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Focusing on Forward

The person I want to talk to at the courthouse was not available today. So, I will try tomorrow. Meanwhile I am hoping to share some ideas about work with the store owner this week. Some of them are specific to my liquor department (I am bringing in new items and would like a small display on the counter), some I am incorporating other departments with mine (I would like do to a mixology class once a month and incorporate food pairings) and the last encompasses the whole store and possibly both stores (I will be suggesting a monthly newsletter). I am very excited about all the ideas. I realize that two of the three suggestions will probably be laid directly in my lap. But I am excited for them so we will see what happens. I think all three will benefit the store.

I did my first liquor order yesterday. As I wrote earlier, I added a few new things. Small but new. Hopefully those will sell and allow me to continue to add as the season goes on. It will be tricky though. I have to try to figure out what is selling to the locals versus what is selling to the tourists. Then I can lighten orders accordingly once tourist season is over. But it is doable.

I have spent a lot of my down time reading Duma Key. I had forgotten how really good it is. Especially if you can really relate to the lead character. I did get a few photos yesterday. I saw that my fairy rosebush was in bloom. It has been budding forever. I also had visitors in the form of butterflies and even a deer on the other side of the fence. She didn’t seem to mind me taking photos of her or talking to her.

Today has dawned a bit chilly. The temperature reads at 56F (13C). Yesterday it was almost 90F (32C). I watered my plants when I got home since we have gotten none of the promised rain over the past few days. My swing is out and I used it yesterday. It was weird to feel the tree move me when the strong winds shook it.

I see that I need to get myself together to get ready for work. I still have a few things around here that need to get done. Thanks for reading and thank you do much for the wonderful comments! They mean a lot. Stay safe!

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Storms and Buds and Goats! Oh My!

OMG. There are goats across the street. I heard what sounded like a whiny human child but the more I listened (and there was a lot to listen to) it sounded like what it was. Goats. They were quiet for a few minutes but then started up again. I have no idea if these people looked to see if they could have goats on their property or if their neighbors will be knocking on their door to complain. And I also wonder if they have put any thought into what is going to happen once winter sets in. I see a large fenced in area but no out building for them. This will be interesting.

Things feel like they are going borderline crazy anymore. Like someone who is barely holding it together. One wrong word will set them off. And you don’t know what that word is.

I am going to have to shut the front window. All I can hear are those goats. So much for getting a nice cross breeze through the house. Bah.

I let myself sleep in. I could’ve slept longer but I wanted to get things done before I had to leave for Mom’s. I slept about 12 hours as it was. Mom keeps trying to weasel out of going to the doctor. I don’t want to go anywhere today so it is difficult to keep pushing her to still go at times.

I’m going to go over and smack those kids. The human ones, not the goats. They find it entertaining to get the goats to bleat. No sooner are the goats quiet then I hear a human child make the bleating noise only to have the goats mimic it. And so it goes. I am glad I am not next door.

We had storms roll through in the wee hours this morning. Stella was not a happy girl. I had the light on for a bit to help. As soon as the storms ended, she hunkered right back in and went to sleep. Everything got watered well from the storm. I have been taking my little watering can and watering everyone outside. The hoses leak more water than they disperse so I have given up on them. Pepper plants have buds and are blooming. One of the cantaloupe plants has a big orange bloom open. I also used some fresh basil and oregano in dinner last night. I marinated some chicken then grilled them in a tin foil wrap with the fresh herbs inside. We also had a ranch bacon pasta salad. Not a lot but I felt that I should make dinner on Father’s Day for Chris.

It looks like it wants to rain again. If we have storms it will be hard to leave Stella. I might just have to take her with and stay in the car with her. I can’t leave her freaking out at home. But we’ll see. I did take lots of photos yesterday so I will share some of them today. The plants are the recent editions to the gardens. Everything was budding like crazy yesterday so the rain will be a push for things to get moving. I’ll get more photos in a few days to show their growth. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Overcast With a Chance of Creativity

This morning I am finding it hard to find a place that doesn’t hurt. Last night I couldn’t eat the excellent dinner that Chris made us. Beef kabobs, rice, and asparagus. It looked so good. But for whatever reason my stomach started. I ended up in bed with a little bucket next to me. It pretty much lasted all night. My body was rebelling everything. Even water made me nauseous.

