Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Thinking

Short

I find myself at a crossroads this morning. I have gotten little to no sleep last night due to being sick. Breakfast for the kids took me closer to 20 minutes because of constantly running to the bathroom. I close tonight at work. Do I call in or work and hope for the best? My stomach etc seems to have settled down. I am afraid to try to eat anything. Tonight at work should be interesting regardless because I am learning a new job and I am the only one there to do it. There are things about the job that I have no idea how to do and since I am the only carry out once I get there… I guess we’ll see. It’s too late to call in anyway. I try to call atleast two hours before my shift so they can find a replacement. Hopefully I don’t come home early.

I am also waiting on a phone call from Moose’s vet. We found two lumps on him (one I found yesterday morning) and they are being tested for cancer. He is also on new medicine for the next 10 days to see if he has a stomach ulcer. The new medicine has to have every 8 hours AND he can’t have it within an hour of his other medicine. So.

On the plus side he loves riding in Angus. Moose just settled in the back seat and laid there pretty much the whole time. I had to stop to give my meeting schedule for next week at work and he didn’t even sit up when I came back to the car. He just wagged his tail and stayed laying down in the back seat happy as a clam.

Ok. WordPress is doing some weird things as I type and it is making it twice as hard to get this written. And I want to spend some time with the kids before I go to work. So I’m going to wrap this short entry up. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Aging, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, Friends, History, Learning, Life, Nature, the World, Thinking

What We Can Learn

This morning is the opposite of yesterday. As bright as it was the shadows today are darker. The sky looks cold and about to cry. Essie doesn’t feel well this morning. She didn’t eat breakfast and has been outside several times. Moose and Stella are curled up in the pile of blankets on the couch. I need to pull out two of those blankets to go in my car, Angus, soon. Moose needs to go to the vet this morning to get further tests on his kidney disease. His medicine should arrive today as well. Lol. I just let Essie back in and she made a beeline for the couch and is currently looking for a spot to lay with her siblings.

As I was watching and chatting with customers it struck me that all the “old” people were once young and all the young people will (possibly) become old. I listen to the stories of the older folks and laugh with them at the antics they got away with when they were younger. Then there are the older ones that flirt shamelessly cheeky monkeys that they are. They all have stories to tell. They have lived adventures we never can, survived things that we can’t understand. To ignore them is a shame on us. No matter how old they still have things to teach us.

And the young do too. They can teach us how to live life instead of worry about every little thing (although the pandemic is making a lot of them grow up and worry too soon). Thy remind us that we have imaginations that can take us anywhere, we just need to follow our hearts.

I guess the point is that we can still learn from each other. If we make the effort. Stay safe and thanks for reading.

Creativity, dreams, Emotions, Friends, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Feeling a Bit Blah

Despite getting sleep over the past few days I am feeling rather poorly. But I need to keep moving forward. There are things to do and no rest for the wicked. Work has been slowing down quite a bit. Last night we got out an hour early because everything in the deli was done and clean. We had to fill in things here and there but nothing major, especially with three people in the deli.

Still no word from the friend who wants back into my life. I’m not on social media as much as I was so if he expects a rapid response he will be disappointed. If he still works his same hours they are the complete opposite of mine right now. He is going to bed when I get up and vice versa. Time will tell I guess.

My two articles were a hit. I will share the links. The editor misspelled my last name even though I corrected him after the first misspelling. Despite that if I can get more gigs that are like that (interesting yet not a strain to fit in) I might do some more. The Horror Tree – Horror Tree is a resource for authors that lists open markets, articles, interviews, original fiction, and more! I wrote the one on R.L. Stine and the one on Penguin/Random House buying Simon & Shuster.

The woodpeckers seem to be especially happy when I put suet out. The days are getting cold enough that the ice I tossed from the bottom of the freezer is still out there in one piece. Nothing has melted. The sun is out today so we’ll see if that will do anything.

I apologize for such a short post. I just can’t seem to focus very well this morning. I will add the links and some photos I took this morning. The clouds looked kind cool this morning when I let the dogs out. I hope everyone has a great day! Stay safe!

Emotions, Friends, Learning, Life, Love, Thinking

Open the Door or Keep It Locked?

This morning I awakened to a dilemma. I received a friend request from a friend… well an ex friend I guess. We were really close for a few years (too close sometimes) and we had a big falling out. Blocked phone numbers and the whole deal. It hurt because I really did care about the person but the drama that started! That was what finally got to me. Funnily enough I was not the one that ended the friendship. He was. And while I missed him I did not miss the drama. I think about him and hope he is doing well. This morning I look at my phone and there is a friend request from him. After a few years he wants to be part of my life again. SO the big question is do I let him back in? I don’t know what to expect. If I thought he had matured some and wasn’t going to blow my phone up at all hours I might consider it. But I just don’t know. And truthfully I have been content not to have the drama.

I guess looking at it the answer should be pretty straight forward. There seem to be more negative possibilities than positive. But he was a good friend and I do miss him. So. I worry that I will create unwanted drama if I let him back in. Things for the most part are going pretty damn well. I am getting my head in a good place and I am content with how things are. Isn’t that when things like this happen? When you get too comfortable then something pops into your life to “spice” it up? I don’t want… I don’t want to do the same thing over again.

