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Moving Time and Time Moving Me

The hills behind us are covered in a fog. As the sun comes up I’m sure it will burn off but for now… About half the trees are empty. It is almost time to put up the bird feeder for winter. I need to find better places to put all my plants. The big problem is they are so big. There isn’t a good spot to put more than one in some cases. I just need to figure things out. For atleast some of them.

Yesterday I did get work done on my novel. I also set up a few goals. We’ll see how things work out. Stella is behind me curled up beneath a blanket dreaming. I wanted to take her for a walk yesterday but that never happened. She needs to get out more. I didn’t do much of anything with her. Another reason I think we need a second dog. She would have a playmate when Chris and I are not feeling too motivated. But I have stopped seriously looking. When I try to move forward to get one of the ones we find something blocks it. So if one arrives there we are. I don’t know if I will drive to the park for the walk. I might just walk in the back forty.

And here we are in November already. Soon it will be New Year’s. I need to start looking for Christmas presents. I am really bad about keeping things stashed. I like seeing people smile and be happy so I give them their stuff early. Especially if it is something I think they will really like. The Girls did that Sunday I think. I was presented with some awesome Jason Voorhes lights that also plays the music from the movie. ❤️ I will share a photo.

I find myself in a funk. It seems to happen after I spend a lot of energy on being happy or having fun stuff happen. I want to be alone to try to recharge my batteries. But at the same time my days off are needed to catch up on things. I did get dishes done yesterday. Today will be laundry. But I still haven’t talked with either of my parents or several friends that have reached out over the past few days. It’s like I spent all my people energy at work. I don’t want to deal with others and their problems. But I need to. So I guess I will put phone calls on my list for the day. Looking at the clock I need to wrap this up and get my day moving. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Holidays

I had started my morning ready to write about good things and happiness. Then I made the mistake of looking at the news. So much bad and anger out there. And then I read things about my beliefs that people of other faiths are saying/assuming and it seems to have reversed everything. I do not shove my faith down anyone’s throat. I will answer questions if asked. I do not assume that my faith is for everyone. Everyone has different needs when things come down to it. But I am honestly getting tired of others belittling my faith because they believe that theirs is the only way. It is NOT the only way.

I am sorry. I try to keep things like this out of my blog. But this morning, because it is Halloween, everything seems to have just exploded. I am grateful for my time with my friends and family last night. It helped me find my center. I didn’t know how things would go as I managed to mess up quite a few things (it started with me not getting the right amount of ingredients for the stew Chris was making). But things turned out pretty well.

Work was fun but long. I dressed as Jason Voorhes from the Friday the 13th movies. Complete with machete. Good times! Today I hope to get some work done on my novel. It has been a few days since I had time to do anything with it. I also need to reach out to a few people online. I have been out of touch with everything going on. And I should reach out to my parents. It has been a bit since I chatted with them as well. That might wait until tomorrow. We’ll see how things go.

I want to take Stella for a walk at the park either today or tomorrow. I might wait until tomorrow for that as well. I am hoping to take a day to sort things out. I want to tend to things around here. I think I will wrap this up. I find myself staring off into space and my mind wandering. I do have some new photos to share. I will try to find a way to condense some of the photos we took on my phone to share some stuff from work too. The files are too big and I don’t have enough room on my site. But I think I can figure something. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Flippin’ and Floppin’

I want to take Stella for a walk at the park this morning. But the rain hits off and on. And it’s cold. Regardless this might be my only opportunity. Tomorrow the nasty s word is supposed to appear. Snow. If we get it this early and it sticks… this winter is going to be a hard one. I guess we will see. I do need to get us both out for a little while. She has been very busy lately. She is not content with just playing in the house.

I applied for adopting a 1 year old pup named Jack. I don’t know what will or won’t happen. I am still looking at maybe getting the black pup if things don’t work out. There are just too many pups that need homes. Jack seems like he would be a good fit though. He has training (he has his basic commands down and is also potty trained), is fixed, up to date on all his shots and micro-chipped. Unfortunately there is no time frame as to when they will get back with me.

Late today I will find out how I finished in the horror contest. There are three more rounds to go. In order to move on I need first place. I was going back and forth thanks to my awesome family and friends. Regardless I am grateful for all the love and support I have gotten to get me this far.

