Animals, anxiety, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Food, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Coconut Creamer vs Snow

I am glad that I filled the bird feeder. I woke up to about 2 inches (5cm) of snow. The crows overhead sound as annoyed as me at the unwelcome intrusion of it. It should all be gone again either today or tomorrow (temperature and possibly some rain) but it is disheartening all the same. Winter just needs to go away. When I opened the door to let the girls out to go potty Stella stood there and looked at me after she saw the snow. I did coax her out though.

My small consolation in all this is my coconut creme creamer in my coffee. I will be drinking a lot of coffee today with that in it. My big splurge yesterday.

I don’t know if any of my readers are horror fans like myself but if you are there is an amazing social media site called Slasher. I had to download an app for my phone and it threatens to suck me in like Facebook did but it is so cool to have someplace to go to talk about and see horror everything! I belong to a few Facebook groups that are horror based but this place covers a lot more ground. There are musicians, film makers, writers, fans, artists…. it is an amazing collection of people and work! Everyone so far has been super friendly. I’m very excited!

Seriously?! I heard a blue jay just squawking and now I know why. It’s snowing out. Even the birds are sick of it! Snow is no longer pretty. White or otherwise. (As I take a large sip of my coconut flavored coffee and glare out the window…lol)

I need to do some work around the house today. Dishes, vacuum etc. I also need to figure out when to make my appointment to fix my phone screen tomorrow. I’m going to be out and about so I might as well go to Traverse and get it done. It’s under warranty so I’m good there. I had hoped to look at laptops as well. I just want to stay home. It’s all I can do not to cancel my doctor appointment for tomorrow.

Books need to be read and worked on as well today. I am going to try to finish my one book review and get that sent in to various places. So I guess I should stop procrastinating and do my thing. I’ll add a few photos. I tried to get one of the crows this morning but he started to take off as I took my photo. Then I couldn’t adjust my lens fast enough to get anymore as they flew away (more joined as he flew). Take care! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

anxiety, Dogs, Emotions, Friends, Life, Photography, Thinking

Anxieties

Another late night. I just couldn’t shut my brain off. At work there was a lot of tears as a coworker’s current situation unintentionally opened old wounds for others. I did my best to listen, hug and dry tears.

Physically I hurt. It’s mostly my core. Then the anxiety kicks in for Wednesday’s doctor appointment. I don’t want to go. I don’t like doctors. I made my appointment for early in the morning so I wouldn’t be pacing around the house til I had to go.

I have Tuesday and Wednesday off this week. So I work straight through the weekend. I figured I would get Wednesday and Saturday off. So we’ll see how that works.

I made myself stay in bed this morning. I was awake at 7:30am but I was still wiped out from yesterday. I did finally fall back asleep and actually feel better for it.

Essie is following me as I wander through the house. My anxiety keeps ratching up. Part of me wishes that I had Thursday off instead of Tuesday. I think I will add some photos and wrap this up. My anxiety is getting the best of me. I’m sorry this isn’t a more meaningful or positive post. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Reading, Thinking, Writing

Where’s That Pause Button Again?

I tried to sleep in. I swear I did. I don’t feel good and the girls are gonna drive me nuts vying for my attention. I just felt really tired when I went to bed last night but on waking this morning…. miserable.

I found that the three digital books I received finally downloaded to my Kindle. So now I can start reading in earnest. I am a beta reader for a novelist (which means I also need to be taking notes) and I need to review the others.

Writing this on my phone is also making me crazy (er). My screen is cracked in the one corner and is making it difficult to keep my typing accurate. I keep having to go over everything a few times.

Stella is just sitting here staring at me. She wants my undivided attention. And to play. Then sun is out and is seems to have made both girls restless. Ahhhhh but now they are each in their own sun beam. Essie is in the kitchen and Stella is in the living room (the back of our house faces south so we get full sun when it is out all along the windows all day).

Yesterday one of my customers brought me an almond danish from a local bakery. I will be having that a little later I think. Something to eat as I read and write. I am so behind with both right now!

