Animals, anxiety, Dogs, Emotions, family, Holiday, Life, retail

What the New Year Brings

Sigh…. None of the pups got up with me this morning. No one has eaten breakfast. Stella had diarrhea in two big spots on the carpet (I let both her and Essie out around 5:30am). Not long after I got my laptop up and going Moose threw up. Yay 2021.

I sent a text to our vet (it turns out that the office is closed through the weekend because of the holiday) and she called me back. She apologized for not calling sooner. She was just getting ready to call the ER vet to get my phone number from our records. Well the news wasn’t good. My options are to take him to the ER vet and have them give him fluids to keep him alive a few more days/weeks or I can euthanize him.

I was able to come home early last night from work. About 5:30pm instead of 7pm. To be fair I was a mess. Today we are open from 9am til 5pm. I’m working the full day. We’ll see how the day goes. All three dogs are asleep on the bed. Chris is up finishing the rest of the clean up on the stains on the carpet from Stella so I can get this done before work (bestest husband ever).

We stayed up to see the new year in. I got us a bottle of champagne to celebrate. We were binge watching CSI (we are about halfway through season 3) and talking. Moose kept trying to get me to go to bed. He finally gave up around 11pm and went in on his own.

Moose just came into my office to see if I was coming back to bed. He tried really hard to get me to. But I told him I had to go to work and he just looked at me and then went in by himself. My heart feels like it is shattering in pieces this morning.

I hope we are slow. I honestly don’t want to deal with people that much. People I don’t know I can be polite and ring up. People I know expect me to be chatty and carry on a conversation. Not gonna happen today. I had a few regulars try to be cute (read joking and teasing) and that just made me angry. Kept my mouth shut but that just made them try harder until I finally told them about Moose so they would stop and go away. They were suitably chagrined but I am not up to speaking about it without starting to cry.

Still no more photos. No time nor inclination. I have tomorrow off. Hopefully there will be sun. I will pick a few to add that are repeats. I hope everyone has a great 2021. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Moose

Fair warning this is going to be a sad post unlike all the other optimism going on with all my other blogger friends for the New Year. It will probably be a short post too. Moose isn’t keeping anything in his stomach including his medicine. He is throwing up everything but the water he drinks. If he doesn’t eat then his kidney disease will escalate at a rapid pace and kill him. He got up long enough to go out and go potty and take his medicine this morning. He has since gone back to bed. I am beside myself.

The vet’s office is closed on Wednesdays (I have problems remembering what day it is anymore as they are all running together) so right now I am biding my time until they open so I can call and find out if there is anything I can do.

Mom is having more issues and is getting more in a panic to move out here. I am not looking forward to working on that project. Mom is going to be constantly bugging me on things once I get going on it. I know she means well and I understand that the will be both excited and relieved one she gets out here but that makes it no less annoying for me when she is constantly bugging me about it when things are out of my hands. The situation with Moose isn’t helping it either.

I don’t want this to be what it is….. a sad angry post. So I am sorry that I am ending the year on a sad note. Right now that is all I have. As of right now 2021 will be worse than 2020 for me because I will probably lose my baby boy. Thanks for reading and stay safe. I hope you all have a loving and prosperous 2021.

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Early Morning Blah

Here I am again composing this on my phone. The internet seems to going in and out like waves on a beach. I finally got it to load the blogs I am following but it is hit and miss as to whether or not it will load the full post. So I am sorry if I have missed reading your posts this morning!

Yesterday I got some head way going in my novel. I had to order a research book because what I was finding online and in my own personal research books wasn’t enough information. The frustrating thing is most of this is background for the novel. It may or may not make it in the actual story. But I can’t tell the story without having the background. So I do the research.

Today is going to be a long one. Sleep was evasive last night. I slept for about two hours then awake an hour. Then I’d sleep an hour or so and be up for another hour. This went on all night. I feel like I’ve gotten no sleep at all. Then fighting with the internet… oh well.

I received a beautiful bracelet from my Mother-in-law for Christmas! The purchase of the bracelet went to support the rescue and tracking of elephants. I have even been given the name of one that I adopted via the bracelet! ❤️

I will wrap this up so I can get ready for work. I didn’t do much with the camera but I got some fun shots of the kids. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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What Today Will Bring

I guess I will be doing this morning’s post on my phone. My laptop can’t seem to connect to the internet all of the sudden. My head hurts. It feels like I have been hit in the nose. I am hoping a nice hot shower will help. It has finally stopped snowing but it is very dark out.

I need to get laundry and dishes done today. Last night’s dinner (which turned out amazing) accumulated dishes in the sink and on the counter. Both need to get done before I shower. I hope.

I am angry with myself because I didn’t work on my writing yesterday. Instead I binge watched CSI. I am thinking either early morning or late at night seem to be too writing times for me. Everyone else is asleep or occupied so I don’t feel guilty about not spending time with my family. It took me awhile before I got into the habit of my daily blogging so I need to give myself time yet I need to get serious about it.

I hope today will not be any angry day for me. My head (mostly my face so it is sinus pressure) seems to be getting worse which will leave me quick to anger today. And I don’t like being like that.

