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So What’s Going On?

And here we are in the early morning again. Sigh. Why you ask? Because a coworker has to take her granddaughters to school at 8am and she is scheduled to work at 7am. So I said that I would go in and work a few hours for her so she could do that. Then I will do a little running before going home for a few hours then coming back to be closing manager at 1pm. Hopefully I will be sleeping til my regular time the rest of the week.

So the MRI was yesterday morning and I received a call a few hours later asking me to call. After a little bit of phone tag I finally got to talk to a nurse. Apparently I have arthritis and a severely pinch sciatica nerve. I have another muscle relaxer to pick up after my first shift (I am expected to take both muscle relaxers every eight hours despite the fact that they make me go to sleep) and they are contacting a pain clinic in Traverse. Apparently I am getting some kind of shot. Hopefully it works better than the cortisone shot I had to get for my shoulder. It hurt to get it but did absolutely nothing for the pain. I am also nervous as it is in my spine so…

I called the paper and asked if someone else could take my meeting last night. They found someone who could. I thanked them both. I was gong to call my parents but in the end I just spent time with the girls. I fell asleep twice outside I have been so tired. But after my naps I did feel a little better. The girls and I watched “National Lampoon’s European Vacation” and then “Goonies.” It was my first time seeing “Goonies” and I had fun with it.

Nuts. I just looked at the clock and I need to get rolling. Thanks for reading! I hope you have a great day! Be safe!

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Sleepless In Michigan

Once again I am struggling with the early morning hours. I got my MRI for the morning thinking I would have the rest of the day. But I am so very very tired… I literally fell asleep while going through posts this morning. I’m not much better now. Part of it is that I stayed up so I could spend time with my family. Not late but enough that my lack of sleep from the night before has seriously caught up with me.

Yesterday the back got to the point I was going to be immobile. My leg would not work after a spasm (and my back was spasming a lot) and we were busier than all get out. It was just two of us from 7am until 10am and we had lines most of the time. There was no one in the deli til then either so I did a few orders in between waiting on customers. Everyone was very nice though. My coworkers were awesome. By the end of the shift I was miserable and almost in tears. I almost couldn’t drive myself home.

Chris was a jewel and took care of me as best he could once I got home. We had steaks, corn on the cob and pasta salad for dinner. The girls were very good too. Essie followed me everywhere. I slept pretty well once I got to bed. I am limping again this morning but not as bad as last night. I have to be there by 8am for the MRI. I still have another…. 45 minutes before I have to go. Apparently I overestimated how long my morning routine would take. Both girls have eaten breakfast and gone back to bed.

My rock collection is growing through no fault of my own lol. One of my customers is a rock hound like myself and brings me stones from his various “therapy sessions’ as we call them (because just wandering in the woods or along the water looking for rocks is a great way to decompress). When I got out of work I had a small pile of rocks piled next to my car. It made me smile and grimace at the same time. I thought it was so sweet of him to do that but I also had to bend down and get them off the ground, something my body was loathe to do.

I should get going. I can use this extra time to take off my jewelry and such for the MRI. It will save time at the hospital. Hopefully we get the results soon. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Boom! Boiling Oil!

The high point of my catastrophic day yesterday was the boiling oil in my eye. Yep. It was that good. There were good points to be sure (I am sooo grateful that a coworker came in on her day off to help me because I would’ve never gotten it all done in the deli without her) but all in all? A crap day. The meeting lasted til 11:30am. I had to be to work at noon. I still had to run home and get dressed for work. I did manage to get to work on time with a brief kiss from each of my family as I bolted back out the door. Then the real fun started. I was on my own by 2:30pm. And we were busy. It was during this fun episode that I splashed the 375 degree oil in my eye. My help arrived around 6pm or so. By the time I left work last night I could barely walk. By the time bedtime got here I took all the medication I was supposed to (I will sometimes leave out the every eight hour one because it makes me feel wonky). That lasted until 4am. Then I tried a sleeping pill. That didn’t work. So I took another muscle relaxer (aka the wonky pill). I was able to sleep til 9am or so. When I got up I was shuffling around like a little old man. I did manage to get through the medicine fog enough to get my article written and sent in.

