As I sit here in the way too early morning I look at my blog and think that it isn’t what it was supposed to be. But what was it supposed to be? A place to show my writing for sure but what kind? Was it for my non fiction? My fiction? Photography is a new love so it wasn’t that. I don’t know.
But I do… it was supposed to be a place where people could come and learn new things, learn about topics they didn’t know about or were curious about. I think I’ve done that over the years. But what, then, has it become? It feels more like an online journal. And while that might be nice for a while it is not what it was meant to be.
So should it change? I don’t know. I wanted it to grow organically and it has. Just because it has gone in a different direction does not mean it is wrong. Just different. I guess I am looking at things because it feels as though it has become a whine fest and that is NOT ok. I try to keep my bad days short on here because there is enough of that in the world without me adding my two cents. Yet when I go through tough times what should I do? Part of me wants to share to show that everyone has bad things happen and we can all make it through. Yet… yet where do I draw the line? I don’t want my readers to think that all I do is whine (I might not but it feels like I do).
I have made many friends through my writing. I have learned things I would not have otherwise through my writing and reading that of others. My writing has always been very much a part of me, even when it went dormant for a few years. I am trying to find new ways to water, feed and nurture my writing garden. That is why I continue to do this blog.
Despite getting good solid sleep I am exhausted. On the positive side I have gotten two articles written and sent out. I plan to watch atleast one class video before work this morning. The sun is up and out so it should be a beautiful day. Even though I wish I could stay home it will be a good day to be out and about.
I got three tees from Maui Brewing Company yesterday and I love them all! You gotta love random choices!
I got some more photos over the course of the day yesterday. Some I think turned out pretty well while others will be used as a learning tool.
I am getting more and more antsy about Moose’s Friday appointment. I want to know now what is going on. I wonder if it had been one of the regular vet techs if we would have gotten in sooner. Moose does a little then sleeps a lot. He is down to pretty much one meal a day. He is drinking a lot of water as well. All bad signs with kidney disease. So we will see soon I guess. Just not soon enough for my liking.
My mind is kind of all over the place. I am trying to make sure that I get everything done I need to before work. I was supposed to add some thing to the grocery list for today but I have forgotten them. Grrrr… I will get another cup of coffee and then start watching my class videos. Sorry this is so short but I hope you enjoy the photos! Thanks for reading and stay safe!
It is cool and raining her this morning. I want to still be in bed asleep but apparently the power blipped out at one point because Essie came and got me directly. So we are up. Or rather I am. The kids are all asleep in the living room. I am tired and sore from all the yard work I did. The weather makes me want to curl up with a book but I still have stuff that I need to get done. Like an article and my classwork. I desperately don’t want to do either.
My mind is blank this morning. I sit here and look around the room and listen to the rain not thinking about anything. I find myself drifting around mentally. And noticing that I have a headache coming on. I think it is due to the weather. Yesterday was beautiful. I am glad that I was able to be outside.
I suppose that I should try to get the writing done. This will be a very short blog entry for today. Thanks for reading and stay safe!
The sun is out in earnest this morning. And it will have a time of it warming things up. It was almost cold enough for frost this morning. That being said it is supposed to warm up quite a bit for the next few days so I may uncover the plants in the memorial garden and pull out the ones I brought in. I am hoping the nights stay as warm as they say or warmer. I don’t want to bring them all in and out everyday.
Today is 9/11. It feels like a somber day for those of us that were alive when the 9/11 bombings happened here in the U.S. It seems as though we have gone from outside enemies to inside enemies since then. With no end in sight. I had to unfollow a fellow blogger this morning because of the posts they were writing. They were getting angrier and angrier. Anyone that did not do and think as that person did would incur the wrath of God because that person was right. I don’t need to see that on my feed. That type of thinking is part of the problem. It certainly is NOT part of the solution.
It feels weird not watching the clock to see how much time I have before I need to get ready to go. A good weird. I got a bunch of stuff done last night after I got home so that will be less I have to do today. I do need to see if I can get the mower going today. If not I may ask for help from our neighbors across the street.
