmed (the front doesn’t look that bad so I decided to do it either today or later this weekend), dishes done and laundry done.  I need to put laundry away but that won’t take very long.  I also was able to swap out the soapy water soaking Chris’s carbs from the project bike.  Hopefully they are clean enough.  I also discovered that we really do need a dishwasher.  Ours tried to flood the kitchen last night.  Thankfully I caught it in enough time.  So next week we’ll be looking at replacing it.  The question is do we go new or used.  I think new because it will have a warranty but Chris thinks that we should do used because of our hard water situation.  We have well water that is very hard.  Sooooo…. I have researching for them.  I guess we’ll see.  Since he is dropping his truck off today to be repaired if we go with new delivery would be included.  But that’s just me.  Like I said we’ll see.

I spent a lot of time taking pictures yesterday.  I will need to download some of them from the camera to post on here.  I apologize for the duplicates yesterday.  It is difficult to tell which I shared on here and which I did not.  That being said I’d better get to downloading them because that takes a good 10 minutes or so depending on how many I download.  Thanks for reading!  Stay safe and have a great day!

*ed. note:  The camera battery doesn’t have enough juice to send the photos to my phone so I can upload them on here so I will post this and add the photos later today or maybe in a separate post today.

Animals, Dogs, Friends, History, Learning, Life, Nature, Thinking

Looking For a Rhythm

The sun was out for a bit but now we are back to the cold grey skies and rain.  I do see blue sky here and there.  The temperature is supposed to hit 70F (21C) today.  I know I am looking forward to it.  Not a big fan of fall weather in the middle of my summer.  I also need to empty the excess water from the potted plants.  Again.  I’m sure I’ll be mowing this week as well but that I don’t mind.  The joys of having a riding mower. 🙂

The meeting last night was another long one.  But I find it interesting to listen and watch the process of local government.  Chris teases me about how much I’ve picked up since starting with the paper (in a good way).  As a kid my friends and I would go sit in on the court cases then go home and do our own.  We would rotate who was judge, prosecuting attorney and defense attorney.  We really had fun with that.  One year it was most of our summer.

I was able to get some more writing done on my new story yesterday.  So far so good!  I am struggling not to get lost in the details.  Things that I can look up later to clarify or change.  I am just trying to get the story all down first.  I know I will get lost in the research on this one.  lol  Too interesting to let myself just look up this or that.

I can’t seem to stop yawning this morning.  One cup of coffee is not going to help.  Moose keeps looking at me hopefully to see if I am done since I spent so much time on here this morning with the article then this.  So I suppose I had better wrap this up and get them outside to play a bit.  Hopefully the weather does warm up as promised (the furnace has actually gone on a few times since last night).  The kids and I are tired of being stuck inside all day.  I hope you have a great day!  Thanks for reading and stay safe!