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Adulting Is Hard

I feel like I am underneath a brick wall right now. I didn’t get home until almost 10pm last night. Despite having done pretty much everything on Wednesday night I had a hard time remembering what needed to be done and in what order last night. Matt was very patient with me. It helps that our brains work the same way so he was able to help more than others could. Next week I am on my own. I won’t have a co-manager with me. I will have another manager working as cashier or at the gas counter but I am the lone wolf next week. Yay. I still don’t have my keys nor my codes. If I get them today I will feel a bit better about things. As it is I still haven’t been able to do everything because I don’t have my codes. We will see today when I get there.

I didn’t get to bed until late again. Getting home so late is hard because my brain won’t let me sleep for a few hours after I get home. Sooooo I’m gonna be lacking in the sleep department again for a bit. Essie and I still try to get up at 8am (that didn’t happen today mind you) because that is my quiet time to get my writing done. This is going to be difficult if I’m not get to bed until late. But I need to keep trying.

Today is International Female Ride Day. Besides how I feel it is supposed to rain. So my ride today will be a bust. I am disappointed. I had hoped to pull out Rogue (my motorcycle) and atleast shake some dust off my riding skills. Yesterday it was just going to be overcast. As of this morning it will be rain. But it might be a blessing in disguise. My head it just not in it with everything going on at work. And not sure about parking either. With construction going on with the building expansion employee parking has been squished into the main lot. No one wants to park near the entrance due to the craziness of many of the drivers. And I am not sure there would be a safe spot to park Rogue. So maybe that is ok. I can’t spend my whole shift worrying about whether or not some idiot has backed over my bike.

I got a load of laundry done and dishes caught up when I got home last night. So I feel good about that. The girls and I played a bit so they were a bit tired out when we went to bed. Although they we not happy with me leaving the light on for so long.

Monday I have physical therapy early and then I work that night. Such a joy that will be! But I do have Tuesday off so I can hopefully stay home and work on my writing. A bunch of my research books are due to arrive Monday. I am looking forward to that!

I went through my backlog of emails this morning as well. I deleted A LOT. I had things from two and three years ago. I kept some stuff like birthday wishes from various sources but I got rid of a couple hundred emails. Yay!

I should wrap this up. I need to delete some of my old photos from when I first started this blog as I am running out of space to upload my new photos. So there may be a few posts without photos in the near future. Hopefully not but we’ll see. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Treating Myself

It has been a busy morning after a rather sleepless night. Last night was filled with late night Stella barkings and early morning storms so I didn’t get much sleep. We had rumbles of thunder all afternoon and early evening yesterday. But it really hit last night in the wee hours. With Moose gone both girls pant and shake during a storm.

I woke to find several messages (that I still need to reply to) from friends and I have written the article for last night’s meeting and sent it in. The skies are grey and the weather is cool. I am glad that I filled the bird feeder yesterday. It has been busy this morning with a multitude of feathered friends!

We went to Moose and Stella’s for lunch. I had a Moose burger that was called the Bad Boy. Yes I cried (several times) and the burger was delicious.

Yesterday was actually pretty fun. I did get all my running done (except for going to Bath and Body Works, I caved and ordered online after I came home) and arrived at lunch on time. My friend was in bad shape worried that her cancer may have come back. She had two doctors appointments that afternoon. But we sat and talked for a long time over lunch (I was concerned because she hardly ate anything despite being hungry). As we were getting ready to leave she asked if I wanted to go to a resale shop. Well yaaaa! Lol. So off we go! A pile of books and a trinket box later we part ways with the promise to make this a regular thing. We are heading to a used bookstore in Interlochen for our next adventure.

The trinket box is in the right top corner

I got a lot accomplished once I got home too. I got things ordered that I needed or wanted to as well as finally getting the printer hooked up to the new laptop. That last part took some doing. I had two plugs that were supposed to go into the laptop but I did not have the right sized port for on of them. I was pretty sure that I could do the wi-fi thing with it and not have to plug it in to the laptop but Mom didn’t give me any paperwork so I had to wing it via menus and my install wizard on the laptop. But it works! And I think that Chris can use it from his office as well. We haven’t tested that yet.

