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We Like to Move It Move It

It feels like Sunday because that is the only day I get up this early. I need to watch the clock to make sure I give myself enough time to get to Mom’s. I also need to remember to call as I am leaving. One of the nice things about Angus is being able to talk and drive.

The rain has been non-stop since yesterday. And I’m ok with that. I makes me hunker in. I left work early because I felt that sick. Unfortunately I shared with Chris so he is sick too. We have been able to spend some quality time together the past two days and tat has been much needed. I didn’t make it much past 7pm last night. Even though I got sleep I still want more.

My granddaughter was born yesterday afternoon. I got two photos. I don’t have any details other than she is here.

Stella came out here with me. I’m surprised. I have covered her up. Aaaaand I see by the clock I am running out of time. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Scary

Stella is beside me in the dark, dreaming of chasing something. She is all bundled up in blankets because it is that cold. I just wanna stay home and sleep. It was a late close last night. Then as I was finishing up I happened to check my phone and my tattoo artist’s wife and youngest daughter had been in a serious car accident (I’m pretty sure I heard the sirens) last night and the shop is closed until further notice. So I need to make sure my buddy knows that we aren’t getting any ink this afternoon. He doesn’t do the whole social media thing so he would have no idea.

My brain wouldn’t let me sleep. If I didn’t wake myself up then my surroundings did. I can barely keep my eyes open. But I am out at 2pm with no plans. As cold as it is now 47F or 8C) it is supposed to get up to 85F (29C) as our high today.

I see by the clock that I need to get this wrapped up. Thank you for all the love and support.❤️ It means a lot. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Who Hit The Fast Forward Button?

Yesterday was too much. It all got done but I am wiped out. I still need to write both my articles for my meetings. I will conquer that after I post this. I am glad that Mom cancelled because I didn’t have a lot of downtime as it was. I got my order placed and my shelves stocked in record time so I came back home before my first meeting. Chris was up by the time I got home from Traverse and we ended up trying to get the truck to the engine shop. We didn’t even make it to M-72 before I saw the engine smoking. So we limped it to the local plant nursery and got it towed from there. Once back home we discussed what still needed to be addressed regarding the loan for the roof replacement. Once he left for work I puttered around the house til my second meeting.

Stella is sick again. This time she has a sore throat. I thought her barking seemed off. She is coughing a lot and she can’t “talk” like she normally does. It is a gruff hoarse sound instead of her usual voice. We tried singing and playing tea kettle yesterday and she ended up coughing more than anything. She’s sleeping a lot too. I am giving her honey every little while so I am hoping that helps. I don’t want another trip to the vet’s office. If she doesn’t improve in a few days then I will call the vet to see what they suggest.

We have one last hurtle before replacing the roof. An appraiser is coming out tomorrow morning. Once that is done we should just need to sign paperwork. We are hoping to get the roof done before the snow flies. I am not sure how far out the roofers are as far as scheduling. October would be nice.

I am wrapping this up so I can get my articles written. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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A Break in the Clouds

I am debating about not going rock hunting tomorrow. I am just not feeling it. We would leave tomorrow morning and return sometime Sunday. I think I would rather have my last two days at home. I will have to message the Girls and let them know. I hope they won’t be too upset with me.

I had a meeting last night. It went well. I was a bit apprehensive about going but I did alright in the end. That was a relief. It was a fun one to cover. I plan to write the article once I finish this. Then I think I will pull out my novel. I have a few ideas that I would like to get on paper.

I was gifted two beautiful rocks by one of my customers when I went to put gas in my car yesterday. He said he thought of me with the one rock he had painted. It is actually my favorite of the two he gave me. My werewolf also (finally) arrived from Build-A-Bear. He has a Nightmare Before Christmas hoodie and red high tops. I believe that the hoodie glows in the dark as well. I now have my first werewolf!

Part of the post that never was able to post (that’s a mouthful) from the other day included some of the stuff we got done around the house. Chris got our security cameras up and running and our awesome neighbor not only mowed the front yard for us but he also came over to help trim back the two trees beside the house. I am so grateful for the help.

