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And We Wait

It was one of the hardest things to do to leave Archie at the vet’s office this morning. I keep telling myself he will be ok but the way January is…. I just don’t trust it. So I am biding my time until 2:30pm when I can go get him. I took the earliest possible time. Stella has wadded herself up behind me on the love seat. I don’t knw how she managed to get the blanket so tight around herself. She is sound asleep.

I was worried about icy roads on the way in this morning. We, thankfully, had no issues. But I will probably leave early to go get him because I miss him and am worried. Everyone has been very understanding of my craziness lately. I am forever grateful. A coworker got me a bouquet of tulips that I wanted. I loved the colors but I decided against getting them because I needed the money for Archie. While I was busy dealing with a cooler that had gone down he got them for me. I did my best not to cry. It was a near thing.

I think I will make Chris breakfast if he wants this morning (or rather this afternoon). He’s not feeling well and I need to make sure I take care of him. He made us dinner last night even though he didn’t feel good. And he has had the patience of a saint this past month while I have tried to deal with all this crap going on. He needs to be taken care of too.

A bunch of friends from work are checking on me. Bless them. I am going to try writing today. I haven’t really done anything with my novel. Not even looked at my research materials. I also need to see about pulling that interview together. At the very least I want to print her responses to my questions. That way I have a paper trail.

I spent a bit messaging with my cousins last night. We have our own private chat outside of the normal family one. I don’t feel the need to include everyone in our conversations. But both are coping since their Mom’s death. My one cousin is quietly going through her Mom’s stuff trying to simultaneously clean out her Mom’s stuff and pack up to move. But all in all they are moving forward. It is hard to believe it has been two weeks already. One week since the funeral.

I guess I will wrap this up and try to keep myself distracted. I will try to include a photo of the tulips I got. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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The Morning After

My week is going to be off. My brain is telling me I should still be asleep in bed. But someone at work is out sick so I am actually going to be working the gas and courtesy counter today. It has been several months since I have been scheduled on the floor.

I meant to call both my parents yesterday but I ended up spending time with Chris and the kids. The pups loved their little Christmas bags of goodies. Each got two toys and three treats. Chris and I had a simple Christmas as well. He got a gift set with 10 year old scotch and the fixings for rice crispy treats. (The rest of his stuff should be here today. I had to improvise as his gifts got delayed in the storms.) I got a new tactile pen (LOVE IT) and a pasta maker. I will probably use the pasta make for New Year’s dinner. I am very excited about doing the pasta. Now I don’t have to borrow Mom’s machine.

I ought to get myself together and get ready for work. I might have enough time to download some photos from yesterday. A big thank you to everyone that has reached out over the past few days! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Holiday Angst

Bah humbug. The Blizzard warning stopped at 7am today. The only thing that has changed is that the wind is not as bad. And that is a very slight change. Trees are still sideways with some of these gusts. I woke up grumpy. I am trying hard not to be. I still need to wrap Chris’s gifts (don’t judge). He is still sleeping. Well, for now. Archie is desperate to play. He has just hauled a rope toy into the bedroom. It is quiet though.

People were very frustrating at work yesterday. I didn’t even get in the door and I had a woman pleading with me to let her in to shop. I repeated told her that we would open at 9am (it was around 8:30am). There were no tills in the registers and I was the only person there. “Please! I just need to get a few things!” Again no. I don’t even have a way to ring you up. She left. Only to be caught sneaking in the door with the staff (no the store still wasn’t open). That is how the day went. Just a bunch of selfish people. And that just makes me angry. I was encouraging people to stay home because it was so bad out and customers were whining because there were no eggs (eggs have been out all over for days due to deliveries not being made because of the storm).

I am trying to be in a positive headspace. I really am. I always get angry this time of year. I have seen people at their worst and is normally this time of year. Everyone feels entitled. I was happy for the whole Santa things because it atleast gives back to the community around here. This is also why I hate tourist season. They are very much the same. This is also why I prefer to stay home most of the time and have lots of animals.