I am thinking about driving into Traverse after my doctor appointment Wednesday (assuming I have the day off). If I plan it right I can get the screen on my phone fixed and look at laptops all at the same time. The field has been narrowed down to a Dell for my laptop. I am thinking Inspiron specifically. If I can look at and touch the machines while I talk to someone that will make things easier.

I did get some photos taken yesterday after I got home. I’ll download those and then I guess throw toys for the girls. when I am working on my phone they think I’m “playing” but if I am on my laptop I can keep going because that is “work” (another reason I need to get mine replaced). Thanks for listening to me rant. Stay safe!❤️

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Friends, Life, Love, Motorcycles, Nature, Photography, Riding, Thinking, Writing

Morning Quickie

It is waaaaay too early. Essie did not eat breakfast but Stella did. I’m not sure if it is because it is so early or because she doesn’t feel good. But I keep telling myself that I get out at 2pm. I also have tomorrow off but I have a morning meeting which I am ok with. It get s me out of the house for a bit. I’m glad I don’t have to try to cram in an article before work. The goal is to get both articles written after I get back from the meeting. Normally I would do an article before I went but with being up this early today and again on Wednesday I want to “sleep in” where I can. I’m grateful that I can do both jobs really. The extra money is nice and the experiences from both are awesome.

We had an unexpected guest yesterday. An old friend asked to stop by and spend some time. Sadly I was only able to spend a few hours with him but it was good to do even that.

I keep clock watching. I’m not getting up any earlier but it seems like I am cramming. I’m not. I have enough time but my brain is telling me otherwise.

I didn’t take many photos yesterday. But I will share what I have. I want/should take my cameras and go along the various shorelines and take some walks through the multitude of woods around here. I especially like how the water has frozen along the bay as it has crested alone the shoreline. That being said it is supposed to be very warm the next few days. And if we get the rain tomorrow as well then there won’t be much snow left (yay!!!!). I’m glad we have the garage so we can have the motorcycles handy for breaks in the weather like this.

Ok, I’m gonna add some photos and get this out there. Thanks for reading and for the support! You are all amazing! Stay safe!

Aging, Books, Emotions, family, Life, Photography, Reading, Writing

The Big Day Out

Mom and I had a good time yesterday. It scared me to see her various health failings. Especially her breathing. She pulled out her emergency inhaler twice to use it while we were walking downtown. We ate at Firefly then we walked downtown for a little bit. One stop was of course the bookstore. It was weird having the little pathways that we were expected to walk. In a book store one does not take a path, one meanders all over lol. Mom and I had a good laugh when I handed her a book I found and she was looking through the same book. We were both very good and only got a few things at the book store. My big focus seemed to be on Ernest Hemmingway. I had forgotten that he and his family had vacationed up here for years. He wrote many stories about it. I’ve never read any of his novels but I wanted to read some of his short stories. So I picked up a copy of The Hemmingway Stories selected by Tobias Wolff. There are many of the Michigan stories in the collection so I thought I would give it a try. Then I found a book put together of his writing lessons if you will. So then I had to make a decision. Which one do I get? Mom stepped in and said pick one and she’d buy me the other. Happy day!

We walked by the local tobacco shop… it’s actually grown into much more than that really. It has been there for years and has been a staple of downtown. As it has grown it has added a small smoking bar among other things. I really enjoy going in there. The smells are amazing! We get our tax guy cigars from there as part payment for doing our taxes. They also have a very cool statue out front. I got a photo. (I’d thought about bringing my Nikon along but I have no trunk in the car and I didn’t want to leave it out in the open.)

Mom and I also exchanged left over gifts from the holidays. One of the things she’d gotten me was a skeleton dressed as a mariachi with a plant growing in his hat. Unfortunately he head got broken off his body. Mom was going to toss him but I said I could fix him. So she kept the plant alive and when I got home yesterday I glued him back together. He now resides next to my desk in my office.

Fair warning, tomorrow’s post might be short or all over the place. I have to be to work at 6am which means that I will be up at 4:30am (the same time Chris goes to bed). The flip side is that I get out at 2pm. I do the same thing on Wednesday but I get out at 1pm. We’ll see how that goes. This is also the triple meeting week (Monday night, Tuesday morning and Wednesday night). I have come to dread this week.

