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Looking Things Over

I am still tired this morning. We seem to get up at 9am instead of 8am (or even the 7am) that we used to. Some days I feel rushed while others seem to go ok. Then a long shift at work, come home and do it all again the next day. I like my job but I try to play with the girls when I get home because they have been inactive (I assume) the long time I’ve been gone. I try to play with them a little in the morning before I leave as well. But this morning? We’ll see.

We finally had another hummingbird yesterday. I’m not sure what happened. I was faithful about changing the feeder out and washing it. So I once again washed everything out and put fresh sugar water in. Now we wait. Lots of butterflies though. I am really looking forward to getting my Monarch tattoo. That will be on the 18th of August. I’ll share photos the following day.

Yesterday also was a good long chat with Dad. When we hung up he was in a very good mood and smiling. We had various trips down memory lane and I also got him up to speed with various happenings at my end. He is starting to get out more and experience his world rather than stay cooped up in his apartment. That is helping his mental attitude as well.

As for me I got laundry going, mowed the front lawn (after my four hour chat with Dad) and even spent time on my novel. The girls and I played off and on through out the day. I always feel that it’s never enough compared to what they should be getting. I also got a few photos in the yard.

I suppose I should wrap this up so I can get some stuff (quietly) done around here before I leave for work. Chris is still asleep so I will try to entertain the girls quietly. I also need to check all the plants inside and out to see who needs to be watered. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Focused Randomness

I am beginning to think that Mother Nature has something against me. Once again nothing but sun and warmth when I work. Today? Supposed to be partly sunny and warm. But what do I have? Think dark clouds and chilly weather. I seem to get no summer on my days off. And I could really use some summer today.

I looked at my calendar for the month of August. It is very very full. I made mention of this to my boss yesterday. He seemed completely unconcerned and said that it was no biggie. We would work through it. A completely different response than I would’ve gotten at Younker’s.

My mind is jumping all over the place this morning. I had a strange dream that I remember a good deal of. Including two books that I needed to have in the dream, which I happen to own so I have dug one of them out. The other (I think) is in the bedroom so that will have to wait until Chris gets up. I find that if my mind shows me specific things it is for a reason. So in certain situations I will try to find those things and interact with them. In this case read.

I have been given an extra push to keep going on my novels. A coworker not only has published a book (apparently several) but we are selling them at work. Jealous does not begin to cover my feelings. That being said I am trying to use that to keep going and finish my novels. So wish me luck!

My problem is that there is so much to do on my days off because there is so little time to do anything on the days that I work. And it’s big things like mowing the yard (Chris has very bad allergies) or vacuuming or talking to either of my parents (our phone calls are usually several hours… thank goodness we aren’t charged by the minute anymore!). There is only so much that I can cram into one day. So I try to pick and choose. Some days I just get too overwhelmed and nothing gets done.

Well I need to make some choices. One of them is to wrap this up so I can get going on something else. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Refunds and New Plans

Well I came home to an unexpected blessing last night. My meeting is not tonight but next week. So I get TWO days off from both jobs this week! And after Sunday’s chaos I am very very grateful! So I get to break up my various projects between two days. (Although next week won’t be so kind. Essie’s check up is Monday afternoon and the meeting is Tuesday night so I will have two days off in a row but something on each day.) I am excited to get things started.

My two books from Amazon arrived yesterday. Finally. I had to reorder them. They were shipped but deemed “undeliverable” for some reason. So I reordered them. I am supposed to get a refund for the first order. I’ve not seen it yet so I am worried that someone saw that the same books arrived and assumed that it was the same order. I think I will message them today to see what is going on…. I am on now. The individual at the other end of the conversation is trying to flirt. I just want my money back. 🙄 Aaaand I don’t know if the person understands that I did not receive the first order. Sigh….

I had hoped for sunshine today. But I guess Mother Nature decided otherwise. Since I started this the clouds have thickened and the temperature is dropping. Oh well. So do I take my swing out and put it up? I didn’t think it was supposed to rain today. It looks like it will try to shortly though.