Hang on a minute…,.Ok. I thought the door to go outside was open again. Moose has started opening the sliding glass door on his own again.

I will leave you will a smile though. Some of the toys the dogs got squeaked. Well there was a blue hay outside the bay windows that thought the toys squeaking was another blue jay family so he started talking back to the squeaking toys.

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Holiday Cheer

It has been snowing since yesterday morning and we have about 4 inches (10 cm) of snow so far. It hasn’t let up much so we’ll see how much we end up with. Today is Christmas. That means I don’t have to hear Christmas music when I got to work on Sunday! Whoo hoo! It will be nice to get back to “normal” around here. Looks like the wind is going pretty good. The snow is blowing across the window instead of falling from the sky to the ground. I also need to go out and check the bird feeder. It should be ok but I may need to replace the suet on one side.

The other night I kept dreaming about trying to find one of my best friends from school. We lost touch when Chris and I still lived in Louisville, Kentucky. The last I heard from her she was going to have to go home and face her family because she wasn’t able to make it in Chicago. At one point she asked me to come and live with her there but I couldn’t. There was so much wrong with the way her family treated her and for her to have to come back to them…. I honestly wonder if she is alive. I put out the word to fellow classmates that I am still in touch with and no one has heard anything from her but me. A few times I have been tempted to send a letter to their address but I’m sure they have moved since then. I still might. I would really like to get back in touch with her. Short of hiring a private investigator I’ve tried everything else.

I am excited to give Chris his stuff when he gets up. I am grateful that Mom and I could go in together to get it for him. It is something that he really wants but could not get for himself. I like it when I can do things like that for him. He usually just gets stuff himself. Once he gets up the kids can get their gifts as well. Chris got them 2 toys each at the store the other day. I’m pretty sure that some of them squeak so I’ll wait to give them out.

I have a whole day in front of me. What shall I do? I know that I will be on the phone a lot but I would like to spend some time writing, even if it is just putting some of my short stories into WordPerfect. I have already used the program to do my word count for the paper. That was amazing to not have to count article by hand! Almost as good as not having to brush all this snow coming down off my car the next time I go to work!

I think I will wrap this up as I need some more coffee and I see that the holiday messages are coming fast and furious on my phone… oh and Chris is awake! Merry Christmas!

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Blowing Through Like a Cold Wind

I have managed to cut myself short on time again. Not sure how. We have a dusting of snow (yesterday’s rain got rid of most of it) from this morning but the heavy winds are what if freezing your bones. Essie stayed out too long and was shivering at the door. I got her in and wrapped her in a blanket to try to warm her up. Naturally Moose was giving me “the look.” Heaven forbid I love on one of the other dogs. He is back to not eating breakfast again. He usually eats dinner. But even last night he left maybe a third of it. One of the things I plan to do on my two days off is research what I can feed all three dogs. Maybe if they are all eating the same thing he will start eating again.

Today is Christmas Eve. That means the last day of Christmas music at work! Yay! I know that is a relief for just about everyone at work. I am wearing my Cthulhu Christmas shirt again. I don’t feel like digging through a box of stuff to find my one last holiday shirt. Not just to wear for one day, wash and then have to stick it back in the box. So back to my Halloween themed Yuletide gear. I will definitely be wearing my Supernatural scarf because the wind seems to be growing in intensity.

I see by the clock if I plan on putting any photos in I need to get on it. Where did all my time go? Take care everyone and be safe! Thanks for reading!

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A Little Change

The sun tried to come out earlier. But the clouds ate it up again. The wind has picked up as well. This is a later post due to us getting some sleep (yay!) and me having to call the vet again this morning about Moose. I have my phone next to me in hopes that she will be calling me back with further instructions. We got Moose down to just one medicine (the pink stuff so I still had to squirt some down his throat) for yesterday. I gave him his second dose and all was good until I had my hand on the door to leave then I heard him throw up. Up came all of his medicine from that morning. I still made it to work on time but on my first break I called the vet. Once we decided what to do she asked me to call her this morning to tell her how he was doing. And here we are.

I have both Moose and Stella in here with me this morning. Moose is much happier with only one dose to get squirted down his gullet. He ate a little of his breakfast. I told him that since I closed that he wasn’t going to get anything for over 12 hours so he should atleast eat a little of it. He looked at me then his bowl and ate about half.

Today and tomorrow are supposed to be really busy at work. I’m ok with that because it will make the day go by faster. Yesterday started slow but ended up going in a whirlwind. Made new friends and had fun with old ones.

I am looking forward to my two days in a row off. Just today and tomorrow. I had all these great ideas of what to write about in my blog this morning and now that I am here I have nothing. I am hoping to get my word count in to the paper this morning. I am trying to keep myself budgeted now that I will have a car payment after the first of the year. I have to mail it in if I don’t want to pay any extra fees. They charge for paying online and on the phone (with or without a live person to help but of course having a live person costs more). I’m not too happy about that as there have been problems with the mail (not locally) and I am hoping that if it doesn’t make it on time (I have no idea how far out to mail it because if I mail it too soon and they try to cash it before the money is in my account I will be in trouble but if I don’t mail it soon enough will I be in trouble with them if they don’t receive it by the due date?) I won’t be penalized but I guess we will see.

