Emotions, Exercise, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Just a Wee Bit too Early

Early this morning. Went to bed at a decent time but woke up at 3:30am and couldn’t fall back asleep until after 4:30am. My alarm was set for 5:30am. I am trying really hard not to bail on Mom for tomorrow. I am just so tired right now. That being said I did get some good photos of the moon while the girls were outside after breakfast. I think today’s post will be mostly photos.

My meeting was a bust last night. I tried to find the link to join the Zoom meeting but there was a glitch in their web site. I have the link for Monday’s meeting though. So there is that. I didn’t get anything done other than restarting my exercise routine.

I just don’t know what to do about tomorrow. I just want to stay home and rest. But it’s Mom’s birthday. And I did cancel last weekend. Well if I got to bed extra early and sleep in… maybe?

Yesterday was hard despite a good day at work. It has been exactly two months since I lost Moose. I miss him a lot. I try not to talk about it too much because I know a lot of people think that I should be over it after two months.

I hope today goes quick and well at work. I just want to get back home as soon as I can. I need to finish up my letter today as well. I didn’t have much time yesterday (even with no meeting) so I need to finish it and get it out today. I asked my other pen pal to let me know how long it takes for my letter to get to her so I can gauge things like birthday cards and such.

Ok, time to download the photos so I can get this finished before work. Sorry this is so short and rather blah. Thanks for reading. Stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Food, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Photos Over Words

This morning I feel like I’ve been hit by a Mac truck. I spent most of the night tossing and turning from an upset stomach. I think I’ve had maybe four hours of sleep. But bills have been paid and my medical information sent in. I also talked to both my parents yesterday. I tried to make reservations at various restaurants for Mom’s birthday but no one is taking them. It’s first come first serve. So here’s to hoping that we can get in somewhere.

I ordered some nail clippers for the dogs as the ones we had have disappeared. The girls’ nails are getting too long and I’m not taking them to the vet to have it done when I can do it at home. I can hear Essie pacing the house. I’m not sure what is up. She walks through the kitchen to the far window and back. Sounds like she is back on the couch. But for how long?

I am cashier and carry out from 11am until 7pm today. I hope we are slow but with the sun out I think it might be a steady day. I’ve not felt this bad in a while. But like I said I have sent in my medical information so once they receive it they can call me and set up an appointment. Hopefully it won’t cost an arm and a leg. And hopefully we can find out what is wrong.

There’s not much to talk about with this mental fugue I have. So I will share photos that I took yesterday. I read as many blogs as I could this morning. I wish that WordPress would let me read more but ??? anyway thanks for reading and all your comments! Stay safe!

Books, Creativity, Life, Nature, Photography, Reading, Thinking, Writing

Wrong Place Wrong Time

Oh what a night…. Being followed by the police, helicopters and a reaction to medicine. Sigh. It started innocently enough. A coworker asked me to follow her home (she lives next door) after work last night. She had a headlight out and a police car had pulled into the parking lot when it looked like she as going to leave. Instead she pulled to the back by where I parked. By the time I finished counting my till he had left. I follow her home. As we turn on to our road… there he is waiting. She pulls into her driveway and I pass him, grab mail and park in the garage. He sat there for about 30 minutes after we got home. She left about 15 minutes after we got home. When the officer finally left he went the direction she did. I locked all our doors needless to say. Maybe an hour or so later a helicopter flew very low over head. It wasn’t lit up at all but for three red lights. It passed overhead atleast twice. Around 1:24am (I looked at the clock) a heard a gun shot across Valley Rd (just Northeast of the house).

Oh and the medicine. So I took some melatonin to sleep since my mind was all over. That worked for an hour. Then everything started itching. If I got my skin to stop itching then my throat would start and I would get coughing. I’m sure the poor girls kept getting woken up. Stella at one point was trying to cuddle with me but I was tossing and turning and coughing.

On a good note: When I got seeds for the seed exchange last week I got a kit for cherry tomatoes. It has a small pot etc to start your seeds in. The average time it takes for seeds to germinate is 4-6 weeks. I have sprouts as of yesterday. That’s less that a week. Go me!

Today I just want to hunker in and do nothing. But I want to get some writing done today. I need to do atleast one review that I promised. I’m angry at myself because I have dropped the ball several times with my reviews. Most of the time it is due to circumstances beyond my control but there are those lazy occasions. (And when the venue doesn’t pay I find myself dragging my feet more than not.)

I got some nice shots of the moon last night. This time my Nikon out shone my phone camera. I didn’t have enough time to get the tripod out though. So I had some shots that looked pretty shaky. The clouds were moving fast to cover and uncover the moon (mostly cover) so I took the shots and hoped for the best. A few turned out.

