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Looking Things Over

I am still tired this morning. We seem to get up at 9am instead of 8am (or even the 7am) that we used to. Some days I feel rushed while others seem to go ok. Then a long shift at work, come home and do it all again the next day. I like my job but I try to play with the girls when I get home because they have been inactive (I assume) the long time I’ve been gone. I try to play with them a little in the morning before I leave as well. But this morning? We’ll see.

We finally had another hummingbird yesterday. I’m not sure what happened. I was faithful about changing the feeder out and washing it. So I once again washed everything out and put fresh sugar water in. Now we wait. Lots of butterflies though. I am really looking forward to getting my Monarch tattoo. That will be on the 18th of August. I’ll share photos the following day.

Yesterday also was a good long chat with Dad. When we hung up he was in a very good mood and smiling. We had various trips down memory lane and I also got him up to speed with various happenings at my end. He is starting to get out more and experience his world rather than stay cooped up in his apartment. That is helping his mental attitude as well.

As for me I got laundry going, mowed the front lawn (after my four hour chat with Dad) and even spent time on my novel. The girls and I played off and on through out the day. I always feel that it’s never enough compared to what they should be getting. I also got a few photos in the yard.

I suppose I should wrap this up so I can get some stuff (quietly) done around here before I leave for work. Chris is still asleep so I will try to entertain the girls quietly. I also need to check all the plants inside and out to see who needs to be watered. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Blip On The Radar

Well the sun is out today. It never came out yesterday and a cold wind blew away any warmth. I got the plants watered and some appointments set up and that was it. Right now Essie is sitting in the porch sunning. Stella just came in from doing that and is snoozing on the couch. The only thing I did do was watch horror movies to try to cheer myself up. It worked for a little while. I think I just kept myself “on” for too long. Especially after Sunday. I would like to know if the person is ok. I keep running everything over in my mind. I wouldn’t have done anything differently. I know I couldn’t have done anymore.

So I guess all this has put me in a funk. No sun yesterday and blue skies today doesn’t help. I have to keep my chin up. If I can make it through tonight I have Thursday off. I’m trying to get my birthday tattoo scheduled. He keeps changing days on me. It’s very frustrating. He said weekends were good so I took the day before my birthday, the 15th, thinking that Chris could go with. No joy. Well then I’ll go on my birthday. Nope. He doesn’t work on Mondays. (Insert swear words here.) So now we are on to Tuesday morning at 11am. So. He is very good at what he does. Getting the timing down is the bugger.

I think I will wrap this up. I don’t have much more to say. I think I’ll putter in the garden and read for a bit before I have to go to work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Little Here And A Little There

Another day. It’s cloudy but the sun is filtering through. I am hoping the day at work goes fast like it did yesterday. I am just plain tired. Weekends are always hard for me. I usually close and on Sundays I am usually always manager. I get home late and stay up even later to spend time with the family. I don’t get much sleep because I have to get up at a relatively decent time to get everything done before I head back out. I am grateful that I only live about 5-10 minutes from work. If I was doing this and working in Traverse (especially this time of the year with all the tourists) I would barely be functioning.

We got our first batch of tomatoes from the plants the other day. They have been ripening about one a day. The average size is about the size of a tennis ball. They are very sweet! I am looking forward to more treats from our gardens this year. I am very excited to see how the pumpkins do. i need more dirt so I can plant some hot peppers (the seeds are a variety pack). I plan to do those in pots so I can keep them year round.

I got a lot done yesterday before work on my novel. It doesn’t look like much but I am pleased. This is gonna take a while at the current rate though. I am just too tired most days to even attempt working on it. But I want to keep going at it. I know we will slow down once summer is over (which sucks because I haven’t really been able to enjoy my favorite time of year and I have plenty of time during the season I am not very fond of) and I will have more free time.

I got a letter from one of my pen pals and I want to read it before I have to go to work. So I need to wrap this up. I will share some more photos from my little trip on Thursday. Have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Quiet Sunny Morning…. Mostly

Despite the sun we are all a bit sleepy. Well maybe not…. Stella is sitting beside me giving me the eye. She has been yawning but she keeps easing closer to me to get love and give kisses. Essie is still snoozing in front of the bedroom door. The morning is quiet. The birds and bugs are doing their thing. Unfortunately it sounds like a neighbor has lost power. I hear a rather large generator going next door. Which kind of crushes the groove of relaxing in the natural quiet.

