Aging, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, Friends, History, Learning, Life, Nature, the World, Thinking

What We Can Learn

This morning is the opposite of yesterday. As bright as it was the shadows today are darker. The sky looks cold and about to cry. Essie doesn’t feel well this morning. She didn’t eat breakfast and has been outside several times. Moose and Stella are curled up in the pile of blankets on the couch. I need to pull out two of those blankets to go in my car, Angus, soon. Moose needs to go to the vet this morning to get further tests on his kidney disease. His medicine should arrive today as well. Lol. I just let Essie back in and she made a beeline for the couch and is currently looking for a spot to lay with her siblings.

As I was watching and chatting with customers it struck me that all the “old” people were once young and all the young people will (possibly) become old. I listen to the stories of the older folks and laugh with them at the antics they got away with when they were younger. Then there are the older ones that flirt shamelessly cheeky monkeys that they are. They all have stories to tell. They have lived adventures we never can, survived things that we can’t understand. To ignore them is a shame on us. No matter how old they still have things to teach us.

And the young do too. They can teach us how to live life instead of worry about every little thing (although the pandemic is making a lot of them grow up and worry too soon). Thy remind us that we have imaginations that can take us anywhere, we just need to follow our hearts.

I guess the point is that we can still learn from each other. If we make the effort. Stay safe and thanks for reading.

Creativity, Emotions, family, Friends, History, Holiday, Life, Nature, Thinking

Looking Toward the Holidays

It is still dark out but I can hear the rain coming down. It is a rain snow combination as it is cold enough for snow. It will be a morning to see how Angus the new car does in the wet. It’s going to be weird for me not to have to flip the car into 4×4 when I need it. This car has all wheel drive all the time.

I cannot believe that this week is Thanksgiving already! The other thing that happens this week is Christmas music starts on Friday. No one at work gets why I am not a fan of Christmas. Even when I explain the lack of being able to see let alone spend time with my family for 15 years. It got to the point that no one even tried to spend time with me because I was always working. And I resent that. Mom and friends used to come over to spend the holidays with us. Many of those friends have since moved away. Mom doesn’t come over hardly at all anymore. Point is I don’t like Christmas because it has been the time of year when I lose my family. It will be nice to work normal houses on the day after Thanksgiving.

I am still in search of Christmas gifts for everyone. I have ideas that I can hopefully follow up on. If I can it will be a fun one. The gifts will make everyone smile. I am also wondering what to do about work. I thought about gifts for a few people I work with but does that mean I should for everyone? And what do I get people? So I’m not sure what I’m going to do yet. Ideas are welcome! What do you do (or have you done) for coworkers for Christmas?

Looking at the clock I see that I need to get going for work. I hope to get some photos in after I get home since I didn’t take any after the birds at the feeder yesterday morning. Stay safe and thanks for reading!

Animals, Books, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Guitar, History, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Reading, Thinking, Writing

Lost In the Bread Crumbs

The promised wind from the past few days seems to have arrived today. Winnie the Pooh would refer to it as a “rather blustery day.” My relocated bird feeder is still holding strong wedged on the branch of the maple tree. The clouds are moving around swiftly so we’ll see how that affects the weather. The ponds are icing over.

There is so much that I want to read and research and learn. I’m not sure where to start so I peck at everything like a chicken. A little here and a little there. Usually not the same subject each peck. Which limits my learning because that peck might be a book but if I don’t finish reading the book and start another that has caught my attention…. which is what I tend to do. There are research books I bought a year ago that I still haven’t finished reading. I have beginner guitar music and lessons, learning Italian, keeping up with my French, all my varied history books and biographies…. all been read a little but never finished.

I am watching Moose and hoping he is dreaming. He has been my shadow since we went to bed last night. I don’t think he feels good. When he was outside eating some of the small bit of snow we got parts of his body started shaking. I thought he was cold but then I noticed that it was just random places he was shaking. Not all over like he was cold. He is doing it again now but I can possibly contribute it to dreaming. Right? Some of the muscle shakes do not coincide with his dreaming. I may be reading too much into this but there it is.

