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Just a Little More Time

I am just so tired this morning. I have packed too much into the past few days. That is a good thing and a bad. I don’t have much energy for anything around here and I really need to get going on my gardens. I got that one small patch done Friday and I’ve not done anything else.

It is much cooler this morning. It got comfortable enough last night that I turned off the AC in the living room. I have several windows wide open as well as the sliding glass door. It should be decent tomorrow as well. My mind is scrambling ahead to what I need to get done both today and tomorrow. My fingers are trying to figure out which thoughts they are supposed to type. I hope that I just have the vet appointment tomorrow. I think my friend should stay home this coming week. He pushes himself too much (yes, I know, listen to your own advice). If he has to stay home then I can work on another stretch of garden as well as my novel (and I did get a page written last night before I fell asleep). I think I will work on another stretch before work. I need to shower anyway.

Stella and I went for a bit of a walk yesterday on the property. She was patient with me when I wanted to stop and take photos. There are a lot of things blooming and they just look so beautiful. In return I let her (mostly) pick our route. There were spots under branches and such that I wouldn’t fit that she wanted to sniff. I let her go as far as her lead was long. She came back tired and, I hope, happy. I know once Chris came to bed last night it was Stella and I sharing my pillow. I didn’t mind. Neither of us takes up much room.

If I am going to get anything done outside I should wrap this up and get out there. A big thank you for all you kind words and support! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Finding the Good in the Bad

I know there will be some of my readers reading this to hear about some of the drama and trauma of yesterday. I am choosing not to write about that. Instead I am choosing to write about the good that happened.

I have a dear friend that is in recovery. I have done my best to be there for her as much as I can. Last night was one of those times. I asked her to come over as much for me as for her to be honest. I don’t know if the neighbors were happy with us or not (I haven’t heard any complaints so I think we are ok) but that doesn’t matter. We had a blast! We talked and played and danced and sang. When she came over I had a few goodies waiting for her. The big thing that I wanted to give her was a beautiful abalone butterfly necklace. I wanted her to remember that she was an emerging butterfly no matter what. And that she was loved. She’s been through a lot of crap in her life. I wanted her to have something with her that would remind her that she is loved. That she is worthy. She had a good cry over it. I guess no one had ever given her anything nice before.

This morning I hauled my sore and still exhausted tush out of bed and drove over to drop the car off. My mechanic had been up late as well doing an emergency repair on our mail lady’s Jeep. We both looked wiped out. I know I felt the better of both of us. (I just feel so good inside after last night despite the late hour that we stayed up til.) After I finish this I think I will do one of two things. I want to work on my gardens along the front and side of the house. They are looking very scraggly and unloved. The other thing is my novel. I am looking wistfully at my chair and table outside. I should do the gardens first as the temperature is supposed to get extreme again today. I can write in the house or wait til closer to evening if I want to sit outside to write. Ooooo! I can put my swing back out!

So I guess I will wrap this up and get my self outside. I do have some new photos to share (finally!). Tomorrow’s post might be a bit short as it is another 6:30am work day. I want to thank everyone for their support. It means a lot! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Springin’ Thunder

What a mess. Thunder and lightening when I got home meant a freaked out pup. And then she was warm because the house had been closed up. I finally gave up and gave her some Benadryl so that she would sleep around 1am. More storms today and tonight. Since I have to be back at 6am tomorrow morning I don’t see me getting much sleep. But there it is. Yesterday was chaos for most of the shift. The gas pumps crashed once again. We had new people training. We got busy enough for all three registers to be in use at one point. And we aren’t even in to tourist season yet.

On the plus side I was commended by the store owner for my efforts and told that I would be getting a raise. The phrase used was “a significant raise” so I am a bit excited to see what happens. The store owner also he would kick in some money for the barbeque that I have planned. That will help with the meat portion. Unfortunately the event has been put off until June 10th now. At the rate we are going it will be shelved. It is going to be our busy time and everyone is pretty much going to want to go home after work instead stop off at a barbeque (free or not). We’ll see. With several people graduating it is hard to find a decent date for everyone in June. I’m not going to offer it later since we just get busier as the summer goes on. There is no point. We’ll see.

