As I sit here in the way too early morning I look at my blog and think that it isn’t what it was supposed to be. But what was it supposed to be? A place to show my writing for sure but what kind? Was it for my non fiction? My fiction? Photography is a new love so it wasn’t that. I don’t know.
But I do… it was supposed to be a place where people could come and learn new things, learn about topics they didn’t know about or were curious about. I think I’ve done that over the years. But what, then, has it become? It feels more like an online journal. And while that might be nice for a while it is not what it was meant to be.
So should it change? I don’t know. I wanted it to grow organically and it has. Just because it has gone in a different direction does not mean it is wrong. Just different. I guess I am looking at things because it feels as though it has become a whine fest and that is NOT ok. I try to keep my bad days short on here because there is enough of that in the world without me adding my two cents. Yet when I go through tough times what should I do? Part of me wants to share to show that everyone has bad things happen and we can all make it through. Yet… yet where do I draw the line? I don’t want my readers to think that all I do is whine (I might not but it feels like I do).
I have made many friends through my writing. I have learned things I would not have otherwise through my writing and reading that of others. My writing has always been very much a part of me, even when it went dormant for a few years. I am trying to find new ways to water, feed and nurture my writing garden. That is why I continue to do this blog.
Despite getting good solid sleep I am exhausted. On the positive side I have gotten two articles written and sent out. I plan to watch atleast one class video before work this morning. The sun is up and out so it should be a beautiful day. Even though I wish I could stay home it will be a good day to be out and about.
I got three tees from Maui Brewing Company yesterday and I love them all! You gotta love random choices!
I got some more photos over the course of the day yesterday. Some I think turned out pretty well while others will be used as a learning tool.
I am getting more and more antsy about Moose’s Friday appointment. I want to know now what is going on. I wonder if it had been one of the regular vet techs if we would have gotten in sooner. Moose does a little then sleeps a lot. He is down to pretty much one meal a day. He is drinking a lot of water as well. All bad signs with kidney disease. So we will see soon I guess. Just not soon enough for my liking.
My mind is kind of all over the place. I am trying to make sure that I get everything done I need to before work. I was supposed to add some thing to the grocery list for today but I have forgotten them. Grrrr… I will get another cup of coffee and then start watching my class videos. Sorry this is so short but I hope you enjoy the photos! Thanks for reading and stay safe!
Nature looks as sleepy as we feel this morning. It is cloudy enough to make you wonder if it night rain later but the sun is poking through here and there. I think it will be a lazy day as much as I can make it today.
I had a fun surprise yesterday afternoon when I got home from work. Two actually. The first was a long time friend stopped by to spend some time with us and the second was that Chris elected to stay home from work so we could spend time with our friend. When I got home I was beat and a bit too exhausted to play hostess. But that didn’t last for long. Soon the three of us were catching up and making plans for October. Jim is a big horror fan like myself. With COVID happening the yearly Halloween Horror Movie Marathon at our local theatre probably wasn’t going to happen (we had such a blast staying up literally all night watching Halloween (the movie franchise) movies and playing various games between viewings!). So we are making plans to do our own. We are defiantly including Trick-R-Treat and Nightmare Before Christmas but the rest of the viewing is up for grabs. Also under consideration in the menu. He has started the Keto diet so I want to make sure we stick to stuff he can have. Needless to say it was a good visit. Oh and as an added bonus he brought me my Halloween/October gift of a Chucky tee shirt (Child’s Play movies).
I took on a meeting last night for the paper and got the article written this morning. Which is why this is so late. Before the meeting Chris and I had a really nice dinner on the grill together and we started watching the series Ratched on Netflix. It was nice and relaxing to spend the bonus time together.
I am debating about whether or not to watch my class videos today. I may put that off. The kids really want me to get out with them and really I do too. I need a break from things. That being said I am gonna wrap this up and send it out to the world. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!
Last night I closed and this morning I open. I’ve been awake since Chris came to bed around 3am. Poor Stella got us up around 4:30am to be sick and while she was doing that Moose came quickly through the door because his tummy was not happy. So it will be an interesting day. I do get out at 2pm so once I get groceries I can come home and chill out. I have tomorrow off so once I get stuff done around the house I can relax til the meeting tomorrow night.
I hope I can pull my camera out for a bit. I’ve not been able to take photos in a few days. I may be able to pull all the plants out either today or tomorrow. Yesterday was beautiful but the night was chilly. So we’ll see. At one point I do need to get more dirt to try to transplant some of the smaller plants to give the big ones more room. Then maybe the smaller ones will be able to grow more.