I feel scattered. So much I want to do, things that need to be done, things that should be done. All seemingly to be done now. What to do? How to chose? I try to calm my mind and pick one thing off the important list and try to do that. Then maybe something off the list just below that. Some days this works. Other days panic sets in and I give myself a stress headache and do nothing but berate myself because I’m getting nothing done.

I can say that the birds have found the feeder in it’s new spot. I am glad. When I find a replacement I will try to hang it from one of the branches of the maple trees. I got a few photos of birds at the feeder (just outside my window yay!). One is a woodpecker (red head) and the other is a chickadee (tiny one). A lot of chickadees but there is one little blue bird trying to defend from all comers. Let me see if I can get a picture… I got a few shots that I will share. I’m gonna need to get that other bird feeder asap with the battles that are going on out there. Sheesh!

I’m going to upload the photos and try to get one thing off my have-to-do list. I don’t work until 2pm so that will give me some time. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Books, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, History, Life, Love, Photography, Reading, the World, Thinking, Writing

A Day For Me

The sun is out in earnest this morning. And it will have a time of it warming things up. It was almost cold enough for frost this morning. That being said it is supposed to warm up quite a bit for the next few days so I may uncover the plants in the memorial garden and pull out the ones I brought in. I am hoping the nights stay as warm as they say or warmer. I don’t want to bring them all in and out everyday.

Today is 9/11. It feels like a somber day for those of us that were alive when the 9/11 bombings happened here in the U.S. It seems as though we have gone from outside enemies to inside enemies since then. With no end in sight. I had to unfollow a fellow blogger this morning because of the posts they were writing. They were getting angrier and angrier. Anyone that did not do and think as that person did would incur the wrath of God because that person was right. I don’t need to see that on my feed. That type of thinking is part of the problem. It certainly is NOT part of the solution.

It feels weird not watching the clock to see how much time I have before I need to get ready to go. A good weird. I got a bunch of stuff done last night after I got home so that will be less I have to do today. I do need to see if I can get the mower going today. If not I may ask for help from our neighbors across the street.

I feel like I want to work on my writing today. I got inspired by a documentary on Amazon last night about the controversial Scary Stories to Tell In the Dark. I had all three books as well as the on based on the movie (thanks Mom!). I really love the art and the content. For those who have never read the books they are a collection of scary stories and folktales from all over. This type of book is what got my love for horror started. Just sitting around telling stories to each other in the dark (or with just a flashlight). I still have my first collection that I convinced my parents to buy me (they were still married so I had to be in the single digits with my age). It was at the local bookstore in Ferndale, Michigan called “Paperback Books Unlimited.” This place was a staple of my childhood. I snuck a peek at my first Fangoria Magazine there as well. My parents tried to take me there as often as they could. I just dug the book out of my shelves. It was printed in 1973 so I had to be around 5 or 6 years old. Some Things Strange and Sinister edited by Joan Kahn is the book.

I have always loved short stories because they are small bites that you can snack on if you aren’t in the mood for a full novel (or don’t have the time). It has been a long time since I last wrote a short story. The last one I sent out into the world was college and was a runner up in a contest. They were only going to print the winners but they liked mine so much they made and exception. I still have the copy of the magazine. I have a few done that I need to polish and get out there. But, again, I need to get myself a copy of WordPerfect. Everything is digital now. Very few places will accept hard copy sent through the mail. So I need a reliable program that I can edit and send my work on. That may be something I save up for. I need to make sure bills get paid and Moose has a vet appointment coming up.

Ok, I see that I have talked quite a bit. I will wrap this up and share a few photos. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Aging, Animals, Books, Dogs, Emotions, family, Friends, History, Life, Thinking

The Big Day

Well the day is finally here!  It is hard to believe that I turn 48 years old today.  So much has happened over the course of my life… and so much is yet to happen.  I really am at a loss as to what to write about this morning.  I have spent a bit on Facebook this morning saying thank you for my birthday messages.  It gives me the warm fuzzies to know that people take time out of their day to wish me a happy birthday.  ❤

I think Moose is not happy.  Stella has taken to coming in the office with us in the morning.  Her spot seems to be at my feet under the chair.  He stretched and I told him “Good stretches!” and then Stella stretched as well.  Lol.