I am dropping off my car to get the brakes done Friday morning at 9am. I have the day off so that will make sure I stay home to get things done. So any running I need to do I ought to do Thursday after work. I might get some gas for my little tiller and give that a whirl on Friday. I may or may not leave a few minutes early and go to the Dollar General to get a few things. I have several graduations this month myself and I have a few gift ideas but I need supplies to pull it together. I also need to remember that I have a meeting Thursday night.

I got no writing done yesterday. I tried. I just sat and stared at the blank page for about 15 minutes. My brain was too fried after work. I will try again today. Things have cooled off (mostly from the day yesterday as it reached 90F (32C) because it is the same temp as it was at this time yesterday) so it is comfortable. Stella is asleep on the couch. I have a window open as well as the sliding glass doors so there is a nice cross breeze.

Chris brought home a bunch of stuff from Mom’s Monday night. A small composter was part of the goodies. I have that set up in the yard. It may move once I figure out what I am doing (Mom also included “The Complete Idiot’s Guide to Composting”). It is so nice to see all that green outside! I have moved a few of the plants out there to stay for the season. I might move a few more out there today. But for right now I need to wrap this up and get some work done on my novel. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Like a Patchwork Quilt

This morning I am very frustrated. I went to bed exhausted. 4:30am wide awake. Now that I have to head out to cover a meeting I can barely keep my eyes open. Right now I am a mess. I found out that a dear friend is in the hospital due to a minor heart attack. My talk with Mom last night after I got home from picking another friend up at the airport did not go well. By the time we hung up I was very frustrated. Mom complained that she couldn’t do this and that but she really wanted to. If only… She refuses to apply herself to anything. She will even cancel needed doctor appointments because she doesn’t feel like going anywhere that day. If you give her a solution she immediately comes back with a counter problem to that solution.

I found some baby pictures of Essie yesterday on here when I went through to delete any duplicates and not so good photos. That made me a bit teary. I miss all my fur babies. I’m sorry I am kind of all over the place this morning. My mind is already going on what I need to do today. The sun is out again so it should be another beautiful day. The tiller has been put together so I might get some gas and give that a go this afternoon. I need to remember to call about brakes for my car tomorrow as well.

See what I mean? My mind is on everything but this. I got a good 20 minutes on my novel yesterday before my mind wandered off. The last 10 minutes it thought about everything but the novel and characters. Maybe working in the yard is a good idea today. Then my mind can wander and my hands can do something constructive. Maybe I’ll start in the front yard along the house. I need to try to write the article for this morning’s meeting today so I only have one article to write tomorrow morning (I have another meeting tonight). We’ll see how that goes.

I should wrap this up. I see by the clock it is time to try to get myself together and head out. Thanks for reading through my muddle. Stay safe!

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Let the Busyness of Living Commence!

I sit here nursing my first big mug of coffee for the day. I look across the room at my little tiller that I need to finish putting together. I got it out of the box and everything laid out when Mom called last night. She cancelled for today. I am a bit upset because I raised a bit of a stink because I requested the day off and did not get it. Then a coworker offered to work it for me so I could spend the day with Mom. However I cannot message that coworker and offer to take my shift back because I said I would go and pick a friend/coworker up at the airport a 3:30pm today. So I will try to give Mom a call before I leave for the airport (Mom sleeps late and probably won’t see the message I sent her until well after noon).

Stella is asleep on her back on the couch. When she stretches all four legs go straight up in the air and the paws come together. Then they all fall back and there is a big sigh. I know her ball is still on the bed so we’ll have to find something for her to play with in the meantime. If she even wants to play. She has been snoozing.