I also treated myself to several things. I got a pair of very fun shoes (I usually don’t do much in the way of clothing or shoes I just wear the same stuff til it wears out) that are really comfortable. I’ll wear them to work today (my first day as a manager on the floor). I also ordered some research books for the novel and a bikini. Now that last item might not seem like a big deal. I live in my bikinis during the warmer months. A few years ago I found a place that makes bikinis that fit everyone, not just the tiny models. It is called Fused. I have wanted to try one for a long time. I belong to their group online and it is a very warm and supportive community of women. This is my dream bikini. I hope. I opted for a surprise bottom piece. But I am very excited! I also treated myself to my coconut scented lotions from Bath and Body Works. When I worked at Younker’s one of their stores was just outside our front door so I could get them when I ran out. Sadly I have been out for probably a year or longer. But I couldn’t justify spending the money on myself. So I splurged on myself yesterday.

I will share pictures of everything as it comes in. I should wrap this up before it gets much longer. I hope you all have an awesome day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Rambling…

I got to sleep in for the most part. We did stay up rather late again. Today is my last day before I officially become an manager trainee. I have mixed feelings. However I’m trying not to think too much about it. That being said I’m meeting up with a former coworker on Tuesday to catch up. She too has gotten a promotion at her job. I texted her out of the blue last night and we got to chatting. We haven’t seen each other for several months.

I took a lot of photos yesterday and played a lot with the girls but not much else. No writing. No research. Nothing constructive. It felt good to do nothing but at the same time I was disappointed in myself. I am trying to follow a new writing system but I did nothing with it last night.

I did find an awesome bit of fossil in the yard while I was taking photographs. I believe it is a bit of coral. I shared it on a rockhound page that I belong to to see if anyone had any ideas. The twin centers are filled with crystals that sparkle when you move it. I am very excited about this find!

This weekend is the Annual Trout Festival in Kalkaska (about 10 minutes away). I don’t know how busy we will be at the store. I am curious as to how busy the festival will be. I guess they will be bussing people in and masks will be required, even outdoors. It can go either way. Regardless it is the beginning of trout season up here so there may be some flyfishing gear that will be coming out of the closet soon (and no it won’t be me).

The clouds have come out thick this morning. It was sunny when the girls and I got up but now it looks like someone covered the sky in great wads of dirty cotton batting. The temperature is nice though. I have the door open. My mind is wandering. I think I will wrap this up and then go outside and read for a bit. I should be writing but…. I hope all of you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Travels Great and Small

It looks as though we will have another beautiful day.❤️ We want to grill today so I need to slide to the store before 1pm. I feel kinda bad because it is Easter but there it is. I am leaning toward taking the motorcycle (pardon the pun) but it will depend on the temperature (the frost still hasn’t melted) and my body. Right now it hurts. I might take Angus (my Subaru) for groceries then take Rogue (my motorcycle) out got a ride later today. We’ll see.

Maybe I need to wear my helmet cover 🧐

I want to spend time on my writing as well today. Even if a few pages are all I do. I started fleshing out some of my characters the other day. I still don’t see them clearly in my mind’s eye so I know more work needs to be done.

The Robins have been here and singing since we got up. Spring is definitely here! I wore shorts to work yesterday and several people commented. I compared myself to a Robin saying that if you saw me in shorts you know Spring is here. That brought many smiles. 😁

I miss loading up the dogs in the car to go for a ride.

My boys❤️🐾

I am trying to be positive… I am debating about doing some yard work today. I don’t want to do too much uncovering if we are still getting frost at night. I found a bud yesterday and the daffodils, tulips, irises and day lilies are growing up fast! I am very excited! Since my irises seem to bloom every other year this year should be the big bloom. I have a smaller batch that blooms when they don’t. No idea how I managed to do it. Lol. I think I will work with my roses this year too. So I need to dig out the book Mom got me.

Looking at the clock I guess I need to get crackin’ if I want to get to the store and get things done around here. I just want to thank everyone for the awesome support!❤️ Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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What the New Year Brings

Sigh…. None of the pups got up with me this morning. No one has eaten breakfast. Stella had diarrhea in two big spots on the carpet (I let both her and Essie out around 5:30am). Not long after I got my laptop up and going Moose threw up. Yay 2021.