But I want to read some of my new books before work so I will stop here. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Mom’s birthday

After I get this written I am going to finish up my letter to my pen pal then take my shower so I can head out the door. Part of me is angry because I have to cram so much into my day off. One day off at a time can be a pain. But I am also grateful because I have a beautiful day to be out and about in. Hopefully there will be minimal idiots out.

Essie wants me to play and love on her. She has been in and out a few times since I started this. Stella went back to bed with her Daddy when she found out I was doing this. For a while she hung out in here getting scratched while the laptop was booting. And I think I hear her… yep here she is. She was very needy last night too. Part of that is because she wants her squeaky ball that I put up last night.

I am trying to not let my negative aspect get in my head. The negative aspect wants everything a certain way and no other. She also wants it all now. And to be left alone until she wants attention. And…. you get the idea. I want to have a good day today.

I told Mom that I would try to be at her house by noon so we could get going early. I am hoping we can do lunch then wander around a little downtown. It would be nice to be outside for a while. Maybe go and wander the local bookstore and Craft store. But that will depend on how Mom feels. Sometimes she can’t go far without getting too winded to walk. Fingers are crossed that it is a good day for her. She needs to be out more as well.

I guess I’ll wrap this up. I snuck a few photos on the way to the garage yesterday morning. The moon was still hanging out looking cool in the morning light. And of course the girls need to be shown off, lol. I am adding a cartoon that made me cry last night. It is very much me and really reminded me of Moose last night. (And my poor patient husband who has to deal with me.)

Thank you for all the wonderful comments and the support! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Emotions, Exercise, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Just a Wee Bit too Early

Early this morning. Went to bed at a decent time but woke up at 3:30am and couldn’t fall back asleep until after 4:30am. My alarm was set for 5:30am. I am trying really hard not to bail on Mom for tomorrow. I am just so tired right now. That being said I did get some good photos of the moon while the girls were outside after breakfast. I think today’s post will be mostly photos.

My meeting was a bust last night. I tried to find the link to join the Zoom meeting but there was a glitch in their web site. I have the link for Monday’s meeting though. So there is that. I didn’t get anything done other than restarting my exercise routine.

I just don’t know what to do about tomorrow. I just want to stay home and rest. But it’s Mom’s birthday. And I did cancel last weekend. Well if I got to bed extra early and sleep in… maybe?

Yesterday was hard despite a good day at work. It has been exactly two months since I lost Moose. I miss him a lot. I try not to talk about it too much because I know a lot of people think that I should be over it after two months.

I hope today goes quick and well at work. I just want to get back home as soon as I can. I need to finish up my letter today as well. I didn’t have much time yesterday (even with no meeting) so I need to finish it and get it out today. I asked my other pen pal to let me know how long it takes for my letter to get to her so I can gauge things like birthday cards and such.

Ok, time to download the photos so I can get this finished before work. Sorry this is so short and rather blah. Thanks for reading. Stay safe!

Aging, Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Writing and Making New Friends

Here we are, another day. I’m a little concerned since I can feel a bit of heat through the top of my laptop. And why are my words so small? Hang on… Apparently the system keeps resetting it’s “default” size. My words have been different sizes all week. Today they were very very small. Anyway I hope my laptop is not on they way out. I have grown rather attached to it. I also don’t want to have to reset all my passwords on programs that I share with my phone.

I have found a few new blogs to follow (seriously?! The font went back to the tiny stuff from earlier as soon as I started a new paragraph…GRRRR). I also got my first letter from one of my pen pals. This gal lives in Maryland. I started a return letter last night. I hope to get it in the mail before this weekend. She has asked for this site address so hopefully she will like it. I am her first pen pal. I haven’t had a pen pal since I was in grade school. I had one in Uganda (I was able to meet him at one point) and another in…??? Hang on. I still have the letters. He was in North Carolina. I also found the ones from my pen pal in California. And I forgot the guy I was writing in prison. And I still have all those letters.

