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Sunshine On A Cloudy Day

I forgot to share a bit of happiness the other day. Remember way back in February when I decided to do the penpal thing? I got two penpals, one in the States and one in England. I wrote to both but I only got a response from the on in the States. I figured she had changed her mind or my letter made her think she didn’t want me for a penpal. WELL! I got a letter from her! 😲❤ I got an oversized envelope with some tourist maps and such as well as a since little card filled with writing front and back. (I find it interesting that both my penpals use blank cards whereas I use plain lined paper.) She seems to be a very nice person. She is a teacher and had been extremely busy with all the online learning/teaching for the past few months. The pamphlets she sent are of the area her Mom lives (massive gardening area) and where she lives. Both places look beautiful! I am so excited! I remember having penpals as a kid. I loved it! And when I was moving around in my 20s my parents and I would send this long missives to each other every week. I didn’t realize how much I missed it.

I really would like to stay home today and just try to relax. I slept pretty hard last night. I was just going to try the new medication but I was beginning to hurt too much. We we soooo busy yesterday! If I wasn’t ringing on a register then I was helping out in the deli. The deli has been short staffed for several nights now and they have even busier than the checkouts most days with everything that needs to be done. So I go back when I can to help when I am manager. Tonight I am just a cashier. A mixed bag tonight.

Since I am stuck on my novel I have gone through my library and picked out a book on creativity hoping that I will loosen the grip of the mental block I have. I also discovered that I love my library! I spent a bit just looking through all the various books I have and I would get them all again. It’s like walking into a place that has all your favorite books. And I can reach back into each time when I got those various titles and be right there all over again. I love my books!❤

Stella is asleep on the couch and Essie is in and out. I heard some rustling earlier and I look out to see the girls chasing each other through the yard while playing hide and seek. Silly pups! I’m so proud of how they have adapted!

I should get going. I will need a little time to upload the photos and it will depend on how much space I have. I might need to go back and thin out the photos from posts past! I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Sleepless In Michigan

Once again I am struggling with the early morning hours. I got my MRI for the morning thinking I would have the rest of the day. But I am so very very tired… I literally fell asleep while going through posts this morning. I’m not much better now. Part of it is that I stayed up so I could spend time with my family. Not late but enough that my lack of sleep from the night before has seriously caught up with me.

Yesterday the back got to the point I was going to be immobile. My leg would not work after a spasm (and my back was spasming a lot) and we were busier than all get out. It was just two of us from 7am until 10am and we had lines most of the time. There was no one in the deli til then either so I did a few orders in between waiting on customers. Everyone was very nice though. My coworkers were awesome. By the end of the shift I was miserable and almost in tears. I almost couldn’t drive myself home.

Chris was a jewel and took care of me as best he could once I got home. We had steaks, corn on the cob and pasta salad for dinner. The girls were very good too. Essie followed me everywhere. I slept pretty well once I got to bed. I am limping again this morning but not as bad as last night. I have to be there by 8am for the MRI. I still have another…. 45 minutes before I have to go. Apparently I overestimated how long my morning routine would take. Both girls have eaten breakfast and gone back to bed.

My rock collection is growing through no fault of my own lol. One of my customers is a rock hound like myself and brings me stones from his various “therapy sessions’ as we call them (because just wandering in the woods or along the water looking for rocks is a great way to decompress). When I got out of work I had a small pile of rocks piled next to my car. It made me smile and grimace at the same time. I thought it was so sweet of him to do that but I also had to bend down and get them off the ground, something my body was loathe to do.

I should get going. I can use this extra time to take off my jewelry and such for the MRI. It will save time at the hospital. Hopefully we get the results soon. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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I am not feeling it this morning. I am tired and I hurt. My friend’s wake is today but I have to close to I can’t go. Today will be a long day regardless because it will be a 10 plus hour day for me. Then I will be back at 6:20am tomorrow morning to open the store (for the first time).

I did start writing a book review I said I would do on a recent purchase of mine. going through the book is amazing. It is well done and hard to put down. But I did find a wee discrepancy that just catches in my craw. One of the women covered in the book is married to another motorcycle racer. He is famous and raced in many venues, and won. However. Yes he did race as a fill in in MotoGP after the death of Marco Simoecilli but that was the only time he has raced that venue and he certainly has never won a championship there. The way the author has worded it this rider has won MotoGP championships. It’s just a small sentence. And it might be just that, improper wording. She did not mean to imply that he had won any championships in MotoGP. But as a lover of that venue of the sport it really irks me. So what I plan to do is send a private message to the author (we are friends on Facebook) trying to politely ask what she meant and then explain how it came across. The rest of the book is amazing! But that little discrepancy…. It’s like a small stone in my shoe that I cannot find and get rid of.

