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Finding the Creativity

This morning is dark, cold and windy. I just want to stay in bed and sleep. Stella started barking at things around 3-3:15am this morning. Chris pulled in not long after that. But her barking was as if a stranger was at the house. It was very bizarre, even for her.

I am at a loss for words this morning. My head is still trying to fall back asleep. I had a hard time falling back asleep after Stella finally stopped barking. I found myself thinking about Moose and his death and then my mind traveled back through the years to all the dogs I’ve had and their respective lives and deaths. Tears were shed before I finally fell asleep.

Essie is now eating on a regular basis again. I am very grateful. So I guess the new eating program is kibble, broth (low or no sodium) and canned for breakfast while dinner is beef or chicken with the corresponding broth flavor and kibble. I may change it up once the weather warms up but for now that is what we are doing.

I have one lone new photo to share. Last night the sunset was amazing and many many of my friends noticed it. Facebook had a ton of sunset photos from my local friends. I caught sight of it at work last night and snuck out to get a picture. The photo doesn’t do the colors justice. It was also one of the 13 new photos I uploaded to my new photo shop. I am excited about my little shop. It is getting traffic already! It would be cool to be able to make money of the two creative loves I have.

I did my new exercise routine last night. I did the required amount of reps as well. I just did one set of each the other day when I started because some of the moves were new to me and my body. I was sore but not bad. Last night I really had to push myself through two of the moves because they were difficult for me to do one rep let alone three. But I did it! Yay! The plan is to keep doing the “week 1” workout until I can manage to get through it like I’m supposed to, as in doing the moves correctly. My body is not able to get through the full scope of some of the exercises so I want to be able to do them fully before I move on to the next round of exercises.

Well I see I need to move it and get ready for work. I’ll add the photo from last night and then get this posted. I want to thank all of you for your continued support and your wonderful comments! It is great to be able to meet other bloggers and their passions! Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

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Add a Bit of Snow

Feels like I just got up yet it is almost time to go to work. We did get the promised snow last night. It is almost up to Essie’s belly. The girls are really good about going out together after breakfast. Come to think of it the seem to eat at the same pace as well. Stella isn’t gulping her food down as much.

As I look out the window I see that the bird feeder area is busy after all the snow. I see blue jays, tufted titmouse (mice?) and mourning doves to name a few. I’ll need to get more bird seed after work. I have to make a small list of things so I don’t forget. There isn’t much.

Today is a day that I want to stay home. Mostly to read. I got two more research books yesterday and they are both very good. The Worlds Favorite Ghost Stories complied by Tony Brueski and Campfire Macabre edited by Brhel and Sullivan. Ghost Stories has classical ghost stories written by long dead authors who are probably ghosts themselves. The stories are a bit long but very good. Campfire Macabre is a collection of shorter short stories that are also very good. The shorter stories make it easier to get through in a quick sitting on break at work. I also know one of the authors in the collection.

This is a tee that Chris got me I honor of Moose. ❤️🐾

I guess I had better wrap this one up and send it out so I can get going to work. Where did the morning go? We’ll see how fast the rest of the day goes! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Quick Bit of Concentration

I got more done than I thought but less than I planned. The only thing I didn’t get done was practicing guitar. I got more housework done and I got a small online shop set up to sell my photos. So far I’ve downloaded 12 photos. I am curious to see what happens. I am also very excited because if they do sell then that means I can get an income from both my writing and my photography. I will do a copy and paste for the link before I post this.

I got a beautiful bouquet of flowers yesterday. I think that it is from the Melissa that I worked with at Younkers and other coworkers. I recognize her handwriting (I think… it has been a few years) but she kept saying “we” in the little note. But it was a very kind and sweet gesture of sympathy.

I have made more headway in my novel. I was able to change some story points that I found a bit shaky. I keep my notebook near me when I am going through my research books instead of just a notecard now. Some of the references I find encourage whole written passages on my part. I have taken to bringing a small spiral notebook with me to work. You never know when inspiration will hit!

I got Essie eating again. She ate all her meals yesterday. Sunday she wouldn’t eat anything again. I hope this means that she is on the mend. She and Stella took turns cuddling on the love seat with me last night.

I did start my exercise routine last night as well. I am pretty proud of that. It was not pretty to watch (my lower body is not as in shape as my upper from constantly playing with the pups) but I went through all the exercises the suggested amount of times. It is just supposed to be for a week then it changes again but I may do it two weeks before I change it up. I am also thinking about just keeping it going after I finish (it is a new set of exercises every week for a month so I would just keep rotating through).