I do have new photos to share. I will probably need to clear some more space in my media. One awesome thing from yesterday, I was able to come in the back door. Chris got out and shoveled the back porch and steps off for me while I was at work. I do need to get this posted and get things wrapped. I hope everyone has a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Quiet Day

Another dark morning. Since the furnace keeps going on I just checked the temp outside. 17F (-8C). I didn’t get done what I wanted to yesterday. The plants did get watered though. And I am ok with that. Saturday is going to be my busy day. I am going in at 5:30am to do my liquor order and then after work I am going out shopping with the Girls. Since Sunday is the holiday I don’t have to worry how late I am out and about.

Today is our potluck for work. I will have to buy something to pass because my muffins did not bake properly. They did not come out of the pan in one piece and were essentially useless. So I will do that when I get to work. The snowflakes are steady but their size waxes and wanes. I need to remember to warm up the car before work.

I really don’t have much to share this morning. It has been rather quiet here. We are supposed to get hit hard with storms through the weekend so I don’t know what excitement we will have. We may get none at all.

I guess I will wrap this up. Sorry for the short and boring post. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Getting Closer

The temperature drop is on the way. Yay. I was supposed to go shopping with the Girls on Friday but I might have to bail. I am going to have to get up at 4am to do my liquor order since we are closed on Sunday for Christmas. I need get in touch and tell them. That will be a bummer because a. I wanted to spend time with them and b. I have a few more bits that I want to get.

Archie is restless this morning. He let me sleep in (it seems that Stella has taken to sleeping on the love seat the past two nights) til almost 9am. We went to bed at a decent hour. I think that helped.

We had a Christmas miracle! Dad actually called to talk. Acted like nothing had ever happened. He calmly said that he was staying in his apartment and was looking for a nurse to stop by a few days a week. While I was glad to hear from him I was still a bit frustrated. I think we chatted for about 4 hours.

I did spend a good portion of my day on my novel. I am trying to make headway with my main character. Chris said home because he got sick on breakfast. For once my constitution was stronger than his. I didn’t have any issues. We had the same thing to eat. It tasted good but unfortunately something in it wasn’t.

Today will be more work on the novel and at the very least watering the plants. I also need to do a little baking. I have to have a dish to pass for tomorrow. I am thinking of going the easy route and just doing biscuits or something. I haven’t decided.

I guess I am done. Chris has gotten up early and now the dogs are getting too loud. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Mother Nature Bites Back

Not sure if this will post or not as the power has gone out. A wild and windy night has turned into a wild, windy and wet morning. The wind is getting really bad. Last night when I tried to get into the house after work it ripped the screen door from my hands. Apparently the handle caught my hand because I have a nice hole/gouge just below my middle finger. I think I finally got it to stop bleeding while I was asleep. I went through several bandaids.

This morning I had to go out with Archie or else he would go out to go potty. Stella just flat out refused to even consider it. I knew Archie couldn’t hold it so I am glad I got him out. I discovered someone peed on my shower rug. Stella was very intently sniffing it as I was brushing my teeth. When I leaned over to see what she was doing I got a big whiff. I was too tired to yell at anyone.

I didn’t sleep well between my hand and the dry cough I managed to get. Once Chris got home things seemed to settle down. I was so out that my alarm had to wake me.

Nuts. I just realized that I won’t be able to bring Archie Saturday to be my Max. With my hand there is gonna be no way to control him and my camera. And act all Grinchie.

Archie’s grandparents (the couple I got him from) want to come and see him either today or tomorrow. She’s going to let me know today what’s up. I told her I would have treats for her pups when they came over. I hope I have enough treats. I started handing them out yesterday and then several more people expressed interest. So I’m either going to have to say no or buy some gloves to wear on my hand.