I am trying to figure out what to do with my day. Get the tiller put together and work on the novel top the list. I also need to pull my cold weather gear from the car. I am going to cross my fingers that I won’t need any of it. I also need to check on a friend to make sure she is doing ok. She has been in a bad place mentally and I try to check in with her atleast once a day. I also need to check in with both my parents, even if it is just messaging (I worry that if Mom and I start talking it will be several hours until we hang up now that I think about it). I also want to spend time with Chris since this is his one day off. I have tomorrow off but I have a meeting at 9am and another at 6:30pm. Oh and I need to write down that last Thursday’s meeting has been rescheduled to this Thursday before I forget. I also need to start cleaning the house if we are having people over on the 20th for the BBQ. Which also means I need to start looking seriously at picnic tables. And I need to plan the day as well as set money aside for the meat. I am asking people to bring a dish to pass. I might have a few sides just incase. I have a sign up sheet in the office but most of the we’ll be there’s have been verbal. So I need to write down how many people are coming so far.

I guess I ought to wrap this up and get it together. Stella has gotten off the couch and shaken herself to let me know I have spent enough time on this. She is ready for her attention now, lol. On that note I hope you all have an amazing day! Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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To Do List Tackled

Here we are again. Chris and I will just miss seeing each other again. He has to be to work the same time I get out of work. But Stella won’t be alone very long atleast.

I did a lot yesterday. My chair got put outside along with a few plants, I finished up Chris’s laundry, the mouse cage got a god cleaning as did the snake cage. I also spent some quality time with our snake Calypso. It has been awhile since she has been out and about. Stella spent quality time outside too. Kitchen floor got swept and trash taken out.

I did do my half hour on the novel just before bed. Mostly what got written were questions about characters and storyline. I am doing so much within the story I am hoping to streamline more. There are things the reader needs to know I just have to figure out how to present them. Do I devote whole sections and tell the background story? Do I do it as a journal entry? Just word of mouth from my characters? That’s the kinds of things I was brain storming about.

I see that I need to wrap things up here. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Just Another Day

This is the first time in about a month that Stella has eaten breakfast! We had a good cuddle and played a lot when I got home from work. She is still in a bit of a funk but this morning the sun is out so hopefully that and a car ride will help. I need to pick up my prescription after I post this.

Last night was a tearful night. I dried many tears last night. One was due to bullying and the others recent deaths. So, it was a bit somber for a while. We still laughed but it wasn’t as happy as normal.

I think I might stop at McDonald’s and get Stella and I a little something. I am not up to going through the whole making coffee with the French press. Truth be told I haven’t been for a few days now. I just make myself tea. This morning I would like coffee. I know they were supposed to be doing a remodel, but I don’t know when.

I want to say thank you to everyone that reached out over the past few days. It means a lot when I am a bit down on myself. I did try to do some work on the novel, but I just stared at the page. I hope to be able to do some work today, but it will depend on how long it takes to run to Kalkaska and back.

I know this is short and relatively uneventful. Not much is going on here. Tomorrow will be another short one as I will close tonight and have to be back at 6:30am tomorrow morning. Thanks for reading and stay safe! I’ve not taken any new photos so I will share some of my old ones.

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Feeling Broken

This morning neither Stella nor I feel good. We were both in a funk last night and this morning isn’t much better. We woke up with upset stomachs around 2:30am. Stella had to keep going out. This morning she went out and stayed out a long time. She is curled up on the couch under some blankets. I am not much better. My body is having a hard time getting around. I think/hope that it is temporary from everything I did over the past few days.

