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I’m Sorry… What Just Happened?!

Life has been interesting. The friend I went to work to take home the other day? He has COVID. He was sick enough that he decided to go to the hospital. He is in bed rest for 5 days. He has a doctor appointment on Monday but I told him to call and tell them he has COVID since they probably will reschedule him. It’s a tough one because it is about his brain aneurism and he really shouldn’t put that off. I called and texted people I’d been in contact with to let them know (why his son, who lives with him did not call the store to tell anyone is beyond me… he talked to a coworker and told her) including the store owner and our store manager.

On a positive note I got a small patch of my gardens cleaned out. It’s the small one between the fence and the side porch. But I dug everything out except the flowers. I would like to put fresh dirt in there too. Dare I get a bag from work? Last time there was literally trash and clay mixed in. I might. One bag… maybe two ought to take care of it. I tried to get out before it got too hot but my car was finished maybe and hour and a half after I dropped it off. Once I got the call that my car was done I walked over (his shop I right around the corner from us). After talking for a bit I drove home and got back into the garden. I was almost done when I found out about my friend being sick so the whole phone call texting took more time. By the time I finally finished that small patch I was ready to drop. I think I overdid it a wee bit. But it’s done.

The lilacs are blooming as it the small apple tree in the back. I will get photos to share later today. Today’s batch will be repeats. I am always pleased every year to find various new plants that I did not plant pop up. I see by the clock I need to get my self moving. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Finding the Good in the Bad

I know there will be some of my readers reading this to hear about some of the drama and trauma of yesterday. I am choosing not to write about that. Instead I am choosing to write about the good that happened.

I have a dear friend that is in recovery. I have done my best to be there for her as much as I can. Last night was one of those times. I asked her to come over as much for me as for her to be honest. I don’t know if the neighbors were happy with us or not (I haven’t heard any complaints so I think we are ok) but that doesn’t matter. We had a blast! We talked and played and danced and sang. When she came over I had a few goodies waiting for her. The big thing that I wanted to give her was a beautiful abalone butterfly necklace. I wanted her to remember that she was an emerging butterfly no matter what. And that she was loved. She’s been through a lot of crap in her life. I wanted her to have something with her that would remind her that she is loved. That she is worthy. She had a good cry over it. I guess no one had ever given her anything nice before.

This morning I hauled my sore and still exhausted tush out of bed and drove over to drop the car off. My mechanic had been up late as well doing an emergency repair on our mail lady’s Jeep. We both looked wiped out. I know I felt the better of both of us. (I just feel so good inside after last night despite the late hour that we stayed up til.) After I finish this I think I will do one of two things. I want to work on my gardens along the front and side of the house. They are looking very scraggly and unloved. The other thing is my novel. I am looking wistfully at my chair and table outside. I should do the gardens first as the temperature is supposed to get extreme again today. I can write in the house or wait til closer to evening if I want to sit outside to write. Ooooo! I can put my swing back out!

So I guess I will wrap this up and get my self outside. I do have some new photos to share (finally!). Tomorrow’s post might be a bit short as it is another 6:30am work day. I want to thank everyone for their support. It means a lot! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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No More Naps

Ok my friends, this might be a bit all over the place. The phone’s battery is not completely charged and neither is mine. I am exhausted from the past few days. We are getting busier and busier and then there is the clash of personalities. The new people aren’t fitting in. The people who work maybe once a week are acting like they are in charge, telling the new people what to do and how to do it. Coworkers getting sick.

I’m not feeling all that great. I don’t know if I should see if someone can take my meeting tonight or not. By then end of the night last night food wasn’t staying in my system very long. I guess we’ll see what happens. Thankfully I get out at one. I need to get myself home right after work so we can get the AC units in. Chris has to leave early again and with the temperatures Stella is getting too hot in the house when we are gone.

I should start getting ready to go. It will hopefully go quickly at work. No new photos today, although I did take a few. Once again I have my mystery tulips appearing. I haven’t planted any yet here they are! They are beautiful though. I will share more tomorrow. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Springin’ Thunder

What a mess. Thunder and lightening when I got home meant a freaked out pup. And then she was warm because the house had been closed up. I finally gave up and gave her some Benadryl so that she would sleep around 1am. More storms today and tonight. Since I have to be back at 6am tomorrow morning I don’t see me getting much sleep. But there it is. Yesterday was chaos for most of the shift. The gas pumps crashed once again. We had new people training. We got busy enough for all three registers to be in use at one point. And we aren’t even in to tourist season yet.

