Creativity, dreams, Emotions, Friends, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Feeling a Bit Blah

Despite getting sleep over the past few days I am feeling rather poorly. But I need to keep moving forward. There are things to do and no rest for the wicked. Work has been slowing down quite a bit. Last night we got out an hour early because everything in the deli was done and clean. We had to fill in things here and there but nothing major, especially with three people in the deli.

Still no word from the friend who wants back into my life. I’m not on social media as much as I was so if he expects a rapid response he will be disappointed. If he still works his same hours they are the complete opposite of mine right now. He is going to bed when I get up and vice versa. Time will tell I guess.

My two articles were a hit. I will share the links. The editor misspelled my last name even though I corrected him after the first misspelling. Despite that if I can get more gigs that are like that (interesting yet not a strain to fit in) I might do some more. The Horror Tree – Horror Tree is a resource for authors that lists open markets, articles, interviews, original fiction, and more! I wrote the one on R.L. Stine and the one on Penguin/Random House buying Simon & Shuster.

The woodpeckers seem to be especially happy when I put suet out. The days are getting cold enough that the ice I tossed from the bottom of the freezer is still out there in one piece. Nothing has melted. The sun is out today so we’ll see if that will do anything.

I apologize for such a short post. I just can’t seem to focus very well this morning. I will add the links and some photos I took this morning. The clouds looked kind cool this morning when I let the dogs out. I hope everyone has a great day! Stay safe!

Creativity, Dogs, family, Gardening, Holiday, Life, Nature, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Tinkering (or a Bit of Everything)

The sun is out again this morning. Yay! But I’m not sure if leaving the mums out was good or bad. I found mites on the one plant and put them both out yesterday morning. Vinegar and water did not work as they came back on two of my plants. The one plant I’m sure isn’t going to make it no matter what I do. But I’ve had it for a few years so I guess… It seems prone to the mites whenever I have to bring it in for the winter and I have no way to prevent it. I don’t want to go with the stuff they sell at the stores because it could hurt the dogs.

I spent the chunk of yesterday talking with Dad. A good thing but the problem is that I got nothing done that I was supposed to. And since I’ve not slept well the past few nights I was falling asleep not long after dark. So I went to bed much earlier than I intended. This morning I need to crank out the second article I was supposed to submit yesterday. I got my research done before Dad called but nothing more. I just hope it turns out ok.

I took photos at odd moments yesterday but I’ve not looked to see if they turned out. Most of them were the kids while I was talking to Dad. I will share what I have. I got a nice one this morning of the sun coming up. Not quite sure what just happened but the sun suddenly flooded the room. There are no clouds out so I don’t know why it was so sudden.

I need to expand my vocabulary. I find myself using the same words and phrases, some times in the same paragraph. I need more variety. I might get myself one of those desk calendars that you learn a new word each day. I’ll wait until after the holidays though.

I have been blocking these random text messages from strangers the past two days. I’m pretty sure that the video sent this morning was not something I needed to see if you follow me. I had another one yesterday. I blocked both numbers but I want to know how my number got in their hands to begin with. I’ve not had any problems until now with stuff like that. Mom has been getting texts like that two over the past month.

I guess I should stop here and add the photos so I have enough time to write the article and get it out to the editor. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Creativity, Emotions, Holiday, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Working On Writing

It feels strange to not have the over head light on as I write. Not only is it daylight but the sun is actually out. So much is going through my head this morning. There are things I need to do and then there are things I have to do. The have to do stuff requires me to put my big girl pants on. And we all know how I feel about dragging those on! All kidding aside it is serious enough that I’m… not worried so much as I don’t want to hear that I am right in this instance. (I am purposely being vague, sorry.) As to the need to do I have an article to write. I get frustrated sometimes because I feel like I am working in a vacuum. Outside of the paper I get no real feedback on my writing when I send it out. They either like it or they don’t and request changes or find a polite way to say no to the piece. I have no writing group to turn to anymore to throw out suggestions and tell me when something isn’t working right on the page. I miss that.

I need that give and take as a writer. I’m not sure what to do about it. There is nothing locally and I’m not sure I want to try to set something up in Traverse City with winter coming on. Well that won’t work either way regardless. COVID has everyone either concerned or angry it seems. It would be fun to have a monthly Zoom meeting and everyone either email a few pages before said meeting or just read it out loud at the meeting. But finding the writers and a time that works for everyone (depending on the size of the group)…. that could be difficult. Especially with the holidays coming up.