The coffee tastes good this morning. It makes things feel warm and homey. I am mentally trying to gear myself up to write once I am done with this. Not go out into the garden and weed. Not play with the dogs (atleast not too much). Not fiddle around the house picking up this or that. I need to get back into the writing groove. Back into the habit.

Tonight I am the closing manager at work. I don’t go in until 1pm today. I close tomorrow too but I have to be there at noon. Which is atleast a 10 hour day. We’ll see how late I can stay up. I shouldn’t but I want to write in the morning and again at night to see which works better for me. At first blush I would say morning because I won’t be tired from work mentally. But I might have better luck at night because the creative juices might be going from something that happened that day. And I might end up rotating through both times of day.

My bracelet arrived yesterday from adopting a shark. His name is Babu and he is a Great Hammerhead shark. I get to track him as well. I was very excited! I have also adopted a wolf, a bee and an elephant over the years. Quite the menagerie! Lol

I need to wrap this up and get writing on my novel. I think I will try to tackle a character today. See who they are and what makes them tick. Wish me luck! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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New Things, Old Feelings

Well I did it yesterday. After Chris got up I went to the art fair. I got some beautiful photos of the area. I had forgotten how much being by the water meant to me. As soon as I heard the waves on the sand I teared up. So much good has come when I am by water.

I also met some fabulous artists. The craftsmanship on so many of those pieces was AMAZING! It’s like when someone cooks something. You can feel the love and happiness put into the food. It is the same with the art. There were some there that had just as beautiful things but they felt different. So I got a few pieces from the ones that I liked. I wanted more believe me! I got business cards from each stall that I went to (one I didn’t have the funds to purchase her silver rings but there were a few rings that I really wanted) so I could either get more or just promote their stuff. All were very nice and explained about their art as well as the process.

As I said I took a ton of photos while I was there. Not of the event but of the area it took place. There were huge gnarly, wizened trees along the short cliff above the shoreline. There was the changing colors of the water as the depth below changed. There were the flowers (a magnificent red day lily that I found and now want). There was the ever changing shoreline as the waves rolled in. All this calmed and centered me. It made me happy.

I will share as many as I can over the coming days (there are a LOT of photos… I ran out the battery on my Nikon and took a bunch on my phone). Let me know what you think. I am excited because I now have some thing new to add to my photography web site! Thanks for reading and have a fab day! Stay safe!

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Possibilities

It has finally stopped raining and the temperature is going up. I don’t mind the storms (even if the girls do get spooked) but for me it’s all in the timing. In the wee hours of the morning just is not a good time for me. Everyone was falling asleep when the first rumbles started. It got louder and continued for a few hours. When Chris got home we were in bed with the light on. Now both are curled up asleep.

It is supposed to be cloudy all day but no more rain. We might venture outside. I forgot my meds yesterday for work. I meant to grab them on the way out the door but I forgot. Fortunately I was only working the gas window/ courtesy counter so I was out a decent time. It was still six hours after my designated time but there it is. I still need to take my morning dose.

I had a guy come in with some really cool jewelry yesterday. It turns out they are just down the road from work. I really haven’t traveled much down the road from work (Alden). I know there are a lot of cool places to shop and wander. I might go before (or after) Chris gets up. The craftsmanship on the jewelry was just gorgeous! I am worried about prices (and how much I might spend) but….

Sun?! Yay! It’s trying to shove it’s way through the clouds! I seriously think I might go out today. I think I might bring my camera with as well. I guess the bag too that way I can switch out lenses. I only seem to photograph around the house. I am going to wrap this up so I can take care of a few things before I head out for a bit. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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The Inside of My Eye Lids

Not sure how coherent this will be. I can barely keep my eyes open. Too much happened yesterday. I am falling asleep as I write this. Not that you aren’t good company, you are. I am just that tired. I have a little more than an hour before I leave for my next meeting. I missed last night’s because I was too stressed over Essie. She is now on medication similar to mine. She has arthritis in her back and hips.

To add to it all I thought it would be a good idea to mow the yard last night. It was supposed to rain last night (it did not) as well as Thursday (we’ll see). It’s pretty dark out there right now (I just got a rain notification on my phone). Oh damn. I think that was thunder….

I got done with mowing well after dark (I wish the mower had a headlight) so I hope it all looks decent. I did the front yard first while there was still light so it’s just the back that might be off. There are new flowers blooming in the yard. I got a ton of photos yesterday so I will share as many as I can over the next few days.