Nuts. I just glanced at the clock. I need to wrap this up so I can head to work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Feeling a Bit Anxious

I am happy to say that I am writing this on my laptop. It is finally connecting to the internet and after a bit of finagling to the printer as well. I had a busy day yesterday between the novel and various things around the house. The novel work was mostly research reading but I did take a few notes. I was able to spend some good quality time with my family as well. Why then did I wake up at 6am with a panic attack?

It is very frustrating because no matter what I have done this morning my mind keeps rolling around everything that could go wrong in my life. Every possible bad what if scenario. The harder I try to change my mind the deeper it seems to dig in. But I don’t want to think those thoughts!

Yesterday’s snow turned to rain and mostly had disappeared by the time the sun went down. But this morning it is quite the winter wonderland as you will see. I wonder how busy we will be at work tonight. I can laze around this morning as I don’t work until 2pm. I am hoping to spend some of that time on my novel. This time I need to get atleast a page of prose written.

Even though I am in my office Essie is staying out in the living room. A lot of times she will just go back to bed if I am in here. Moose was the only one who would actually spend the morning in here with me on a regular basis. I miss my baby boy.

I think before I turn the laptop off this morning I will try to find and print a map of the area my novel is taking place. I was going to order one from Amazon but I don’t need to. If I can find a decent map online to print it will be just as good.

I think I need to just sit with Essie for a bit and watch the snow fall. Maybe that will help my mind ease up. I tried going back to sleep but I just tossed and turned for two hours before I gave up and finally got out of bed. I hope everyone has a great day! Thanks for reading (and the support) and stay safe!

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Trying a Little More

The rain from yesterday turned to snow and we got enough to cover the ground and trees. Not a lot but is is a bit slushy. I’ve not seen or heard any traffic for a few hours. All is quiet. Definitely a stay at home day.

I am hoping to get more research done as well as get atleast a page written for the novel. I keep telling myself that even if I just write a page a day I will have a full length novel at the end of the year. And if I get multiple pages in a day then on those days when the writing just won’t come I still have my page for that day.

Everyone is up this morning including Chris and it has thrown me off. I am used to quiet and not really talking until atleast two hours after I get up. Speaking to another human before my normal time is off putting. But I think the big thing is that it snowed. The rain had melted most of what we had and it was actually warming up. We could see and feel Spring in the near future. Then this. I know it should be expected but that does not change how I feel about it.

The girls have been very busy that past few nights after I got home. I have played with them as much as I could. We have also decided that they girls will start getting chicken or beef in their kibble at night. Breakfast will still be canned and kibble (with broth). Hopefully that will help keep them healthy.

I might try to get outside (ooo! A car just drove by!) and take some photos. I should actually. I’ve not done much lately. I am looking at taking a class though. Maybe with some more tools at my disposal (knowing more about how to take photographs) I can get back into my groove. It is a nice companion piece to my writing, it gives me another creative outlet.

Speaking of creative outlets I need to wrap this up so I can start digging back into my research. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Ed. Note: We are having internet issues so I will try to upload some photos later today. 🙄😳

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Good Research 🧐

We slept in a bit this morning. Essie is gently snoring beside me on the love seat. Stella has gone back to bed with her Daddy. The sky is a powder grey. Winds wax and wane. What snow we had is almost gone. Just in time for the “storm” we might get starting tonight or tomorrow. A wapping 1-2 inches each day. 🙄

Yesterday it was hard to go to work because I had gotten knee deep in research for my novel. I was finding out that my random choices for topic (werewolves) and location (Italy) did indeed go together very very well! I am so very excited! Further research is also lending itself to a lovely plot twist. (Sorry to be so vague. Part of it is I am still working out details and the other part is I don’t like to share too much what I am involved in a story. It’s like picking up the lid to peek in when you are trying to cook something. You let the heat out and there’s not much to look at.)

I went to bed happy and content but I seem to have woken up feeling lost and alone. I’m not sure what I was dreaming about last but I think that has something to do with it. I am hoping to get some more work done on the novel once I get home tonight. It feels like Friday but it also feels like it shouldn’t be Friday. I had to go check my work schedule. I work an hour later than I thought. (Later as in longer not that I go in later.)

I did get a few photos taken that I’ll share. Looking at the clock I’d better get moving. Time has gotten away from me again. Thanks for reading and all your wonderful support! And as always stay safe! ❤️

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A Stumble

Good morning all… this will probably be a short one. I still need to get my article written. I’m not feeling all that great and tried to sleep in but that didn’t work. So I got up and fed the girls and Stella has curled up beside me in the love seat and Essie is snoozing on the couch.