On the plus side I was commended by the store owner for my efforts and told that I would be getting a raise. The phrase used was “a significant raise” so I am a bit excited to see what happens. The store owner also he would kick in some money for the barbeque that I have planned. That will help with the meat portion. Unfortunately the event has been put off until June 10th now. At the rate we are going it will be shelved. It is going to be our busy time and everyone is pretty much going to want to go home after work instead stop off at a barbeque (free or not). We’ll see. With several people graduating it is hard to find a decent date for everyone in June. I’m not going to offer it later since we just get busier as the summer goes on. There is no point. We’ll see.

I am dropping off my car to get the brakes done Friday morning at 9am. I have the day off so that will make sure I stay home to get things done. So any running I need to do I ought to do Thursday after work. I might get some gas for my little tiller and give that a whirl on Friday. I may or may not leave a few minutes early and go to the Dollar General to get a few things. I have several graduations this month myself and I have a few gift ideas but I need supplies to pull it together. I also need to remember that I have a meeting Thursday night.

I got no writing done yesterday. I tried. I just sat and stared at the blank page for about 15 minutes. My brain was too fried after work. I will try again today. Things have cooled off (mostly from the day yesterday as it reached 90F (32C) because it is the same temp as it was at this time yesterday) so it is comfortable. Stella is asleep on the couch. I have a window open as well as the sliding glass doors so there is a nice cross breeze.

Chris brought home a bunch of stuff from Mom’s Monday night. A small composter was part of the goodies. I have that set up in the yard. It may move once I figure out what I am doing (Mom also included “The Complete Idiot’s Guide to Composting”). It is so nice to see all that green outside! I have moved a few of the plants out there to stay for the season. I might move a few more out there today. But for right now I need to wrap this up and get some work done on my novel. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Like a Patchwork Quilt

This morning I am very frustrated. I went to bed exhausted. 4:30am wide awake. Now that I have to head out to cover a meeting I can barely keep my eyes open. Right now I am a mess. I found out that a dear friend is in the hospital due to a minor heart attack. My talk with Mom last night after I got home from picking another friend up at the airport did not go well. By the time we hung up I was very frustrated. Mom complained that she couldn’t do this and that but she really wanted to. If only… She refuses to apply herself to anything. She will even cancel needed doctor appointments because she doesn’t feel like going anywhere that day. If you give her a solution she immediately comes back with a counter problem to that solution.

I found some baby pictures of Essie yesterday on here when I went through to delete any duplicates and not so good photos. That made me a bit teary. I miss all my fur babies. I’m sorry I am kind of all over the place this morning. My mind is already going on what I need to do today. The sun is out again so it should be another beautiful day. The tiller has been put together so I might get some gas and give that a go this afternoon. I need to remember to call about brakes for my car tomorrow as well.

See what I mean? My mind is on everything but this. I got a good 20 minutes on my novel yesterday before my mind wandered off. The last 10 minutes it thought about everything but the novel and characters. Maybe working in the yard is a good idea today. Then my mind can wander and my hands can do something constructive. Maybe I’ll start in the front yard along the house. I need to try to write the article for this morning’s meeting today so I only have one article to write tomorrow morning (I have another meeting tonight). We’ll see how that goes.

I should wrap this up. I see by the clock it is time to try to get myself together and head out. Thanks for reading through my muddle. Stay safe!

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Let the Busyness of Living Commence!

I sit here nursing my first big mug of coffee for the day. I look across the room at my little tiller that I need to finish putting together. I got it out of the box and everything laid out when Mom called last night. She cancelled for today. I am a bit upset because I raised a bit of a stink because I requested the day off and did not get it. Then a coworker offered to work it for me so I could spend the day with Mom. However I cannot message that coworker and offer to take my shift back because I said I would go and pick a friend/coworker up at the airport a 3:30pm today. So I will try to give Mom a call before I leave for the airport (Mom sleeps late and probably won’t see the message I sent her until well after noon).