I should probably wrap this up. I have things to do yet around the house and if I plan on trying to get some writing in before work I need to make sure everything is done. Namely dishes and washing the bedding for us. I did take some photos yesterday. Let me know what you think. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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New Ways to Go

There has to be a better way. Moose and I are both tired of having to squirt his medicine down his throat all the time. There is only one medicine out of the three I can stuff in a treat of some kid and give to him. He gets that once a day. The other two he gets numerous times a day. I have to give him a second dose here shortly. I plan to call the vet this afternoon and see if there is another way I can give him the medicines or other medicines he can take in pill form so I can give it to him easier.

Yesterday’s mail brought a package from my Mother-in-law, my WordPerfect and a beautiful ornament. The first is in Chris’s office waiting for Friday. The second I actually got installed yesterday not long after it arrived. The third is hanging in my office in the window. The ornament is a beautiful piece made by an artist friend of mine. She goes by Dame of the Dead and I just love her work! I first saw her creepy dolls then I found her other pieces (she made the cool skull mask I got a few months ago) and I try to support her when I can. Even if it is just by word of mouth. (If you are interested you can find her work on Facebook and DreadCentral.com did a piece on her dolls.)

Well I’m back. I had to try to quietly coax Moose out of bed to get his medicine. That took several minutes because he didn’t want to. But in the end he did come out and it was over before he knew it. He has had his bit of hot dog and gone back to bed. He is my brave boy.

I did take some photos yesterday when I got home from work. The snow really started coming down. We got a rather large collection of birds hanging out in the trees directly behind the house. Everyone was just chirping away watching the snow fall. Mother Nature keeps switching between snow and rain. I’m grateful I have only a short distance to go.

I’m going to try to get some photos downloaded to share (right now the phone and camera are having issues communicating so we’ll cross our fingers! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

*ed. note: having issues getting photos to upload so I will add them later.

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A Quick Rush of Words

Only a few hours of sleep. I got home later than normal from work (I was at the gas window so there is more to do at night) and so Moose’s medicine schedule was off so we didn’t get to bed until late. I didn’t do any extra writing. I spent time with Chris. We talked as we rewatched CSI.

I have friends at work that really want to be friends and some of them try too hard. And then I feel guilty because I am trying to be friends but it is starting to feel forced. She is an awesome person and we can sit and talk for hours about anything but I don’t do talking on the phone a lot and all I have is her land line. She recently hurt her knee and seemed to want to be left alone but I feel as though I should call her to check on her because that’s what friends do. Part of my problem is that I never remember when it is convenient to call. It’s not like I can shoot a quick text message and ask her if she’s ok (and she can read it whenever). I guess I should try to remember to call after work today since I get out early.

I am looking forward to Christmas this year because I have Christmas AND the day after off. Which means I can try to catch up on my sleep. I am really looking forward to that. And even more than that I can’t wait for Chris to use his Christmas present! I am grateful I can get him something big (with the help of Mom) that he really wants.

I should wrap this up and get ready for work. I see that I’ve not taken any photos so I will try to remedy that later today. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Looking Through the Fog

Another dark morning. It is warm enough outside that the snow is melting and we are getting a thick fog. This morning is a rather blah morning. I got sleep but it was not a good sleep. Essie did not eat anything until late last night but Moose did eat both his meals. He wouldn’t eat this morning and I wonder if he doesn’t like the canned food. I didn’t put any thing but egg in the kibble for breakfast and then chicken broth for dinner. This morning I used canned and nothing doing. Sooooo… I guess I will try to find a different type of canned dog food for him.

I decided that I need a new routine. My morning routine is all well and good but that is my only routine. I need to incorporate one that I do my writing. If I don’t specifically say I am writing at this time (like I do for my blog) it will never get done. I will plan to do it at one point over the course of the day but I will never get to it (like yesterday). Since I have to wait an hour after Moose gets his first dose medicine before I can give him his second one I decided that in that hour of waiting I will work on my writing. Not journaling but I will pull out one of the novels and write. Even if I only get through a page of writing it will be something. I will give myself a break when I have a meeting to cover for the paper (if I need it).

Everyone seems to be getting into the holiday spirit here. I’m not necessarily bah humbug (atleast not all the time) but I really just want it over with. After working at Younker’s for so long I can’t shake the stressed out feeling that we got every year. Constant Christmas music doesn’t help but the stresses are definitely not there to sell, sell, sell. Christmas just doesn’t mean much to people anymore. I suppose things might be a little different this year with the pandemic and all. And I am not talking religious beliefs either (I am trying to stay off my soap box when it comes to that). I am talking just spending time with family and friends. The gifts don’t matter but spending time with loved ones does. Sure I like the excuse to get things for my loved ones but it shouldn’t be necessary.

I read all the other blogs and they write about things to help others and I sit here and essentially whine and talk about myself. Am I helping others? I don’t know. Maybe. Even if it is as simple as someone reading this and knowing that they aren’t alone in how they feel.

Looking at the clock (and the amount of in and out from the pups) I should wrap this up. Thanks for reading and stay safe.