Books, Creativity, Emotions, Gardening, Life, Nature, Photography, Reading, Thinking, Writing

From Inside the Clouds

The sun really struggled to come out for a while this morning. But it got swallowed up by grey clouds filled with snow. I did get some photos before she disappeared. I feel much the same way. I felt good, mentally, when we got up. Now… like I am lost in the cold snow filled clouds. The snowflakes are steadily getting bigger and falling faster. Makes me wonder how much snow we will get. One of the smaller woodpeckers has hunkered down in the middle of the trunks and gone to sleep. (For those of you that didn’t know the maples that I have the bird feeder in is actually a group of four trees grown up together. I don’t know the logic behind it as the person that did it was supposedly a “Master Gardener” with a degree but there it is.)

I am partly looking forward to work because it will get me out of my head but at the same time I will have to be social. I don’t really want to talk to anyone. Speaking of my head I can’t seem to get rid of this headache either. Might be the weather. The snow is coming in from the West so we’ll probably get a lot. The bird feeder has gotten very busy all the sudden. I think I will try to fill it when I am done writing this.

Today is the first day of a seven… no six day stretch. But I am not working any really long shifts and I don’t have to be to work any earlier than 9am on any given day. I’m grateful. That will make things easier. I don’t have any meetings this week. Just one the following week. I do need to get my head straight and get my article and two reviews written. Maybe I will try today. I have rough drafts done so all I need to do is fluff them up a bit. We’ll see. I couldn’t focus much yesterday so I read a lot until everyone got up then I pretty much lost myself in CSI. When bedtime rolled around I read some more.

I will add the photos I took this morning and get this posted. Then I need to try to do some stuff around here. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Emotions, Life, Love, Thinking

Broken?

This morning I have no words. I have no pictures. All I have is a bruised and battered heart.

As a writer I should be able to explain things…. how I feel, why I feel that way, what I think etc. But I can’t. Isn’t that ironic?

Essie knows something is wrong. She keeps pacing through the living room. I’m going to join her. Thanks for reading. Stay safe.

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Being an Example

I have been doing so much this week that I have just set myself an alarm to make sure that I am not late for work. Essie is upset with me too. I just stepped out of my office to do something and she came running up to get love and play. Then she kind of looked at me. I told her I still had to do this and write my article. She looked at me one more time then went back to the couch and laid down. I was two hours late coming home last night because someone called in. I figured it was easier for me to stay than for them to find someone to work a few hours. Don’t laugh but I had Chris tell the girls that I would be home late. I know they can read the clocks and know what time to look for me.

Now I don’t know which way is up. I have another long day today which is going to be longer now that I see work has done a 10% off your grocery order today. We will probably be busy. But I have tomorrow off. And tomorrow I HAVE to write the book review and article for my online editor. I blew it off Wednesday to talk to Dad. Too many writing projects due at once. If I can get them written early then I can use the rest of the day to play with the girls and spend time with Chris.

I don’t have any meetings next week but (depending on how I am scheduled) I will be working straight through til next weekend. Wednesday is our anniversary (30 years if you can believe it!) but we are going to celebrate next weekend. The schedule will be out either today or tomorrow. I also need to spend some time on my classes. The frustrating thing is that the problems I am having with my photography will be addressed in my classwork. The same for my writing (oh and I do need to make more of an effort for my novel, it thinks that I don’t love it anymore). Sigh.

Next week should be easier even if I am working. I can pace myself to get writing done in the morning and late at night before bed. Classwork I can do after work when I work mornings. I just need to stay focused. On that note I do need to write the article for the paper and get that sent in. Thanks for reading and stay safe! And thank you for all the wonderful comments!

Animals, anxiety, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Photography, retail, Thinking, Writing

Missing Me

And here we are again. It looks as though we got several more inches of snow over night. The plow trucks have been by several times. I don’t want to go to work. Truth be told I’d rather hibernate til Spring. I am tired of the cold and snow. I feel a funk coming on and there isn’t much I can do about it. This week has kicked my butt.

Essie has been my constant companion since Moose has been gone. Stella is there for me a lot more too. We played a lot yesterday. I am teaching Stella how to open the sliding glass door (Chris installed one of those electric door openers so we just push a pad on the door or use the remote). She’s slowly getting the hang of it.

I got nothing done yesterday. Atleast nothing beyond this and the article for the paper. I had to run and get groceries once Chris got up. But then he got called into work early. Then Dad and I talked pretty much from when he left until my alarm for my meeting went off (I am so grateful I set that alarm because I had forgotten about the meeting). Once that was over I pretty much went to bed. I fell asleep right away but I didn’t sleep for very long. I’d wake up every few hours and then not be able to fall asleep for an hour or more.