Well that worked. I will get my refund. The email said 3-5 business days and it has been longer than that. So hopefully since a human did it it will happen. The weather app says no rain just clouds but these clouds say rain. I guess I could push my luck and water the back gardens. I also need to check the inside plants. We have three more tomatoes to eat! Yay!

I suppose I should wrap this up. One more cup of coffee and I will write back to my pen pal in the States. Maybe read a little. But I really want to be outside so maybe I will sneak out and put up my swing. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Little Here And A Little There

Another day. It’s cloudy but the sun is filtering through. I am hoping the day at work goes fast like it did yesterday. I am just plain tired. Weekends are always hard for me. I usually close and on Sundays I am usually always manager. I get home late and stay up even later to spend time with the family. I don’t get much sleep because I have to get up at a relatively decent time to get everything done before I head back out. I am grateful that I only live about 5-10 minutes from work. If I was doing this and working in Traverse (especially this time of the year with all the tourists) I would barely be functioning.

We got our first batch of tomatoes from the plants the other day. They have been ripening about one a day. The average size is about the size of a tennis ball. They are very sweet! I am looking forward to more treats from our gardens this year. I am very excited to see how the pumpkins do. i need more dirt so I can plant some hot peppers (the seeds are a variety pack). I plan to do those in pots so I can keep them year round.

I got a lot done yesterday before work on my novel. It doesn’t look like much but I am pleased. This is gonna take a while at the current rate though. I am just too tired most days to even attempt working on it. But I want to keep going at it. I know we will slow down once summer is over (which sucks because I haven’t really been able to enjoy my favorite time of year and I have plenty of time during the season I am not very fond of) and I will have more free time.

I got a letter from one of my pen pals and I want to read it before I have to go to work. So I need to wrap this up. I will share some more photos from my little trip on Thursday. Have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Quiet Sunny Morning…. Mostly

Despite the sun we are all a bit sleepy. Well maybe not…. Stella is sitting beside me giving me the eye. She has been yawning but she keeps easing closer to me to get love and give kisses. Essie is still snoozing in front of the bedroom door. The morning is quiet. The birds and bugs are doing their thing. Unfortunately it sounds like a neighbor has lost power. I hear a rather large generator going next door. Which kind of crushes the groove of relaxing in the natural quiet.

The coffee tastes good this morning. It makes things feel warm and homey. I am mentally trying to gear myself up to write once I am done with this. Not go out into the garden and weed. Not play with the dogs (atleast not too much). Not fiddle around the house picking up this or that. I need to get back into the writing groove. Back into the habit.

Tonight I am the closing manager at work. I don’t go in until 1pm today. I close tomorrow too but I have to be there at noon. Which is atleast a 10 hour day. We’ll see how late I can stay up. I shouldn’t but I want to write in the morning and again at night to see which works better for me. At first blush I would say morning because I won’t be tired from work mentally. But I might have better luck at night because the creative juices might be going from something that happened that day. And I might end up rotating through both times of day.

My bracelet arrived yesterday from adopting a shark. His name is Babu and he is a Great Hammerhead shark. I get to track him as well. I was very excited! I have also adopted a wolf, a bee and an elephant over the years. Quite the menagerie! Lol

I need to wrap this up and get writing on my novel. I think I will try to tackle a character today. See who they are and what makes them tick. Wish me luck! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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New Things, Old Feelings

Well I did it yesterday. After Chris got up I went to the art fair. I got some beautiful photos of the area. I had forgotten how much being by the water meant to me. As soon as I heard the waves on the sand I teared up. So much good has come when I am by water.

I also met some fabulous artists. The craftsmanship on so many of those pieces was AMAZING! It’s like when someone cooks something. You can feel the love and happiness put into the food. It is the same with the art. There were some there that had just as beautiful things but they felt different. So I got a few pieces from the ones that I liked. I wanted more believe me! I got business cards from each stall that I went to (one I didn’t have the funds to purchase her silver rings but there were a few rings that I really wanted) so I could either get more or just promote their stuff. All were very nice and explained about their art as well as the process.