I feel like I want to work on my writing today. I got inspired by a documentary on Amazon last night about the controversial Scary Stories to Tell In the Dark. I had all three books as well as the on based on the movie (thanks Mom!). I really love the art and the content. For those who have never read the books they are a collection of scary stories and folktales from all over. This type of book is what got my love for horror started. Just sitting around telling stories to each other in the dark (or with just a flashlight). I still have my first collection that I convinced my parents to buy me (they were still married so I had to be in the single digits with my age). It was at the local bookstore in Ferndale, Michigan called “Paperback Books Unlimited.” This place was a staple of my childhood. I snuck a peek at my first Fangoria Magazine there as well. My parents tried to take me there as often as they could. I just dug the book out of my shelves. It was printed in 1973 so I had to be around 5 or 6 years old. Some Things Strange and Sinister edited by Joan Kahn is the book.
I have always loved short stories because they are small bites that you can snack on if you aren’t in the mood for a full novel (or don’t have the time). It has been a long time since I last wrote a short story. The last one I sent out into the world was college and was a runner up in a contest. They were only going to print the winners but they liked mine so much they made and exception. I still have the copy of the magazine. I have a few done that I need to polish and get out there. But, again, I need to get myself a copy of WordPerfect. Everything is digital now. Very few places will accept hard copy sent through the mail. So I need a reliable program that I can edit and send my work on. That may be something I save up for. I need to make sure bills get paid and Moose has a vet appointment coming up.
Ok, I see that I have talked quite a bit. I will wrap this up and share a few photos. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!
I just need to make it through my shift today. When I got home last night I got the kids fed, laundry done and showered. But this morning I am struggling to stay awake. Moose is back to not eating his breakfast. I also notice that Essie is eating less of hers. I am constantly finding Stella finishing it for her.
Stella is in the office with me while Moose keeps going in and out. He doesn’t look like he feels good. Poor babe. I am anxious about getting his bloodwork done to see what his kidney disease is doing. I have noticed some of the symptoms that I was warned about.
I honestly don’t know what to write about. I am tempted to work on one of the books or a short story. Something out of the now. Right now I have nothing to write about outside of my imagination since all I have been doing is work with a short stint at home between shifts. I am hoping to get the Jeep in soon to get fixed. I still haven’t heard anything though. I messaged our mechanic the other day. Usually he will get right back to me.
I will make an effort to take some photos to share over the next few days with the camera. I am excited to see what I can do once the Fall colors start (even though I am not looking forward to losing my Summer). Speaking of which the sun is actually out so I think I will take my coffee and go outside for a bit before work. The past few days have been cold, dark and rainy. When I get out of work it is almost dark now that the seasons are changing. I want to go enjoy the sun. Thanks for reading and stay safe!
Making it through tonight and tomorrow are going to be harder than I thought. Last night I was atleast optimistic about only having two more days to go before my day off. But this morning… day six of seven is kicking my butt. I am mentally exhausted. Things are feeling overwhelming. I am closing in the deli so we’ll see what happens. I got out early last night but I was working at the registers by the end of my shift.
I got a new book yesterday in the mail for researching one of my writing projects. It is on learning how to surf. It will hopefully help me move forward in the book. I am stuck because I can’t describe a scene that involves surfing because I’ve never done it and only seen it on tv. My character is a novice surfer and I wanted to be able to describe her situation and sensations better. It looks like a good choice (I skimmed it last night before bed). I also received my new memory card for the camera so I can start taking photos again. I took a few last night that I will share. Essie was particularly enthusiastic about me using the camera to take her picture.
I got all my class videos watched before work yesterday so I will try to get the paper written Saturday or Sunday. We’ll see what happens. There is so much that needs to be done around here that I have put off due to work. Next week’s schedule comes out tomorrow so I am hoping for a reprieve since I have two meetings to cover as well.
I will download the few photos I took last night and sign off of here. I am just too tired to focus. Thanks for reading and stay safe!