When I went to bed I had planned on telling you about my peridot pendant I got for myself and the new book but that kind of fell by the wayside. Ok. I did it. Fingers crossed.

Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Dogs, Emotions, Life, Nature, the World, Thinking, Writing

Early and Brief

It is way too early. It is hard to keep my eyes open. I closed last night and am back at 7am. I get out at 3pm but I still gotta make it through the day. It has been snowing and the wind sounds really strong out there. And with the new restrictions it is hard to say how busy we will be. Yesterday we were busier than normal for a Sunday.

The article I sent out the other day is missing. Not only did it never arrive at it’s destination but I can’t find a copy of it anywhere. So when I get home I am going to have to rewrite the piece. It makes me mad because that piece was actually sent out o time now it is like 3 days late. The editor is being very understanding about it but I am really put out. Grrrrr…..

I am going to need to get the garage cleaned out if the snow is going to start in earnest. It needs to have things moved around and swept out again. There are nails etc from the repairs done on the tresses. Then we can start parking the vehicles in there. It will be nice not to have to brush the car off before work.

The latest ploy for getting Moose to take his medicine is working. I got some lactose free milk (some vet sites say he’s not supposed to have milk products) and I put his medicine in a small bowl of that (the medicine is white and they thought making it a mint flavor was a good idea… ha!). He has been drinking the bowl every morning and night for a few days now. I hope it continues. I am as tired as he is with trying to squirt it down his throat every morning.

I see by the clock that I need to wrap this up and get going for work. I hope you all have a great day and thanks for reading!

Creativity, Emotions, Holiday, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Working On Writing

It feels strange to not have the over head light on as I write. Not only is it daylight but the sun is actually out. So much is going through my head this morning. There are things I need to do and then there are things I have to do. The have to do stuff requires me to put my big girl pants on. And we all know how I feel about dragging those on! All kidding aside it is serious enough that I’m… not worried so much as I don’t want to hear that I am right in this instance. (I am purposely being vague, sorry.) As to the need to do I have an article to write. I get frustrated sometimes because I feel like I am working in a vacuum. Outside of the paper I get no real feedback on my writing when I send it out. They either like it or they don’t and request changes or find a polite way to say no to the piece. I have no writing group to turn to anymore to throw out suggestions and tell me when something isn’t working right on the page. I miss that.

I need that give and take as a writer. I’m not sure what to do about it. There is nothing locally and I’m not sure I want to try to set something up in Traverse City with winter coming on. Well that won’t work either way regardless. COVID has everyone either concerned or angry it seems. It would be fun to have a monthly Zoom meeting and everyone either email a few pages before said meeting or just read it out loud at the meeting. But finding the writers and a time that works for everyone (depending on the size of the group)…. that could be difficult. Especially with the holidays coming up.

I have a web site I could try to set things up on but everyone is from all over the world and not necessarily consistent. I would like a group of the same people to meet not just a rotation of fellow writers. I want to get a feel for someone’s writing and watch them grow. Not try to gauge if this or that comment will set someone off or if this is what they really meant when they wrote that. So I just don’t know.

Oof…. I just realized how late this post is! Sorry about that! I’m a few hours behind. Which reminds me that I need to get going on my article as well. I will try to get some new photos to share for tomorrow. I did get a few of this morning’s sunrise. Not great but I loved how the sun was gradually lighting things up. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

Animals, Cooking/Baking, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, Food, Friends, Holiday, Life, Love, Nature, Thinking, Writing

Being Thankful

Today is Thanksgiving here in the U.S. That got me thinking last night as I was falling asleep, remember what you are thankful for. I always try to find atleast one thing to be thankful for when I go to sleep at night. Some days there are a lot so I have to pick and choose. Some days I struggle to find one thing (it is usually that I got home safe to my family or that I have my family to come home to). Last night I had a cornucopia of choices. We were as busy as we’d been during the summer rush with the tourists. I was all over the store helping customers. The first part of my shift I was at the courtesy counter paired with one of my fave coworkers. We were singing and dancing and laughing a lot. The second half of my shift things really picked up and I was having fun with everyone. Despite being busy I still had energy so I came home and took care of the kids, cleaned the mouse cage, washed dishes, cleaned the rugs in the kitchen, swept and cleaned the floors in the kitchen as well as vacuumed. I also managed to get myself two articles to write (one is due today and the other Saturday). Trash also got taken out. Mind you I did strain my back by the end of the night and it was after midnight before we went to bed (my poor patient puppies) but so much got done that I don’t have anything that needs to be done around the house except making the pies (I am making an apple pie and pumpkin pie… the apple is from scratch including the crust but the pumpkin is out of a can since I didn’t get any pumpkins for Halloween this year but the crust will be from scratch) and stuffing for the turkey. So I can work on my articles and talk to family via whatever medium (Chris’s family will be either Skype or Discord, Dad ill be Facetime and Mom will be just talking on the phone). I guess the point of this long paragraph is that I have a lot to be grateful for.

