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Weirdness to My Days

What a weird morning! I woke up from weird (but strangely compelling) dreams. My day feels off because I said I would’ve closing manager for a coworker (I hope I can get my stuff done before she leaves around 5pm). I am back at 6:30am tomorrow so I won’t get much sleep tonight. So I feel off not being at work at this hour. Then I turned on my laptop. It sort of hooked up to the internet but then failed completely. I have no idea why. I tried to reconnect and all it did was give me the message “Connecting…”. Everything else hooks up fine. So I am writing this on my phone.

It is cool, almost cold, this morning. Stella just got up and wants to play. Little goose.❤️🐾 I just threw her ball for her. I am a bit achy from yesterday. I spent pretty much my whole shift stocking liquor. Wednesday I got a double order so 5 full what we call u-boats. They are carts on wheels about 6ft (182cm) by about 2ft (60cm) wide. They were piled higher than I am tall and I am 5’7 (170cm). Liquor is not light in mass quantities! But it felt good to have stock filled almost completely in. I hated all those empty shelves!

I find myself struggling to find myself in my days. I sort of have a set schedule but any variance throws me off. I did get my car in yesterday. My tire sensors are wonky. I had a low rear tire but the brakes are fine. I was embarrassed as I made it a point to look the warning symbol from my dashboard up in my manual for the car. It said brakes were the issue. Not tire pressure. I could’ve checked the tire pressure and filled it here at the house. But Stella got a walk and a ride out of it. I was leery about taking her on the roads (I don’t want her to think that it is something she can do… especially on her own) but I kept telling her that she could only walk on roads with me on her lead. But she was a very good girl. She even laid down while we were talking.

I guess I ought to wrap this up and get myself together. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, anxiety, Automotive, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, family, Gardening, Learning, Life, Love, Nature, Photography, retail, Thinking, Writing

Weirdness to My Days

What a weird morning! I woke up from weird (but strangely compelling) dreams. My day feels off because I said I would’ve closing manager for a coworker (I hope I can get my stuff done before she leaves around 5pm). I am back at 6:30am tomorrow so I won’t get much sleep tonight. So I feel off not being at work at this hour. Then I turned on my laptop. It sort of hooked up to the internet but then failed completely. I have no idea why. I tried to reconnect and all it did was give me the message “Connecting…”. Everything else hooks up fine. So I am writing this on my phone.

It is cool, almost cold, this morning. Stella just got up and wants to play. Little goose.❤️🐾 I just threw her ball for her. I am a bit achy from yesterday. I spent pretty much my whole shift stocking liquor. Wednesday I got a double order so 5 full what we call u-boats. They are carts on wheels about 6ft (182cm) by about 2ft (60cm) wide. They were piled higher than I am tall and I am 5’7 (170cm). Liquor is not light in mass quantities! But it felt good to have stock filled almost completely in. I hated all those empty shelves!

I find myself struggling to find myself in my days. I sort of have a set schedule but any variance throws me off. I did get my car in yesterday. My tire sensors are wonky. I had a low rear tire but the brakes are fine. I was embarrassed as I made it a point to look the warning symbol from my dashboard up in my manual for the car. It said brakes were the issue. Not tire pressure. I could’ve checked the tire pressure and filled it here at the house. But Stella got a walk and a ride out of it. I was leery about taking her on the roads (I don’t want her to think that it is something she can do… especially on her own) but I kept telling her that she could only walk on roads with me on her lead. But she was a very good girl. She even laid down while we were talking.

I guess I ought to wrap this up and get myself together. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Slow But Focused

This morning I am in a bit better headspace. I hope the day goes well. I think I will be busy today as my liquor order should be waiting for me. With the locks changed I don’t know as anyone else will make the effort. I could be wrong. We shall see.

I still haven’t gotten my car in about my brakes. No answer from my mechanic yesterday. I can limp the car to and from work but more than that and I have to borrow Chris’s truck. Poor Stella has not been for a walk all week.

I did my best to try to relax yesterday. I did notice my anxiety still kicking in. I don’t think my mind will do a shut down like Tuesday. I don’t know what everyone will say either. Speaking of which I need to get myself together and head out the door for work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Anyone Know What Time It Is?

It is a little after 5am. I have been awake since 4am. Stella has come out here as well. She started in Chris’s office, moved to the hallway for a bit and now is hunkered in on the couch. I’m not sure why I am up this early. I decided to get up instead of trying to fake it and not wake anyone else.

