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Puppies and Writing, A Wintry Mix

I’m not sure how much time extra to give myself this morning. Overnight it was a rain/ice mix that fell from the sky. A plow truck has gone by sprinkling sand to help with any ice on the roads. I usually leave a half hour before the meeting. Hmmmm… Glad I don’t need to scrape the car or anything!

Essie is out here in the living room with me again. Chris got her to eat after he got up and she has eaten both dinner last night as well as breakfast this morning. I will give her another day to see how she does. If she is still improving then I will cancel Friday’s vet appointment.

Part of me really wishes that they would Zoom this morning’s meeting (they haven’t done that at all even with everything going on) but then the other part of me is glad fir the adventure of getting to go some place out of the norm. I do need to make sure that I have warm stuff on when I leave. Or atleast have it in the car with me. Since I am usually too hot on a regular basis and only have a short distance to go for work I am usually only wearing a light jacket. If I am driving any distance I try to have extra gear. Just in case.

Essie and I stopped playing at 5:20pm yesterday and just looked at each other. Then I said to her, “It has been exactly a week down to the minutes since we lost Moose.”

It has been dark and dreary (or dark or dreary) so I’ve only taken photos of the girls. They have been playing more (I don’t think Stella really cares since he is no longer around to vie for our affections). Stella I think would be happier as a single dog. But she has to cope with Essie being the eldest and, especially now, getting more attention. I try to be equal but when Stella starts being a little turd….

Once I get home I need to write and submit both my articles. I need desperately to get the laptop back online because it is very tedious writing everything on my phone. That being said I am grateful to have that as an option. I may spend the rest of the day off and on with one of the novels. Probably my horror novel since that one is inching forward.

I see by the clock that I need to start getting ready to go. Wish me luck! Thanks for reading and thanks for the love and support!❤️🐾 Stay safe!

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What To Do

Another morning sitting in the dark. Essie still won’t eat so I’m going to call the vet on my break today. I don’t know what else to do. We’ve tried everything.

It has been a week today that I had to let Moose go. How has time gone so fast?

Today is the start of my busy week. I work until 3pm at the store then a meeting tonight, another meeting tomorrow morning at 9 am followed by another meeting Wednesday night. I have tomorrow off so I can get both articles written and submitted by Tuesday afternoon. I will still write the article for Thursday’s meeting Friday morning but it won’t appear until next week’s issue. I can relax next week as I have no meetings.

I hope to get some more done on my novel but I’m not going to push too hard with everything I’ve got going on. I think Saturday will be a good day to try to get some more done. We’ll see how that goes.

I see that time has gotten away from me again. I need to get dressed and get out the door. Thanks for reading and stay safe! ❤️

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The First Day At Home

This morning has dawned dark and cold. Even though we should have some form of daylight coming through it is still nighttime dark.

I can hear Essie’s tummy gurgling all the way in here. She wouldn’t eat breakfast but she has camped out in the living room while I am in my office doing this (the phone didn’t charge overnight so I am writing this while it’s plugged in). Stella ate but she did spend almost half an hour outside doing whatever she was doing this morning. And that was before she ate.

I did get laundry done but that was it. I talked to both my parents but my conversation with Dad got cut short because the battery died. No “You have 20% left” just blip and gone. It took seemingly forever to get enough charge to send him a message to let him know what had happened. I still want to send an email with more explanation.

I read and tried to do research while Chris was asleep but I kept dozing off. As it was I was done for the night around 6:30pm. I did get some new ideas written down for the novel so it was not a total loss. Lol.