I do feel better this morning. I even got up extra early (I went to bed extra early). I am hoping to get some writing done as well as some yoga. It feels like a good time to bring that back into my life. Stella is on the love seat behind me dreaming of chasing something. Chipmunks and birds seem to be a focus lately. A bird flew in the house yesterday (flew right back out fortunately) and this morning as I was standing on the back porch a chipmunk ran right up next to me and sat. We have a lot of animals here, but the direct contact doesn’t happen often. It’s more observation.

For whatever reason I have been thinking of one of my best friends through school lately. (Those of you who are my long-time readers might remember a few years ago when I found out that she had commit suicide.) While I was lying in bed debating on actually getting up or not, I started remembering things we did together. We were very close. I still have several of the gifts she got me over the years. One of them is a small Paddington Bear. I had always been a Pooh Bear girl, and this was my first exposure to Paddington. (I never really loved orange marmalade until I was an adult though.) Anyway, I pulled Paddington off my desk in our bedroom as I came out here this morning. He is stanning to right of my laptop as I type this.

I don’t know what my plans today are. As much as I want to garden, I don’t know if my wrist is up for it (I sprained it Saturday at work). I have seeds that need to get in the ground. But before that can happen, I have to clean out the raised beds. My wrist is really starting to hurt with this small effort. I don’t think holding and shaking machine or pulling weeds will help. Using a pen probably won’t help either but it will be easier on the rest of my body.

The sun was out and shining when we got up but now it has become overcast. I might put my swing up again (a sure sign that it will rain). I am trying to get myself to write in other places of the house and yard. I have the table in the breakfast nook, a desk in our bedroom, a desk in my office, my little chair and bistro set on the back porch (apparently expensive since my hands tried to type “porsche”), my swing, the ground (I pull out my Minion quilt and we sit on it) and my big blue Adirondack chair. So far nothing out of the normal, that being here on the floor at the table, on the love seat or in bed. Today might be a good day to start that as well.

I see that this is becoming extra-long so I will stop here. A big thank you to everyone who has reached out to me. I really appreciate the support. As always thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Pushing Reset

This morning has dawned damp and chill. Our much-needed rain started last night. I am grateful for it not only because of the plants and yard but because it keeps me inside. There is so much I still need to do outside! But on the other hand there is so much I need to do inside as well. The mouse cage needs to be cleaned (it has needed to be cleaned for a while now but I just haven’t had the time), the snake cage needs to be cleaned, floors swept, vacuuming done, inside plants tended to, office cleaned up, books and movies gone through…. you get the idea. Oh and let’s not forget my writing for class as well as working on my novel. This will be the only day I have to get my classwork done.

That being said I don’t expect to get everything done. I am content to take my time with life today. There has been too much rushing and cramming this past week. Even my days off were not my own. So today is mine to do with what I will.

Chris and I spent some quality time together just hanging out. We grilled some steaks (well he cooked them in the smoker) and our side was some baby potatoes in spices. It was good to just spend some time together. We even managed to tire Stella out between the two of us! At one point after chasing her ball she hopped back on the couch, let go of the ball so it was beside her and rolled over on her back going promptly to sleep.

I have a bunch of irises that are blooming this year. It is rather cool because I transplanted a lot a few years ago so each year a different area blooms (my irises seem to bloom every other year). I am going to sneak out in the rain to get some photos to share with you today. I am very proud of what I have gotten done so far with all my plants and gardens. I just hope I keep my momentum for the whole season!

I see that my laptop battery is running low so I need to wrap this up. I also think I am going to use my laptop in the kitchen nook today. My first draft for class will be with pen and paper but I think I will put it into digital form in the kitchen nook (my brain keeps calling it my garden nook for some reason). So, off to click some quick pics to share and get this posted. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Finding Center

I sit here this morning enjoying some coffee and a biscuit. (A bit of a tee hee here. One of Stella’s nicknames is Biscuit and she is the biscuit I am referring to. She has been in my lap since before I started this.) The morning has dawned chilly and dark. I am of two minds about it. Last night my anxiety was up because my mind felt like I had to turn around and get up for work the next day.