As I said I took a ton of photos while I was there. Not of the event but of the area it took place. There were huge gnarly, wizened trees along the short cliff above the shoreline. There was the changing colors of the water as the depth below changed. There were the flowers (a magnificent red day lily that I found and now want). There was the ever changing shoreline as the waves rolled in. All this calmed and centered me. It made me happy.

I will share as many as I can over the coming days (there are a LOT of photos… I ran out the battery on my Nikon and took a bunch on my phone). Let me know what you think. I am excited because I now have some thing new to add to my photography web site! Thanks for reading and have a fab day! Stay safe!

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Possibilities

It has finally stopped raining and the temperature is going up. I don’t mind the storms (even if the girls do get spooked) but for me it’s all in the timing. In the wee hours of the morning just is not a good time for me. Everyone was falling asleep when the first rumbles started. It got louder and continued for a few hours. When Chris got home we were in bed with the light on. Now both are curled up asleep.

It is supposed to be cloudy all day but no more rain. We might venture outside. I forgot my meds yesterday for work. I meant to grab them on the way out the door but I forgot. Fortunately I was only working the gas window/ courtesy counter so I was out a decent time. It was still six hours after my designated time but there it is. I still need to take my morning dose.

I had a guy come in with some really cool jewelry yesterday. It turns out they are just down the road from work. I really haven’t traveled much down the road from work (Alden). I know there are a lot of cool places to shop and wander. I might go before (or after) Chris gets up. The craftsmanship on the jewelry was just gorgeous! I am worried about prices (and how much I might spend) but….

Sun?! Yay! It’s trying to shove it’s way through the clouds! I seriously think I might go out today. I think I might bring my camera with as well. I guess the bag too that way I can switch out lenses. I only seem to photograph around the house. I am going to wrap this up so I can take care of a few things before I head out for a bit. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Some Forward Motion

Today looks like a good day to spend outside. I finally have a day off with sunshine and the temperature is going up. We will water the plants (I am so proud of all my plants as they are doing AMAZINGLY well… even if a damn chipmunk ate my peppers that were growing). I have to admit that I am concerned about my sunflower plants that are coming up in the rock garden. I don’t want them to get eaten. I might even put my swing back up. Chris has it rigged so that I can just pop the knot out when I need to bring it in. It is very clever and very easy for me to do. If the weather looks good for the next few days I think it will go back up.

I am trying not to think of the “mad rush” that will happen this afternoon and evening. It’s not that big of a deal but it is to me. especially since I am worried about Essie. That just makes the stress about having the vet visit then leaving for the meeting a few hours later (depending on how long our visit lasts). I just feel like I am always running on my days off.

I think I might pull out a few of my research books for the novel and see if that will help. What needs to happen is that I need to learn about my characters. I have a great story but very thin characters. I don’t know them. I know about them. I’m not sure what to do about fixing that. I need more support characters as well. But right now everyone is just a bunch of names and circumstances.

Essie is bugging me to get outside and play. Stella will join in as soon as it is obvious that I am putting the laptop away. Right now she is asleep on the couch with her head on the arm. And since I am grasping for words to write I should probably wrap this up. I hope you all have a fab day! Stay safe and thanks for reading!

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Longing For Home

It was a good and restful night with Stella snuggled up on my pillow (only on the one side, she didn’t take up much room) and Essie along my legs and back. The only real disturbance was when Essie was stretching she was getting closer to my lower back and tailbone until she finally did kick it and caused severe pain. I was able to roll over and get my tailbone out of reach but it hurt from then on. I didn’t get mad because she to is in severe chronic pain and has been my shadow through this. Monday we’ll figure out what to do to ease her pain a bit. I know it won’t ever all go away but I want her to be able to do more if she wants to.

