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Hocus Pocus I Can’t Focus

I was in a panic earlier this morning as I had to reenter all my information for unemployment.  I am still a little anxious as I am not completely sure about the dates I entered being correct.  I am currently trying to breathe my way back to calm.  I have Stella rapped around a foot as she sleeps.  Moose is nearby but facing the window.  Essie I think is in the living room in the big dog bed.

Today is the day I take the Jeep to get looked at.  I am anxious because if this is going to be a major repair session it is going to get expensive.  Hopefully our mechanic got back safely from his road trip.  I will text him once I finish with this.  I’m glad I didn’t start worrying about this last night.

I need to get myself together today.  I have things that need to be done and I keep putting things off.  Like my class work.  I still have plenty of time but I have the basics done all I need to do it tweak it and submit it.  It shouldn’t take any time at all.  Unless I procrastinate and then it can take countless hours.  I got all kinds of stuff done around the house for the family but doodlely was done for myself (other than read the new book… and that was supposed to wait until I finished reading my surfing book).

I wrote a to do list last night in bed.  Hopefully I can stick with it.  I have a meeting to cover tonight.  I hope and pray that I can get the Zoom connection to work.  I’ve not reported on this meeting the past two months because the link would not work for me.  I need to just sit down and do things instead of well-maybe-later.

I didn’t take a single photo yesterday.  The funny thing is Essie will pose for the camera but if I am using the phone camera she looks away.

The first photo is with my phone. So I set it down and got my camera. The second photo is with the camera. I didn’t even have to ask her to look at me.

The dogs are getting antsy and I am not far behind. I’m gonna wrap this up. Thanks for reading! Stay safe and have a great day!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Love, Thinking, Writing

Finding the Motivation

The rain has gone away.  Yesterday was a much welcome cloudy with rain off and on all day.  It did cool things off a bit.  Back down to normal summer heat for a day.  The temperatures will be right back up there today.  And I am ok with that.

I seem to have run into a mental dry spell over the last few days.  No writing other than this and my journal.  I’ve been lugging one of my guitars around with the appropriate paperwork to practice playing but I’ve done nothing past tuning the guitar.  I have read a bit in the new book.  I seem to not only lost my drive but my focus as well.  I was moving forward with great strides and now… inertia.

Moose definitely has kidney disease so I ordered more kibble yesterday.  I got the lamb since he doesn’t seem too fond of the chicken flavor.  We’ll see how he does.  Essie didn’t eat this morning.  She started getting me up around 6am to go outside in a hurry.  I left the door open for her.  She had to go back out maybe an hour later.  Then once we got up for the day She went directly outside.  Moose wouldn’t eat either.  I wonder if it is because Essie wouldn’t.  He’s in here with me and I can hear his tummy doing hungry rumbles.  I worry that Essie’s cancer is more severe than we think.  They said they got it all out with the lump but I’m not so sure.  And her surgery scar isn’t healing correctly.  Part of it keeps getting opened back up.  Now that Moose has been taken care of I need to call and ask them about her.  That will have to wait until Monday.  Monday I am also dropping the Jeep off for Chuck to look at.  Soooo….

I feel so busy but I know I have plenty of free time if  I choose to use it.  I just need to not do other things, like watch tv.  Moose is dreaming.  It sounds like it is on the border of becoming a nightmare with the sounds he is making.  I am keeping the house up as well as the gardens this year (so much easier and rewarding being able to stay home).  But will I let myself blow off writing?  That is part of the reason I opted to pay for the course instead of taking the free version.  The other part is that I can get feedback from other writers.  If you take the free course you are limited as to what you can do.  If I pay for it and don’t do anything then I am wasting money.  If I take the free version I can blow it off because it “doesn’t count” for anything.  That’s what I did with the guitar class.  So I need to find my way.

On that note I need to get something written before Chris gets up for the day.  He wants to do some running together.  I would rather stay home but it is time together.  Thanks for reading!  Stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Guitar, Learning, Life, Thinking, Writing

Up Too Early

It is a dark early morning.  The rain started a little yesterday but got serious in the wee hours of the morning.  I managed to get maybe a half hour out of each hour since 2am.  I finally gave up around 6am.  I didn’t get much done yesterday.  My mind was restless.  I know part of it is worrying about Moose’s test results today.  He goes back in to have his diagnosis of kidney disease verified.

I’m glad I checked the master bathroom before I shut the door when I got up this morning.  I noticed that the bathroom door was partly open.  I figured something spooked Stella and she had gone in there.  I looked in before I shut the door again and there she was still curled up on the floor on one of my rugs.