The light this morning is reversing itself. Instead of getting lighter it is getting darker. I wouldn’t be able to see my keyboard if it wasn’t backlit right now. I’m going to try to add some photos and then take another hour to nap before I need to go. Sorry this is all over the place. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Some Forward Motion

Today looks like a good day to spend outside. I finally have a day off with sunshine and the temperature is going up. We will water the plants (I am so proud of all my plants as they are doing AMAZINGLY well… even if a damn chipmunk ate my peppers that were growing). I have to admit that I am concerned about my sunflower plants that are coming up in the rock garden. I don’t want them to get eaten. I might even put my swing back up. Chris has it rigged so that I can just pop the knot out when I need to bring it in. It is very clever and very easy for me to do. If the weather looks good for the next few days I think it will go back up.

I am trying not to think of the “mad rush” that will happen this afternoon and evening. It’s not that big of a deal but it is to me. especially since I am worried about Essie. That just makes the stress about having the vet visit then leaving for the meeting a few hours later (depending on how long our visit lasts). I just feel like I am always running on my days off.

I think I might pull out a few of my research books for the novel and see if that will help. What needs to happen is that I need to learn about my characters. I have a great story but very thin characters. I don’t know them. I know about them. I’m not sure what to do about fixing that. I need more support characters as well. But right now everyone is just a bunch of names and circumstances.

Essie is bugging me to get outside and play. Stella will join in as soon as it is obvious that I am putting the laptop away. Right now she is asleep on the couch with her head on the arm. And since I am grasping for words to write I should probably wrap this up. I hope you all have a fab day! Stay safe and thanks for reading!

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So Much

The sun is out and shining and I just want to go back to sleep. Part medicine and part everything going on. (I just lost a few sentences and I have no Idea what happened.) I am hoping a shower helps. I am manager today so I need to be functional. I have tomorrow “off” but Essie has an appointment and I have a meeting that night. I also need to get the article written. Grrrrr…. It says that the meeting will also be via Zoom yet the paperwork distinctly says that there will be no link. WTF?! You can’t have it both ways people! Feeling like I do I would prefer the Zoom but I guess I am driving again.

I was going to try to come home early last night from work but it turned out that I was the closing cashier. I would get teary off and on. There is just some much going on. it sounds like Essie had a bit of a hard day yesterday. I noticed a few times after I got home that she would try to get up from sitting and just end up moving sideways and laying down because she couldn’t get up. It breaks my heart. So I guess we’ll see what we see on Monday. I am grateful that the vet will let me pay later. I think this will be an expensive visit. But Essie is worth it. They all have been.

I guess I should finish this and get in the shower so I can get ready for work. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Longing For Home

It was a good and restful night with Stella snuggled up on my pillow (only on the one side, she didn’t take up much room) and Essie along my legs and back. The only real disturbance was when Essie was stretching she was getting closer to my lower back and tailbone until she finally did kick it and caused severe pain. I was able to roll over and get my tailbone out of reach but it hurt from then on. I didn’t get mad because she to is in severe chronic pain and has been my shadow through this. Monday we’ll figure out what to do to ease her pain a bit. I know it won’t ever all go away but I want her to be able to do more if she wants to.

I keep forgetting to write a piece for the local paper, The Porcupine Press. I hope she will remember me but ultimately it will have to be my writing that speaks for me. If I write crap it won’t matter how memorable I was it won’t get published. I am wondering if I should use some of my vacation time soon. It’s only 20 hours but that would give me an extra couple of days off. But we are still in the busy season so I should probably wait. Maybe closer to my birthday.

Today I just really want to stay home and relax. I have to wait until Thursday to do that. I have Monday off but that afternoon is Essie’s appointment and then that evening I have a meeting. Followed by a meeting the next morning. Hang on. I hear a plane. Ok it’s not my plane apparently. Lol. I have a plane that will fly over several times if I happen to be laying out on a sunny day. No I am not offended. I feel a bit gratified to be on someone’s flight plane. And I find it a bit funny.

I had a very cool photo op this morning. Essie and I got up and went outside to greet the day. Essie was all alert and doing her thing. She quietly made her way to the back fence and just stood there. When I looked up there was a huge deer on the other side of the fence! I quietly stole back into the house (thankfully the telephoto lens was still on the Nikon), popped the cap off the end and stole back. I got a few photos before they bolted. Yes they. It turns out there was a second deer that I didn’t see a foot or so away hidden behind a bush. I snapped a few more photos but I don’t think I caught much. I’ll share the best ones.

The morning is slipping by too fast. I need to wrap this up and get some outside time in. I have three new plants to foster. Chris laughed at me when I brought them in last night. I told him it was either plants or puppies! 😁 I hope you all have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!