Ok, I’m staring at the pile of books beside me. I need to get going and get writing. Thanks for reading and caring! Stay safe!

anxiety, Books, Creativity, dreams, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Nature, Reading, Thinking, Writing

Looking Forward and Looking Back

It was just cold and very windy out when we got up. Now it is white out conditions. Bah humbug. What happened to Spring? Ah well… atleast we are done with February!

I do want to thank everyone for their kindness and support over the past few weeks. It means a lot. Moose has been gone almost two months now. And then everything happening after that…

Last night I had all this that I wanted to say on my blog for today but now it is all gone. And I can’t write it then post date it to automatically upload. If I do that then I won’t write anything in the morning. That will throw off my routine. And if I break that part of my routine then I will have to start over. This has been the one constant writing for the past three years. Even if it has only been a line or two to say I wouldn’t be on it was something.

Yesterday I pulled out my copy of Writing Down the Bones by Natalie Goldberg. It was my first writing book. It was even signed by the author. Point it I am trying to get back to basics. I am going through the book like I did when I was a beginning writer. And in return it is inspiring me like it did when I was a beginning writer. That was all I did before work with my writing. And I think it was enough for the day. I have tomorrow off so I am hoping to get some novel work done. My meeting isn’t until Thursday night so I am free and clear to write what I want tomorrow. I don’t think I will call my parents. Maybe just texting or email. There was less stress and anxiety Saturday. We’ll see.

I am just looking around my room. Many dreams and memories stored here. A lot of things I need to go through as well. And I think I will start. Sorry this is one of the shorter ones. I’ll add a few pictures to brighten things up. Thanks for reading and thank you again for the support. Stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Looking Good

I did manage to get some amazing pictures yesterday. I am very excited to share them with everyone! I finally got my camera to take photos in the dark of the stars outside. It finally happened! Yay! I deleted the ones that I moved on while the shutter was open (some did look cool but it wasn’t what I was aiming for). I have two tripods that I can start using now that I have the camera dialed in. I think some of the photos will look better on a big screen (versus seeing them on a phone) because the stars are so small. Looking at them on my phone it just looks like black space but on my laptop I can see the details. I am pretty proud of them.

I am sitting in my office with the window open. The sun is out and a breeze is pushing it’s way back and forth across the yard. Both of which not only make me happy but they also melt the snow. It is supposed to rain later today as well.

Part of me doesn’t want to go to work. Not because of anything bad. I just want to stay home. I got a lot done yesterday that I wanted to do. My pen pal letter went out (not until around 6:30pm with the new carriers though), I got my interview written, submitted and published yesterday (I’ll share the link), I was able to spend time with Chris and the girls (because I made the choice not not try to call my parents on my day off… it sounds callous but if I call them then my whole day off is pretty much gone and nothing gets done) and I took some time for myself outside of the house (I had to get groceries so I just extended the drive).

WiHM 12: An Interview With Grace Kimball

I will have time before work to get things done so the question is what. Since the novel has been neglected I am thinking that will be what I focus on for atleast an hour. The girls weren’t happy when I did that yesterday (but I got my interview done). The flip side is that they were very happy with all the playing they got that afternoon and evening.

I am happy that February is over. It has not been a good month for me. And March is that much closer to Spring weather on a regular basis. Mom’s birthday is just around the corner as well. I need to ask her if we are doing dinner again this year. So here is to a new and better month! Thanks for reading and the awesome comments! Stay safe!

anxiety, Creativity, dreams, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Motorcycles, Nature, Photography, Riding, Thinking, Writing

Hocus Pocus I Gotta Find My Focus

This is one of those mornings that my body just aches. I asked Mom if she would mind not going today. Truthfully neither of us can afford a girls day (which is what it would turn into). She just dropped $400 at the vet’s office the other day and I guess her car needs more repairs. I told her she could have what she wanted from the seeds I had gotten for the exchange. So we will try another time to get together.

Lat night I didn’t get much sleep despite the sleep aides. I also had weird dreams when I did sleep. I dreamt of the death of three family members. This was after dreaming of a death night before last. I’m not sure what to make of all the death dreams. I haven’t had them in years.

This morning has dawned cloudy. The sun was out for a bit but a gauze of clouds moved in. Yesterday was beautiful… Everyone was in a good mood too. It was over 40F (4C)! That also helped everyone. A lot of snow got melted between the warmth and the wind. I was eye balling the drive way to see if I could get the motorcycle out if it was nice today. Still a bit thick with snow and ice. But there are shovels around so we’ll see.