I have a web site I could try to set things up on but everyone is from all over the world and not necessarily consistent. I would like a group of the same people to meet not just a rotation of fellow writers. I want to get a feel for someone’s writing and watch them grow. Not try to gauge if this or that comment will set someone off or if this is what they really meant when they wrote that. So I just don’t know.

Oof…. I just realized how late this post is! Sorry about that! I’m a few hours behind. Which reminds me that I need to get going on my article as well. I will try to get some new photos to share for tomorrow. I did get a few of this morning’s sunrise. Not great but I loved how the sun was gradually lighting things up. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

Animals, Cooking/Baking, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, Food, Friends, Holiday, Life, Love, Nature, Thinking, Writing

Being Thankful

Today is Thanksgiving here in the U.S. That got me thinking last night as I was falling asleep, remember what you are thankful for. I always try to find atleast one thing to be thankful for when I go to sleep at night. Some days there are a lot so I have to pick and choose. Some days I struggle to find one thing (it is usually that I got home safe to my family or that I have my family to come home to). Last night I had a cornucopia of choices. We were as busy as we’d been during the summer rush with the tourists. I was all over the store helping customers. The first part of my shift I was at the courtesy counter paired with one of my fave coworkers. We were singing and dancing and laughing a lot. The second half of my shift things really picked up and I was having fun with everyone. Despite being busy I still had energy so I came home and took care of the kids, cleaned the mouse cage, washed dishes, cleaned the rugs in the kitchen, swept and cleaned the floors in the kitchen as well as vacuumed. I also managed to get myself two articles to write (one is due today and the other Saturday). Trash also got taken out. Mind you I did strain my back by the end of the night and it was after midnight before we went to bed (my poor patient puppies) but so much got done that I don’t have anything that needs to be done around the house except making the pies (I am making an apple pie and pumpkin pie… the apple is from scratch including the crust but the pumpkin is out of a can since I didn’t get any pumpkins for Halloween this year but the crust will be from scratch) and stuffing for the turkey. So I can work on my articles and talk to family via whatever medium (Chris’s family will be either Skype or Discord, Dad ill be Facetime and Mom will be just talking on the phone). I guess the point of this long paragraph is that I have a lot to be grateful for.

I have an amazing family and equally amazing friends. I have probably one of the best jobs/workplaces ever. I was able to replace my car and get something that I never would’ve been able to without the Jeep having issues (I set aside a chunk of money to go toward the engine repair and that ended up going towards a down payment). I have three awesome dogs and have been blessed over the years to be Mom to so many pets. I am able to use my writing skills to earn enough money to pay bills (not just fun money). I have the best husband I could ask for. I wouldn’t have half of what I do or be the person I am without him. He has taught me so much over our life together and been there for me through so much.

I also have all of you reading this. I am very grateful for all of you because you read my work and share your thoughts and suggestions not just on my writing but on my life as well. I am blessed to have all of you! Thanks for reading! I hope you have a great day and stay safe!

Creativity, Emotions, family, Friends, History, Holiday, Life, Nature, Thinking

Looking Toward the Holidays

It is still dark out but I can hear the rain coming down. It is a rain snow combination as it is cold enough for snow. It will be a morning to see how Angus the new car does in the wet. It’s going to be weird for me not to have to flip the car into 4×4 when I need it. This car has all wheel drive all the time.

I cannot believe that this week is Thanksgiving already! The other thing that happens this week is Christmas music starts on Friday. No one at work gets why I am not a fan of Christmas. Even when I explain the lack of being able to see let alone spend time with my family for 15 years. It got to the point that no one even tried to spend time with me because I was always working. And I resent that. Mom and friends used to come over to spend the holidays with us. Many of those friends have since moved away. Mom doesn’t come over hardly at all anymore. Point is I don’t like Christmas because it has been the time of year when I lose my family. It will be nice to work normal houses on the day after Thanksgiving.

I am still in search of Christmas gifts for everyone. I have ideas that I can hopefully follow up on. If I can it will be a fun one. The gifts will make everyone smile. I am also wondering what to do about work. I thought about gifts for a few people I work with but does that mean I should for everyone? And what do I get people? So I’m not sure what I’m going to do yet. Ideas are welcome! What do you do (or have you done) for coworkers for Christmas?

Looking at the clock I see that I need to get going for work. I hope to get some photos in after I get home since I didn’t take any after the birds at the feeder yesterday morning. Stay safe and thanks for reading!

