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Early Morning Rush Rush

This is destined to be another short one. I was desperate for a little more sleep. Monday will be the worst. I have to have Mom and the hospital by 6:45am for her hand surgery. It’s about 45 minutes to get to her place from here. I still need to work out logistics.

I am teaching the “new” manager how to open this morning. And my mind is wandering. Trying to make sure I have everything I need for work, thinking ahead to Monday and next week, worrying about Stella…

I read as many of your posts as I could. It’s like catching up with old friends.❤️ I see that I need to wrap this up. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Bit Jumbled

I can barely stay awake. I had to take a second dose of the nighttime medicine about two hours in because the first dose was not working. I wish I could/would call into work. I think I should be ok once I get moving.

Nuts. I just fell asleep. This is going to be a long day. I am just glad it is a short day. Only 6 hours even if it will seem longer. We’ll see how I feel as the day goes.

I did manage to squeak out a last minute article for one of my online editors last night. My thoughts are are jumbled. Stella is beneath a mound of blankets sleeping. I need to get her allergy medicine after work. I may see if Chris will swing by and get it if I am feeling like this. I can pay for it over the phone.

I think I have a few more photos on my camera I can share that are new. I need to wrap this up to get out the door. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Quick Blur

This will be a short post. I slept in (I am officially sick now) and I read many of your posts this morning. It is a cold morning and isn’t going to warm up this time.

Work was chaos as soon as I walked in the door. I hadn’t even punched in and I was helping a coworker that blacked out. Then there was the meeting in the office. And the customer that drove off with the hose still in his car at the gas pump. My liquor order needed to be put away too. Beer cave was empty (again). I should’ve known it was going to be a day when the liquor reps showed up with samples, lol. I did manage to work some on my novel before work though.

I feel like crap but I am going to try to keep muddling through at work. I don’t think we have anyone to cover my shifts anyway. I will have coverage today if needed though.

I don’t have time to download new photos so it will have to be repeats. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Odd Times

It has been a weird morning. I woke up with a throat that feels like it was scrubbed with steel wool. I walked outside to sun with clouds but stood there for about 15 minutes as a patch of thunder moved overhead. Once the thunder and clouds had moved on it was blue sky. And it started raining. The big fat drops. From blue sky. Despite getting decent sleep I feel like I have gotten very little. As it was last night I had a hard time staying up as late as I needed to. Stella is still in the utility room. She got up with me and heard the thunder and promptly went in there to lay down. She took her medicine but still hasn’t come out to eat.

I think we are going to have a lot of apples this year. Our apple tree has never given us any apples. This year the tree is packed to the gills with them. Hundreds of apples the size of big marbles. So I will keep an eye on them. It sounds like Stella is eating breakfast. She is still hoarse. She is pacing trying to convince herself that it is ok to go outside.

I cleaned up all my potted plants yesterday. They weren’t happy with me then but they have perked right back up this morning. I still have no idea where they will all go. I was hoping for rain overnight because we need it but no joy. The rain this morning just barely got anything wet.

I see my laptop is almost out of juice. I suppose I will wrap this up before it dies on me. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Helping Or Not?

It always hurts when you can’t help someone you care about. Especially when the person is completely aware of the damage and potential damage they can be doing to themselves and others. My dear friend from work came over yesterday after Chris left or work. She had been in a deep depression. Still was but she was reaching out. I call her Stella’s Auntie and that makes her smile. Stella adores having her over because she gets spoiled rotten. She stayed til well after 11pm last night. We watched a few movies but mostly did a lot of talking. I dried a lot of tears. She is in a messed up relationship that she can’t/won’t get herself out of. There is also the alcohol and drug use. She is trying. She knows full well what can/will happen if all this continues. She is better for smaller and smaller increments of time. At this point all I can do is listen and be there for her.

The morning has dawned cold and dark. It sprinkles once in a while. Stella is curled up beneath a pile of blankets on the couch. She started to dig in the pile of blankets at the other end so I took the hint and made her a small nest before covering her up. She sighed happily before she fell asleep.

It is one of those days you just want to hunker in and do nothing all day. But I need to do a few things around the house. Laundry is finishing up in the dryer. I want to do something with my plants (water, trim back, back room for the ones that need to come in soon etc). I wanted to make time for my novel since I couldn’t yesterday. I am thinking I might vacuum. Dishes need to get done and I need to shower.