I keep forgetting to write a piece for the local paper, The Porcupine Press. I hope she will remember me but ultimately it will have to be my writing that speaks for me. If I write crap it won’t matter how memorable I was it won’t get published. I am wondering if I should use some of my vacation time soon. It’s only 20 hours but that would give me an extra couple of days off. But we are still in the busy season so I should probably wait. Maybe closer to my birthday.

Today I just really want to stay home and relax. I have to wait until Thursday to do that. I have Monday off but that afternoon is Essie’s appointment and then that evening I have a meeting. Followed by a meeting the next morning. Hang on. I hear a plane. Ok it’s not my plane apparently. Lol. I have a plane that will fly over several times if I happen to be laying out on a sunny day. No I am not offended. I feel a bit gratified to be on someone’s flight plane. And I find it a bit funny.

I had a very cool photo op this morning. Essie and I got up and went outside to greet the day. Essie was all alert and doing her thing. She quietly made her way to the back fence and just stood there. When I looked up there was a huge deer on the other side of the fence! I quietly stole back into the house (thankfully the telephoto lens was still on the Nikon), popped the cap off the end and stole back. I got a few photos before they bolted. Yes they. It turns out there was a second deer that I didn’t see a foot or so away hidden behind a bush. I snapped a few more photos but I don’t think I caught much. I’ll share the best ones.

The morning is slipping by too fast. I need to wrap this up and get some outside time in. I have three new plants to foster. Chris laughed at me when I brought them in last night. I told him it was either plants or puppies! 😁 I hope you all have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Today’s Challenges

I went to sleep with a headache and woke up with one. I even had fun in my dreams which usually dispels any stress headaches. So is it the weather or just stubborn? I know I went to bed frustrated with my novel. Writing in general if I am honest. I am not happy with myself or my work. Yesterday sparkled in front of me like a happy dream. A whole two days to do whatever I wanted. But I didn’t do that. Instead I did dishes, laundry, swept and washed the kitchen floor (I even scrubbed on my hands and knees…. yes stupid idea with my back but there we are), paid bills, set up appointments for today and played with the girls. No writing at all was in there. And when I did pull it all out I hit a mental wall. Now I have today off but it will pretty much be filled. I have appointments and running to do. (I’m not looking forward to the meeting tonight. The drive and I won’t be able to sit in the chairs with my tailbone.) I find myself feeling very glum.

Now I know that there will be spare moments. But I honestly think those spare moments will be spent trying to breathe. I just feel rushed and overwhelmed. Even when I’m not. Today will be busy but everything can fit and get done. Things might not be comfortable (I whine about going to the meeting but the driving that I have to do before that will be worse and I have no idea if I can sit when we go out for lunch this afternoon) but things will work out. But I still need time to breathe and not feel overwhelmed. And writing. I need to get back to that too. All I seem to do is this and my personal journal. There’s all the writing stuff that should/needs to be done for others. There is a lot that I just need to let go of. I missed the boat and need to move on. I still haven’t done anything for the editor of the local paper that offered to look at my writing for possible publication. (In my defense work has been hugely busy since she and I talked.) There is just so much…..

Today is another rain filled day. I had hoped to use my new swing (yes the same one I fell out of and broke my tailbone) but no joy. Both girls are asleep. Atleast the plants outside have gotten a good stead watering. I am training some of the beans to go up the tree they are planted under. The pumpkin seeds have taken off so I think we will have a bumper crop this fall. Good thing I know people with kids! (I got the big jack-o-lantern type of pumpkin seeds.)

I see that I have gone on at length. Thanks for listening… I will share some cool photos. One is of an Imperial moth that has been hanging out on our back door for the past day or so. He is as big as the palm of my hand! Beautiful too! I think the poor thing is trying to dry off (good luck in this weather!). I was tempted to move it say under the roof of the motorcycle pad but I didn’t want to do the wrong thing. So now I just try to be careful when I go in and out of the house.

See? There I go again. Chattering away… Ok so I am wrapping this up (I tell myself sternly). Thanks for reading and stay safe!