Work was spent mostly in my liquor department. I got my order done, checked sales, checked prices, wrote out the information for new tags… That took pretty much my whole shift. I did get my beer cave stocked as well. So there is that. Today wants to be busy with other people but I need a day for myself. Both my parents want to talk (Mom and I chatted several times yesterday) and a friend wants to come over. I have my “old fart” coming over tomorrow around 3:30pm to rewatch the movie “Maverick.” I have popcorn! But that will take most of the afternoon (it’s almost a three hour movie if I remember). So I am not sure what to do. I can use up both my days or save one for me. I think I will take Stella for a walk and go from there.

Thank you to everyone who has been reaching out. I enjoy talking to you! And the support means a lot. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Decorator Extrodinare

I was reading your posts and I happen to glance at the time. I need to get moving. Yesterday had it’s moments. I was very glad to get home. I let Chris keep gaming after I got home. He’d had a long week and deserved to unwind. So I hunkered in bed with my reading. I finished reading one novel and started another. I think that will leave me with two more books that Mom got me for my birthday.

Stella balanced her time between Chris and I. Her voice seems to be coming back so I will just keep doing what I am doing. Right now she is beside/behind me on the love seat. I covered her with a blanket and she is drifting in and out of sleep.

I got the go ahead to get decorating for Halloween at work. I messaged with the owner and asked what my budget was. I also asked if there were and specifics he wanted. I was pleasantly surprised at my budget. I told the owner I would head into Traverse after my first meeting Monday and shop. I am a bit excited about this. I am hoping I can turn things out at work. I’ll share photos of the finished project if I can.

I need to get going here. Stella is off in dream lane chasing something. Her legs are moving as if she is running. Thank for being there and reading. Stay safe!

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Halloween Doings

Yesterday went well all things considered. I got a lot done and even a few bonuses. One of the bonuses is that I was able to get new Halloween decorations for the store. I went to decorate yesterday. When I opened the box it was all just crap. A bit of leaf garland, some paper do-dads with a spider or a pumpkin hanging from them and that was it. So I texted the owner and said we needed new decorations. I go the go ahead to get new decorations. Bwhahahahaha! I am very excited to put up what I got (I will be reimbursed and get a free tank of gas as well)!

Mom and I talked last night. She claimed that I had not been staying contact via text so she wasn’t bothering to try on her end. I pointed out that I had sent several text messages over the past few days. I have no idea why she did not receive them. No idea what is going on with her phone.

Nuts. I had hoped to get a little more written before I had to go. I guess I will have to wait to add new photos (if I can.. so far I have only been able to repost old ones). Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Options

Sigh. A day off. I sank into blissful slumber at the early hour of 8pm. I slept virtually uninterrupted until a little after 8am. I laid in bed until almost 9pm, because I could. I am happily contemplating what I plan to do over my “weekend” (aka two days in a row off). One of the things I plan to work on is my plant situation. The temps here are cold more often than not so I guess the plants are officially in for the season. That means that I need to figure out permanent homes for them. Most of them are in big pots and the is creating a large problem since that means they are scattered around on the floor. The ones that are in smaller pots, the plants have grown so tall that they do not fit comfortably on what shelf space I do have.

I have been trying to keep an eye on Mom. I know she has another appointment to get her hand checked today but I am not sure what time. I will try to get in touch with her later this today. I also need to chat with Dad. It has been several weeks since we talked. When I was available he did not feel good. And to be honest with everything going on I’ve not had much free time. I will send him both a text message and an email when I get this posted.

I think… I hope that Stella is gradually getting her voice back. One of the techs from the vet’s office came in to shop yesterday and was kind enough to ask how Stella was doing. I was going to call the vet’s office today but I may wait just because I do see some improvement. Hopefully I am doing the right thing. I am also leaning toward going to the park for a walk. I can bundle us both up (it’s not much above freezing here… even with the sun out). She needs to get out more. I am still trying to figure out what to do once the snow falls and sticks… neither of us really like that to walk in.

I should wrap this up so I can get my day going officially. I have new photos that I am going to share with you (finally). I hope you like them. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Cleansing Rain

For once the rain started when the weather app said it would. Almost to the minute. It has been raining off and on ever since. It is currently on. I am grateful. It should be good sleeping weather. And it was until 2:30 am when something woke me from my sleep. I have been awake ever since.