Don’t get me wrong. I love my job (mostly). But so much has been going on at work and I have been giving 200%. We are getting busier and busier with Memorial Day coming up. This is the start of our busy season and we are lacking in help. I know everyone is. It amazes me though that people go through the effort to get hired but once at the job don’t feel the need to work. They want to stand around and get paid for it. If you have them actually go and do something (aka work) they get resentful and decide that they will quit. A lot of the younger kids coming in are like this. And to be fair I am leading by example. I am constantly on the move at work. I also have no problems working with them if it is a big project. There are also underlying currents shifting at work (this doesn’t affect the new people). Marriages are waxing and waning (have no fear, ours is good) and there are more management shifts going on.

I inadvertently slept in this morning. I guess I needed it. I usually try to take Stella for a walk on Friday mornings at the park. I still may. I really don’t want to go anywhere. I just don’t know ia a walk on the property will give her the same satisfaction. And there have been several deer sneaking along the back fence line. I don’t know if I want to try to hold her back if we encounter one out there (I know, I know… go buy the harness for her so I can use a sturdier leash).

I am not going to have any plans for today. Just things I would like to do. I talked to both my parents yesterday since I got out so early. Well early-ish. I am going to have overtime on this week from staying over for various reasons. So unless something happens I should have the whole day for just Chris, Stella and I. We have brats and kabobs for the grill for dinner tonight. The rest of the day is fair game.

Stella has seen something. No idea what. She is silently staring out the window with her hackles up. I should wrap this up and see about getting us to the park. If no one is there then we will do our 1/2 mile walk. If there are people there then we will probably some back home and walk on the back 40 hoping for no deer. I don’t have many new photos to share but I have a couple. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Let the Busyness of Living Commence!

I sit here nursing my first big mug of coffee for the day. I look across the room at my little tiller that I need to finish putting together. I got it out of the box and everything laid out when Mom called last night. She cancelled for today. I am a bit upset because I raised a bit of a stink because I requested the day off and did not get it. Then a coworker offered to work it for me so I could spend the day with Mom. However I cannot message that coworker and offer to take my shift back because I said I would go and pick a friend/coworker up at the airport a 3:30pm today. So I will try to give Mom a call before I leave for the airport (Mom sleeps late and probably won’t see the message I sent her until well after noon).

Stella is asleep on her back on the couch. When she stretches all four legs go straight up in the air and the paws come together. Then they all fall back and there is a big sigh. I know her ball is still on the bed so we’ll have to find something for her to play with in the meantime. If she even wants to play. She has been snoozing.

I am trying to figure out what to do with my day. Get the tiller put together and work on the novel top the list. I also need to pull my cold weather gear from the car. I am going to cross my fingers that I won’t need any of it. I also need to check on a friend to make sure she is doing ok. She has been in a bad place mentally and I try to check in with her atleast once a day. I also need to check in with both my parents, even if it is just messaging (I worry that if Mom and I start talking it will be several hours until we hang up now that I think about it). I also want to spend time with Chris since this is his one day off. I have tomorrow off but I have a meeting at 9am and another at 6:30pm. Oh and I need to write down that last Thursday’s meeting has been rescheduled to this Thursday before I forget. I also need to start cleaning the house if we are having people over on the 20th for the BBQ. Which also means I need to start looking seriously at picnic tables. And I need to plan the day as well as set money aside for the meat. I am asking people to bring a dish to pass. I might have a few sides just incase. I have a sign up sheet in the office but most of the we’ll be there’s have been verbal. So I need to write down how many people are coming so far.