I think I will wrap this up and get my article written. I feel a bit better than I did yesterday morning at this time. I might bite the bullet and take Stella to the park. If she is not limping. She seems to be tweaking either her ankle or shoulder on a regular basis. And if I do go out I may slip into Traverse to the bank. I still need to deposit a check. Onward and upward. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Grand Funk Station

Things are looking sketchy today. The depression has not lifted at all. Anxiety at merely going out to the store or bank is overwhelming. The laptop will not connect to the internet so I am writing this on my phone. Yesterday’s post will not load no matter what I do. I took everything but the words out and still no joy. We’ll see if this one will post.

I have a meeting tonight. I need to drive into Traverse to go to my bank. I thought about taking Stella but if something happens (and the day is leaning toward it) I would be devastated if she got hurt. So I will probably leave her home. I am thinking I might take her to the park though. She likes it and it is near by. (And the voice in my head reminds me that I wasn’t going to because of dogs getting sick. So the argument begins.)

I feel completely hopeless. I am trying to fake it but I know it’s not working. I feel guilty because I am bringing everyone down with me. Stella has been asleep beside me for most of the night. She got up with me this morning as well. Nuts. I have to do laundry if I am going anywhere. I meant to do it last night. Or atleast start it. I ought to wrap this up and get that started. Thanks for reading and stay safe.❤️

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Drifting In the Memories

I have a Pitbull asleep in my lap. I am typing one handed as I scratch her with the other. Stella is doing better, thankfully. After reading various news reports of dogs getting sick up here, I am wondering if our walks in the park caused some of the issue as well. It seems that parks have been spraying for bugs and such and that has made a lot of dogs sick. Maybe it is a good thing I am lazy?

I don’t want to go back to work today. I am just not feeling it. But I have to. And next week is going to be difficult as it is inventory on the 30th. I am ok with my liquor but my beer department… that is a bit overwhelming. I am going to guess that Monday will be a long day. They are asking that we have our counts done on the 29th. I need to ask if there is anything special to do besides ask people to mark things off if they pull from my backstock. Cigarettes won’t be a big deal. I don’t have to count them.

My mind is everywhere but here. A fellow blogger was recounting his trip to Greenfield Village and Henry Ford Museum and I spent some of the best parts of my childhood there with Dad. As I was going through his photos I let myself remember. My dreams were like that today too. I was trying to clock watch and still get some sleep. So I would be dreaming but crack an eye long enough to register the time then drift back into my dream. Very surreal.

Stella has drifted out to lay in the sun. I want to work more on my novel before work (I did do some work on it yesterday). I also need to shower. That way I can just feed Stella and hunker in bed after work tonight. I am hoping for an easy night tonight. But we’ll see. I should probably wrap this up. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Weirdness to My Days

What a weird morning! I woke up from weird (but strangely compelling) dreams. My day feels off because I said I would’ve closing manager for a coworker (I hope I can get my stuff done before she leaves around 5pm). I am back at 6:30am tomorrow so I won’t get much sleep tonight. So I feel off not being at work at this hour. Then I turned on my laptop. It sort of hooked up to the internet but then failed completely. I have no idea why. I tried to reconnect and all it did was give me the message “Connecting…”. Everything else hooks up fine. So I am writing this on my phone.

It is cool, almost cold, this morning. Stella just got up and wants to play. Little goose.❤️🐾 I just threw her ball for her. I am a bit achy from yesterday. I spent pretty much my whole shift stocking liquor. Wednesday I got a double order so 5 full what we call u-boats. They are carts on wheels about 6ft (182cm) by about 2ft (60cm) wide. They were piled higher than I am tall and I am 5’7 (170cm). Liquor is not light in mass quantities! But it felt good to have stock filled almost completely in. I hated all those empty shelves!

I find myself struggling to find myself in my days. I sort of have a set schedule but any variance throws me off. I did get my car in yesterday. My tire sensors are wonky. I had a low rear tire but the brakes are fine. I was embarrassed as I made it a point to look the warning symbol from my dashboard up in my manual for the car. It said brakes were the issue. Not tire pressure. I could’ve checked the tire pressure and filled it here at the house. But Stella got a walk and a ride out of it. I was leery about taking her on the roads (I don’t want her to think that it is something she can do… especially on her own) but I kept telling her that she could only walk on roads with me on her lead. But she was a very good girl. She even laid down while we were talking.