Stella is asleep on her back on the couch. When she stretches all four legs go straight up in the air and the paws come together. Then they all fall back and there is a big sigh. I know her ball is still on the bed so we’ll have to find something for her to play with in the meantime. If she even wants to play. She has been snoozing.

I am trying to figure out what to do with my day. Get the tiller put together and work on the novel top the list. I also need to pull my cold weather gear from the car. I am going to cross my fingers that I won’t need any of it. I also need to check on a friend to make sure she is doing ok. She has been in a bad place mentally and I try to check in with her atleast once a day. I also need to check in with both my parents, even if it is just messaging (I worry that if Mom and I start talking it will be several hours until we hang up now that I think about it). I also want to spend time with Chris since this is his one day off. I have tomorrow off but I have a meeting at 9am and another at 6:30pm. Oh and I need to write down that last Thursday’s meeting has been rescheduled to this Thursday before I forget. I also need to start cleaning the house if we are having people over on the 20th for the BBQ. Which also means I need to start looking seriously at picnic tables. And I need to plan the day as well as set money aside for the meat. I am asking people to bring a dish to pass. I might have a few sides just incase. I have a sign up sheet in the office but most of the we’ll be there’s have been verbal. So I need to write down how many people are coming so far.

I guess I ought to wrap this up and get it together. Stella has gotten off the couch and shaken herself to let me know I have spent enough time on this. She is ready for her attention now, lol. On that note I hope you all have an amazing day! Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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To Do List Tackled

Here we are again. Chris and I will just miss seeing each other again. He has to be to work the same time I get out of work. But Stella won’t be alone very long atleast.

I did a lot yesterday. My chair got put outside along with a few plants, I finished up Chris’s laundry, the mouse cage got a god cleaning as did the snake cage. I also spent some quality time with our snake Calypso. It has been awhile since she has been out and about. Stella spent quality time outside too. Kitchen floor got swept and trash taken out.

I did do my half hour on the novel just before bed. Mostly what got written were questions about characters and storyline. I am doing so much within the story I am hoping to streamline more. There are things the reader needs to know I just have to figure out how to present them. Do I devote whole sections and tell the background story? Do I do it as a journal entry? Just word of mouth from my characters? That’s the kinds of things I was brain storming about.

I see that I need to wrap things up here. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Spring????

The morning has a slight chill but it is sunny. The wind comes and goes. When it does come it is a bit forceful. I would like to work a bit outside today. I am currently having a stand-off with a local red tailed squirrel. I refuse to put the bird feeder back up until it has left. I know fully well that it will come back at a later time to eat. It is the principle of the thing. Meantime it is on the porch. I’ll probably put it back up once I head out to do my writing. Hopefully things don’t get blown off the porch and table!

Yesterday was a good day at work despite the lack of sleep. I was a bit of a zombie off and on but I think I handled myself well. I joked around with our store manager and other management staff. It was nice to actually talk with everyone. Normally we are all so busy trying to get things done that it is a “Hi!” as we rush past.

I have taken on the role of friend/adopted daughter to one of my coworkers. We were friends way before he started working there but we have gotten closer. (This is the guy I has talking about the other day that had the stroke.) Yesterday was his first day back to work. He had to get a ride to work (his truck is still in Florida and I am pretty sure that he isn’t supposed to be driving anyway despite what he claims) and I came back to give him a ride home at the end of his shift. I have also offered to take him to any doctor appointments he might have. (His son lives with him but he can’t drive either.) It would be cheaper than him having to call a cab or “dial-a-ride” as he calls it since the appointments would be in Traverse.

He was refusing to eat as he had lost 12lbs (that he really can’t afford to lose) and he didn’t want to put it back on. I managed to convince him that he should atleast do something like Ensure since his body needs something for energy to continue to function. I bullied him a little but he took it all in stride. His brain is still bleeding slightly and he knows that he needs to get into the doctor. I know that work will be nice enough to work around any appointments that I might need to drive him to.