I didn’t do much of what I’d intended yesterday. Mostly because of having company. So I will try again today. I guess I could get started right now. I didn’t get any new photos so it will be more repeats. I hope you enjoy them. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Things

I feel a bit like I’ve been hit like a bus. I did manage to sleep 11 hours though. I ended up playing many roles at work as we had more call ins. A lot of people in the area are getting sick. Kids at school, people at their jobs… I think it will be an interesting Fall and Winter. I am hoping that we don’t get hit as hard as they predict. I expect that it will get a bitter cold but the mounds of snow I can really do without.

I am not sure if Stella is doing better or not. She isn’t panting as hard. I always feel bad when she plays hard because she pants and that hurts her throat. But she wants to play. She has been very good about taking her medicine.

I don’t know what the day will bring. I am at a loss at to what to write. There are things I would like to do and even a few things that need to get done. I guess we’ll see what happens. Sorry this is so short. I am still moving forward but it is very slowly. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Slowly….

I spent more time than I probably should have reading your blogs. It sounds like a lot of us have more than our fair share of crazy going on. One big group hug❤️‍🩹🥰

Work did not go much better. Several call ins so we were very short staffed. I’m not sure how today will be. I am pretty sure that I will have atleast one call in but if it stays raining we should be fairly slow. I hope. I can only do so many things.

Poor Stella is hurting. She wants to play but she pants which hurts her throat more. Which in turn makes her pant even more. She has been very good about taking all of her medicine and eating. I have been giving her Frosty Paws (essentially ice cream for dogs) to help with both the heat (we’ve had hot summer weather lately) as well as her throat. She ate her last one yesterday so I told her I would get more today. I have no idea how long this is supposed to last. And I noticed she is starting to lick her paws and legs again…..😳

I need to wrap this up so I can get to work. I keep telling myself I can sleep in tomorrow. No 4 or 5am alarms. Thank you so much to everyone who has reached out. It means a lot. ❤️ Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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More Visits

Well when I got home from work Stella had no voice. When she tried to bark she ended up coughing. So I when I got in the house I called the vet. You guessed it, yet another vet visit. Fortunately they could get us in about an hour later. We were almost late with other drivers going 40mph in a 55mph zone. These drivers had traffic backed up since there weren’t many places to pass.

The long and short of her visit is that she has laryngitis. She is on an antibiotic as well as a cough pill. The cough pill she can get as soon as every 4 hours if she needs it but the other is every 12 hours. Let’s not forget she’s still taking medicine from the last vet trip. She is running a slight fever. It’s not as bad as last night.

I tried to (finally) get Stella a harness yesterday. But when I got home I had grabbed the wrong size. So that needs to be exchanged. Bless Chris because he offered to do it on his way to work today.

I seem to have ended up planning a meeting for all our carry outs. I made the suggestion to the store manager and he thought it was such a good idea that I am in charge of it.

A bright spot for yesterday… that horror contest I am in? I finished first in my group and I have move on to the second tier. This one lasts a week before cuts are made.

I need to head to work. I feel like crap. Wish me luck. Have an amazing day❤️ Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Scary

Stella is beside me in the dark, dreaming of chasing something. She is all bundled up in blankets because it is that cold. I just wanna stay home and sleep. It was a late close last night. Then as I was finishing up I happened to check my phone and my tattoo artist’s wife and youngest daughter had been in a serious car accident (I’m pretty sure I heard the sirens) last night and the shop is closed until further notice. So I need to make sure my buddy knows that we aren’t getting any ink this afternoon. He doesn’t do the whole social media thing so he would have no idea.

My brain wouldn’t let me sleep. If I didn’t wake myself up then my surroundings did. I can barely keep my eyes open. But I am out at 2pm with no plans. As cold as it is now 47F or 8C) it is supposed to get up to 85F (29C) as our high today.

I see by the clock that I need to get this wrapped up. Thank you for all the love and support.❤️ It means a lot. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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????

Today is my first day back to work. I am not sure how I feel about it to be honest. The morning has dawned cold. I still have a few things to do around here before the appraiser comes. Once this is done we should be able to get the money to fix the roof. Hopefully within the next few weeks.

I am trying hard to be positive. I am trying hard not to fall back into the pit. I keep looking around the room. Trying to find something to write about. Something that I won’t turn into a negative.

I am worried that I am going to have to take Stella into the vet’s. Her cough and sore throat don’t seem to be going away. I might try to call and ask what to do for her at home. It seems that I did not get paid for my time off on vacation. Only the times I went into work. So there is something there, but not much. (I just checked my balance.)

I am going to wrap this up and call work then the vet’s office. I hope the day goes well for all of us. Thanks for reading and stay safe.