We have a new couch in the living room. The futon is gone sadly. I prefer it to the couch but it was time for a change. It had been broken by Minion many years ago so we could not fold it back up. But the couch is tall enough that it is blocking the AC unit. So that will be moved to another window so when it is on it cools more than the back of the couch. That being said it is nice to not have the AC on. It is cool enough not to need it but I prefer the quiet so I can hear the critters outside (there was a woodpecker hanging out on the porch watching me this morning) and I have the windows open to get the breeze.

I guess both the girls are feeling the way I do about today. Essie only ate a little of her breakfast. Stella ate nothing at all.

My rose bush is opening more and more blooms every day so I am trying to get photos every day. My outdoor plants seem to be doing well. I need to water them this morning yet. But they may be ok since it has cooled off. I will check them. But I do need to wrap this up so I can get going. I hope you all have a great day. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Too Much Is Just Enough

I am gonna pay for all I did yesterday but I am ok with that. I got so much in the yard and house done! It was a struggle sometimes to get the tasks completed but I did it. The house is vacuumed, floors swept, laundry done and put away, dishes done (first load put away), all the plants watered (inside and out), and I got the weed whacker out and cleaned around my faery rose bush, the memorial garden and around parts of the front yard (trees, porch, motorcycle pad and the mailbox). I got the girls’ medicine as well as groceries before Chris got up. Truthfully the only thing I disappointed myself on is my writing. I didn’t pick up my pen until just before bed. And that was only for two pages in my journal.

My rose bush out front is blooming! I have never had so many buds in the 20 years that we have been there! She seems to be reaching out in a double spiral with the plant at the center. There is also one pink rose bud. This plant usually had one big bloom and it is usually the colors of a sunrise. This year I have atleast 30 buds on the plant and all but one are a deep scarlet. The faery rosebush out back is just covered in buds too. I am just thrilled with all my plants this year!

Both girls were ready to get up at 8am this morning. I was shocked. Both came out of the bedroom with me. After breakfast they got their lovins from me and both have been outside ever since. I am enjoying the weather, heat and all, myself. I know a lot of people are miserable in it. But for once I am happy with it.

I have to pick up a big can of cheap beer for Chris to take with him tomorrow. It is our friend’s wake. I can’t go because I am closing manager and truthfully I don’t know if my back would let me do the long drive. So I will send some of his favorite beer and my love.

It will be hard to pick out photos for today. I was busy with both cameras at some points. The poor dogs kept following me as I’d go back and forth either changing my lenses or exchanging my Nikon for the phone camera. But I will pick a few to share and get this posted. Thanks for reading. I hope everyone has a great day! Stay safe!

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Boom! Boiling Oil!

The high point of my catastrophic day yesterday was the boiling oil in my eye. Yep. It was that good. There were good points to be sure (I am sooo grateful that a coworker came in on her day off to help me because I would’ve never gotten it all done in the deli without her) but all in all? A crap day. The meeting lasted til 11:30am. I had to be to work at noon. I still had to run home and get dressed for work. I did manage to get to work on time with a brief kiss from each of my family as I bolted back out the door. Then the real fun started. I was on my own by 2:30pm. And we were busy. It was during this fun episode that I splashed the 375 degree oil in my eye. My help arrived around 6pm or so. By the time I left work last night I could barely walk. By the time bedtime got here I took all the medication I was supposed to (I will sometimes leave out the every eight hour one because it makes me feel wonky). That lasted until 4am. Then I tried a sleeping pill. That didn’t work. So I took another muscle relaxer (aka the wonky pill). I was able to sleep til 9am or so. When I got up I was shuffling around like a little old man. I did manage to get through the medicine fog enough to get my article written and sent in.

And here I am. I need to get one more bill paid and then I might try to get my seeds in the memorial garden. It is another hot day so both AC units will be running. I will try to get some housework done. Not all of it but some. There are things that have been neglected due to my back and need to get done. I may try to get in touch with my parents. I am very grateful that I have two days in a row off. Tomorrow I need to go and get the girls medicine from the vets office. They are closed today unfortunately.

I only broke down in tears three times at work last night. My friend’s death hit me in waves and then I just got so overwhelmed with everything that I had to do at work. I hope to get relaxed today. I have been watering the outdoor plants in the morning before the heat of the day and then again at night but I missed my chance this morning getting up so late. I will use the watering can if any of them get too wilty.