There has been a steady wind for the past few days. It can be rather soothing if you can just focus on it. Since I will be manning the courtesy /gas counter today I will be able to atleast feel it through the window. Sometimes it will blow up dust devils through the back part of the parking lot. It was nice to sit out in it yesterday before work in the sun.
Speaking of work I need to get going. I have found a few photos that I haven’t shared yet so I will post those. Thanks for reading and be safe!
The goal today is to ride the motorcycle to work. Yep. And I don’t pick a nice day to do it (then I beat myself up if I don’t do it). No, I pick a cold day with frost in the morning. To ease the guilt if I back out? Maybe. Regardless I got all my gear etc laid out and ready last night so I don’t have to do anything but go today. As simple as just taking another vehicle. Atleast on the surface.
I have only allowed myself glimpses into the emotional box that I pulled out from under the bed by deciding to do this. If I pull the cover off and look inside I would never take the bike. So I peek beneath every once in a while to see if anything has changed, to see if I can control anything that is in the box. I allow myself little tastes of feeling in regards to the upcoming ride. I let myself feel a bit of excitement, but not too much because that can quickly turn to anxiety. I let myself think about where I will park once I get to work but not too much because then concerns over other things happening (or not happening) will take over. I do this for a little while then I shut the lid and make myself think about something else. I try not to wonder if it is a good idea or not. I try not to talk myself into it or out of it. I turn to just let it be.
The sun is out so that is a good sign. I checked all my gear so I will have music because my helmet Bluetooth is charged and paired with my phone. I am choosing to wear chaps instead of my full blown riding pants. Since I am only going a short distance I should be ok. If I was riding to Traverse I would put on the pants. I am not hooking up the heated gear again because of the short distance. I do have all the jacket liners zipped in and my purple Ride Like A Girl Racing hoodie to wear.
Another bonus of riding in is that I can’t buy anything. Last night I brought home four plastic trick or treat buckets that I am going to use as planters. I also brought home a mum plant to go in one of them.
The Jeep can’t go in for atleast another week due to unforeseen circumstances with our mechanic. So atleast I have a date of sorts. And if I am riding the bike now it will be less of a shock when I have to ride in colder weather. I am grateful I don’t have to ride all the way into Traverse anymore.
I think I will wrap this up for now. I’ll add a few photos I took yesterday around the yard. Probably the last nice day this week but we’ll see. Thanks for reading and stay safe!
I am worried about Moose. He is getting worse. Atleast he is still playing. I need to request the 25th off for his vet appointment. On a positive note I took a bunch of photos yesterday with the camera so I can share those today. I downloaded them last night since I knew it would take a while this morning. And I think that will be the bulk of today’s post. I just don’t have it in me this morning. I keep cramming everything into my days off. But I am mostly caught up with everything. So that is good. I hope you enjoy the photos. Thanks for reading and stay safe.
This morning has been busy already. I have emailed with Dad (he is home and there was a doctor there that actually paid attention to what Dad needed namely help with his physical pain because that was accelerating his depression). So Dad is on a new regiment that includes pain therapy. We are both very excited about this. Then I answered an email from my Aunt in Florida. But before all that I got my article written for the paper. It was a blessedly short meeting last night so I covered it even though my editor told me not to worry about it. The one I missed however might stay missed. I still have my classwork to do this morning before Chris gets up as well as meeting Mom at 1pm and then Facetiming with Dad this afternoon. I also need to make treats for the kids.
I left the plants outside last night but when I let Stella out a few times last night I was worried that it had been a bad idea. Everything seems to be ok this morning but I need to check everyone to make sure. We have beans too! I am so excited as I have never grown beans before. I will share photos. I am worried that the cold nights have affected the new goodies growing. I think that is what happened to the green pepper buds that I had going. It got too cold and they just fell off. I am happy to say that I have more buds growing in the memorial garden.
The sun is out but the wind is strong. I might need to see about propping some plants up. It is supposed to be nice and warm today so I plan on doing my usual shorts and a tank top. I do have a cool sweater that I want to try out but I can wait.
That is about all the news from here right now. I’d better refresh the coffee and get to watching my videos for class. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!
I have essentially been awake since 1:30am. I woke up with a panic attack and could not get back to sleep. I napped for maybe 15 minute increments only to wake to look at the clock and check the time. And so begins another fun filled day.
Dad will be evaluated later today and either sent home or kept up to two weeks. Dad said he would text me (he has his phone with him) and let me know. I left work last night around 6:20pm. I was working on not coming completely apart so I was given the option of going home. It was slow and I needed to get away from needy people.