I sent a text to our vet (it turns out that the office is closed through the weekend because of the holiday) and she called me back. She apologized for not calling sooner. She was just getting ready to call the ER vet to get my phone number from our records. Well the news wasn’t good. My options are to take him to the ER vet and have them give him fluids to keep him alive a few more days/weeks or I can euthanize him.

I was able to come home early last night from work. About 5:30pm instead of 7pm. To be fair I was a mess. Today we are open from 9am til 5pm. I’m working the full day. We’ll see how the day goes. All three dogs are asleep on the bed. Chris is up finishing the rest of the clean up on the stains on the carpet from Stella so I can get this done before work (bestest husband ever).

We stayed up to see the new year in. I got us a bottle of champagne to celebrate. We were binge watching CSI (we are about halfway through season 3) and talking. Moose kept trying to get me to go to bed. He finally gave up around 11pm and went in on his own.

Moose just came into my office to see if I was coming back to bed. He tried really hard to get me to. But I told him I had to go to work and he just looked at me and then went in by himself. My heart feels like it is shattering in pieces this morning.

I hope we are slow. I honestly don’t want to deal with people that much. People I don’t know I can be polite and ring up. People I know expect me to be chatty and carry on a conversation. Not gonna happen today. I had a few regulars try to be cute (read joking and teasing) and that just made me angry. Kept my mouth shut but that just made them try harder until I finally told them about Moose so they would stop and go away. They were suitably chagrined but I am not up to speaking about it without starting to cry.

Still no more photos. No time nor inclination. I have tomorrow off. Hopefully there will be sun. I will pick a few to add that are repeats. I hope everyone has a great 2021. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Moose

Fair warning this is going to be a sad post unlike all the other optimism going on with all my other blogger friends for the New Year. It will probably be a short post too. Moose isn’t keeping anything in his stomach including his medicine. He is throwing up everything but the water he drinks. If he doesn’t eat then his kidney disease will escalate at a rapid pace and kill him. He got up long enough to go out and go potty and take his medicine this morning. He has since gone back to bed. I am beside myself.

The vet’s office is closed on Wednesdays (I have problems remembering what day it is anymore as they are all running together) so right now I am biding my time until they open so I can call and find out if there is anything I can do.

Mom is having more issues and is getting more in a panic to move out here. I am not looking forward to working on that project. Mom is going to be constantly bugging me on things once I get going on it. I know she means well and I understand that the will be both excited and relieved one she gets out here but that makes it no less annoying for me when she is constantly bugging me about it when things are out of my hands. The situation with Moose isn’t helping it either.

I don’t want this to be what it is….. a sad angry post. So I am sorry that I am ending the year on a sad note. Right now that is all I have. As of right now 2021 will be worse than 2020 for me because I will probably lose my baby boy. Thanks for reading and stay safe. I hope you all have a loving and prosperous 2021.

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Early Morning Blah

Here I am again composing this on my phone. The internet seems to going in and out like waves on a beach. I finally got it to load the blogs I am following but it is hit and miss as to whether or not it will load the full post. So I am sorry if I have missed reading your posts this morning!

Yesterday I got some head way going in my novel. I had to order a research book because what I was finding online and in my own personal research books wasn’t enough information. The frustrating thing is most of this is background for the novel. It may or may not make it in the actual story. But I can’t tell the story without having the background. So I do the research.

Today is going to be a long one. Sleep was evasive last night. I slept for about two hours then awake an hour. Then I’d sleep an hour or so and be up for another hour. This went on all night. I feel like I’ve gotten no sleep at all. Then fighting with the internet… oh well.

I received a beautiful bracelet from my Mother-in-law for Christmas! The purchase of the bracelet went to support the rescue and tracking of elephants. I have even been given the name of one that I adopted via the bracelet! ❤️

I will wrap this up so I can get ready for work. I didn’t do much with the camera but I got some fun shots of the kids. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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What Today Will Bring

I guess I will be doing this morning’s post on my phone. My laptop can’t seem to connect to the internet all of the sudden. My head hurts. It feels like I have been hit in the nose. I am hoping a nice hot shower will help. It has finally stopped snowing but it is very dark out.