I guess I ought to wrap this up and get myself together. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Weirdness to My Days

What a weird morning! I woke up from weird (but strangely compelling) dreams. My day feels off because I said I would’ve closing manager for a coworker (I hope I can get my stuff done before she leaves around 5pm). I am back at 6:30am tomorrow so I won’t get much sleep tonight. So I feel off not being at work at this hour. Then I turned on my laptop. It sort of hooked up to the internet but then failed completely. I have no idea why. I tried to reconnect and all it did was give me the message “Connecting…”. Everything else hooks up fine. So I am writing this on my phone.

It is cool, almost cold, this morning. Stella just got up and wants to play. Little goose.❤️🐾 I just threw her ball for her. I am a bit achy from yesterday. I spent pretty much my whole shift stocking liquor. Wednesday I got a double order so 5 full what we call u-boats. They are carts on wheels about 6ft (182cm) by about 2ft (60cm) wide. They were piled higher than I am tall and I am 5’7 (170cm). Liquor is not light in mass quantities! But it felt good to have stock filled almost completely in. I hated all those empty shelves!

I find myself struggling to find myself in my days. I sort of have a set schedule but any variance throws me off. I did get my car in yesterday. My tire sensors are wonky. I had a low rear tire but the brakes are fine. I was embarrassed as I made it a point to look the warning symbol from my dashboard up in my manual for the car. It said brakes were the issue. Not tire pressure. I could’ve checked the tire pressure and filled it here at the house. But Stella got a walk and a ride out of it. I was leery about taking her on the roads (I don’t want her to think that it is something she can do… especially on her own) but I kept telling her that she could only walk on roads with me on her lead. But she was a very good girl. She even laid down while we were talking.

I guess I ought to wrap this up and get myself together. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Slow But Focused

This morning I am in a bit better headspace. I hope the day goes well. I think I will be busy today as my liquor order should be waiting for me. With the locks changed I don’t know as anyone else will make the effort. I could be wrong. We shall see.

I still haven’t gotten my car in about my brakes. No answer from my mechanic yesterday. I can limp the car to and from work but more than that and I have to borrow Chris’s truck. Poor Stella has not been for a walk all week.

I did my best to try to relax yesterday. I did notice my anxiety still kicking in. I don’t think my mind will do a shut down like Tuesday. I don’t know what everyone will say either. Speaking of which I need to get myself together and head out the door for work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Enough Is Enough

I find that I continue to take on more than I should so that people need me. In some situations, it is because I enjoy it (my article writing started out that way). Or to prove to everyone (including myself) that I can do all of it. But there comes a breaking point. Yesterday was that for me. By 9am I just couldn’t do it anymore. Between the brake issues with my car, two meetings on Monday (on the way to the first meeting is when the brake issue started) when Monday was my day off from my main job, the crazy day that was Sunday (being at work by 5:30am to do my liquor order, going home for a few hours after my shift then heading to the tattoo parlor to get my ink fixed), my first inventory where I have to count all my backstock myself for two departments by myself, my plans for teaching cooking classes at work this Fall, my birthday…. too much going on in my head and just as much going on outside of my head. Everything just shut down. My coworkers are awesome and they stepped up to the plate for me so I could go home early. I intended to get my groceries and leave but it turned out that the store owner was in his office as I was heading out. He asked if I was sick so I poured it all out to him. Instead of saying something negative he encouraged be to go home and get some much-needed rest. He also said that I probably was in need of a vacation. I mentioned that Chris wanted to take the week of Memeorial Day off and his response” “Let’s make it happen!” You know you work for a good company when that happens. So I came home with the Boss’s blessing and tried to relax.

I guess this is me trying to step back from things. I need to show someone else how to order cigarettes for when I am gone. As I type this I see the potential issues with doing that. I have to choose someone. There are two people I can choose. Either one would be good. However… the one not chosen will be angry and hurt. GAH! The easiest thing will be to just put it in the lap of my boss. I will give him my choices and let him make the decision. It might be cowardly, but I am close to both of them.

I am thinking of pulling out one of my three classes on dvd and doing that as a relaxation thing. I have creative writing, guitar and photography to choose from. At this point I think the photography is the only one I wouldn’t have to restart. Maybe the creative writing one would be ok. I don’t want to put more on my plate (thus doing the dvd verses going to an actual class class) but I want something that is out of my norm. Something I can focus on that I won’t just drift through because I know it.

I feel a stress headache moving in. It happens when I think too much about too much. So I will wrap this up and try to figure myself out some more. Thanks for reading and stay safe!