I guess I should wrap this up and get it posted. Thank you for all your support over the past few days. It means a lot. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Hiding Out

My heart aches as I write this. I found out last night that we lost a dear friend in an accidental fire. I Don’t want to be awake at this ungodly hour nor do all the things that I am slated to do today. Stella kept barking at things until I finally yelled at her to stop. That was around 2am. I was asleep by 11pm. Chris got home at 3:30am. I have been awake since 6am.

There is so much to do today. The meeting, work (I am going in a little early to water the plants for a coworker)…. Work is going to be interesting. I am on my own in the deli from 2:30pm on today. I got that little bomb dropped on me when I went in yesterday. I know that they are going to bust tail to have everything they can done for me but still… This whole being short staffed is starting to wear on us all. Everyone would rather stay home and get their free handouts rather than work. And to be fair you can earn more money staying home getting the handouts than if you go get a job. The whole thing is messed up.

I apologize for the less than happy words that seem to be pour out onto the page. I am just exhausted mentally and physically. Hopefully the next tow days will help me get into a better frame of mind. I did get some beautiful sunset photos that I will share. And Essie is feeling better. She ate all of her dinner and most of her breakfast. I am grateful for that. Thanks for reading and all your wonderful comments! Stay safe!

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Sooooo Now What?

What a mess… I feel like I have more questions than answers with my back. No examination or anything. I was given two medicines (one a muscle relaxer and the other for anxiety and sleep) and the wheels are in motion for an MRI. They are going to contact my insurance to see if they will cover it. If I don’t hear anything in a week I am supposed to call the doctor. So.

The medicine is a mixed bag. I am not sleeping any better. A loud noise woke me at 2am and I was wide awake (I was instructed to take one of each medication before bed). After staring into the dark for around 15 minutes I got up and took a sleeping pill. Then I read for an hour to fall asleep. I kept waking up from 6am on every little while to crack an eye at the clock. The pain portion of all this is…. interesting. The muscle relaxer has cleaned up the pain if you will. All the aches from limping and such have gone away. Now I know where all the pain is stemming from. The base of my spine and the backs of my hips. This pain is still very intense. An added bonus is that I found a rather large bruise on the bottom of my left heel. It feels like it goes all the way to the bone.

The downside of all this is that my novel has been ignored. So tomorrow I need to but some time in with that. I may do a bit this morning before work (fun fact: I work at 11am instead of 2pm like I thought so it will be atleast a 10 hour day today). I am so happy to not have to do anything on my day off! I have to get groceries but I will do that tonight. I don’t want to go anywhere tomorrow.

The heat is supposed to be record highs today and tomorrow. 90F (32.2C). I am glad Chris will be home with the girls and that the AC units are in!

Some bright spots from yesterday are I got some lovely gifts from one of my coworkers. She got my a beautiful best friend necklace that breaks in half and we each get a half as well as a very cool cup with my initial on it. I plan to use this tomorrow. The second bit of awesome that happened was I got my Supernatural box! I didn’t post that on my Facebook page yet. I didn’t want to have the gifts from my coworker over shadowed so I will post them today.

Ok, I will see how many photos I can add. I do have a bunch to share. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading!

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Squirreling Through the Days

This morning was a great struggle to get out of bed. I didn’t get home until much later (I had a chatty coworker with me last night after close) and then about half way home I realized I had forgotten to punch out and had to go back. I stayed up way to late writing and doing research. I am kicking myself but I was wide awake. I finally got to bed after 1am. I had planned to get up around 8am so I could take my time before work but I was just so desperate for sleep…. I finally dragged myself out of bed around 9am. I feel like I have gotten no sleep. And I am getting up progressively earlier each day. Still getting home around the same time though. I start at 11am today, 10am tomorrow then the eye watering 7am on Saturday. My back and middle are not happy.

We had an actual freeze warning last night. Not frost but freeze. I think everyone faired ok. I have so many plants outside there was no way I was going to get them covered up. Especially as late as it was when I got home. I will have to keep an eye on the weather the next few days. I had hoped to putter in my gardens even in a limited capacity this weekend. If I can’t then I won’t bother getting the gardening stuff on Saturday. I might still get the seeds at the dollar store though. Plants have been scarce around here. I was talking to a coworker yesterday and he said that he had driven around to maybe five different nurseries and maybe one had any plants. So I will make my own. They sell a decent mixture of seeds and they are inexpensive at the dollar store. Hopefully no one else gets the same idea.