I hope my mind is functional enough for the meeting tonight. I also need to listen to the recording of one that I missed this afternoon. Hopefully it was an hour meeting. We’ll see. I tried to listen last night but I just couldn’t focus. So I will have to do it this afternoon.
I took some more photos yesterday. Another (or the same) butterfly feeding on the butterfly bush in the afternoon sun. I also took some of a maple tree across the street that is changing color on a daily basis. I will try to share all those on this post. (Nuts… camera battery is low so we’ll see how many I am able to download.)
Tomorrow morning I will get up and hopefully get both article written then tomorrow afternoon I am meeting Mom for a little bit. It’s been over a month since we’ve seen each other. We are going to meet at McDonald’s and do lunch. It should be a fun time. Wonder if we’ll eat inside or in one of our vehicles. Speaking of vehicles I had planned on riding Rogue in but not with this little sleep. That is very frustrating. On the flip side I get to wear shorts to work again.
It looks like I will get most if not all of my photos downloaded before the camera battery dies. I will have to plug that in before I leave this morning. Oooo… I just remembered I need to watch my class videos tomorrow as well. That way I can get my paper written my next day off and turned in. I got all the photos I selected downloaded so I will share them here and then get ready to go to work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!
It is cool and raining her this morning. I want to still be in bed asleep but apparently the power blipped out at one point because Essie came and got me directly. So we are up. Or rather I am. The kids are all asleep in the living room. I am tired and sore from all the yard work I did. The weather makes me want to curl up with a book but I still have stuff that I need to get done. Like an article and my classwork. I desperately don’t want to do either.
My mind is blank this morning. I sit here and look around the room and listen to the rain not thinking about anything. I find myself drifting around mentally. And noticing that I have a headache coming on. I think it is due to the weather. Yesterday was beautiful. I am glad that I was able to be outside.
I suppose that I should try to get the writing done. This will be a very short blog entry for today. Thanks for reading and stay safe!
The sun is out in earnest this morning. And it will have a time of it warming things up. It was almost cold enough for frost this morning. That being said it is supposed to warm up quite a bit for the next few days so I may uncover the plants in the memorial garden and pull out the ones I brought in. I am hoping the nights stay as warm as they say or warmer. I don’t want to bring them all in and out everyday.
Today is 9/11. It feels like a somber day for those of us that were alive when the 9/11 bombings happened here in the U.S. It seems as though we have gone from outside enemies to inside enemies since then. With no end in sight. I had to unfollow a fellow blogger this morning because of the posts they were writing. They were getting angrier and angrier. Anyone that did not do and think as that person did would incur the wrath of God because that person was right. I don’t need to see that on my feed. That type of thinking is part of the problem. It certainly is NOT part of the solution.
It feels weird not watching the clock to see how much time I have before I need to get ready to go. A good weird. I got a bunch of stuff done last night after I got home so that will be less I have to do today. I do need to see if I can get the mower going today. If not I may ask for help from our neighbors across the street.
I feel like I want to work on my writing today. I got inspired by a documentary on Amazon last night about the controversial Scary Stories to Tell In the Dark. I had all three books as well as the on based on the movie (thanks Mom!). I really love the art and the content. For those who have never read the books they are a collection of scary stories and folktales from all over. This type of book is what got my love for horror started. Just sitting around telling stories to each other in the dark (or with just a flashlight). I still have my first collection that I convinced my parents to buy me (they were still married so I had to be in the single digits with my age). It was at the local bookstore in Ferndale, Michigan called “Paperback Books Unlimited.” This place was a staple of my childhood. I snuck a peek at my first Fangoria Magazine there as well. My parents tried to take me there as often as they could. I just dug the book out of my shelves. It was printed in 1973 so I had to be around 5 or 6 years old. Some Things Strange and Sinister edited by Joan Kahn is the book.
I have always loved short stories because they are small bites that you can snack on if you aren’t in the mood for a full novel (or don’t have the time). It has been a long time since I last wrote a short story. The last one I sent out into the world was college and was a runner up in a contest. They were only going to print the winners but they liked mine so much they made and exception. I still have the copy of the magazine. I have a few done that I need to polish and get out there. But, again, I need to get myself a copy of WordPerfect. Everything is digital now. Very few places will accept hard copy sent through the mail. So I need a reliable program that I can edit and send my work on. That may be something I save up for. I need to make sure bills get paid and Moose has a vet appointment coming up.
Ok, I see that I have talked quite a bit. I will wrap this up and share a few photos. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!