Things are going to be a bit crazy this week so I’m not sure how long the posts will be. When I got my work schedule for this upcoming week I find that I am working 7 days straight. My next day off will be next Friday. I was hoping for a day off during the week to get some things done but I will have to make due. Things will have to get done either before or after work. I’m not looking forward to any of this but things need to be done around here and I can’t shirk. Tomorrow is going to be the real tough one. I close tonight and I have to be at work by 7am tomorrow morning (I am finally training in the deli). I also have my paper for class due Monday morning. I can’t get up earlier than 6am and expect my brain to function. Not with everything going on. So I will either have to figure out what to do after work tonight or try to get it all down on paper and type it in tomorrow sometime.
Trying to keep a positive attitude with all this is a bit much. I get things under control and even more things are piled on my plate. Moose doesn’t seem to do well in the mornings. I think he doesn’t eat because he will get sick. This morning he was licking his chops but refused to eat. Not long after that he wandered outside (he looked like he wanted to be sick). That’s another thing. I need to make puppy treats but when? I guess try to tack it on to everything Monday (I’m going to try to mow and then do treats… talking to Dad will need to wait until Tuesday or later).
On a good note I did get to come home an hour early last night. We were over staffed (they thought we would be as busy as we were on Friday and we weren’t by a long shot) so they were sending people home. I am glad. It was an extra hour of daylight with the family.
As I am looking at the clock I might be able to get atleast part of my paper done and handed in if I give it a go now. So I will stop here. Thanks for all the support and for reading! Stay safe!
Well this will be interesting… I guess the new template for the blog dropped today. Needless to say I have never taken the time to see what it’s all about since they told us about it back in June or so. So if this looks weird when I am done you know why. Lol.
Stella has been a bit of a pain since last night. After we went to bed every little while she would find something to bark at. She was constantly barking the hour that Chris got home. Then she was a mess when he came to bed smacking Moose and I with her tail. Ironically she is in my office with me right now sleeping at my feet. With her ball. Moose has gone back into the living room to sleep on the couch.
Yesterday’s work started with me freezing my butt off in the cooler to stock the grocery cases. Because no one thought to mention I should bring a jacket (I didn’t really find out that I was in grocery til that morning) I ended up buying one of the Torch Lake zip up hoodies (we mostly sell them for the tourists but I like it). Then I was courtesy counter the rest of my shift. This was the second day in a row there. The day before we had a call off. Annoyingly I am picking things up there so I am pretty good at it. So we’ll see how often I get put there.
I pause every once in a while to look at the “new tools” to the left on my screen for the blog. Hmmmm… it seems ok. It will take a little bit of hit and miss but I think that this might be a better version, once I learn where everything is. I thought that I might go back to the original editor on here but now that I am messing around I think I will keep the new one. I wonder what the phone app will look like. I usually write on my laptop then use my phone to add photos etc. I’ll let you know.
I am trying not to psych myself out. I have things to do but not an overwhelming amount. It involves a lot of phone calls as I tried to do the other stuff over the rest of the week. Last night I cleaned out the mouse cage instead of saving it for today. The only non phone things I have to do are get gas for the mower (please let it start!), grab my paycheck and deposit it (easy enough since I will get gas at work and deposit my check via my phone app) and make treats. Oh and I am making lasagna for dinner tonight. I have a meeting to cover at 7pm via Zoom so that will have to be taken into consideration as to how late we eat. But all in all not too much work. Mentally I still feel overwhelmed because I want a day of rest where I don’t do anything but hang out with the family at the house.
While Dad and I were talking last night I found out that I have actually put down roots here. Now that I am an active part of the local community (not driving all the way to Traverse City to work) I feel more connected. Even the short period of time that I have been at the grocery store I have my regulars. As a matter of fact I guess one of the guys went to management to make sure they did not overwhelm me by sticking me by myself in the gas window on my first days. He wanted to make sure I was going to stay and then asked me if I was staying. So it’s nice to be a part of that. If I need something I can usually find someone to help instead of freaking out trying to think if there is some place (usually expensive) in Traverse that I can get something or get something fixed. We really do have all we need here in tiny little Rapid City.