Sunday I hope to spend writing and spending time with the family. Saturday I will call my parents to chat so I will have Sunday free and clear. We might even go to brunch. We’ll see how busy the restaurant is though. It is a holiday weekend here and a lot of tourists will be up from downstate. yay.

I should probably wrap this up so I can start getting ready to go. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Looking at the Good

I am still here. It is a near thing though. I haven’t had time to answer all the comments that you have left. I will do that once I get this posted. I want to only talk about the good things that have happened the past few days. There isn’t much but I am tired of only seeing the negative lately.

I think the coolest thing is that I am gonna be in a video game… and a werewolf! One of the guys I work with is learning to make video games. This time he and his girlfriend are going to make one together. I got asked yesterday if they could name a werewolf character after me. I was flattered and said yes immediately. I will see what my character will look like as soon as she is finished. I can even make suggestions (since both my coworker and myself love the color violet I suggested putting a purple streak in my fur but I am thinking violet eyes might be cool too).

We has a beautiful sunset last night. I missed a few great photos because I didn’t pull over on the way home but I still had some awesome colors once I got home. Once again the camera (I use my phone camera because the Nikon washes out the color dramatically) didn’t get all the purples and pinks that were actually in the sky but it is still a good shot.

It rained last night. That is a good thing because it has been very hot in the house for the girls. We plan to put the AC units in the windows today before I go to work. The yard also needed the rain. Even with the lush grass (that I still need to mow) things were getting dried out.

Dad and I had a good chat on Monday. He is doing well. Mom is continuing to move forward with her plans to move out here. She has a potential buyer for her place. Now we just need to find her a place out here with us. Oh and Chris got his guitar yesterday. We were worried about it getting left on the porch in the elements so I suggested leaving the garage door open and have the delivery person leave it in there. Neither of us was too keen on keeping the garage open while no one was home but alls well. I haven’t seen it yet. I’m sure it is up on the wall ready to play.

That is my list of good things. I will add what photos I can (I might not have much room left on here… I still need to go back and delete some of my early pictures for more room). Thank you for sticking with me through the past few days. I appreciate the support. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Hunting Monsters

Well I survived. I did pretty well too. I had a very irate customer leave laughing so I guess I did the right thing. The closing thing went fairly smoothly. Matt gave a few pointers here and there but pretty much left me to my own devices and just stayed incase I had questions. I said he would do the same on Saturday (I am grateful as it will be a very long day (11am-8pm but longer for me since I have to close up the store). Sooooo there we are. I’m not sure how busy we will be Saturday. We weren’t too bad yesterday but we had our moments.

I asked for either Saturday or Sunday of next week off so I could spend time with Chris. I’ve worked the past two weekends and my one weekend day was our one day together. We’ll see what happens.

There is nothing on the web site about tonight’s meeting. I don’t know if it is a Zoom meeting or in person. The last one got cancelled because they did not have enough board members present. So after I finish this I will have to call the government office. I also need to call the vet to get medicine for the girls. Today is their heartworm and flea and tick medicine dose due date. I will probably stop by work to get the girls their meat for dinner as well.

It is dark but pleasant outside. I feel comfortable with the door open. The big question is do I do my running before or after Chris gets up? I can make good reasons for either. I guess it will depend on when the vet can have my medicine ready.

I feel guilty because I have not done my reading/critique on the novel I am beta reading because I have been working on my own novel. I am way behind for her. I sent her an email a few weeks ago apologizing for not having sent her a response yet and explained why. Is that a legit excuse?

Gah… I hear my neighbor across the street mowing. I need to think about mowing the backyard here soon. The front yard is a batch of unimpressive weeds. Short weeds at that. The back however is a receptacle for pounds of dog poop and is thriving. At the very least I need to get out the weed whacker and trim in the gardens. Hopefully the battery is still plugged in in the garage. I will have to check.

I took an after sunset photo when I got home last night. I only had my phone camera on me (I was taking trash out). I also took several of my patient pups last night. They didn’t eat until around 10pm (I didn’t get home until around 9:30pm and then had to cut up and cook the chicken for them). They both wanted to go right to bed but I needed to unwind so I found a werewolf documentary to watch. It was only an hour or so and it dealt with some local legends (we have the Dogman up here in Northern Michigan). They stayed out on the couch while I watched my program.

I suppose I should call the vet and then get my running done. Oh and call the government building to find out what is going on with tonight’s meeting. Thanks for reading and stay safe!