I have no new photos to share so I will have to hit the archives. I get out at 6pm tonight so no chance of doing any photography after work. But I will see if there is something somewhere that needs it’s picture taken. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Frosty Lense

My phone has been busier than normal with the laptop down and the meeting last night. I did manage to get the article written and sent this morning. It was a difficult choice whether or not to put it off and do it tomorrow. Essie had to go out at 22 minutes past the hour EVERY HOUR last night. I finally got angry at 1:22am and she didn’t ask to go out until Chris got home around 3:30am. But then 4:22am guess who had to go out. And 5:22am and 6:22am. Since I got up at 7am she has not gone out more than once. 🙄

As I wrote the above both girls came into my office. Stella wanted out but Essie is pacy and can’t seem to settle anywhere.

This morning dawned a cold hard frost. I went out and got a few photos to share. I keep looking for Moose to call him in…. 😢

There is not much to say since it has been work and covering the meeting with a few sprinkles of sleep. I will download the photos from my camera to share and then get ready for work. I just have to make it one more shift (albeit longer than intended since I said I’d come in an hour early to cover a shift) and a day off.

Thanks for sticking with me and reading my posts. As always stay safe!

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My Little Bubble

Essie and I are out here in the living room this morning. It is hard not having the laptop online but I want to sit down with Chris to reset up my internet connection and that can’t happen until Saturday. So tonight’s meeting will be on my phone as well. I set myself an alarm since I can promise I won’t remember once I get home. Once I get home I just spend time with the girls and remembering Moose.

I just want to stay home today. I’ve not really had time to process everything. They vet got here at 5pm or so and I had to work the next day. And the next four all told. (This isn’t work’s fault. I picked the next day I had off once I got my schedule for Moose since he was getting worse quickly.)

An interesting thing happened at work yesterday. I caught a shoplifter and got him to pay for everything. I wasn’t going to say anything since no one else was there but I mentioned it to the day shift manager and she said I needed to tell the store manager. When all was said and done I got handed a check for $100 and a thank you.

Since Moose has been gone the usual sleeping arrangement seems to be one pup at my back/beside me and the other at/between my legs. I am still having my crying jags but they are easier to hide. Once I am alone though all bets are off.

I have had time (or light) to take any photos except a few of the girls. I’ll see if I can find some good ones to repeat from previous posts. I

am overwhelmed at the wonderful support from my readers! Thank you again for reaching out and sharing your stories!❤️🐾

Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Putting One Foot In Front Of The Other

I want to sincerely thank everyone who has reached out to me over Moose’s death. It means a lot. I am still raw and hurting. Coming home and not having his happy bounce and kisses was the worst so far.

I know that even though I am still messed up inside you folks are going to get tired of me going on and on so I made an effort to take some more photos to share.

Writing anything has become difficult. I have a meeting Thursday night (via Zoom thankfully). Next week I have meetings Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. So busy, busy,busy. I keep hauling my research materials around with me in hopes that I can put pen to paper.

This morning both girls ate. Essie has been my near constant companion since we lost Moose. Stella has been trying to do the same but she is more about playing to cope whereas Essie is a cuddler. Stella has started cuddling with me at night though.

Everyone at work (everyone who knows me really) has been very kind and understanding about the mess I have become. I am trying to find a balance between grieving and putting on my brave face.

Essie has been with me all morning. Since I am still using my phone to do this I’m in the living room on the live seat and she is beside me. I feel bad for her as this is the fourth brother she has lost in her 10 years.

If I am going to add photos I had better get to it. Again that you all for your amazing support! ❤️🐾 Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Gone

This will be short. Moose is gone. I buried him in the backyard. I have done a lot of ugly crying and I have no idea how I am going to get through work today.

Moose did run and play a little yesterday and the sin came out fir pretty much the whole day. I will share photos from the day. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Moose’s Last Day

This is Moose’s last morning with us. When he was outside going to the bathroom it was blood coming out. So I had to make the choice. Fortunately our vet was able to make plans in short notice. She’s coming over tonight after she gets out of work. Chris got his grave dug yesterday so I don’t have to do it today.

I am writing on my phone again because the laptop can’t get online. Everything else is online. When you look at the connectivity under settings it says it’s online. No one has messed with any settings that I know of so there shouldn’t be any problems. Sigh. This will be a major pain in the butt because I can’t use WordPerfect and send files.

