Emotions, Learning, Life, Love, Motorcycles, Photography, Riding, Thinking

And A Riding I Will Go

The goal today is to ride the motorcycle to work. Yep. And I don’t pick a nice day to do it (then I beat myself up if I don’t do it). No, I pick a cold day with frost in the morning. To ease the guilt if I back out? Maybe. Regardless I got all my gear etc laid out and ready last night so I don’t have to do anything but go today. As simple as just taking another vehicle. Atleast on the surface.

I have only allowed myself glimpses into the emotional box that I pulled out from under the bed by deciding to do this. If I pull the cover off and look inside I would never take the bike. So I peek beneath every once in a while to see if anything has changed, to see if I can control anything that is in the box. I allow myself little tastes of feeling in regards to the upcoming ride. I let myself feel a bit of excitement, but not too much because that can quickly turn to anxiety. I let myself think about where I will park once I get to work but not too much because then concerns over other things happening (or not happening) will take over. I do this for a little while then I shut the lid and make myself think about something else. I try not to wonder if it is a good idea or not. I try not to talk myself into it or out of it. I turn to just let it be.

The sun is out so that is a good sign. I checked all my gear so I will have music because my helmet Bluetooth is charged and paired with my phone. I am choosing to wear chaps instead of my full blown riding pants. Since I am only going a short distance I should be ok. If I was riding to Traverse I would put on the pants. I am not hooking up the heated gear again because of the short distance. I do have all the jacket liners zipped in and my purple Ride Like A Girl Racing hoodie to wear.

Another bonus of riding in is that I can’t buy anything. Last night I brought home four plastic trick or treat buckets that I am going to use as planters. I also brought home a mum plant to go in one of them.

The Jeep can’t go in for atleast another week due to unforeseen circumstances with our mechanic. So atleast I have a date of sorts. And if I am riding the bike now it will be less of a shock when I have to ride in colder weather. I am grateful I don’t have to ride all the way into Traverse anymore.

I think I will wrap this up for now. I’ll add a few photos I took yesterday around the yard. Probably the last nice day this week but we’ll see. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Things Are a Little Brighter

This morning has been busy already. I have emailed with Dad (he is home and there was a doctor there that actually paid attention to what Dad needed namely help with his physical pain because that was accelerating his depression). So Dad is on a new regiment that includes pain therapy. We are both very excited about this. Then I answered an email from my Aunt in Florida. But before all that I got my article written for the paper. It was a blessedly short meeting last night so I covered it even though my editor told me not to worry about it. The one I missed however might stay missed. I still have my classwork to do this morning before Chris gets up as well as meeting Mom at 1pm and then Facetiming with Dad this afternoon. I also need to make treats for the kids.

I left the plants outside last night but when I let Stella out a few times last night I was worried that it had been a bad idea. Everything seems to be ok this morning but I need to check everyone to make sure. We have beans too! I am so excited as I have never grown beans before. I will share photos. I am worried that the cold nights have affected the new goodies growing. I think that is what happened to the green pepper buds that I had going. It got too cold and they just fell off. I am happy to say that I have more buds growing in the memorial garden.

The sun is out but the wind is strong. I might need to see about propping some plants up. It is supposed to be nice and warm today so I plan on doing my usual shorts and a tank top. I do have a cool sweater that I want to try out but I can wait.

That is about all the news from here right now. I’d better refresh the coffee and get to watching my videos for class. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

The Wall

Making it through tonight and tomorrow are going to be harder than I thought. Last night I was atleast optimistic about only having two more days to go before my day off. But this morning… day six of seven is kicking my butt. I am mentally exhausted. Things are feeling overwhelming. I am closing in the deli so we’ll see what happens. I got out early last night but I was working at the registers by the end of my shift.

I got a new book yesterday in the mail for researching one of my writing projects. It is on learning how to surf. It will hopefully help me move forward in the book. I am stuck because I can’t describe a scene that involves surfing because I’ve never done it and only seen it on tv. My character is a novice surfer and I wanted to be able to describe her situation and sensations better. It looks like a good choice (I skimmed it last night before bed). I also received my new memory card for the camera so I can start taking photos again. I took a few last night that I will share. Essie was particularly enthusiastic about me using the camera to take her picture.

I got all my class videos watched before work yesterday so I will try to get the paper written Saturday or Sunday. We’ll see what happens. There is so much that needs to be done around here that I have put off due to work. Next week’s schedule comes out tomorrow so I am hoping for a reprieve since I have two meetings to cover as well.