I’m sitting here looking at all the things I have collected over my years.  I have so many memories packed into my office!  And not just mine.  I have stuff from my parents trip to Italy as well as things from my Aunt Rita (well she was my great aunt).  I guess you could say they are little cast offs from people I care about.

Do you ever sit in a room and look at things and just let your mind wander?  That seems to be what I am doing this morning.  Mom sees my room as cluttered because there is so much but to me it is my history made accessible.  My book shelves are crammed full and then some but they are organized.  I have my knickknacks pretty much all over.  I have flags, posters, autographs, framed photos, license plates etc on the walls.  I even have a bunch of flies that Chris tied stuck to my corkboard.

Since my mind doesn’t seem to want to stay focused I will share a few “full” photos of my office.  It is my happy place.  Thanks for reading and have a great day!  Stay safe!

 

Animals, Dogs, Friends, History, Learning, Life, Nature, Thinking

Looking For a Rhythm

The sun was out for a bit but now we are back to the cold grey skies and rain.  I do see blue sky here and there.  The temperature is supposed to hit 70F (21C) today.  I know I am looking forward to it.  Not a big fan of fall weather in the middle of my summer.  I also need to empty the excess water from the potted plants.  Again.  I’m sure I’ll be mowing this week as well but that I don’t mind.  The joys of having a riding mower. 🙂

The meeting last night was another long one.  But I find it interesting to listen and watch the process of local government.  Chris teases me about how much I’ve picked up since starting with the paper (in a good way).  As a kid my friends and I would go sit in on the court cases then go home and do our own.  We would rotate who was judge, prosecuting attorney and defense attorney.  We really had fun with that.  One year it was most of our summer.

I was able to get some more writing done on my new story yesterday.  So far so good!  I am struggling not to get lost in the details.  Things that I can look up later to clarify or change.  I am just trying to get the story all down first.  I know I will get lost in the research on this one.  lol  Too interesting to let myself just look up this or that.

I can’t seem to stop yawning this morning.  One cup of coffee is not going to help.  Moose keeps looking at me hopefully to see if I am done since I spent so much time on here this morning with the article then this.  So I suppose I had better wrap this up and get them outside to play a bit.  Hopefully the weather does warm up as promised (the furnace has actually gone on a few times since last night).  The kids and I are tired of being stuck inside all day.  I hope you have a great day!  Thanks for reading and stay safe!

 

Animals, Books, Cooking/Baking, Dogs, family, Food, History, Learning, Life, Nature, Reading

Seeing More of Nature and Reading

The apple pie did not turn out as expected.  It was a bit juicer than promised in the recipe.  But still edible and still good.  We were blessed with full sun and warmth yesterday.  Which according to the weather app might be the last for a few days.  I finally got to see my little peeper that is hanging out in the pond gardens.  He is about the size of a thumb nail but he sure can sing!  That was how I managed to see him.  He was singing and his expanded throat is white.  I just hope that the resident garden snake leaves him alone.  We are getting all kinds of critters this year in the yard.  I had a chipmunk pop on the the deck right at my feet and just sat there and looked at me while I read.  The little one was so close I could feel fur!  Then the bird population has increased as well as the variety of birds.  We have cardinals (I think only once before have we had cardinals), red winged blackbirds, grackles… I could go on and on.  We even have hawks flying over head again.  It is so nice to just sit in the backyard and watch the animals.  They don’t even seem to mind the dogs when they are out.  We’ve had robins hanging out doing their thing while the dogs do theirs in the same area.

I managed to finish reading two books yesterday.  So that means I started two more.  Lol.  One of them is actually a restart.  That one is Lucrezia Borgia by Sarah Bradford.  I almost finished it last time.  But it has been long enough that I might as well start over.  I’m in the mood for some history reading.  The problem will come in when I start researching as I read or finding other historical stuff I want to read about.  I have numerous shelves in my library devoted to history.  I look around and see various books I have started for research and wonder if I should restart or just continue reading them.