I need to get laundry and dishes done today. Last night’s dinner (which turned out amazing) accumulated dishes in the sink and on the counter. Both need to get done before I shower. I hope.

I am angry with myself because I didn’t work on my writing yesterday. Instead I binge watched CSI. I am thinking either early morning or late at night seem to be too writing times for me. Everyone else is asleep or occupied so I don’t feel guilty about not spending time with my family. It took me awhile before I got into the habit of my daily blogging so I need to give myself time yet I need to get serious about it.

I hope today will not be any angry day for me. My head (mostly my face so it is sinus pressure) seems to be getting worse which will leave me quick to anger today. And I don’t like being like that.

Hang on a minute…,.Ok. I thought the door to go outside was open again. Moose has started opening the sliding glass door on his own again.

I will leave you will a smile though. Some of the toys the dogs got squeaked. Well there was a blue hay outside the bay windows that thought the toys squeaking was another blue jay family so he started talking back to the squeaking toys.

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Holiday Cheer

It has been snowing since yesterday morning and we have about 4 inches (10 cm) of snow so far. It hasn’t let up much so we’ll see how much we end up with. Today is Christmas. That means I don’t have to hear Christmas music when I got to work on Sunday! Whoo hoo! It will be nice to get back to “normal” around here. Looks like the wind is going pretty good. The snow is blowing across the window instead of falling from the sky to the ground. I also need to go out and check the bird feeder. It should be ok but I may need to replace the suet on one side.

The other night I kept dreaming about trying to find one of my best friends from school. We lost touch when Chris and I still lived in Louisville, Kentucky. The last I heard from her she was going to have to go home and face her family because she wasn’t able to make it in Chicago. At one point she asked me to come and live with her there but I couldn’t. There was so much wrong with the way her family treated her and for her to have to come back to them…. I honestly wonder if she is alive. I put out the word to fellow classmates that I am still in touch with and no one has heard anything from her but me. A few times I have been tempted to send a letter to their address but I’m sure they have moved since then. I still might. I would really like to get back in touch with her. Short of hiring a private investigator I’ve tried everything else.

I am excited to give Chris his stuff when he gets up. I am grateful that Mom and I could go in together to get it for him. It is something that he really wants but could not get for himself. I like it when I can do things like that for him. He usually just gets stuff himself. Once he gets up the kids can get their gifts as well. Chris got them 2 toys each at the store the other day. I’m pretty sure that some of them squeak so I’ll wait to give them out.

I have a whole day in front of me. What shall I do? I know that I will be on the phone a lot but I would like to spend some time writing, even if it is just putting some of my short stories into WordPerfect. I have already used the program to do my word count for the paper. That was amazing to not have to count article by hand! Almost as good as not having to brush all this snow coming down off my car the next time I go to work!

I think I will wrap this up as I need some more coffee and I see that the holiday messages are coming fast and furious on my phone… oh and Chris is awake! Merry Christmas!

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Blowing Through Like a Cold Wind

I have managed to cut myself short on time again. Not sure how. We have a dusting of snow (yesterday’s rain got rid of most of it) from this morning but the heavy winds are what if freezing your bones. Essie stayed out too long and was shivering at the door. I got her in and wrapped her in a blanket to try to warm her up. Naturally Moose was giving me “the look.” Heaven forbid I love on one of the other dogs. He is back to not eating breakfast again. He usually eats dinner. But even last night he left maybe a third of it. One of the things I plan to do on my two days off is research what I can feed all three dogs. Maybe if they are all eating the same thing he will start eating again.

Today is Christmas Eve. That means the last day of Christmas music at work! Yay! I know that is a relief for just about everyone at work. I am wearing my Cthulhu Christmas shirt again. I don’t feel like digging through a box of stuff to find my one last holiday shirt. Not just to wear for one day, wash and then have to stick it back in the box. So back to my Halloween themed Yuletide gear. I will definitely be wearing my Supernatural scarf because the wind seems to be growing in intensity.

I see by the clock if I plan on putting any photos in I need to get on it. Where did all my time go? Take care everyone and be safe! Thanks for reading!