The rain is lashing at the back windows. I wonder if the power will go out again. I need to wrap this up. I have to hold the phone with my hurt hand and it is letting me know my time is up. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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The day feels off. I’m not sure why. It could be just the wind that has picked up stirring things about. I always seem to feel weird on windy days. I hope the day goes well. Not having to look ahead and see when my next meeting is feels off too. Both pups are behind me on the love seat asleep.

I am hoping that I will work more on my novel now. I noticed that my words were more sparse when I tried to work on my novel while I was writing articles. I was unconsciously paring my wording down like I do when writing my articles. Minimal description and very cut and dry. I didn’t like it but I couldn’t seem to get out of the habit. When I covered the meetings I wrote what happened. I didn’t add any emotions to it. I didn’t fluff it up. To me that wasn’t reporting. As a result my fiction dried out. I think that is why I stayed away from it so often. It was hard to constantly switch gears between the two. I may pull out some of my creative non-fiction books to revisit.

Yesterday was spent cranking out over 1000 more dog treats. I think I am going to revisit what I had decided to give everyone. I have since added some names to my list and I really don’t want to make more treats. I also haven’t pulled any out for my two. I gave them a little from each batch (I adjusted the peanut butter content… and no it didn’t seem to matter) but I haven’t made any for them. It was all gifts.

I am excited for the kids Christmas goodies to arrive. I am getting Stella a new body pillow (Archie has chewed open the end of the one she has) and Archie is getting a great big dog bed. He seems to have taken to laying on Stella’s body pillow on the floor (we tied up the open end). I may give them to them early. It’s not like they know anything about our holidays. I just realized this will be Archie’s first Christmas!

I had intended to get more photos yesterday but I didn’t get any. Well I did of the kids with my phone camera but those photos take up a lot more room on my media then when I take them with the Nikon. So once again I will be resharing photos instead of giving you new ones. Sorry about that.

Today will be a long day for the kids. Chris needs to leave early for work so it will be an 8 hour day for them. I am hoping I can get out at a decent time. I don’t think we’ll be too busy. I just need to make sure everything is done. My phone has just informed me that we have a winter weather advisory until 10am tomorrow. We’ll see if anything comes of it. The way the season has gone thus far I don’t think we need to be too worried.

I should wrap this up and try to get some writing done. Even if it is just research. I hope that if I keep pushing myself I will do it. Thanks for reading! Have a fab day and stay safe!

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Coming to an End

Well, that was my last long morning. I got my last two meeting articles written and sent in. Saturday is the Christmas thing at work. That will be my last article. It kinda makes me sad. I will miss being in the thick of things. I was able to say goodbye to several people though.

I gave Archie a bone to keep him busy while I wrote my articles. Stella was content to sleep (bless her). Now that I am trying to write this he has decided that he has finished his bone and wants my undivided attention. I loved on him a bit, now he’s outside. I am still a bit in shock that I have written my last articles for meetings. Sorry if I keep coming back to that.

I have about another 800 treats to make for gifts. I have over 250 made but I also know that some of them won’t come out right (and my resident testers need to test some from each batch). I cranked through as many as I could before last night’s meeting. So I need to get more done today. I may have added to my batch. I just remembered another pet parent I work with. I am not really fond of her but it would be rude to not give her some. So I guess I am looking at another 200 (she has several dogs and I figured about 50 per pup). I also promised Chris peanut butter pancakes (he smelled the treats baking yesterday and thought I made him breakfast). So a lot of baking is gonna be happening today. If I can get it all done today I will try to take them to work tomorrow. I’m going to have to carry some of the treats in the car because they are for customers/friends.

I am happy to report that I got even more Christmas shopping done yesterday! Go me! And as a reward the shipping gods have got my Supernatural box arriving today! YAY!!! I have my Horror Box that shouldn’t be that far behind it.

I still haven’t broken down and gotten a tree. I would prefer one we can plant outside (1. because it like the idea and 2. I know Archie will drink the water for tree). The problem there is that I need a place to plant it. Yes we have 5 acres but we have so much pine that the ground is becoming acidic. So I don’t want to plant it on our property.