I am looking at my list. It is a good list. It is an accurate list. I am hoping it will be a finished list. I already have taken care of two things on there. Most of it is writing. I need to get my head straight with my writing. I am blowing it off and I shouldn’t. That is another reason I wanted to cancel with Mom. I need to stay home and work on my writing. I haven’t done any class work lately either. I need to get my rhythm back. All the emotional drama has got me all over the place. Speaking of which Dad sent a text saying that the only text or email he received was the one he was responding to which was the one asking why he hadn’t responded to anything. I haven’t said anything to him. When I do I will point out the text from me just above that from several days ago asking how he was that got no response. I am trying not to be an ass but I am hurt and frustrated. And I don’t want to talk to him today.

I did get some pretty awesome photos yesterday morning just before dawn. I went out to warm up the car and as I was walking back to the house I happened to see the moon. She was northwest of the house and HUGE! But what made it awesome was that the clouds were flowing over her like she was set in a brook or a river. I went in and grabbed my phone camera and came back and she was gone. I was bummed but I stood out there anyway. After a few minutes the clouds revealed the moon again and I took a bunch of shots as the clouds moved over her. I will share those with you. I am quite pleased with how they turned out.

I should get this online and get writing on my interview and article. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Roaming and Writing (or Roaming in My Writing)

And another day begins. Essie ate part of her breakfast. That is a huge relief for me because she didn’t eat her dinner last night despite not having had breakfast. We still got to bed late despite my best efforts. Lol. If it wasn’t me “oh just one more!” or “Oh just a few more minutes!” then it was a friend online checking on me to make sure I was doing ok. But that’s ok. I am relaxed and I only have the meeting tonight. Dad has things going today so we won’t be able to chat.

Essie is all up and in my business. Hang on… Ok. She’s outside with her frisbee. Goofball. She wants attention and to play all at the same time. I will work on this as I keep an eye on the door for her.

My personal To Do list has a lot of writing on it. It is getting hard to set aside writing time because everyone it getting the shack nasties (aka cabin fever) from being stuck in the house all the time. We are restless for Spring and being outside on a regular basis. The girls want to play and get attention all the time now. Especially after Chris gets up for the day. I feel guilty for not spending more time with them so I blow off my writing. The hard thing is Essie doesn’t like to go for rides so I can’t really do anything outside of the house for her. Stella loves rides but I feel bad leaving Essie.

Mom and I are going to a Seed Exchange this Saturday. I am going to the Dollar General to get some stationary later and I had hoped to pick up some seeds for planting. I may pick up some extra to exchange. I think it is pushing 40F (4C) here and that is nice for us. The snow is beginning to melt. Essie is still outside wandering (another sign of Spring coming).

Ok, she’s back in. My big goal today is to get caught up on my writing. Last night I wrote my little list of goals for the day. If I can get atleast one of my writing projects done (or continued if I start on my novels) I will be happy. My novels…. I have come to a rolling stop with them. At this point I am doing mostly research for the werewolf novel. Since the bulk of it is set in Italy I am having a hard time seeing the surroundings other than the historical places that everyone goes. I know the history but I don’t know the modern Italy. So I spend time looking at photos etc (which would be fine but I can’t print them because my printer is black and white only). My surfing novel… well, I need to get more into the story and what is supposed to be going on. Or where it is headed. It goes one way and it doesn’t feel right. So I try another way and that doesn’t feel right either. I like my characters. (This is another thing I need to do with my werewolf novel… flesh out my characters more.) One novel I have the story and no characters while the other I have characters but no real story.

I did manage to get some photos taken yesterday. The sun came out for a bit and warmed things up enough to melt more snow. Despite that some areas in our yard are still up to poor Essie’s belly. I watched her break trail out in the far back this morning. Well, I will share some pictures and wrap this up. I would blather on for quite a while so I need to stop and try to harness some of that into an article. Thanks for reading! Stay safe!

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Dinner

The sun is fighting to be seen through the clouds. Strong winds are helping move the clouds around or even disperse them. I can see more and more blue sky. It is still a bitter cold out though.

