Creativity, Dogs, History, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Histories and Personal Mysteries

Essie and I are in the dark trying to stay awake. Well I am. I’m pretty sure she went back to sleep. Still no word on whether or not Thursday’s meeting will be in person or not.

I have a new background idea for one of the novels. So the question is do I stop and do more research so I can include it or just continue on with what I have and then do it? I am not sure just yet. I am hoping that this background will help form the present storyline instead of just being background. (Or am I just using it as an excuse to do more research?) I have a few titles written down just incase….

I mentioned I have been binge watching a class on the Black Plague (I have until April 5th to get through 24 lessons). It has been very interesting but I have to admit one or two of the episodes so far have been rehashing the same information we already have which is disappointing because the instructor is very good and very easy to learn from. I think I am at the halfway point in my episodes.

Keeping with the writing theme I seem to have I am tempted to rewrite my now infamous mystery story from grade school. The story behind the story is we were supposed to write a short story with atleast one rough draft for class. I think we had a few weeks to do this. Well I remembered last minute in the morning it was due and wrote it in the back of the bus on the way to school. I got an A on it and she read it in front of the class. I remember being shocked when I realized that it was my story she was reading. Lol. Despite only having a rough final draft I still got an A. I’ve always been proud of that.

I see by the clock that I need to get going. I didn’t get many photos yesterday but I got some nice shots of the moon last night and this morning. I hope you like them. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, family, History, Learning, Life, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Roaming Rats and Grey Skies

I was all set to type that the sun was shining brightly but by the time I sat down to do this things have turned grey. 😢 I do have some good news though. we received our stimulus money so with Chris’s help I have picked out a laptop. It should be here in about a week. It has all I need for my writing and a little more.

We have all been a bit restless the past few days. It has been especially noticeable with the girls. They seem to be in constant motion. What I’d like to do is be able to get some good action shots as they play but I am not quick enough to be able to grab the camera from around my neck, adjust the lens, and get off a few shots after I have thrown a toy for them. By the time I put the camera to my eye to adjust the lens they have caught the toy and are heading back to do it again. This is why I have mostly photos of them lying down. Lol

I am looking at the calendar to try to figure out my meetings for the month. I am not sure if we are doing them in person now or not. At the last meeting I covered the Village Manager said that meetings were going to start being in person as of April 1st due to a state mandate or some such. So I guess we’ll see. I have a meeting Thursday.

I am hoping to get some work done on my novel. I have been watching a class on the Black Plague which has rekindled my interest in medieval history. I think I might be able to find a bit of history that will tie in nicely with the plot. Funnily enough the course is on Amazon (the movie channel) and it is the same people that I got my photography, guitar and writing courses from. One fun thing is that the instructor has a set that she walks around as she talks. I have noticed that every few episodes a new rat appears (this is about the Plague after all) and the rats also move around the set. We are I’m up to eight now.

I had better wrap this up. Thanks for reading! Stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Foggy Doggie Groggy Day

Yesterday’s sun didn’t last very long. It turned even colder. Then we got the rain/snow/ice mix. It was a good day to hunker down. But of course I didn’t.

Things got done off of my list and things did not. I will try to get the rest done today. The big thing is looking at laptops. I really need to figure out what I am going to do. But I am honestly tired of looking at things online via my phone. Oh geez hang on… Essie thinks she’s dying. 🙄

Sigh…. she needed her tea kettle. This game involves me clicking the tea kettle at her (using the whistling cap on the spout) while she growls and shakes the life out of whatever she has in her mouth. And of course Stella joins in by talking and chewing her ball. Essie has been very busy the past few days. I’m not sure why.

The hills behind us are shrouded in fog. Much how I feel. I can’t seem to get enough sleep. I just tried to look out the bay windows. I think I need to clean them. I can’t make out much past the doggie nose art. The dogs are always funny the first day or so because they suddenly can see so much more after the windows get cleaned and they just don’t know what to look at first. Lol.

Another thing I need to do is work on the novel(s). I pulled them out with the intent to get done work done but the notebooks just got shuffled around on the table. My mind just seems to be filled with sandy air. No real focus but some kind of grit in there.

Well Essie is now asleep on the couch.

I think I might continue with one of my classes today. Maybe that will help me focus. Then I can (hopefully) move on to other things. I close tonight so I don’t have a lot of time. And now Stella wants my attention.

So I will add a few photos from yesterday and get this posted. Thanks for reading and the support! Stay safe!❤️

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, Gardening, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking

Springing Spring

The sun is out! I see that the buds are bigger on the lilac bushes and the grass it starting to turn green (despite the cold). The winter weather advisory the other day meant nothing for us. Cold but nothing else.

Both girls seem to want to be outside. But I open the door and they come back away from the door. Or they will just stand and sniff the air. I would leave the door open but it is still cold out.