My alarm was due to go off at 4 am because the ordering site was down when I went to work. A coworker messaged me an hour or so later to tell me it was up but I didn’t feel like running back to the store and dealing with people. So here I am. My goal is to get it done before my 9 am meeting. Mom and I aren’t getting together (this time she called it off… her depression has worsened as well) so I will run to the bank after my first meeting then head home til the next one.

Part of me is glad the week is over because I have been so miserable. I hated not spending more time with loved ones but I just couldn’t. I needed to be alone. Not much has changed. I feel a little better but I can also feel the darkness rippling beneath the surface.

I supposed if I wrap this up I can get my order done sooner. I may try to slide to the bank before the meeting depending on how much time I have. That way I won’t wake Chris and Stella. No new photos but I hope you like the ones I pick. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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A Break in the Clouds

I am debating about not going rock hunting tomorrow. I am just not feeling it. We would leave tomorrow morning and return sometime Sunday. I think I would rather have my last two days at home. I will have to message the Girls and let them know. I hope they won’t be too upset with me.

I had a meeting last night. It went well. I was a bit apprehensive about going but I did alright in the end. That was a relief. It was a fun one to cover. I plan to write the article once I finish this. Then I think I will pull out my novel. I have a few ideas that I would like to get on paper.

I was gifted two beautiful rocks by one of my customers when I went to put gas in my car yesterday. He said he thought of me with the one rock he had painted. It is actually my favorite of the two he gave me. My werewolf also (finally) arrived from Build-A-Bear. He has a Nightmare Before Christmas hoodie and red high tops. I believe that the hoodie glows in the dark as well. I now have my first werewolf!

Part of the post that never was able to post (that’s a mouthful) from the other day included some of the stuff we got done around the house. Chris got our security cameras up and running and our awesome neighbor not only mowed the front yard for us but he also came over to help trim back the two trees beside the house. I am so grateful for the help.

I think I will wrap this up and get my article written. I feel a bit better than I did yesterday morning at this time. I might bite the bullet and take Stella to the park. If she is not limping. She seems to be tweaking either her ankle or shoulder on a regular basis. And if I do go out I may slip into Traverse to the bank. I still need to deposit a check. Onward and upward. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Grand Funk Station

Things are looking sketchy today. The depression has not lifted at all. Anxiety at merely going out to the store or bank is overwhelming. The laptop will not connect to the internet so I am writing this on my phone. Yesterday’s post will not load no matter what I do. I took everything but the words out and still no joy. We’ll see if this one will post.

I have a meeting tonight. I need to drive into Traverse to go to my bank. I thought about taking Stella but if something happens (and the day is leaning toward it) I would be devastated if she got hurt. So I will probably leave her home. I am thinking I might take her to the park though. She likes it and it is near by. (And the voice in my head reminds me that I wasn’t going to because of dogs getting sick. So the argument begins.)

I feel completely hopeless. I am trying to fake it but I know it’s not working. I feel guilty because I am bringing everyone down with me. Stella has been asleep beside me for most of the night. She got up with me this morning as well. Nuts. I have to do laundry if I am going anywhere. I meant to do it last night. Or atleast start it. I ought to wrap this up and get that started. Thanks for reading and stay safe.❤️

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Checking It All Out

Another cold morning. No insect sounds or bird calls. As the sun came up and things began to warm up the critters slowly started their day. Mom and I were going to get together this afternoon but it is my turn to bail. I am just not up for it. Anxiety and depression are still hitting pretty heavy.

A lot got done yesterday. Chris made a lot of headway on the riding mower. I helped where I could but pretty much stayed out of the way. The fish tank and stand are now upstairs in the garage. That has opened the living room up quite a bit. I’m not sure what all will go on today. I know we have some banking to do and company will be coming over around 5:30pm. I might dust a little. I should also clean off the various tables. I seem to be sprawling again.

I have been trying to spend time outside since it is getting colder. There won’t be many more days of warm weather. I also need to start getting Stella some sweaters. She still needs a harness. I thought about taking a walk in the back 40 with her. It’s cool enough. I’d rather take her to the park.

Once I get this posted I will work a bit on my novel. I still need to get that online class for the Girls and I. It is a writing class. I had forgotten about it til just now. It’s not until October 1st. I just looked at my app for the horror contest. I guess it starts at 1pm my time. I will still share it here and then again tomorrow. I guess I had better wrap this up as I am babbling. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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