And here I am. I need to get one more bill paid and then I might try to get my seeds in the memorial garden. It is another hot day so both AC units will be running. I will try to get some housework done. Not all of it but some. There are things that have been neglected due to my back and need to get done. I may try to get in touch with my parents. I am very grateful that I have two days in a row off. Tomorrow I need to go and get the girls medicine from the vets office. They are closed today unfortunately.

I only broke down in tears three times at work last night. My friend’s death hit me in waves and then I just got so overwhelmed with everything that I had to do at work. I hope to get relaxed today. I have been watering the outdoor plants in the morning before the heat of the day and then again at night but I missed my chance this morning getting up so late. I will use the watering can if any of them get too wilty.

I guess I should wrap this up and get it posted. Thank you for all your support over the past few days. It means a lot. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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What Just Happened?

Yesterday was in no way what I intended to do. I did get the outdoor plants watered (several times because it was so very very hot out) but that was it. I had planned to lay out. Nope. During the first round of watering the plants we had an unexpected visitor come over. So I woke Chris and we all spent time catching up. When our friend left I was trying to pick up the house a little and I hear “Oh God!” from the living room and all I see is that Essie has collapsed and it twitching. I come running and trying not to freak out. (Essie had not eaten breakfast nor would she drink any water.) From then on I watched her like a hawk. Which turned out to be fairly easy as she was following me around all day. Maybe around 5pm or 6pm I managed to get her to let me put a cool washcloth on her (she hates baths and getting wet in general). She slept a lot. I stayed in the house most of the day. No writing got done because I was too worried about Essie. I finished reading the Tony Hillerman I had been taking to work. I started reading about old New Orleans (I didn’t do any research books because I knew I would not retain much). Late last night a little before bed I got Essie to eat a few strips of beef (think beef cut for stir fry) and she did drink a little water.

Mom was blowing up my phone texting what I should do for Essie as was another friend. Since Essie was resting comfortably I said thank you to both of them via text (they were both calling and texting) and shut off my phone. It was just too much. I know they meant well. But I knew they would be hurt no matter what I said if I did not follow their instructions. I would be a bad Mom. So I gave updates to everyone this morning. Mom will probably be mad at me for a few days. Oh and I guess she tripped and fell about halfway down the stairs again. So.

I have a meeting tomorrow morning that I have to drive to. I am terrified that I will forget it with everything going on. Ok, I just set an alarm to get up at 7am and another for 8:30am so I can be out the door. I don’t know if I should dress for work or not. I think I will have enough time to come home to change.

So yeah…. I read and (thank you Chris) I watched several horror movies that I have wanted to see on HBOMax. Nothing else got done. It was better for my back to be sure. But there is still that sense of frustration from not get what I had planned done. So this morning I will try to get some writing done on the novel. To that end I will get this posted with a few photos. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Sooooo Now What?

What a mess… I feel like I have more questions than answers with my back. No examination or anything. I was given two medicines (one a muscle relaxer and the other for anxiety and sleep) and the wheels are in motion for an MRI. They are going to contact my insurance to see if they will cover it. If I don’t hear anything in a week I am supposed to call the doctor. So.

The medicine is a mixed bag. I am not sleeping any better. A loud noise woke me at 2am and I was wide awake (I was instructed to take one of each medication before bed). After staring into the dark for around 15 minutes I got up and took a sleeping pill. Then I read for an hour to fall asleep. I kept waking up from 6am on every little while to crack an eye at the clock. The pain portion of all this is…. interesting. The muscle relaxer has cleaned up the pain if you will. All the aches from limping and such have gone away. Now I know where all the pain is stemming from. The base of my spine and the backs of my hips. This pain is still very intense. An added bonus is that I found a rather large bruise on the bottom of my left heel. It feels like it goes all the way to the bone.

The downside of all this is that my novel has been ignored. So tomorrow I need to but some time in with that. I may do a bit this morning before work (fun fact: I work at 11am instead of 2pm like I thought so it will be atleast a 10 hour day today). I am so happy to not have to do anything on my day off! I have to get groceries but I will do that tonight. I don’t want to go anywhere tomorrow.