I got no further in my classwork.  I got my guitar tuned and cleaned up.  I pulled out my notes and diagrams for my guitar class.  And that is all I got done.  I had intended to write a review for The Fishermen this week as well.  Nada.  I am disappointed in myself but not.  I will just keep trying today.

I’m not sure what today holds but I will give it a shot.  Atleast I don’t have to water the gardens today!  Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Creativity, dreams, Emotions, family, Guitar, Learning, Life, Love, Thinking, Writing

Guess Who’s Taking Classes…

Today’s big news is that I signed up for an online class.  Actually classes.  It’s a creative writing collection of courses through Coursera.  I am paying for them so I will get a certification at the end.  Chris didn’t seem too enthused when I told him.  He thought I would go for a photography class.  I don’t think he sees the use in me taking this course since I already know how to write stories.  His second guess when I said I was taking writing classes was journalism.  He knows I can earn money doing that so that would be normal to guess.  But creative writing seems like a waste to him.  Mind you he’s said none of this.  This is all what I am reading into his response.  I didn’t mention that I was paying for the courses.  (You can take all the courses on there for free but you won’t get certified and you might not be able to access everything available in the course.)

I am taking the classes because I am hoping that talking with other creative writers I can get more consistent with my writing.  And I am stuck in my novel so I am hoping that I can use that over the course exercises and get that back on track.  I already have ideas after the first class.  It started yesterday.  I have done everything but write the 250-350 word story and critique others.  I cranked out a rough draft last night before bed (one of the reasons I didn’t get to bed until almost 1am) and I hope to tweak it today and get it submitted.  The twist for it is that they have listed 12 random words and you need to use atleast 6 of them in every other sentence to create movement.  I got a bug after watched a bunch of diverse short documentaries last night.

So that is where I am right now.  This morning I feel a bit run down.  I felt like this last night so not sure if it is merely the continual heat or just me coming down with something.  I think I will wrap this up and go read or work on some writing.  Oh and they are letting me finish the guitar class if I want to (I was almost done before I stopped… maybe one or two hours of work left I think) so I guess I’d better tune the guitars back up and get at it.

Thanks so much for reading and thank you for your thoughtful comments!  Stay safe and have a great day!

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Feeling Very Zen

This morning I am writing from my office desk instead of in the living room.  It feels different but comfortable.  Moose is sleeping behind me on the floor.  The girls are in their usual spots in the living room.  Stella wandered in a bit ago to see what was up.  Moose followed me in and has been here the whole time.

There are things I still need to tweak in here (my orchid is on my desk but I may move it as it is sort of taking up room… not a lot but we’ll see).  I also thought of another shelving unit I can put in the master bathroom to help get some of my book piles off the floor.  It does feel rather peaceful in here.

I find that I am calmer and more open lately.  Anxiety attacks are all but gone.  I am making a conscious effort to move forward with myself.  I am less tense and less of a worry wart which is a very welcome change.  I am able to appreciate the moment instead of play “what if” all the time.  The heat has also helped.  Because it is so hot there is not much you want to do.  So I am reading more and I am reading new books.  I’m not rereading comfort books to lose myself in familiar territory.

I found a Netflix series that uses the same story idea that I started with for one of my current stories.  I am going through that to see what they did, mostly for ideas and to make sure that I don’t use the same things in my story.  I am very excited as I have gotten a few ideas of my own from watching.  I sit with my notebook and fountain pen handy as I see how the story unfolds.  It is Italian but dubbed.  I am of two minds about it.  Dubbed means I can take in the whole experience without trying to rush to read the bottom of the screen before quickly taking in as much as I can of the background and what is going on before I have to read the next line on the bottom of the screen.  The other side of that is that I would like to learn Italian and I do enjoy the sound of the language.

I have to be careful that I don’t spend all

my time in front of the tv in this heat.  It is easy to do since the AC is right there in the window.  I try to get out in the yard.  If nothing else I water Minion’s garden under the tree and set up the sprinkler here and there as needed.  And of course take photos.  I got some beautiful ones of the sky last night.  I even got the colors!

I see that this post is a bit longer than usual.  I will add some photos from yesterday and upload for you reading pleasure.  Thanks for reading and stay safe!

 

There is a dragon fly landing to the left on the tiger lilies.

Creativity, Learning, Life, Thinking, Writing

Cleanliness to Help the Writing Process

Yesterday ended up being a highly productive day.  Once I finished this I went and cleaned up my office, cleaned out my library (this is actually a walk in closet that I have put bookshelves etc in), vacuumed the whole house, washed the kitchen floors and cleaned a bunch of the windows (I focused on the ones that had the most dog snot on them).  I’m not sure why I am continuing to write out here in the living room.  I do want to write in my office.  It feels “right” again.  I supposed the simple answers are the AC is out here and the kids are too.  But the kids would come in my room if I went in there.  Sooooo…. Habit then.