Last night’s dreams seemed to center around my camera and my leather journal. People tried to take them from me. So I spent a good part of the dream keeping them away from others (usually with the help of quite a few people). I keep pausing and reliving little bits and pieces. Mind you if I try to write them down they will turn into wisps and blow away so I chose to just go over things in my head.

Talking to Mom last night we decided to go bowling and shoot some pool. Mom used to be in a bowling league so I was at many league games. Mom hasn’t played pool so I found a place that has both. Sadly I don’t think the have dartboards (real ones anyway…. Chris and I prefer the real bristle boards). So it will just be pool and bowling. Mom is going to ask her friend to go with so it will (hopefully) be a foursome. I know Mom feels like a third wheel sometimes so this will be a fun change!

I just stepped outside to take a few photos and when I came back in I noticed that my big orchid has some little nubbins that are growing from the bottom. I also found a large stem that had tucked itself away from sight. So it seems that I will be the proud caretaker of a second blooming orchid! I was very worried that she wouldn’t bloom again (I have had her a year as of February).

Looking at the clock I had better wrap this up so I can get things going around here. I think I will start with my indoor plants today. Thanks for reading and stay safe! ❤️

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Balance

It is hard to find a balance between everything. Work (even with two jobs) takes up much less of my life than before so that gives me more free time. Well free time might not be the best choice of words. Lol. There seems to be so much to do. So much I want to do. And with warmer weather coming upon us my list grows.

Ok so the “have to dos” include keeping up the house (dishes, laundry, vacuuming etc), taking care of the zoo (this includes care and cleaning of the mice, turtle and snake), watering and care of my plants… is that it? Let’s say it is for now. So now for the “want to dos”. That list is longer and includes my blog, letter writing, reading, riding, gardening, writing in general and working on my novels specifically, learning (this can be through a class or book or experience ex. working on getting the Pearl back on the road)… outside of either of these are spending time with family and friends as well as dealing with all the medical stuff going on.

I know I am over simplifying things (I could include sleep since I seem to be missing it a lot and food since I really enjoy cooking and eating good food) but you get the idea. I hate the idea of writing out a rigid schedule for it all. I like the spontaneous stuff. You know, hey! Let’s go to the book store or hey! Let’s go for a walk around the nature preserve. That kind of thing.

I do have my daily and weekly schedules for things. But can you plan on when you will cuddle with your loved ones? I suppose so but it just feels unnatural. And if you’re not in the mood or can’t? I’m thinking along the lines of riding and writing (yes it can apply to other things but this is what comes promptly to my mind). And I haven’t put in my photography under any of this. I think that’s because it is spontaneous and just fits in wherever.

As I get older I find myself more conscious of squeezing all that I can in my life. (Mind you I did the same when I was younger but I just wasn’t conscious of it. That’s why my life has been so full just do, do, do.) The flip side of all this is finding down time and me time. I know I squander a lot away watching tv (in my defense I do play a lot with the girls and have been known to exercise during a binge marathon and this has been some us time for Chris and I). Part of me wants to slow down and relax for a bit and the other part gets bored and wants to do things.

Something to think about I guess. Oooo I have rambled on a bit today! But I think that’s ok. It’s a first step. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Still Nothing

Essie didn’t get up with me this morning. Thus is the first time since I lost Moose that I have been alone in the morning. I don’t like it. I know she has been hurting. She seemed a bit lethargic last night. We did a lot of playing yesterday. Maybe too much for her.

I no closer to finding out what is wrong. Nothing was found in the first round of tests so another batch of tests have been ordered. I have another appointment next Thursday.

A bright spot is that I received a letter from my pen pal here in the States so after work today I will drop her a few words. I have a meeting tonight and I have set an alarm. I am pretty sure with everything going on I would forget otherwise.

Another bright spot is that I did some work on one of my novels. As I read through Tim Waggoner’s Writing In The Dark I put a lot of that to immediate use. Right now I am working on my cast of characters. With my surfing novel I have my characters and their back stories done and the basic plot but I’m not happy with that plot. At least as far as it goes.

I guess Essie heard my heart breaking. She came out to be with me. She isn’t interested in going outside or eating. I know Chris was only in bed an hour when I got up.

I got some good photos yesterday. It was warm but really dark out. I expected rain but there was none. I will share my photos and then spend a little time with Essie before I have to leave. Thanks for reading and the support! Stay safe!

Animals, anxiety, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Gardening, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Small Steps

I didn’t do much with my phone yesterday. I should be done writing my blog by now but it seems to be blowing up (my phone that is). I tried to quick catch up on messages I missed (I felt like crap all day and night so I pretty much ignored my phone) and some of the people who messaged me were up and messaged back.😳 So I politely tried to nip things in the bud. The girls were out here with me but both have gone back to bed with Chris.

I thought about skipping this today. I truly had nothing new to say and I am still not feeling very well. I thought about calling in but the next check goes for my car payment.