We slept in until almost 9am but I spent about 30 minutes fighting with the laptop to try to get it online. Only Stella has eaten this morning. Moose wouldn’t even try broth. I think Essie realizes that today is Moose’s last day with us. Stella has been extra cuddly with me as well.

I am grateful that I have today off so Moose doesn’t have to wait. He was really perky last night when I got home. He ate some goodies too (like pizza crust and chili dog beef jerk from work). He’s not gotten sick yet so atleast he’s able to eat something.

I need to pull his food and medication together. Our vet might as well take them with incase someone else can use them. I also need to figure out which blanket to wrap him in for his shroud. I have plenty of time to do this but sooner is better. Then I don’t have to think about it. It will all be together and done.

I’m going to wrap this up for today. My attention span isn’t very good and I want to spend as much time with Moose as I can. Thanks for reading and stay safe. And thank you all so much for the love and support.

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Trying to Say Goodbye

I guess I’m writing this on my phone again. The laptop says it’s connected to the internet but Microsoft edge says that it isn’t. So here we are.

I got nothing done yesterday. I did take Moose for a ride to the store. He enjoyed it. I am trying to figure out what to do. He ate some chicken yesterday afternoon but threw it up a few hours later undigested. He slept or hung out on the couch for pretty much the whole day. Last night I would feel him start to shake and I’d get up to comfort him. I don’t know if it was shivers because he was cold or shaking because he was scared. I finally ended up sleeping beside him at the foot of the bed. I think I got maybe three hours all together. I let both he and Stella out at different times in the morning.

He is very lethargic and weak. He is still drinking water. I keep getting the words to “Wayward Son” from “Supernatural” running through my head. “Carry on my wayward son. There’ll be peace when you are gone. Lay your weary head to rest. Don’t you cry no more.”

I guess I will text our vet once I know my schedule for next week. I‘m sitting out here in the living room with him as I type this. He and Essie got up with me. Essie ate. Moose stayed out on the couch. So I came out here to be with him. He is just staring out the sliding glass door. I made him comfortable with his blue moose blanket. I told him he can go over the rainbow bridge and play with Dante. He can finally meet Max too. I’d rather him go in his sleep than me have to call the vet. A few times he stopped breathing last night. When he was breathing it was very soft and barely noticeable.

Tonight will be a rough night at work. But it is only six hours. I am working gas and courtesy counter.

I’m going to wrap this up and spend some more time with Moose. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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For Better or Worse

Some forward progress has been made. When I got home from work last night I was able to get everyone but Essie to eat (she did eat this morning and she did have some of the treats I shared with the other two). This morning Essie got up with me and was her perky self. Stella got up a few minutes later and both ate breakfast and went potty. The big surprise was Moose. Food stayed down from last night and I think it got digested. Not too long ago I heard the sliding glass door open and I got up to see what it was. Moose had opened the door to let himself out to be sick. While I am very proud that he let himself out I am also pleased to see that what he threw up was just bile. So that means dinner stayed in and he got some nourishment. He seemed interested in eating but not the beef so I will go get him some more chicken and some chicken broth when I finish with this.

I was able to get everyone but Moose to play last night. He is definitely more thargic. He made a half hearted effort to go after the ball when I tried to get him to play last night. He actually came in here and spent some time with me not too long ago when I started this. I think that I will see if he wants to go with when I go to the store. So far he is the only one that has been in Angus since I got him.

I apologize for only writing about Moose lately but he has been my main focus. I am going to try to do some work on my horror novel. There have been some subtle hints from the Universe that I need to get back to that this morning. I also need to pull out my Nikon and see about getting some new photos to share. (Speaking of which I have just captured a few of the blue jay and small woodpecker at the feeder this morning.) Sorry this is so late. I hope everyone has a great day. Thanks for reading and stay safe!