I wonder how busy we’ll be at work with the weather. I only work until 6pm. But I am wiped out. My day of rest wasn’t. I guess I should post this before it gets much later. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

Animals, Books, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Reading, Thinking, Writing

Free Time

Aahhhh…. Sleep! Essie let me sleep until almost 8am. My only plans today are to write the final drafts of 2 articles and a book review then get them submitted. I have to remember to get yesterday’s meeting written up. I am so happy with having a day off I am worried I will forget both that and tonight’s meeting. I have an alarm set for tonight’s meeting.

It looks as thought the sun might stay out this morning. I tried to get some of the beautiful colors in the sky with the sun rise. I find it interesting that I can get more of the color using my phone’s camera than I can with the Nikon. The colors looked very blah or nonexistent. (Hint: if I watch another of my class videos I might find out what to do to fix this. Sigh.) But the sun is trying to peek out.

This post is taking longer than normal. Apparently the girls really missed me. I get one or both of them in here demanding attention every few minutes. I threw Essie’s frisbee outside for her. Stella as even up in my lap giving me kisses and hugs. Both got good scratches and belly rubs before I got out of bed this morning. Did I mention that is it good to be home?

I am looking around my office as I type this and my eyes fall on my Stephen King shelf (he actually has two, one for my hardbacks and one for my paperbacks). It has been awhile since I read (or reread) his work. But I need to finish reading my review book (I may be dragging my feet on that one because the stories are short enough for me to read on my 15 minute breaks at work and as I’m falling asleep at night). Buuuuuut that hasn’t stopped me before. Lol. Maybe I’ll pull out one of his novels later.

I feel as though I’ve shared nothing constructive. What do you like to do in your free time? Is there anything that you find relaxing or comforting that you would recommend? Feel free to share your thoughts and ideas in the comment section! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Emotions, family, Life, Photography, Sports, Thinking, Writing

Sleep?

Gah! It is way too early! I hate closing at work then having to be back in the wee hours the next morning. I am usually up til 11pm or so anyway but that is not a good thing when I have to be up at 4:30am. On the plus side I got to spend some quality time with my family. So it was worth it.

Truth be told I probably would’ve gone to bed when I was supposed to but it was Super Bowl Sunday and the Buccaneers were playing. Not that I follow football much but if it has something to do with pirates I’m in. And they were a childhood favorite when the family watched football. I still would’ve been in bed but Tom Brady kept making the game better and better (unlike my damn “n” key on this keyboard). I didn’t watch the game but I would check the score every little bit. So I ended up staying up and watching CSI with Chris and the girls.

And here we are with almost no sleep. I keep telling myself that I get out early but I have to remember that I have a meeting tonight followed by a meeting Tuesday morning. So I need to be awake by 7am tomorrow to get the first article written and turned in. I’m going to have to wait to write the second article because I have to go to work pretty much right after the meeting tomorrow morning. All things being equal I might get a full night’s sleep tonight. Might.

I’m not sure what (if any) photos I have to share today. Some may be repeats if I don’t have anything new to share. On that note I will wrap this up so I can go warm up my car before work. (It has gotten to be a bitter cold here. I even warmed up my car after work last night it was so cold!) Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, anxiety, Creativity, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Love, Nature, Photography, Reading, retail, Tattoos, the World, Thinking, Writing

Going a Little Cray Cray

I am experiencing one of those weeks where you have so much going on that you really have to take things day by day because you really aren’t sure what day it is thus what you have to do that day. This upcoming week is going to be beyond crazy. Three meetings (Monday night, Tuesday morning and Wednesday night), one article and one book review due, I have to set up training for work (we are getting a whole new system) and all that on top of my work schedule (I’ve never been trained for some of the stuff I am doing at work this week and I am going to be on my own so it will be interesting). This doesn’t include any class work, exercising or working on the novel.

I got Moose’s tattoo yesterday and I am beyond happy with it! No this did not hurt and even when it was done it just felt like a sunburn. Now I can’t even feel it. The piece is not only true to life in the way it looks but also the size. I guess my tattoo artist was surprised that I showed up yesterday. All his other appointments had cancelled due to weather. I told him a) the tattoo meant too much for me to not do it and b) I only lived down the street so I could’ve walked if needed.

I didn’t go to bed until late late last night and my brain had me up at 7:30am. I had all this great stuff I was going to talk about and share but it is all gone like wisps in the wind. My damn “n” button has something wrong with it. Half the time you push it and you have to push it again or go back and put it in because the key didn’t register the pressure. Grrr….

I did get some amazing photos (there goes that stupid “n” key) yesterday. I had to force myself to put my camera down so I wouldn’t be late for my appointment. Lol. Which reminds me I need to watch the next class on my photography course. And my writing one too. But I need to one thing at a time. (Sorry, I just paused there to get pictures of a new type of bird at the feeder.) The problem is I only have a little bit of time to get things done so I am trying to cram. And there is so much to do my days off don’t feel like days off. Just a day that I can cram more stuff that I have to do into. Sigh. How did my days get so full all the sudden?