I have an amazing family and equally amazing friends. I have probably one of the best jobs/workplaces ever. I was able to replace my car and get something that I never would’ve been able to without the Jeep having issues (I set aside a chunk of money to go toward the engine repair and that ended up going towards a down payment). I have three awesome dogs and have been blessed over the years to be Mom to so many pets. I am able to use my writing skills to earn enough money to pay bills (not just fun money). I have the best husband I could ask for. I wouldn’t have half of what I do or be the person I am without him. He has taught me so much over our life together and been there for me through so much.

I also have all of you reading this. I am very grateful for all of you because you read my work and share your thoughts and suggestions not just on my writing but on my life as well. I am blessed to have all of you! Thanks for reading! I hope you have a great day and stay safe!

Creativity, Emotions, family, Friends, History, Holiday, Life, Nature, Thinking

Looking Toward the Holidays

It is still dark out but I can hear the rain coming down. It is a rain snow combination as it is cold enough for snow. It will be a morning to see how Angus the new car does in the wet. It’s going to be weird for me not to have to flip the car into 4×4 when I need it. This car has all wheel drive all the time.

I cannot believe that this week is Thanksgiving already! The other thing that happens this week is Christmas music starts on Friday. No one at work gets why I am not a fan of Christmas. Even when I explain the lack of being able to see let alone spend time with my family for 15 years. It got to the point that no one even tried to spend time with me because I was always working. And I resent that. Mom and friends used to come over to spend the holidays with us. Many of those friends have since moved away. Mom doesn’t come over hardly at all anymore. Point is I don’t like Christmas because it has been the time of year when I lose my family. It will be nice to work normal houses on the day after Thanksgiving.

I am still in search of Christmas gifts for everyone. I have ideas that I can hopefully follow up on. If I can it will be a fun one. The gifts will make everyone smile. I am also wondering what to do about work. I thought about gifts for a few people I work with but does that mean I should for everyone? And what do I get people? So I’m not sure what I’m going to do yet. Ideas are welcome! What do you do (or have you done) for coworkers for Christmas?

Looking at the clock I see that I need to get going for work. I hope to get some photos in after I get home since I didn’t take any after the birds at the feeder yesterday morning. Stay safe and thanks for reading!

Animals, Dogs, Emotions, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking

Watching Nature

Nothing got done yesterday. We worked on the 3D shark puzzle and are doing an elongated game of chess (someone moves a piece and walks away to do something then the other player wanders up at one point and moves a piece on the other side and leaves). But for some reason I feel like I’ve been hit by a Mack truck. I can’t give you specifics as to what is wrong. I just feel bad.

I just spent the past few minutes taking photos of the birds outside my window. I now have both a male and female woodpecker that come here. It has been just the male for a long time. All kinds of little birds are hanging out this morning as well. Now that the woodpeckers have moved on the little ones are coming to the feeder. I need to get the other feeder and get it put out soon. Hopefully next week.

Part of me is tempted to leave a bit early for work and sit in my car with the manual when I get there. I never did get to that yesterday. Part of it is that I feel bad leaving the kids outside (or in for that matter since they are stuck in the house pretty much all the time) and not spending the time with them. So if I leave early I can spend a few minutes atleast programming stations into the radio (I did reset the clock the other day).

Well now a big ole blue jay has moved in on the bird feeder. This could be kinda fun this winter. It is something to watch and it’s not that far into the yard to keep the feeder filled. A small bird thought about coming in the house yesterday. S/he held on to the side of the door frame and kept sticking her/his head in to check things out. I kept telling it that it didn’t really want to come inside. I didn’t want to spook it. The dogs didn’t seem to care lol.

It looks like the sun is coming out to try to warm things up. I should try to get some stuff done around here before work. I hope you like the photos of the visitors! Thanks for reading! Stay safe!

Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Travel

A Big Step

Today may be the big day. After I am finished with this I am going to clean out the Jeep. Chris is going to follow me into Traverse incase something happens with my engine and I have two vehicles to look at. Hopefully I can get things done in one.

I am being vague about everything because I need this car shopping to be over. I need that issue off my plate so that I can concentrate on other things. So wherever you are please have a good thought for us today. I have looked around and consulted with both Chris and our mechanic on my choices and been given the thumbs up. So….

If all goes well then I will stop by Mom’s for a little bit. We’ve not seen each other for a while. I can see her two pups as well. Depending on when I get home I may call Dad on Facetime. We’ll see. And I might take the kids for a ride. See what they think of the new vehicle.

Despite getting sleep my eyes are sore and I have a constant ache just behind my left ear going from the top of my head down. I’m not sure if it is from wearing masks or not. I notice that it seems to flare up when I have a mask on.

The sun is out so that is a good sign. Despite getting up early I feel like I’m behind. I should wrap this up and get the car cleaned out. Everything will just go in a trash bag for now. I forgot to grab a box from work. It shouldn’t take long but I am becoming antsy. I need to get Chris up in a little over two hours. I think I will let the kids out in the yard while I clean out the Jeep. We’ll see. Sorry this is all over the place. Thanks for reading and stay safe!