I need to shower, do laundry and work on my writing today. It feels like all I did yesterday was anticipate going to Pearl’s. The sad thing was once we I got there I was ready to go. I started feeling like I was getting a cold the other day. At dinner I felt achy and my nose was running. When I don’t feel good I get very quiet. So Chris kept up what little conversation we had. There was hand holding and a lot of looking around, not just at the people but at all the stuff in, on and along the walls. Pearl’s is a New Orleans themed restaurant and has Mardi Gras as well as New Orleans things all over everywhere. I especially liked our waiter. He wasn’t there all the time just hovering but he was there enough to make sure we had everything we needed when we needed it. He did forget Chris’s cup of gumbo but made up for that by buying him a bowl of gumbo to take home (Chris had decided to upgrade the size and take it home for later to eat). The food was excellent as always. They have discontinued the sampler platter but we made up our own. I picked a good time for our meal as it was happy hour so a lot of what we got was specially priced. I had hoped to do dessert (I had my heart set on bananas foster) but I was just too full from the meal (I actually ate most of my plantation dinner as well as the appetizers which is unusual for me). On the way home we made a couple of stops (one was to get the missing ingredients for tonight’s dinner, chipotle pork chops, I’ll share how that turns out tomorrow) then we hunkered in for the night.

We set out some mouse traps last night (these are not mice that I feed the snake… but I have) for the mice that have come into the house from the cold. The little bastards (pardon my language) managed to get the peanut butter licked off the traps without setting them off! For those of you who think that I am being cruel I don’t mind sharing the house with them but when they start destroying things and we find their excrement in places like the silverware drawer I have issue and they must go.

I slept later than my normal late time so all I have for photos are of the girls. I’ll work on getting some decent shots to share today. Thanks for reading and thank you for all the support! Stay safe!

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Bits and Bobs

It has been snowing for a few hours now. Bah humbug. I have been reading more blogs this morning than normal (since I finally have my weekend off) and now my coffee is cold. Lol. We slept in til almost 8:30am. I spent a few minutes lounging in bed loving on the girls. I dreamt about Moose last night. I won some kind of coin operated game and got three balls for him to play with. He was a happy boy. The girls were there too.

I finally got photos of the knives I got Chris. I’ll share them on this post. I also got a refund for my shipping from Amazon since the one knife was late. I thought that was a pretty decent thing to do. It showed up the next day and the delay probably wasn’t their fault but I appreciate the gesture.

My one article is set to go live on March 1st. I still have my interview and two reviews to do. I think the interview will be a cut and paste from our exchanges. I started reading the short story collection that she helped put together. It’s very good abut I’m sure it’s not for everyone. In fact I think most of the people I know would put it down in short order. Just because it is very graphic. It deals with body horror. I am enjoying it because it is something new for me. Like I said the writing is very good.

I need to make sure we are out the door and headed to Pearl’s by 3:30pm today. I am rather excited. This will be the second time we’ve eaten out since this whole thing started last year. Speaking of which… I had to check to see if the restaurant that Mom and I went to for her birthday would be open. Looks like we are good to go. We just need to make a reservation.

I have been monkeying with my camera to no avail. I am trying to get the frame rate slowed enough that you can see the snow falling. Right now with both the Nikon and my phone if I take a photo when it is raining or snowing you don’t see the rain or the snow. And the photos I got this morning would’ve been beautiful if I could’ve frozen the snowfall (pardon the pun). Oh ho! It looks as if the sun is trying to come out!

Well geez. Essie is all up in my business! I got up to take a few photos (with both the Nikon and the phone) and she heard the shutter clicks and thought I was done in here for now. So I guess I’d better stop here so I can add the various photos and thus go spend time with her. Lol. Thanks for reading! Thanks for caring! Stay safe!

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Pinball Mind

I feel like I am on an island chronicling my stay. Lol. Day 6 of 6. The end is in sight! I close tonight then I have the next two days off. I am so tired though… I will get sleep tonight. I will not binge watch CSI. Lol. I do have a new short story collection that got released today. It dropped on my Kindle this morning so I made sure that it downloaded.

Sweet…. I forgot (with everything I had going on this week) that I had a meeting next Tuesday. Thus I had not handed in a note for my schedule next week. But I just sent a text to the store manager and he has taken care of it. It still feels weird to have my job take care of me.

I find that I am feeling better now that I am journaling again as well as doing this. So I guess I need to keep it up. I had a good talk with Mom last night. We took some trips down memory lane. She was really pleasant. Not that she isn’t normally but she was very positive and good energies. It was good conversation.

I am sorry this is a rambling piece. I am just so ready for a day off that my mind is all over the place. I got the plants watered this morning before I did this. My orange plant and my avocados are doing really well too. I got both of the orchids watered. One takes four ice cubes in her pot and the smaller one gets soaked in water for 15 minutes.

I worry about friends and family in Texas. They currently have Michigan weather and they are not at all equipped for it. Not even the transplants. It will be a wild ride for everyone this winter it seems.

I’ve not done much with the camera this week. I have taken some photos of the girls and my plants with my phone. I will probably share those instead of repeating some of my outdoor shots. Since I have all the focus of a bee on a windscreen I am gonna wrap this up. Stay safe and thanks for reading!