I should wrap this up so I can share the photos with you all. I am pretty pleased with some of them! Thanks for reading and your support! Stay safe!

Animals, anxiety, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Life, Love, Nature, Tattoos, Thinking, Writing

Almost There….

Well today is the big day. I sit here and anxiously stare out the window. We got hit with a storm last night and it is still snowing. A light snow to be sure but my mind is concerned that I won’t be able to get my tattoo. My heart is ignoring my head because it doesn’t even want to consider that possibility. I will probably cry a lot today. Yesterday was the month anniversary of Moose’s death.

The wind has shifted since last night. Last night is was blowing from East to West. This morning it is blowing West to East. That is never a good thing for us. We are in a storm “watch” until 7pm tonight. Since it has already dumped a lot of snow one would think it would be changed to a warning but I am no meteorologist.

https://horrortree.com/

Above is the link to the article I wrote last week. I’m sorry I didn’t share sooner. I would always remember after I had posted my blog for the day. Better late than never! And feel free to share the information with any fantasy writers you know.

There are no birds or other critters out this morning. I am going to have to check the feeder tomorrow. Everything looks full now but once the weather clears a bit there might be a big hit on the feeder. I hope all of them have a safe and warm place to hunker in today. Oh! There is a little chickadee! And the small woodpecker has arrived as well!

I am just clock watching now. I have another hour before I plan to get ready. I will leave a bit early and get out some extra money incase the price is more than he guessed. I always hate when I have to wait because that seems to be all I can do. My mind won’t focus on anything else.

I will try to add some more photos from Wednesday. I am sorry if I duplicate. I will try to go back and forth with my blog post to make sure that I don’t but just in case. Thanks for reading and thank you for all the support and comments! Stay safe!

Animals, Automotive, Dogs, Emotions, Friends, Life, Nature, Photography, retail, Tattoos, Thinking

New Adventures!

Tomorrow is my big day! Tomorrow I get Moose’s tattoo. I will share a photo probably Saturday morning. It has been a month today that I lost my Moose. And not a day goes by that I don’t think about him. I miss him.

Well yesterday was an adventure! I had to go get new tires for Angus, my Subaru Crosstrek. I got there a little early. Once I checked in I noticed that they put my car on the lift but nothing was going on. Mechanics came out and talked with the guys at the desk. Had I told them the wrong size tire? (I was pretty sure I had not but still.) I got called up to the desk and things were explained to me. My tires had been ordered when I made the appointment Monday but they still hadn’t been delivered (I guess they normally get deliveries every day but this week seemed to be an exception). At this point I’m thinking I will have to reschedule. Then he drops the bomb. Would I like to upgrade to the next tire in the Cooper line up for the same price? (He looked at his manager who looked a bit sick but ok’ed it.) Why yes I would thank you! What made all this so amazing was the fact that they had matched a lower price from another shop to begin with. That was $30 or so cheaper. The upgrade to my tires was about $32 a tire so you figure another $128? So I saved about $160 yesterday. AND I was able to come home for an hour or so to spend time with the girls before work.

Then when I got to work I was the greeter at the door. Or as I liked to call it… the Mask Police. For the most part everyone was nice. I had one or two that were stinkers but they left. What really happened is that I ended up chatting with everyone for most of the day. When I am at a register I have a limited time frame to talk to people. But at the door I can literally stand around and talk as long as I want. And I did lol. I met some very interesting people as well. There was the guy fresh from the east side of Chicago who did repo work (who knew that I would be able to carry on that conversation!) so we exchanged stories. The conversation with him started with “What are these things?” (he was looking at boxes of Paczkis). I learned some new and interesting stories about some of my regulars (interesting fact… most of the guys have ridden motorcycles). I even talked fire arms with one of our older patrons. I think I went up a few notches with him because I could talk about them intelligently (thank you Hungee). All in all it was a fun day. And it blew by!

The only bad thing last night was Essie being sick. No idea why. When I got home she wouldn’t eat dinner and you could hear her tummy gurgling and grumbling a few miles away. It was LOUD! We played a bit but she got up twice to get sick then the last time she just spontaneously got sick on the bed. That was around 1:30am. This morning she is fine. She had a good appetite and everything. She also wanted to get up at 8am. Momma was not. Momma was sleeping hard. Ah well. I can try again tonight right? Lol.

This has turned into a long one. Sorry about that. I will share some cool photos I took when I got home from getting the tires. The sun was blazing and we had a hard frost from the night before. Thanks for reading and stay safe!