Dad texted me yesterday telling me that he now has to move to a care facility. I feel bad for him because that was one of the reasons he gave for wanting to move there. They don’t shuffle their older people off to care facilities. But that is just what they are doing. I will try again to see if he wants to talk today. I can’t not.

Speaking of which, my dear friend that lives down the road and I chatted yesterday. It had been since Thanksgiving that I had heard from her, It turns out that she went into a dark place but she did reach out for help. Her son also called her and asked for her help as his Mom. He is in a mental health facility and wants her to come down to Arizona for a few months to help him get himself together. She is slated to leave within a week or so. He will pay for her rent doe a few months so she doesn’t lose her place and her job has agreed to hold her position for her. I told her I was very proud of her. I think going to be with her son could be the best thing for her right now.

I guess I should wrap this up and get it posted. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Finding Out

This will be my last morning meeting. It feels… weird yet a good thing. As much as I love writing for the paper I think this change is needed. I am secretly hoping to find someone there already covering it so I can focus on everything else I have going. I plan to stop at the news office and verify if I am covering meetings this month.

I have Archie Bear asleep in my lap as I write this. Stella is still asleep on my pillow in bed. I will have to cover her breakfast up before I put it in the fridge.

I made stuffed green peppers last night using some venison we were given. It turned out well except for the seasoning. I got the meat mixture tasting good but when I mixed it with the rice and baked it the flavors seemed to disappear. It all tasted rather bland. But I kept the green peppers crispy. I don’t like soggy peppers.

I should probably wrap this up so I can head out the door. I need to remember to get kibble for Stella in the way home. I want to try to get some more shopping done too. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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The Christmas Scramble (and I Don’t Mean Brunch)

I am feeling a bit stressed. I have three articles to write, which isn’t really the big deal. The big deal is that I have to sit through two meeting recordings. I have no idea how long they are. I intended to get this written and posted earlier but Stella was a bit upset when we got up. She had spent the night in Chris’s office on the couch while Archie was in bed with us. I didn’t even get a tail wag when I came in to see her. Archie was a good boy and stayed in the living room while I gave Stella some one-on-one time. Right now they are both curled up behind me on the love seat. I have covered Stella up (when I went in to see her this morning she was in this tiny little ball trying to stay warm). She is snuggled into the blanket I brought home yesterday. It is REALLY soft and cozy. It was supposed to be for Archie to lay on but then I was with him and decided I liked it too. And now Stella has laid her claim. So I guess it is now the family blanket.

There is so much to do! I am trying to figure out Christmas ideas. Dad seems to be sending me something that he would like better than myself. I need to figure out my plans for my Secret Santa. I am on my third person for Secret Santa at work. The last person drew the last name yesterday. Out of 14 people she managed to get her own name. So I switched with her. But I didn’t want her to know who her person was so I switched with someone else. That turned out to be an even better thing because the person I switched with had no ideas for the name she had gotten. I was close to the person she drew and she knows the person I had well so it was a win/win! But I need to get buying my gifts. And making the puppy treats. I have several hundred that I plan to give out to various families.

I finally got a prototype of the newsletter I hope to put out for work completed. I saved a copy and printed a copy. The printed copy I photographed with my phone and sent to the store owner. He seemed very impressed by it. My goal is to have the first one ready to go by the new year. I have touched base with everyone that I need to get information from (I told them I would write the articles if they provided me with the information… such as new things coming to the deli and meat department and a list of recommended wines from our wine consultant) and explained that I needed as much as they could give me as soon as they could. Inventory is the 31st so I need to have everything together before then.

Speaking of having everything together I need to wrap this up and get going with the first article. I will need to duck into my office to watch the videos since I cannot find a single set of ear buds anywhere. But the first article will be for the Christmas event yesterday afternoon. Since the Grinch was there I am thinking of writing the article in the voice of Dr. Suess. I also need to download my photos to send. I will share them here as well. It will be a nice change. Thanks for reading and stay safe!