Since I have done a lot around the house I guess I can focus on writing today.  And since I am feeling  little better some yoga.  I pulled out my yoga mat and block from my office when I cleaned yesterday.  Chris was shocked when he came in my office and saw everything I got done before he got up.  When I finished vacuuming he was nice enough to blow out the various filters from the vacuum for me.  He got a crash course on how to take it apart and put it back together.  The house does feel better.  I am trying not to look around and see other things that need to be done.  I try to clean every day but when the bug bites I try to go with it and that’s when I tackle the bigger projects.  That being said I also need to make sure that I don’t lose myself in that and not write.

I found that I don’t write in the current journal as much.  Part of it is because I am getting to the end and I am anxious to start using a new journal.  The other part just dawned on me the other day.  It’s too small.  The pages are too narrow and my writing feels confined.  Writing a page at night in a spiral notebook or something of that size I feel I can get it all said.  Even if I go on for a few pages in this journal I feel confined.  I got it because it was smaller and easier to cart around.  I guess that I need to pay attention from now on.

I think I will wrap this up and see what kind of trouble I can get into on paper.  Thanks for reading!  Stay safe and have a great day!

Animals, Dogs, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Nature

New Adventures In the Garden

This is way early for me.  I have been awake for about to hours now.  I gave up laying in bed around 6am.  Even the dogs slowly trickled out of the bedroom.  It took them a few minutes to decide if they would get up with me.  I managed to get everyone to eat.  Essie did not eat at all yesterday.

Despite the heat and humidity here I did get a lot done outside.  One of my water hoses blew so I went to the store to replace it.  Not with what I wanted but I had to have something to reach the back yard (our only outdoor spigot is at the front of the house).  I also got a big and long planter box that I repotted the lone tomato plant, basil plant and a small cluster of green pepper plants all grown from seeds.  I repotted the orange pip that had sprouted to find that all of the orange pips had started to grow.  They are in a bigger pot and the dirt is Miracle Grow so hopefully that will encourage all of them to keep growing.  After I repotted them I let them sit for a little bit to get settled before I watered them.  Everyone seemed pretty happy this morning.  All the plants are green and standing upright.  I was worried because it got a little chilly overnight.  I also got two small metal fences to go around my smaller rose bushes that are out in the yard so the kids don’t run through them.

I made a discovery yesterday afternoon.  We have tadpoles in the small pond!  Over the course of the morning a nasty smelling chunky scum had come to the top of the water.  It smelled like someone forgot to flush the toilet after a few hours in the heat.  I decided to try to flush it out with the hose and replace it with clean water (the ponds never stay clean past a few days).  As I was watching the new water go in and the old water drain I saw something swimming.  Chris heard me say, “What the hell was that?!” and came to see.  It turned out there were a ton of tadpoles living in there!  Our ponds are manmade in plastic rims (this is what was here when we moved in).  We get maybe a frog every summer for atleast a month or so.  Earlier this year we had peepers.  The tadpoles look too big to be peepers but I guess we will find out.  I stopped filling the pond because it was stunning and killing the tadpoles.  So we will have to deal with the nastiness until they are grown.  I think out of all the ones I saw on the water only eight or so were actually dead.  Soooo… another new adventure!

So I did get a lot accomplished even if I did continually get overheated (damn hot flashes on top of heat and humidity… I can deal with one or the other but both make me sweat too much and feel sick).  Not sure what today will hold.  Today is Dad’s birthday.  He turns 78 years old.  We are going to try to talk later today.  Chris wants to go to the range and shoot guns for a bit plus there is some running we want to do.  Well I see that I have gone on for a bit.  Thanks for reading!  Stay safe and have a great day!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, family, Food, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Writing

Butterflies and Writing

As I write this everyone is up.  Chris has gotten up because allergies.  The kids are up and about because Chris is up so that means that they don’t have to be quiet.  Meanwhile I am trying to do this (for once I am on time) but the dogs are insisting that I play because Chris is up.  Stella has gotten the hint and has gone outside to lay in the sun with her ball.  Essie and Moose have gone into Chris’s office with him.

I read through all of the current issue of Poets and Writers and am currently going through the current issue of Writer’s Digest.  I seem to be supplementing with various research books on werewolves.  I’m not sure why.  That is what seems to have pull for me right now.  So maybe I will incorporate this in the short story?  I hadn’t intended to but it might be a good spin to put on s cursed village.  I’ll keep reading and writing and see what happens.