One of my coworkers got me this adorable solar powered light. It’s a shaggy black and white dog wearing glasses. The glasses are where the lights are. She said he reminded her of Minions which reminded her of me. ❤️

I am itching to get gardening. Even if it hurts physically. I just need to be outside growing things again. I don’t want to do too much with this warm streak incase we get bad weather again. I do need to get myself some crocus bulbs to plant though. Those and daffodils are such great signs of Spring after a long winter.

I’ll add a few photos I took and wrap this up. I hope to get some writing done on my novel(s) before work. Thanks for reading! Stay safe!

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Mmmfff… whaaat?

It’s dark both inside and out. I managed to get to sleep but Stella kept barking at weird times. I went to bed not feeling that great and woke up same. I have written myself a note so I remember to go to get my labs done after work.

I just want to sleep until…. whenever. Until I finally catch up. My focus isn’t all there. But I hope to be able to work on my novel(s) when I get home tonight. We’ll see. I have a bag for each of them with the current lot of research materials. I add as I go for the research stuff. I am trying to do research if I’m not actively writing in the novel.

I got my meeting next week added to my time off requests. I’d almost forgotten with everything going on. If I had remembered I would have made my doctor appointment for that morning. Oh well. We’ll see how the schedule looks. Hopefully I get next Monday and Saturday off. Not Monday and Tuesday.

Yesterday ended up being a beautiful day. The sun came out and it warmed up some. Problem was the wind picked up quite a bit. But the sun made a huge difference so we’ll take it! Tomorrow is the first day of Spring. The weekend is supposed to warm right up so we’ll probably be very busy.

I need to wrap this up so I can head out the door. Thanks for reading and thanks for all the comments! It’s awesome to hear from my readers! Stay safe!❤️

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Working Through the Anxiety

I sit here in the dark with Essie waiting to head out the door to go to the doctor. Part of me wishes I had gone for a later time. I am just so tired. I’ve been clock watching and dozing since 5am.

I got a lot done yesterday but I still forgot “little” things I wanted to do like putting the cleaner down the drains or setting everything out for today. It’s no big deal but it feels like it.

I repotted the avocados. Well I put them in dirt. I pulled the bag of Miracle Gro dirt in to warm up. I didn’t want to shock the poor things. They seem to be doing ok so far. I am debating about repotting a few other plants but I’d rather do it while it’s nice outside.

The house got vacuumed, dishes got done, laundry got done. I even spent some time on my novels (yes both of them). It’s not much but it’s something. Nervous energy.

I’ve been going over my list of issues to ask the doctor. That hasn’t helped my anxiety. And there is no telling if or when I will get answers to my questions.

And I think I might come straight home after my appointment. I don’t know how long my appointment will take so I am leery about setting up an appointment to get my phone fixed. That and I just don’t want to drive to Traverse. I think the most I will do is get groceries afterwards.

Time to get gone. I didn’t take many photos yesterday but I will share what I have. I’ll make it a point to take some today. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, anxiety, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Food, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Coconut Creamer vs Snow

I am glad that I filled the bird feeder. I woke up to about 2 inches (5cm) of snow. The crows overhead sound as annoyed as me at the unwelcome intrusion of it. It should all be gone again either today or tomorrow (temperature and possibly some rain) but it is disheartening all the same. Winter just needs to go away. When I opened the door to let the girls out to go potty Stella stood there and looked at me after she saw the snow. I did coax her out though.

My small consolation in all this is my coconut creme creamer in my coffee. I will be drinking a lot of coffee today with that in it. My big splurge yesterday.

I don’t know if any of my readers are horror fans like myself but if you are there is an amazing social media site called Slasher. I had to download an app for my phone and it threatens to suck me in like Facebook did but it is so cool to have someplace to go to talk about and see horror everything! I belong to a few Facebook groups that are horror based but this place covers a lot more ground. There are musicians, film makers, writers, fans, artists…. it is an amazing collection of people and work! Everyone so far has been super friendly. I’m very excited!

Seriously?! I heard a blue jay just squawking and now I know why. It’s snowing out. Even the birds are sick of it! Snow is no longer pretty. White or otherwise. (As I take a large sip of my coconut flavored coffee and glare out the window…lol)

I need to do some work around the house today. Dishes, vacuum etc. I also need to figure out when to make my appointment to fix my phone screen tomorrow. I’m going to be out and about so I might as well go to Traverse and get it done. It’s under warranty so I’m good there. I had hoped to look at laptops as well. I just want to stay home. It’s all I can do not to cancel my doctor appointment for tomorrow.

Books need to be read and worked on as well today. I am going to try to finish my one book review and get that sent in to various places. So I guess I should stop procrastinating and do my thing. I’ll add a few photos. I tried to get one of the crows this morning but he started to take off as I took my photo. Then I couldn’t adjust my lens fast enough to get anymore as they flew away (more joined as he flew). Take care! Thanks for reading and stay safe!