The heat is supposed to be record highs today and tomorrow. 90F (32.2C). I am glad Chris will be home with the girls and that the AC units are in!

Some bright spots from yesterday are I got some lovely gifts from one of my coworkers. She got my a beautiful best friend necklace that breaks in half and we each get a half as well as a very cool cup with my initial on it. I plan to use this tomorrow. The second bit of awesome that happened was I got my Supernatural box! I didn’t post that on my Facebook page yet. I didn’t want to have the gifts from my coworker over shadowed so I will post them today.

Ok, I will see how many photos I can add. I do have a bunch to share. I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading!

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Accomplishments

I am excited to say that we have had our first hummingbird this morning! She was checking out all the new flowers I put in yesterday.😍 I am really tickled. It makes me feel good that wildlife want to come and hang out with us. I managed to get the birdfeeder filled up too. It looks like the birds aren’t as dependent on it for food right now and that’s ok. They know it is there and has food if they need it.

Today is the day of reckoning… I go to the doctor in another hour and a half. In that time I need to do this and to get my article for last night’s meeting written. It should be pretty easy. I went to bed not long after the meeting ended because I was so tired. Not much sleep the night before. I got sleep last night but Stella kept hearing things and barking. Usually every hour or so. Two hours if I was lucky. Once Chris came to bed I cracked an eye at 5am to check the clock and every half hour or so I would wake to check the clock.

I will hopefully have good news to share tomorrow morning (besides the fact that I actually get to sleep in). Not being able to function is not working for me.

All the flowers have perked up after all the transplanting yesterday. The pansies were the ones that seemed to take things the hardest. I still have more mums and two more pansies to find homes for. I let work know about the crappy dirt they were selling. I bought two bags and neither smelled like they should. They smelled off. Then I kept finding trash in the dirt as I scooped it out. Chunks of used plastic, strips of rubber… that kind of thing. I mixed up several batches of Miracle Grow to try to compensate for whatever was in the dirt. Everyone seems ok. I just hope the dirt won’t cause further problems. Like putting stuff into our soil.

I need to get that article written before I head out so I’m gonna wrap this up. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Staring at the Wall

I tried to get up a little early so I could ease into my day. I reset my alarm to get an extra hour of sleep anyway. I still have time but I am still very sleepy. Whenever I had to move I woke up. I have no idea how this 9 hour shift will be tonight. Or tomorrow for that matter. I am in the deli again tomorrow night. But it is what it is. We are short staffed so there is no help for it. We are all wondering if our store hours will change because of that.

I didn’t do much other than read yesterday. I am disappointed but there is no help for it. I might try to fill the bird feeder before work. I also need to change out the hummingbird feeder. I didn’t take any photos either. I’m just not feeling it right now. I will add some from the other day.

I did get the brief piece written and turned in yesterday. Truthfully it wasn’t very good. It had two things going against it. One I had little to no information to go with (I made up a lot of fluff) and two I just didn’t want to do it. I hurt and I was tired. Much like right now. So I don’t know whether or not the piece will get used. I won’t be upset if it doesn’t get used.

If Chris can get the mower functioning I may try to get atleast the front mowed after work one day. I don’t think I will have time before work on any given day this week. I need to look through the backyard for toys as well. I think we have all of them inside now but there might be a few stragglers. That way when I have a chance to do the backyard I can just do it.

I’m going to get this posted so I can have one more cup of coffee and then go to work. Thanks for reading. I hope you have a great day. Stay safe.

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Emotions Unmasked

I love Scooby Doo. I grew up with him and the Gang (not Our Gang). It is where I got my love of mysteries. I remember when we would get our Girl Scout cookies (always the Samoas) I was allowed three to last me through my episode. After watching Birds of Prey I asked if we could watch Scoob! since it was available. And we did. And it was good. And I cried. A lot.

Scooby and Shaggy are very much like Moose and I. Too much. I thought I was healed enough to enjoy the movie. I was not but I watched it anyway. The strain of being short staffed and such did not help. I stayed up way past when I should’ve gone to bed as well.