Dad and I had a nice talk yesterday.  I had to hang up with him because my phone kept getting hotter and hotter.  I am hoping if I replace the battery all will be well.  I don’t want to get another phone.  So for now I will keep an eye on the phone.  I have to get the Jeep in for repairs first.  Hopefully Tuesday or so I will be able to get it in.  Chris’s truck is supposed to be done Monday.

I am afraid to turn the AC on.  It was making weird noises last night so I turned it off.  I is on most of the time either as a fan or for actual AC.  We could be down to no AC (which is bad with the dogs) and no dishwasher.  Luxuries to be sure but the AC is what I am most concerned with because of the dogs.  It can get very hot in the house even with the windows open.  None of them enjoy water other than to drink so putting out the kiddie pool that we had for Minion won’t make a difference.  And there is only so much ice that can be made at a time.

We had a monarch butterfly in the yard yesterday.  So that makes three different kinds of butterfly.  I need to get a reference so I can tell the difference instead of just by color.  I know that there is a butterfly that is similar to the monarch but the pattern on the wings is slightly different.  I always enjoy learning stuff like that.  I wasn’t able to get many pictures but I got a few.

I’m going to wrap this up.  I need to get to the grocery store for things for dinner.  I will download a few photos before I go.  I am frustrated with the monarch photos because whenever I pressed the shutter button the photos would go out of focus. Thanks for reading!  Stay safe!  I hope you have a great day!

Animals, Dogs, Friends, History, Learning, Life, Nature, Thinking

Looking For a Rhythm

The sun was out for a bit but now we are back to the cold grey skies and rain.  I do see blue sky here and there.  The temperature is supposed to hit 70F (21C) today.  I know I am looking forward to it.  Not a big fan of fall weather in the middle of my summer.  I also need to empty the excess water from the potted plants.  Again.  I’m sure I’ll be mowing this week as well but that I don’t mind.  The joys of having a riding mower. 🙂

The meeting last night was another long one.  But I find it interesting to listen and watch the process of local government.  Chris teases me about how much I’ve picked up since starting with the paper (in a good way).  As a kid my friends and I would go sit in on the court cases then go home and do our own.  We would rotate who was judge, prosecuting attorney and defense attorney.  We really had fun with that.  One year it was most of our summer.

I was able to get some more writing done on my new story yesterday.  So far so good!  I am struggling not to get lost in the details.  Things that I can look up later to clarify or change.  I am just trying to get the story all down first.  I know I will get lost in the research on this one.  lol  Too interesting to let myself just look up this or that.

I can’t seem to stop yawning this morning.  One cup of coffee is not going to help.  Moose keeps looking at me hopefully to see if I am done since I spent so much time on here this morning with the article then this.  So I suppose I had better wrap this up and get them outside to play a bit.  Hopefully the weather does warm up as promised (the furnace has actually gone on a few times since last night).  The kids and I are tired of being stuck inside all day.  I hope you have a great day!  Thanks for reading and stay safe!

 

Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography

Adding Color

Yesterday was a full day wrapped up with the weirdest weather I’ve seen.  I got the weed whip out and took care of the yard, I got a lot of house cleaning done, laundry done  and put away, as well as dishes swapped out.  The kids went to bed tired from all the playing outside.

The weather… yeah it was a weird one last night.  To the south was blue sky and white puffy clouds.  To the north it was dark like it wanted to storm.  Then it would switch places.  It was like it was slowly swirling above us.  The catch was that the skies to the south were moving from the west to the east or counter clockwise.  The skies to the north were moving from west to east or clockwise.  It was very bizarre to watch.  And a bit scary at times as the wind would pick up and whip the trees and such around.  This phenonium lasted a few hours.  I did get a lot of cool cloud photos as well.

All the plants are inside for the time being as it is supposed to get down toward freezing tonight.  Last night wasn’t much warmer.  Hopefully the weekend will hold more summer weather.  Chris is working six days a week still.  Hopefully he can enjoy Sunday.  I don’t know if he’s going to strip the project bike down or not this weekend.  I know more parts have been ordered.  It sounds like he plans to have it ready to ride this summer.  I figured maybe a year or so so pull it all together.  Nay nay!  But I am glad.  It gives him something fun to focus on.

I still have yet to download photos onto the laptop.  Which reminds me that I should download a few for this blog.  I have been clicking away but not doing anything with the results.  I started going through the Dummies Guide for the camera yesterday.  I am making myself read everything even if I already know it to make sure I don’t miss anything. There were a few doo dads on the camera I didn’t know I had let alone what they were that I would’ve missed had I not read everything.

Ok, I will pick out a few pics to share on here and go do something outside.  Thanks for reading!  Stay safe!