I will download the few photos I took last night and sign off of here. I am just too tired to focus. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

dreams, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Nature, Thinking, Writing

Trying to Tap the Tapped Out

I should be at work right now but they needed someone to close tonight so here I am. I’m only working the deli until 3pm then I am at a register til close. It was nice night to have to get up in the dark but I will miss having the afternoon and evening free. Friday will be the new day to try to mow the yard etc. When I got home last night (afternoon really) I was just too exhausted. That being said I did get the plants covered and the moveable ones inside so that the temperature drop did not hurt them.

Since I don’t have to be to work until noon once I finish this the game plan is to watch my videos for class so I can get as much done as possible. Then Saturday I will write my paper. Monday and Tuesday I have meetings so I assume that he will give them to me off. It is what he has done thus far. We’ll see.

I am trying to stay focused. I am trying to remember the goals I have set for myself as well as what I need to do. Part of me feels bad because there are times that I don’t have much energy to spend on the family. Chris has been awesome about keeping the kids busy and keeping up with the everyday stuff while I have been working this 7 day stretch. But I get home from work and I am just tapped out. I don’t like that feeling. And I still have two more days after this.

It sounds like they really want me to work in the deli. A well as everywhere else. I am temped to say no but I think the plan is that when we start to slow down that I have some place else that I can work so that I don’t lose hours. We’ll see. There is a lot to learn there.

I have a new leave growing on my orchid. I am so happy! I think I need to add more dirt to the pot but I don’t think regular potting soil is an option. I need to find out what I need to do. She might need a bigger pot as well. I worry about the shock of going from one pot to another. I have lost many plants that way. I will add a picture of the new leave and wrap this up. A fresh cup of coffee and then off to study. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Thinking, Writing

I’m Sorry…?! What?

Things are going to be a bit crazy this week so I’m not sure how long the posts will be. When I got my work schedule for this upcoming week I find that I am working 7 days straight. My next day off will be next Friday. I was hoping for a day off during the week to get some things done but I will have to make due. Things will have to get done either before or after work. I’m not looking forward to any of this but things need to be done around here and I can’t shirk. Tomorrow is going to be the real tough one. I close tonight and I have to be at work by 7am tomorrow morning (I am finally training in the deli). I also have my paper for class due Monday morning. I can’t get up earlier than 6am and expect my brain to function. Not with everything going on. So I will either have to figure out what to do after work tonight or try to get it all down on paper and type it in tomorrow sometime.

Trying to keep a positive attitude with all this is a bit much. I get things under control and even more things are piled on my plate. Moose doesn’t seem to do well in the mornings. I think he doesn’t eat because he will get sick. This morning he was licking his chops but refused to eat. Not long after that he wandered outside (he looked like he wanted to be sick). That’s another thing. I need to make puppy treats but when? I guess try to tack it on to everything Monday (I’m going to try to mow and then do treats… talking to Dad will need to wait until Tuesday or later).

On a good note I did get to come home an hour early last night. We were over staffed (they thought we would be as busy as we were on Friday and we weren’t by a long shot) so they were sending people home. I am glad. It was an extra hour of daylight with the family.

As I am looking at the clock I might be able to get atleast part of my paper done and handed in if I give it a go now. So I will stop here. Thanks for all the support and for reading! Stay safe!

Animals, Cooking/Baking, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Food, Learning, Life, Thinking, Writing

Trying New Things

Well this will be interesting… I guess the new template for the blog dropped today. Needless to say I have never taken the time to see what it’s all about since they told us about it back in June or so. So if this looks weird when I am done you know why. Lol.

Stella has been a bit of a pain since last night. After we went to bed every little while she would find something to bark at. She was constantly barking the hour that Chris got home. Then she was a mess when he came to bed smacking Moose and I with her tail. Ironically she is in my office with me right now sleeping at my feet. With her ball. Moose has gone back into the living room to sleep on the couch.

Yesterday’s work started with me freezing my butt off in the cooler to stock the grocery cases. Because no one thought to mention I should bring a jacket (I didn’t really find out that I was in grocery til that morning) I ended up buying one of the Torch Lake zip up hoodies (we mostly sell them for the tourists but I like it). Then I was courtesy counter the rest of my shift. This was the second day in a row there. The day before we had a call off. Annoyingly I am picking things up there so I am pretty good at it. So we’ll see how often I get put there.