Everyone is asleep here.  I woke up at one point in the night with Essie in the crook of my legs, Moose in the middle with his head on me and Stella (of all places) with her head on my pillow beside me and her snout in my head snoring away.  I had to try not to laugh and wake everyone up.  The breeze has become wind.  The tree branches are moving pretty freely right now.  They still look bare from a distance but when you get close you can see the buds.  So much for their “hottest spring on record” theory.  We still get frost at night.

Well my coffee is empty so I need to refill.  I think I will curl up with a book and a fresh cup of coffee.  I hope you and yours are safe!  Thanks for reading!

family, History, Life, Movies

Is It Over Yet?

This may be a short post.  Not feeling too great this morning.  The kids let me sleep in.  It’s dark outside even though the sun is up.  I did a little bit of reading but not much writing.  Chris and I spent most of the afternoon and evening together.  We finally watched “Ford Vs Ferrari.”  It was a really good movie.  I love the old Mustangs and I was lucky enough to have seen all of the ones they referred to in the movie in person (I grew up in the Detroit area and my parents are both history buffs).  So watching the movie for me was a bit like going down memory lane.

I don’t want to read for content today.  Atleast not right now.  I just want something to take my mind off being sick.  Chris made us chili yesterday and it was good but it doesn’t seemed to have helped.  Usually a good batch of hot (spicy) chili will help defeat a cold.  No such luck this time.  I am tired of taking meds that don’t help.  I have been eating oranges too.  I like them anyway but I figured the vitamin C couldn’t hurt.

Yeah I think I am gonna call it. Sorry this is so short. Have you watched any good movies or read any good books lately? Feel free to leave titles and authors to recommend. As always thanks for reading and I hope you have a great day!

Being Pagan, History, Holiday, Learning, Life, the World

Blessed Winter Solstice!

Today is the Winter Solstice.  It is the longest night of the year.  Many ancient structures are set around the Winter and Summer Solstices.  The structures show the sun cascading thru varioous portals to hit an exact spot that is only possible on that particular day. For Pagans it represents renewal of life as the sun becomes stronger and begins to overpower darkness and night.

The celebration of the Winter Solstice or Yule has many carry overs to modern Christmas.  The Christmas tree and decorating with holly for instance.  Originally the trees brought in were potted so that they could be planted outside in the Spring but the Evergreen represented just that life, rebirth and renewal.    Holly was brought into homes a protection against evil.  They also represent hope for the renewing sun.  Wreaths were made to represent the circle of life and the wheel of the year.  It would be decorated with symbols that represented what the family was hoping to achieve with the renewal of the the sun.

Looking into the history of various holidays (or holy days) is quite fascinating. To be able to see how traditions started and where they come from is something I will never tire of.

I hope everyone has a blessed Solstice! Thanks for reading!

Emotions, family, History, Learning, Life, Movies, Nature, Thinking

The Beginning…

Another late night last night.  This time we were up watching “Jaws” in honor of Shark Week.  We are still divided as the best way to view sharks.  I want to be in the water with them and Chris prefers to watch from a boat.  Chris because curious and fell in love with sharks because of that movie.  I on the other hand never really cared until I met Chris.  He is the one who taught me more about sharks (despite all the research and learning on ocean life that I had done on my own) than anyone else.  And you don’t want to watch a shark documentary with him either.  If there is a mistake he will find it and he will point it out.

I always found it funny that for all our knowledge we know less about our oceans than we do about other planets.  But is that good or bad?  What would we do with the knowledge?  Or would we continue to dive deeper and deeper to bring things up to study them that are better left alone?  I don’t mean horror movie monster I mean the last of a species or just plain we don’t need to kill something to learn about it.  I know, you can’t have it both ways.  You either gain the knowledge or don’t.

Sharks are fascinating though.  Oldest animals (I use the term very loosely here) on the planet virtually unchanged for thousands of years.  Ok, millions.  I just did some nosing around and sharks are actually older than trees!  The oldest is the Goblin shark.  They are 118 million years old.  How about that!  Amazing that Nature created “perfect” animals that never had to change in millions of years.  Imagine if that had been humans.  What if we had never changed?  Where would we be?  What would we be?  Something to ponder…

Well happy beginning of Shark Week!  Cheers!