Animals, Books, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Guitar, History, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Reading, Thinking, Writing

Lost In the Bread Crumbs

The promised wind from the past few days seems to have arrived today. Winnie the Pooh would refer to it as a “rather blustery day.” My relocated bird feeder is still holding strong wedged on the branch of the maple tree. The clouds are moving around swiftly so we’ll see how that affects the weather. The ponds are icing over.

There is so much that I want to read and research and learn. I’m not sure where to start so I peck at everything like a chicken. A little here and a little there. Usually not the same subject each peck. Which limits my learning because that peck might be a book but if I don’t finish reading the book and start another that has caught my attention…. which is what I tend to do. There are research books I bought a year ago that I still haven’t finished reading. I have beginner guitar music and lessons, learning Italian, keeping up with my French, all my varied history books and biographies…. all been read a little but never finished.

I am watching Moose and hoping he is dreaming. He has been my shadow since we went to bed last night. I don’t think he feels good. When he was outside eating some of the small bit of snow we got parts of his body started shaking. I thought he was cold but then I noticed that it was just random places he was shaking. Not all over like he was cold. He is doing it again now but I can possibly contribute it to dreaming. Right? Some of the muscle shakes do not coincide with his dreaming. I may be reading too much into this but there it is.

I feel scattered. So much I want to do, things that need to be done, things that should be done. All seemingly to be done now. What to do? How to chose? I try to calm my mind and pick one thing off the important list and try to do that. Then maybe something off the list just below that. Some days this works. Other days panic sets in and I give myself a stress headache and do nothing but berate myself because I’m getting nothing done.

I can say that the birds have found the feeder in it’s new spot. I am glad. When I find a replacement I will try to hang it from one of the branches of the maple trees. I got a few photos of birds at the feeder (just outside my window yay!). One is a woodpecker (red head) and the other is a chickadee (tiny one). A lot of chickadees but there is one little blue bird trying to defend from all comers. Let me see if I can get a picture… I got a few shots that I will share. I’m gonna need to get that other bird feeder asap with the battles that are going on out there. Sheesh!

I’m going to upload the photos and try to get one thing off my have-to-do list. I don’t work until 2pm so that will give me some time. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Sorting Through

The sun is out today. That is a good start. Yesterday seemed to get more tangled as the day progressed. The inspector was late (over an hour) coming to the house and no one could find him or get ahold of him. The fixes that Chris did passed. Yay! But the stairs have to be redone. Wait…. what?! Why wasn’t this brought up before? So we are back to square one. On the plus side we won’t have to pay for any inspections (the gal that is at the office is very nice and easy to talk to). But…. Then I get home to find that the print I inadvertently ordered arrived. I was excited. The tube was the size for a regular poster. Then I opened the tube. The print inside was about 8×10. 8×10. Not at all what I expected. Or wanted. So I shot off a message to her on Messenger. I was as polite as possible but I was blunt. A few hours later (she lives in Hawaii) I got a response. She was apologizing and offered to send another print for free (oh and she had talked about it being very expensive to send things from Hawaii and she said she would cover the cost of shipping…. it was $5 to send the tube). I haven’t responded to her yet.

I am hoping that today goes a little smoother. The nearby gun shots are a bit much. They sound like they are next door rather than in the far back where everyone seems to normally shoot.

I put out some suet for the birds since the weather has turned to bitter cold. Someone was desperate to get to one of the cakes as the metal grill holding it to the bird feeder has been pried almost off. Racoon? I hope it wasn’t Stella. I think she is the only one that Chris let out after we went to bed. The suet cake on the other side is fine.

I think I might brave the cold and try to get a few photos today. I didn’t take any yesterday with everything going on. Looks like some of the birds have found the suet. I hear chirping outside my window and looked to see some little sparrows hanging around the feeder and eating the remaining berries off the bush.

Moose is asleep behind me. He doesn’t like the click of the mouse but he is ok with the clicking of the keys as I type. I need to get my article written and turned in for Thursday’s meeting. That is my only real to do today. I should water the plants too. I think some of them have dried out a bit with the furnace going. I’m looking around my office and wondering if I should take some of my stuffed animals and pose them outside. I have a teddy bear in a bomber jacket and leather hat that might look cute frolicking outside. Then there are all my dragons that I could pose…. and my unicorns. And I’d forgotten about all the Minions in the bedroom. That could be a fun scene. So may be that will a fun thing I do today. And I might try writing a short story from one of the prompts I found. We’ll see. I’m also looking at my desk and wondering if I would ever want to refinish it. It wouldn’t be hard. Dad and I refinished an old treadle sewing machine. We redid the wooden base that it sat in as well as the wooden case that went over the machine when it wasn’t in use. I miss sewing on that. I made all kinds of clothes for me and my stuffed animals. (I had very few dolls when I was little. I preferred animals even then.)