I pause every once in a while to look at the “new tools” to the left on my screen for the blog. Hmmmm… it seems ok. It will take a little bit of hit and miss but I think that this might be a better version, once I learn where everything is. I thought that I might go back to the original editor on here but now that I am messing around I think I will keep the new one. I wonder what the phone app will look like. I usually write on my laptop then use my phone to add photos etc. I’ll let you know.

I am trying not to psych myself out. I have things to do but not an overwhelming amount. It involves a lot of phone calls as I tried to do the other stuff over the rest of the week. Last night I cleaned out the mouse cage instead of saving it for today. The only non phone things I have to do are get gas for the mower (please let it start!), grab my paycheck and deposit it (easy enough since I will get gas at work and deposit my check via my phone app) and make treats. Oh and I am making lasagna for dinner tonight. I have a meeting to cover at 7pm via Zoom so that will have to be taken into consideration as to how late we eat. But all in all not too much work. Mentally I still feel overwhelmed because I want a day of rest where I don’t do anything but hang out with the family at the house.

While Dad and I were talking last night I found out that I have actually put down roots here. Now that I am an active part of the local community (not driving all the way to Traverse City to work) I feel more connected. Even the short period of time that I have been at the grocery store I have my regulars. As a matter of fact I guess one of the guys went to management to make sure they did not overwhelm me by sticking me by myself in the gas window on my first days. He wanted to make sure I was going to stay and then asked me if I was staying. So it’s nice to be a part of that. If I need something I can usually find someone to help instead of freaking out trying to think if there is some place (usually expensive) in Traverse that I can get something or get something fixed. We really do have all we need here in tiny little Rapid City.

I usually look in the lower right of my screen for my word count to see how long I have been going on but that seems to have disappeared with the new editor on here. So I may have gone on a bit more than normal. Sorry about that! I’d better get going though. I need to work on my classwork and make my phone calls. Hopefully I can get all that and make treats before Chris gets up. I’ll probably take the kids to go get the gas and my paycheck as it is a bit chilly this morning and I’m sure they would like the break from staying at the house all the time. Sigh…. sorry. I see I am rambling on again. Lol. Everyone take care and thank you so much for reading!

Both photos are from yesterday morning as I headed to the Jeep to go to work.
Cooking/Baking, family, Food, Gardening, Learning, Life, Writing

A Short Day Off

I am sitting here drinking my blueberry coffee trying to wake up.  Tomorrow is going to be even earlier but I will be out of work by 3pm.  No idea how busy or slow I will be since I will be training in the deli.

Yesterday was a good day to spend at home with the family.  Chris and I did some running for kibble and such (I am making lasagna on Thursday).  I did get my classwork done as well as laundry put  away.  Oh and I got my high tops cleaned up.  The rest of the stuff I will probably try to get done by Thursday.

Today is officially the first day of September.  For me the first day of fall.  I am sad to see Summer go.  I will miss it.  But Fall has Halloween in it so I won’t fuss too much.  The next few weeks are supposed to be dry for us so that means I need to keep an eye on the plants outside to make sure that they stay watered.  More tomatoes are beginning to redden so I want to make sure we get a good harvest.

I see by the clock that I need to wrap this up.  I still need to repack my work bag (it finally got washed) and relace my shoes before work.  I’m sorry this is a bit short and a bit blah.  I hope you all have a great day and stay safe!  Thanks for reading!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Thinking, Writing

What to Do First?

I am so behind!  Lol.  I finally got almost a full night of sleep (a coughing fit was to only real interruption… air too dry) and the kids let me sleep in until almost 9:30am.  And since it is my day off I read a few more blogs than normal.  And here it is almost 10:30am and I haven’t even posted to my blog let alone looked at my classwork.  Normally it would be all be done by now buuuuuut….  The kids aren’t helping as Stella and Essie wander in every few minutes to try to get me outside.  I told them if the sun came out today (it has been cool, overcast and rainy the past few days) we would spend some quality time outside.  My babies.. Chris has also been a gem with everything he is doing around the house to help.  ❤

I made up a whole to do list for today.  There are a few things that I may put off til Thursday.  It feels like so much needs to get done.  But I guess now is as good a time as any to start prioritizing everything.  I still haven’t talked to my parents since last week.  No, Mom and I talked the other night after I got home.  That taught me that I shouldn’t do that on days that I work.  Trying to catch up on everything just before bed is a bad idea.  Mom messaged me that I should talk to them about my hours.  I will mention to them that I have worked every weekend since I hired in.  I was told that I would not be expected to do that but I have.