Stella is already outside enjoying the sun. I think I will wrap this up and join her. I have gotten a few more photos that I will share. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Day Off: Round 2

This morning I hurt in bad ways. I can barely move at times. Sitting down to write this brought tears to my eyes. My core hates me. It is a cold and dreary day so I am seriously thinking about making this a reading day. I did work on the novel and made some very good progress. I will give myself 30 minutes to work on my novel but the rest of the day I will work on my research. I am beat.

Yesterday I chatted with Mom on the phone while Chris chatted with his Dad. That was after swapping out the couch in Chris’s office with the one in the living room. To be fair Chris did most of the work. I just complained because I wanted to just hunker in for the day. Laundry got done (the cushion covers and such got washed) and the mattress got aired out (the one in his office had a pullout bed). Dishes still need to be done. I should finish vacuuming but I honestly don’t think my body will let me do much today.

I made myself get up this morning. I really wanted to stay in bed and sleep. I did not reset the clock in the bedroom correctly. It is an hour off. I thought I was getting up at 9:30am when in fact it was 8:30am. So that actually worked in my favor. I will need to change it when Chris gets up though. I have no idea what day it is anymore. It feels like a Sunday. And apparently, I am opening manager on Thursdays and Saturdays now. I am ok with that. I will be able to talk to my tobacco rep. then.

There is a fog coming in from the south. I can hear bits of rain falling. The birds are singing away. I think it is time for me to hunker in. I did get the camera out yesterday so I have some new photos to share. Both buds on my orchid have opened! AND I have two, count them two!, cucumbers growing! Yay! On that note I hoe you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Spring Happenings🦋

I am wiped out. Yesterday at work was crazy. Between the people and all the chaos… Then I got home and Chris and I hauled a bunch of stuff out to the curb (tomorrow is our annual clean up day with the county, this year they are picking the stuff up at the curb instead of us hauling it to them). After Chris went to work I hauled a bunch more stuff out on my own. Funnily enough it is not my lower back that is sore. It is my upper back and shoulders. So hopefully that is a good thing showing that I did not over tax my lower back. I may need to go out and move things around though. It is funny watching people drive by and stop to take a look at what we have hauled to the curb. It’s like a rolling yard sale, but everything is free! The two AC units we put out there were gone within minutes. And I have to say that our yard looks a lot better. I hauled out stuff left by the builders (I use the term loosely) when they built our garage as well as just general stuff that had not been even looked at for years. Tomorrow sometime will be the pick up. They will have their work cut out for them looking at everything that has been hauled out. I hope they use all their trucks!

Stella also was busy. She got the zoomies and went tearing through the yard several times. I threw the ball all over the place too. So hopefully she got her exercise. She still won’t eat breakfast and she didn’t eat all of her dinner either. But she ate and she seemed a little perkier. But there is still something bothering her. Depression? Anxiety? I’m not sure. But both of us will be home on Sunday so hopefully that will cheer her.

The grass in the backyard is actually green! The front yard not so much. But that is ok. We plan to get some grass seed planted this Spring. When we go over for Mother’s Day next Saturday I hope to get a general idea of what Mom wants out front in her yard. I told her I would help her get it all set up and seeded. I have gotten her some seeds for her garden. I want to get her some more but I need to get to the store. I need to start getting some dirt as well (for my gardens though). We sell mulch at work so I am thinking that once I get the front flower beds cleaned up (and I mean a good deep digging out) I will borrow both Chris and his truck to get some and get it spread out. If that does well I will do the same with the gardens across the back of the house. The other gardens will need to be weeded on a regular basis though. I need to decide if I want black or red mulch. Although I could just mix them…

I got some decent photos yesterday. The waxwings are not shy at all. They have no problems with me taking photos of them. Some of the birds, like the cardinals, are very shy when they see me come out with the camera. If it is just me no big deal but if I have the camera they will fly off. I still need to go to mhy neighbor’s and take a few photos of her trees. The way they are lined up is just so cool!

I should probably wrap this up and go check the bird feeder. It sounds like we have a new bird by the singing I just heard. Oh! I forgot to share! The birds nest that is in the awning over the motorcycle pad has been claimed by a robin so I might try to sneak a few photos over the next few weeks. Thank you for all your comments and support! Thanks for reading and stay safe!