I guess I ought to wrap this up and get it together. Stella has gotten off the couch and shaken herself to let me know I have spent enough time on this. She is ready for her attention now, lol. On that note I hope you all have an amazing day! Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Learning and Loving

It is a good sign. The sun is out. It’s not exactly warm but it will have to do. I may take Stella out for a walk on the property, just to get her out of the house. I thought about taking her with for my tattoo but that will be a several hour process and I am pretty sure that she doesn’t want to be stuck in the car for that long.

I am hoping to enhance the final product of the tattooing by telling him that I plan to send a photo to both Kane Hodder as well as the magazine HorrorHound of the finished piece. Fingers crossed! 1:30pm is my appointment. I need to leave a few minutes early to go to an ATM to get the money out. I am both excited and apprehensive. I know that he has but a lot of time and effort into the flash work for this. (Flash work is the drawing the artist makes so you can see what is going to be tattooed on you. Usually this will be a general outline with as little or no detail as the artist chooses. This will also be the stencil that is used on the body for the piece.) And I know that he wants to go as big as he can to get in the detail on Kane’s face. But I just can’t spend $500 on a tattoo right now. That was the price for the size that he had drawn up. I about choked.

There is so much that I want to do and learn! I don’t know where to start! I was looking for a book I had gotten on local rocks (it seems to have grown legs and wandered off) and I see my dvds for photography, writing, yoga… Then there are all the research books I have. Archaeology, learning to write ancient Egyptian, learning Italian, learning Latin, learning French (a refresher for me since I had it in both high school and college, but I am very rusty). And don’t get me started on all the gardening and cooking books and magazines (mostly acquired from Mom)! There is just soooo much! Oh, and sailing. I forgot about that one. And guitar. I have a LOT of guitar stuff from previous classes. But you get the idea. There is so much that I am interested in and want to learn/learn about that I honestly don’t know where to start. Maybe I do. If I write everything on individual slips of paper and put them in a container, I can pull them out at random. Maybe spend a week working on whatever it is then put the slip back in the jar.

Yesterday was Stella’s Gotcha Day. I found her on the side of the road four years ago on that day. Today Essie has been gone 3 months exactly. I look on the table beside the laptop and I see my glass and silver heart box that I got at the resale shop the last time Linda and I were together. Moose’s scarf (that he always tried to shake off) is tied to my leather satchel. Good memories and bad this morning. I’m trying not to get bogged down by the bad. I have plenty to be thankful for and a big future ahead of me. Stella is sitting beside me telling me that there is love and attentions that need to be given at this moment. So I’d better wrap this up. I don’t have any new photos to share but I will share Stella’s Easter photo. I might even send it to Cadbury candy to see if she can be the next Cadbury bunny! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Early Morning Somethings

Another dark morning. But quite a bit colder. All that rain we got yesterday is now a “nice” glaze of ice on everything. People will need to be careful if they go out today. Spring, in the beginning, can be a very ugly season here. Rain and snow completing for dominance as well as the mud factor as the snow melts can make for quite a mess.

This morning I am going in even earlier to let the deli staff in. There is no point in me driving back home because I would be here a few minutes before I’d have to turn around and go back. So I will do a little cleaning. We have a list of things that need to be done (and we get extra pay to boot).

I am grateful the power came back on. No one knows what happened. It was different parts of the grid apparently. A lot of us lost power but many had no issues. On the way to work I noticed a lot of houses still had power.

I was hoping to be able to download photos today but it will have to wait until tomorrow. There I no more time if I plan to warm up the car. It has been hard enough trying to type this on my phone with Stella in my lap. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Today I Think I Will…

Today will be the first day I try to unwind from all of this. I need to decompress and just relax. Stella and I are going to run to work around 11:30am so that we can brighten people’s day with some puppy love. There are several coworkers that want to meet Stella so I said that we could swing by. Other than that my day is open to whatever I want.

I am trying to limit my should-dos and get more want-to-dos in instead. I will probably putter around the house to get things cleaned up (once things get cleaned I usually feel better so this time of year I will pick a room and try to tackle it in a day or two). But I want to work on my writing. For extended periods this time instead of trying to fit it in here and there. I have two main background characters that I am trying to “see” and get their histories down. I want to see if I can progress further into my Norwegian history as well. I have so much of my Italian history done for the novel but I have barely cracked my Norwegian. I have the bare bones and that is about it.