I am not in a good head space either. Part of it is lack of sun but part of it is watching things around me fall apart. I talked with one of my coworkers (he was a friend even before he started working with me). He has been in Floridia for the past month visiting family. He drove down because he had several stops along the way. He is in his 80s. Turns out he had a stroke while he was down there. He seems to be ok but I’ve not seen him in person yet. He can’t drive his truck so he has flown back. He will arrange to have the truck shipped back. But we talked and he is going to stop by the store to talk to me. I’m not sure if he will have to quit or what. Then Mom pulls a “who’s that?” when I ask her if she would reach out to a mutual friend. I tried to remind her of who the person was. A few hours later she claims that she was only joking. She knew who it was. I’m not so sure.

On a positive note I did get work done on my novel. That’s all I have. I’m sure there are other things but right now my mind isn’t there. So this will be a short post. I will have to recycle some photos as I got none taken yesterday. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Day Off: Round 2

This morning I hurt in bad ways. I can barely move at times. Sitting down to write this brought tears to my eyes. My core hates me. It is a cold and dreary day so I am seriously thinking about making this a reading day. I did work on the novel and made some very good progress. I will give myself 30 minutes to work on my novel but the rest of the day I will work on my research. I am beat.

Yesterday I chatted with Mom on the phone while Chris chatted with his Dad. That was after swapping out the couch in Chris’s office with the one in the living room. To be fair Chris did most of the work. I just complained because I wanted to just hunker in for the day. Laundry got done (the cushion covers and such got washed) and the mattress got aired out (the one in his office had a pullout bed). Dishes still need to be done. I should finish vacuuming but I honestly don’t think my body will let me do much today.

I made myself get up this morning. I really wanted to stay in bed and sleep. I did not reset the clock in the bedroom correctly. It is an hour off. I thought I was getting up at 9:30am when in fact it was 8:30am. So that actually worked in my favor. I will need to change it when Chris gets up though. I have no idea what day it is anymore. It feels like a Sunday. And apparently, I am opening manager on Thursdays and Saturdays now. I am ok with that. I will be able to talk to my tobacco rep. then.

There is a fog coming in from the south. I can hear bits of rain falling. The birds are singing away. I think it is time for me to hunker in. I did get the camera out yesterday so I have some new photos to share. Both buds on my orchid have opened! AND I have two, count them two!, cucumbers growing! Yay! On that note I hoe you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Brewing Something New

I am drinking this morning’s coffee via French press. The Keurig decided that it was done. Just after Chris finished the descaling cycle. So, thankfully, we have other means of brewing our coffee in case of emergency. The coffee is questionable as it is a hodgepodge of many put together. It doesn’t taste bad, just different. I will get some preground at work tonight. I prefer to grind it myself as it keeps its flavor and richness as it is brewed but the grinding process is not a nice idea when loved ones are sleeping.

Another disappointing writing day. As in it did not happen. I tried but I let things get out of hand with other things around here. A headache did not help matters. So I will try again today. I am up earlier and it seems that I got to this faster due to my homepage not working. But I think Miss Stella negated that when she got up. She came and sat next to me and I just sat and scratched her while I read you blogs. Then some more when I was time to write this. Every time I tried to get her up to go eat she seemed to collapse further into my lap.

The tourists are starting to trickle back up. I am not looking forward to tourist season. I never do but what will make things worse is lack of staff. If we have a huge season this year (and I think we might because everyone has cabin fever) it will not go well. We might even lose good people because of the actions of one person. Such drama! Work can be very much like a soap opera.

Stella is across form me on the couch asleep. I might take her for a walk before work. If I give myself 30 minutes to work on my novel and do nothing but I should have time to take her out.

I need to replace the brakes on my car. I also need to check my air box again. The last time there was hesitation on acceleration it was because there was a nest in my air box. Stella also needs to go in for her annual visit. I need to call today to set that up. (She has just curled up into the tightest ball she can make. Hang on while I go cover her up.) I will also mail out the next to last of my medical bills. I will just have one big one left that I should be able to get rid of in short order.

In order to get myself going I need to wrap this up. I just keep finding new thing to talk about, lol. Thank you for all the support, love and encouragement. I really appreciate it! Thanks for reading and stay safe!