I think what started the whole thing was the “support dog” (it was an ankle biter and he had nothing on to indicate that he was a support dog like he is supposed to). I got the people in my line yesterday and we got to talking. It reminded me of Moose because he was very much my emotional support dog. And I miss him. Terribly.

And I apologize for the abruptness of all this. I got up at 6am and I have to be to work at 7am. Which means that I need to wrap this up and get out the door. I hope you all have a great day and thanks for reading. Stay safe!

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Putting On the Big Girl Pants

The day has started out later than I thought it would. I didn’t get any real sleep until the last say three hours. I couldn’t get comfortable and my back was not happy. So I kept turning over like an alligator in a death roll. Or maybe I was making blanket sushi. I don’t know. Every little while I would need to untangle. Or dangle. A foot or a leg because I would get too hot. Anyway I finally looked at the clock around 6:00am or so and told myself to atleast stay in bed until 7am so my day wouldn’t be so long. Well I finally fell asleep solidly. When I next cracked an eye it was going on 9am.

I feel like there is so much that I need to do and so little time I have to do it. I made some progress on my novel but it was stop and start with everything going on here. I would catch an idea and start to work with it then something would happen or need my attention and it would be gone. It was frustrating. I also need to get working in the yard despite my back. The grass is too tall and the flower beds need attention desperately. I also need to get some more seeds planted. Not all of them survived our second winter temperatures a few weeks ago. A lot did surprisingly. Which also means more dirt. My goal is to try to get some of this stuff Saturday after work. Since I get out at 3pm. I work in the deli that morning so I will already be dirty so I might as well keep going. Hopefully the back will be ok. Regardless this stuff needs to get done. I also need to get things done inside like vacuuming and cleaning the multitude of blankets as well as our bedding in the master bedroom.

So after physical therapy tomorrow I will set up my doctor’s appointment for next week to see if I can get her to do the MRI. If not I’m not sure what I am gonna do next. Just wait and see what happens at the appointment and go from there I guess.

I need to start the banana bread soon so it will be done before I leave for work. It can bake while I am in the shower. The bananas won’t last much longer so it is today or they go into the trash. Looks like the sun is trying to come out and stay. We are supposed to have summer temperatures today. Sigh, Mother Nature is all over the place but I don’t blame her. It is way too peopley out anymore. It stresses you out.

I will add a few photos and get this posted. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Small Updates

When I started reading through everyone’s blogs this morning out of the corner of my eye I could see (then hear) Stella and Essie ripping around and playing outside. We have come a long way in a few years with those two and I am grateful.

The sky doesn’t know if it is going to be sunny or cloudy. It is still wonderfully warm though. Stella is in here on her back in front of the AC. Essie is outside. Ahhh here she comes inside. She has taken her spot in front of the bedroom door.

For those of you who have asked Chris’s procedure went well and he is sore but still doing pretty good all things considered. He has his mancave set up so he can recoup in there as well as in the rest of the house.

I did too much yesterday but seeing Chris unable to do much spurred me on. Laundry is all put away, the floors are swept in the kitchen and utility room, kitchen rugs are cleaned, the freezer is de-iced and trash is out. I didn’t have the energy to get the few bit of dirty dishes. I may try to conquer those when I get home tonight. I also cleaned out the mouse cage. I am kicking myself today but I am tired of not being able to do anything because of my back. By the looks of the work schedule most of the night shift is coming in at 11am and working until close. Gonna be a long night for most of us it seems.

I did get my Cthulhu crate yesterday and it is amazing! I have kind of picked bits and pieces to read. It really is a fun experience. I have shared stuff on my social media accounts. I took the small tin to bed last night and went through that before I fell asleep.

I think I will check my plants to see who needs to be watered. I need to start checking them several times a week again. The house is getting very dry. My orchid is almost ready to bloom.

I will share what photos I can. I did go through and delete quite a few the other day but it was hard. I had to go back through photos of Moose before he died. But before I head down that road I will wrap this up. Thanks for reading and stay safe!