A friend at work wants a pen pal so I am giving her the site that I went to. I hope it helps her loneliness. I don’t think she has ever had a pen pal. This will be something new and fun for her. She’s excited about it.\

Mom and I are going to go to lunch for her birthday on Saturday. I am going to do my best to not back out. I will have to drive. The rate Mom is going she will have totaled her car before we get her moved out here. Backing up is not her forte and she seems to be taking her car apart a piece at a time. I am tempted to tell her to leave the car in the driveway instead of parking in the garage. Regardless I told her I’d pick her up (usually we meet somewhere so when we are done I can go straight home). I tried making reservations at various restaurants for us but NO ONE is taking reservations. So I will hope for the best that we can get a seat somewhere. I am thinking of bringing my camera. But I don’t want to leave it in the car while we eat (there is no place to stash it as I have no trunk, it is all open in the back).

Our box from Chewy arrived yesterday so when I got home I was finally able to trim the girls’ nails. They were getting way too long (and in Stella’s case sharp). As a reward for letting me cut their nails they each got a squeaky ball (I got a pack of 6 and a frisbee from Chewy). The house was filled with happy squeaks for about an hour. Then Stella killed the squeaker in hers. Once that happens it is only a matter of time before she tears into it. She was good and did not eat the pieces she tore off but she kept trying to get Essie’s (hers is still intact and squeaks) so I eventually had to put it up.

I guess I will wrap this up and get it posted. Both girls keep coming in to see if I am done yet. I am thinking about sharing other blogs on here maybe once a week. If you think this is a good idea and/or would like me to share your blog let me know. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Food, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Photos Over Words

This morning I feel like I’ve been hit by a Mac truck. I spent most of the night tossing and turning from an upset stomach. I think I’ve had maybe four hours of sleep. But bills have been paid and my medical information sent in. I also talked to both my parents yesterday. I tried to make reservations at various restaurants for Mom’s birthday but no one is taking them. It’s first come first serve. So here’s to hoping that we can get in somewhere.

I ordered some nail clippers for the dogs as the ones we had have disappeared. The girls’ nails are getting too long and I’m not taking them to the vet to have it done when I can do it at home. I can hear Essie pacing the house. I’m not sure what is up. She walks through the kitchen to the far window and back. Sounds like she is back on the couch. But for how long?

I am cashier and carry out from 11am until 7pm today. I hope we are slow but with the sun out I think it might be a steady day. I’ve not felt this bad in a while. But like I said I have sent in my medical information so once they receive it they can call me and set up an appointment. Hopefully it won’t cost an arm and a leg. And hopefully we can find out what is wrong.

There’s not much to talk about with this mental fugue I have. So I will share photos that I took yesterday. I read as many blogs as I could this morning. I wish that WordPress would let me read more but ??? anyway thanks for reading and all your comments! Stay safe!

anxiety, Books, Creativity, dreams, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Nature, Reading, Thinking, Writing

Looking Forward and Looking Back

It was just cold and very windy out when we got up. Now it is white out conditions. Bah humbug. What happened to Spring? Ah well… atleast we are done with February!

I do want to thank everyone for their kindness and support over the past few weeks. It means a lot. Moose has been gone almost two months now. And then everything happening after that…

Last night I had all this that I wanted to say on my blog for today but now it is all gone. And I can’t write it then post date it to automatically upload. If I do that then I won’t write anything in the morning. That will throw off my routine. And if I break that part of my routine then I will have to start over. This has been the one constant writing for the past three years. Even if it has only been a line or two to say I wouldn’t be on it was something.

Yesterday I pulled out my copy of Writing Down the Bones by Natalie Goldberg. It was my first writing book. It was even signed by the author. Point it I am trying to get back to basics. I am going through the book like I did when I was a beginning writer. And in return it is inspiring me like it did when I was a beginning writer. That was all I did before work with my writing. And I think it was enough for the day. I have tomorrow off so I am hoping to get some novel work done. My meeting isn’t until Thursday night so I am free and clear to write what I want tomorrow. I don’t think I will call my parents. Maybe just texting or email. There was less stress and anxiety Saturday. We’ll see.

I am just looking around my room. Many dreams and memories stored here. A lot of things I need to go through as well. And I think I will start. Sorry this is one of the shorter ones. I’ll add a few pictures to brighten things up. Thanks for reading and thank you again for the support. Stay safe!