I can’t believe that tomorrow is the first day of September already.  Tomorrow is Tuesday but since today feels like Sunday since Chris will be home with me the week will be off.  I’d rather have my week off and spend time with him.  Tomorrow also is the 29th birthday of my eldest son (wherever he is).  I am constantly amazed at how much time passes.  So I guess that is a sign to make the most of what I have.  And as I type that Stella has come in to put her paws on my chair to remind me to go outside.  Again.  Lol.  So I suppose that I will try to get through my classwork and then outside we go.  (If I was still ahead with my classwork I might let this week’s slide but I’m not.)  Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Light at the End of the Tunnel (and It’s Not Flashing)

And the drama continues… hopefully after today it will be done.  Atleast in regards to the electricity.  Without going into too much detail the house/garage was not properly grounded out.  Since that has been remedied things have been ok.  They will be tweaking a few other things today (assuming it doesn’t rain) and then we will see where we stand.  So the kids have to deal with the power going out one more time so things can get fixed.  I am grateful Chris has the day off and can stay home with them.

I didn’t get much sleep last night.  Despite being stressed I couldn’t sleep so I was awake until 1am.  Amazingly the pups were awake too.  Everyone is sleeping now though.  I tried to sleep in but didn’t.  I got home later than normal too because of the extra work closing at the courtesy counter.  They are doing all kinds of things to keep their employees happy at work.  I won $50 cash this week in a drawing.  Last week (?) was a $40 gift card.  I am hoping that I get Monday and Thursday off next week.  Chris has taken them off to be with me.  Monday was his suggestion but Thursday I have a meeting.  I should know today.

I encountered a bit of an annoyance for class.  What they did was have the next set of classes start on the day you finished.  So working ahead only worked for the previous class.  I am back to having to make sure I turn in my papers on time instead of being a week or more ahead.  So Monday (or my next day off) I will try to get atleast a week ahead of things.

I worry that Stella is getting an ear infection.  I notice that more and more she is shaking her head.  That is usually a sign of an ear infection.  Not to mention all the dirt that girl gets in her ears chasing that damn ball!  I try to clean them out ever once in a while to keep the dirt from getting too deep into her ears but that is a losing battle.

I found a small frog sitting at one of our ponds yesterday.  That made me feel good.  I don’t think it is a peeper.  I think it is still a baby.  In regards to the gardens the tomatoes are going like crazy but none are ripening yet.  We probably have about twenty growing on the one plant.  The beans are still going well and the green pepper plant has atleast three peppers starting on it with the possibility of more buds.  The memorial garden is going very well too.  Some of the flowers are blooming so I have hopes for the food stuffs in with them.  I will try to take some photos soon.

I had better wrap this up for today.  Thank you everyone for your kind words and support!  Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Electrifying!

This morning I was setting things up in my office and the electrical started doing the whole flashing on and off thing.  I turned off Chris’s computer and the AC  in the living room and that seemed to stabilize everything.  I can get online again.  I can barely see the keyboard because I am surrounded by the dogs (the power surges really freaked everyone out… they finally stopped shaking) and can’t reach the switch.

It is almost as dark as night but according to the Weather Channel no precipitation.  We’ll see.  I was hoping to get some class work done this morning.  I was awake at 6am but didn’t really want to get up.  I gave up at 7am.  I don’t have to be to work til 1pm today.  But I am hoping a friend will be able to come over before I go to work to help with the electrical.  Especially after the surging this morning.  If we can’t leave the AC on then it is going to be way warm for the dogs.  With the AC on it was still pretty warm when I got home last night.

This whole thing with the electrical really worries me.  I don’t want to come home to a fire.  We still have to get the fixes done on the garage before the snow flies and my Jeep fixed.  I should have a check waiting for me at work today so I can get that deposited and pay bills before work tomorrow.  That will be a relief.  That will catch me up for the month I believe.

I think I will ask our neighbors across the street to keep an eye on the house today while we are gone.  I will feel better if I can message them every once in a while to make sure all is well.  I am surprised they are all still in the office with me.  My babies.

I haven’t done much with the camera.  Partly because not enough time but the other thing is I don’t know how much space is left on the memory card.  I need to get another one.  I’ll see if I have some extra.  They aren’t too expensive.  Then I can start adding some more to the blog.  I need to get out and check the gardens too.  I’ve not been out there in a few days.  I am getting some beans in finally!  There are a TON of tomatoes coming in on the one plant.  I am hope the one in the memorial garden will start to blossom soon.

I should wrap this up and try to get some of my classwork done.  Thanks for reading and stay safe!