Anyway… I should get this posted so I can get things started around here. I hope everyone is having a great day. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Life, Photography, the World, Thinking, Writing

Finding What Needs to Be Done

Another early morning. The kids have eaten and gone back to bed. Moose did not eat breakfast but he did take his medicine. A lot got done yesterday but not what I had hoped. I seem to have chosen keeping the house clean over my writing. I did journal quite a bit and I even had a few ideas on the story but no real work on the novel. But I did put pen to paper more than normal so that is a good sign.

Last night’s meeting was changed to tonight. Hopefully it will be a short one since I have to be to work early. We’ll see. It is a meeting that I have never covered before so I have no idea what to expect. The kids will be happy since this means I will be home. I know I will be.

Speaking of being happy… I have been talking with a lot of my creative friends (mostly on Facebook) and I am not the only one going through a bout of depression and problems creating. There are a lot of us out there who feel like we’ve hit a wall of some kind. That makes me feel a little better but it also makes me wonder what the cause is. There are too many for it to just be a coincidence. Something to ponder.

Since I need to wrap this up…. I took photos last night with both the Nikon and my phone camera so see the difference. I thought the results were interesting. Let me know what you think. I was surprised at the difference. The first group are from the Nikon and the second group are from the phone camera.

Sorry this is a short one. I hope everyone has great day. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Cloudy With A Chance of…. ???

This morning is cloud but comfortable. I still have a meeting to cover this morning but last night’s was cancelled. For that I am grateful. I was so very very tired. It was nice to get to get a decent night’s sleep (Stella started barking pretty much from 2am until Chris got home). Despite good sleep I have a headache that has been starting….. I just had to retype the last two sentences. As I was typing the next one I couldn’t figure out what the typo was. Then I really looked and two sentences had disappeared. ??? I hope that I am not getting a strong case of my murphyionic field kicking in (electronics and I do not really get along, I have crashed computers at various jobs as well as at home just by being in the room…. no joke). The registers at the courtesy counter and gas window were acting up yesterday. The main machine was adding things to orders that were not there without the benefit of me touching any buttons as well as freezing up. It is 2020 so this could add unwanted energy to this “power” so watch out! Lol

I did try to work on my novel at work yesterday morning. I got a few ideas down as well as some suggestions for myself (don’t try to write a linear story right now, just write scenes and piece them together later) but things got crazy at work so I stashed my little notebook. I just want to stay home today. Preferably to sleep to be honest but just to chill out. My head is starting to pound. I know part of it is the weather. We are supposed to get rain later today. Another part is probably stress. I’m not quite sure what to do.

I am also trying to rack my brain (creatively) to come up with new shots. If I am going to take photos in the same area I need to start getting a little more interesting with the shots. No more point and shoot kind of thing. The dogs will be for it. Whenever I pick up the camera the dogs are like “Sweeeet! we’re going outside!” So I need to start looking at things in new ways. I am glad that I have the two lenses to chose from. That makes things a little funner.

I see by the clock I need to start getting ready to go. I don’t have to be to work until 2pm so I am hoping that I can get the article written before work. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

Aging, Creativity, dreams, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing

Finding a Path

This morning I am frustrated with myself. I got nothing done that I was supposed to. I spent the day outside either puttering in the yard or on the phone with family. None of my writing got done or even looked at. I can’t seem to find a rhythm to it all. With all the lack of sleep it has been hard to get motivated. I think I was able to catch up on some of it last night and the night before. But tonight and tomorrow… I don’t think I’ll get that much. We’ll see.

I look around the room at everything and see my past. So much of it…. Are there still things I want to do? I’m not sure. I’ve tried things I wanted to do (scuba diving comes to mind) to find out that I can’t or don’t want to anymore. So now what? Where do I go from here? No idea.

There are a lot of clouds out this morning. I feel cloudy myself. I don’t know what the day will bring (a week ago it brought a snow storm) but I had better face it. If I stop now I might just have enough time to write the article before work. Sorry it has been a bit of a downer post. I will share some photos I took yesterday though. Thanks for reading and stay safe!