I did something unusual for me this morning. Before I got Stella’s breakfast made I glanced at my little garden growing and my eye was drawn to the swirl that my vine made off of the cucumber plant. So I grab the camera and take a close up shot. Then I notice the texture of another leaf and vine. Another photo. Next thing I know I am wandering the house looking at textures. I only took close up photos of my plants (I would’ve gone crazy if I had started going through the whole house) but I will share those today.

I think I will try to make a creativity schedule of some kind. Something that is fluid for my every changing work schedule. I did make an effort to “lighten my load” by cleaning out my leather satchel. I shared photos last year when I got it from Chris. All my current writing project(s) get carried in there and I lug it around the house with me. If I am not home it is in my office. I want to take it with me to the writing conference. With everything I had crammed in it it gets heavy so I try to clean it out every once in a while. As or right now it is ready to go to the conference. I will probably stuff a bunch of business cards in there to hand out at the conference. I think that will be the only add. I bought my ticket yesterday. I opted for the lunch too so I don’t have to worry about that added expense (or look around for some place to go if I forget to bring something to eat). I am very excited.

The beloved satchel when it is full up. There is also a large pocket on the back.

I am also excited about going to the HorrorHound Convention. I have an idea of what goes on at a horror convention but I have never been to one before. Chris asked me what I wanted to do there. I told him I didn’t want to go in with set plans. I am afraid of being disappointed. I have a few people I would like to meet but I am not going to count on it (long lines that I might not want to stand in and cost). I am sure that there will be all kinds of stuff going on. Part of me is toying with the idea of maybe trying to dress (for some reason doing Jamie Lee Curtis in either Halloween or The Fog appeal to me) but regardless I am mentally going through my horror tees trying to narrow it down to three or four (maybe six so I have a double selection for each day). Maybe I will clean out my side of the closet and go through my stuff again. I have several containers of tees from my life that I keep in the closet. Every few years I pull everything out and rotate through a bunch of them.

I think I will wrap things up. I would like another mug of coffee and to read a little before Chris gets up. Thanks for reading and thanks for the support. Stay safe!

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Dreaming of Spring

I wish Spring and Summer would get here. I am weary of the cold and having to stay shut up in the house. Stella doesn’t want to be outside either. Today is the last day of February. March sounds closer to Spring. I want to get puttering around in the gardens again. I’m pretty sure I can get some help this year from a few friends at work. I thought that we could make it a collective garden where we all share in the work and the food we grow. I will ask around over the next few weeks.

Stella has finally gotten up. I’ve been up about an hour already. I had hoped to get right into this and then my novel. But my mind seems to be everywhere but this morning. I can’t find anything that I want to focus on. Maybe I will bring out the sketch book and colored pencils. I haven’t picked up the Nikon in almost a week. It’s the same old dreary snow scenes out there. I’m tired of looking at it.

My orchid is looking sad. The bloom did not last very long this time. I don’t think it is getting enough attention. So I guess I need to step up my game. The rest of the plants are doing well. I am thinking I will have to get several new big pots this Spring for a few plants. That being said I have to make sure that it’s not all big pots come Fall. Not only will it be a pain to bring them all in but there will be no space for them in the house. If we get the greenhouse built that might be an option.

Sunday is Mom’s birthday. We still have no idea where we want to go. Our usual picks don’t open until 4pm or later and we both want to be home by that time. Firefly has gone up in prices for not much food. I might suggest Mackinaw Brewing Company. The food is good there and you get what you pay for. I’ll have to chat with her before then to figure things out. She might even bail at the last minute and have me just come out to the house. Which would be fine but I would like to get her out of the house for a bit.

Stella is in a tiny ball beneath her blanket behind me. Trying to sleep. She feels restless too. I just took a few photos to share. I couldn’t face outside so I took photos of some of my plants. And Stella. She wasn’t amused but she did lay her head back down so I could get my shot. On that note I will wrap this up. I hope everyone has a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!