People keep asking me if it is getting any easier since Moose died. The only thing that has gotten easier is to hide the pain and misery from others. Most people don’t understand since Moose was “just a dog” in their eyes. So I don’t bother to explain. I just smile and nod and lick my heart up a little deeper inside.

Last night’s meeting lasted almost three hours! For the last bit of it I mostly played with the dogs. They were tweaking their mission statement for the group as well as a presentation they were going to give. So once the main topic had been covered I stayed on incase something else came up. Nope.

I just want to go back to bed but there is no point. I’ve got things to do and would toss and turn because of that. And I need to get the article written. I hope you all have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Puppies and Writing, A Wintry Mix

I’m not sure how much time extra to give myself this morning. Overnight it was a rain/ice mix that fell from the sky. A plow truck has gone by sprinkling sand to help with any ice on the roads. I usually leave a half hour before the meeting. Hmmmm… Glad I don’t need to scrape the car or anything!

Essie is out here in the living room with me again. Chris got her to eat after he got up and she has eaten both dinner last night as well as breakfast this morning. I will give her another day to see how she does. If she is still improving then I will cancel Friday’s vet appointment.

Part of me really wishes that they would Zoom this morning’s meeting (they haven’t done that at all even with everything going on) but then the other part of me is glad fir the adventure of getting to go some place out of the norm. I do need to make sure that I have warm stuff on when I leave. Or atleast have it in the car with me. Since I am usually too hot on a regular basis and only have a short distance to go for work I am usually only wearing a light jacket. If I am driving any distance I try to have extra gear. Just in case.

Essie and I stopped playing at 5:20pm yesterday and just looked at each other. Then I said to her, “It has been exactly a week down to the minutes since we lost Moose.”

It has been dark and dreary (or dark or dreary) so I’ve only taken photos of the girls. They have been playing more (I don’t think Stella really cares since he is no longer around to vie for our affections). Stella I think would be happier as a single dog. But she has to cope with Essie being the eldest and, especially now, getting more attention. I try to be equal but when Stella starts being a little turd….

Once I get home I need to write and submit both my articles. I need desperately to get the laptop back online because it is very tedious writing everything on my phone. That being said I am grateful to have that as an option. I may spend the rest of the day off and on with one of the novels. Probably my horror novel since that one is inching forward.

I see by the clock that I need to start getting ready to go. Wish me luck! Thanks for reading and thanks for the love and support!❤️🐾 Stay safe!

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What To Do

Another morning sitting in the dark. Essie still won’t eat so I’m going to call the vet on my break today. I don’t know what else to do. We’ve tried everything.

It has been a week today that I had to let Moose go. How has time gone so fast?

Today is the start of my busy week. I work until 3pm at the store then a meeting tonight, another meeting tomorrow morning at 9 am followed by another meeting Wednesday night. I have tomorrow off so I can get both articles written and submitted by Tuesday afternoon. I will still write the article for Thursday’s meeting Friday morning but it won’t appear until next week’s issue. I can relax next week as I have no meetings.

I hope to get some more done on my novel but I’m not going to push too hard with everything I’ve got going on. I think Saturday will be a good day to try to get some more done. We’ll see how that goes.

I see that time has gotten away from me again. I need to get dressed and get out the door. Thanks for reading and stay safe! ❤️

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The First Day At Home

This morning has dawned dark and cold. Even though we should have some form of daylight coming through it is still nighttime dark.

I can hear Essie’s tummy gurgling all the way in here. She wouldn’t eat breakfast but she has camped out in the living room while I am in my office doing this (the phone didn’t charge overnight so I am writing this while it’s plugged in). Stella ate but she did spend almost half an hour outside doing whatever she was doing this morning. And that was before she ate.

I did get laundry done but that was it. I talked to both my parents but my conversation with Dad got cut short because the battery died. No “You have 20% left” just blip and gone. It took seemingly forever to get enough charge to send him a message to let him know what had happened. I still want to send an email with more explanation.

I read and tried to do research while Chris was asleep but I kept dozing off. As it was I was done for the night around 6:30pm. I did get some new ideas written down for the novel so it was not a total loss. Lol.

I have no new photos to share so I will have to hit the archives. I get out at 6pm tonight so no chance of doing any photography after work. But I will see if there is something somewhere that needs it’s picture taken. Thanks for reading and stay safe!