I usually look in the lower right of my screen for my word count to see how long I have been going on but that seems to have disappeared with the new editor on here. So I may have gone on a bit more than normal. Sorry about that! I’d better get going though. I need to work on my classwork and make my phone calls. Hopefully I can get all that and make treats before Chris gets up. I’ll probably take the kids to go get the gas and my paycheck as it is a bit chilly this morning and I’m sure they would like the break from staying at the house all the time. Sigh…. sorry. I see I am rambling on again. Lol. Everyone take care and thank you so much for reading!
This morning’s coffee of choice is the BOLD (says so on the outside of the box) vanilla cream puff. And at 6am I need all the bold (sorry BOLD) I can get. I am becoming a night person again but I still have to get up early in the morning to have my writing time since that is when everyone is asleep. It is so weird being up when it is dark out…
Today I will share some short video clips of the hummingbird encounter from yesterday morning. I had a few minutes to sit outside with the kids before I needed to get out the door for work. As I sat there a hummingbird came right up to me and hung out for a bit. I was even able to take some photos (they are “live” photos but in order to share all of the moments I just changed them to video). It was very cool!
Another big thing happened yesterday… (drum roll please!) My blog hit over 1000 followers! 🤗 I am so excited! It was a milestone that I wondered if I would ever hit and I have so thank you to everyone! It is so awesome to think that over 1000 people around the world read what I write!
Essie keeps wandering in here to get love or to see what I am doing. Silly pup. I got home from work last night and was able to get a bunch of stuff done off my list. I am also trying to get Dad to FaceTime today (I almost wrote tomorrow because it is dark outside still) after I get home from work. Tomorrow is just too full. And most importantly that is supposed to be my day with Chris. I don’t want to spend it on the phone (Dad and I literally can talk for hours). So we’ll see if I get an email back today. It sounds like he is getting his new laptop set up as close to his old computer as he can get. Jean Luc has got him a special account set up on Amazon so he can make his own purchases (no more PayPaling me the money yay!).
I had better get going. I just looked at the clock. Thanks so much for reading and following my blog! Stay safe and have a great day!
I am so behind! Lol. I finally got almost a full night of sleep (a coughing fit was to only real interruption… air too dry) and the kids let me sleep in until almost 9:30am. And since it is my day off I read a few more blogs than normal. And here it is almost 10:30am and I haven’t even posted to my blog let alone looked at my classwork. Normally it would be all be done by now buuuuuut…. The kids aren’t helping as Stella and Essie wander in every few minutes to try to get me outside. I told them if the sun came out today (it has been cool, overcast and rainy the past few days) we would spend some quality time outside. My babies.. Chris has also been a gem with everything he is doing around the house to help. ❤
I made up a whole to do list for today. There are a few things that I may put off til Thursday. It feels like so much needs to get done. But I guess now is as good a time as any to start prioritizing everything. I still haven’t talked to my parents since last week. No, Mom and I talked the other night after I got home. That taught me that I shouldn’t do that on days that I work. Trying to catch up on everything just before bed is a bad idea. Mom messaged me that I should talk to them about my hours. I will mention to them that I have worked every weekend since I hired in. I was told that I would not be expected to do that but I have.
I can’t believe that tomorrow is the first day of September already. Tomorrow is Tuesday but since today feels like Sunday since Chris will be home with me the week will be off. I’d rather have my week off and spend time with him. Tomorrow also is the 29th birthday of my eldest son (wherever he is). I am constantly amazed at how much time passes. So I guess that is a sign to make the most of what I have. And as I type that Stella has come in to put her paws on my chair to remind me to go outside. Again. Lol. So I suppose that I will try to get through my classwork and then outside we go. (If I was still ahead with my classwork I might let this week’s slide but I’m not.) Thanks for reading and stay safe!