Yesterday was a bit crazy. I have been so tired I’ve not known what day it is. I find myself setting alarms to remind me to do things. I’m pretty sure that it is Monday. Which means a meeting at 9am and another at 7pm. Sorry, 6:30pm. I forgot they changed the time on the Harbor Commission meetings. Work was a bit nuts. It was storming when I left. Stella tried to bolt through the door when I was trying to leave she was so scared. I felt guilty leaving her. It rained most of the day. Everyone was just so tired. So tired that I almost forgot my tattoo appointment. So I set an alarm to remind me. Sad, I know.

I am happy to say that I am over the moon about how the tattoo turned out! I will try to share a photo if I can (space constraints on my blog). I have to say by the time we were getting to the end I was in some serious pain. But it was worth it! I even tagged Kane Hodder in it! I hope he sees it! Both the artists were very fun to be with yesterday. I think I am still welcome. We’ll see. I know I should probably find someone else but…

I opened the sliding glass door when I got up to find a huge dragonfly hanging out right at eye level. I did get a photo of that to share. It is the first dragonfly this year. Normally we see quite a few. Same with hummingbirds. I’ve had maybe two this year. Last year we had several. I’m not sure why. Oh, and Monarch butterflies. I have a ton of milkweed and not a single Monarch. I am a bit hurt but there it is.

I am going to wrap this up for now. Otherwise I will go on and on. I may read on my Kindle. I won’t try writing until the sun comes up. My pens that have the light at the end are honestly too bright. Especially on white paper! And I’m not sure where they are. Beside the bed probably. Anyway (see how I go on?), I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Rains and Pibbles

We awoke to thunder and lightening in the distance. Stella is pacing between me and Chris’s office. I am so very tired. I cannot get the phone to charge either. I’m not sure what to do.

Part way through my day yesterday I was told that someone hit my car. Damage was minimal (he essentially rubbed my front bumper). I should be able to buff it out. But still.

The rain has stated and the thunder is rumbling. Stella won’t leave Chris’s office. That was a BIG flash of lightening! Stella needs a light on during storms. That seems to help calm her. She wants me to come in the office with her.

I have a meeting tomorrow morning and another tomorrow night. I am back at work early Tuesday morning so I am not sure when I will get the article written. When I get home from the meeting is when I should be going to bed. And I really don’t want to get up in the wee hours to write it before work. Hopefully after work is soon enough.

I am going to wrap this up and get going. Thanks for reading! Stay safe.

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Mysteries of My Pitty

My body just can’t seem to get enough sleep. I am doing my best to get to sleep at a decent hour. I got a lot done yesterday. I feel like I didn’t do anything though. Or maybe not enough? I don’t know.

I have a spooked Pitbull. She hears something. Thunder? But the skies are clear. Still, she keeps looking outside. She has gone to all the windows. We are currently on the floor. I am trying to type as I hold her. I wish I knew what was wrong. She is staring at the window like she expects someone to come through it.

Aaaaand I gotta go. I hope her anxiety eases up. I hate leaving her like this. Sorry for the weird post. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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The Night That Wasn’t

Oof. I am wiped out. I got a few hours of sleep in, but most of my night was spent trying to comfort Stella. We had storms roll through overnight. She got bad enough that I finally gave her some medicine to calm her down. I think I got another hour nap in before something spooked her. We ended up on the couch in Chris’s office. He came to bed around 4am and that was about the time the storms started. I coaxed her out of bed and shut the door so Chris could get some sleep. I was about to convince her to leave the office around 8am. She is snoozing on the couch out here in the living room right now.

So here I am with my first cup of coffee for the day. Wondering what to do. Wondering because I would really like to be asleep right now. But if I do that I will throw off my sleep schedule even more. Ah well. I have phone calls that need to be made. I can also work on my writing. I have been working on my character development. I need to bring in characters from the Norwegian side of my main character’s family. I have the Italian side all covered. The Norwegian side just has a few names. I do have an uncle that I can see in my head, but there needs to be more.

Since our mower is down our awesome neighbor mowed his front yard then ours. Another reason I am glad it rained. The front yard was all dust and dried out mess when he mowed. I had to take allergy meds when he was done. But the yard looks a lot better. Meanwhile I have been on a documentary kick. Mostly about my horror movies. I am currently rewatching the one on the Friday the 13th series titled Crystal Lake Memories: The Complete History of Friday the 13th. It is over 400 minutes long soooo….over 4 hours? I watched part of it last night and I will probably finish it tonight. I have been bouncing around on Netflix, Amazon Prime and Shudder for my documentaries. I really enjoy the back stories. And my little heart goes pitter patter when I see my favorite actors/stuntman/fx pros (that I met) on screen (Kane Hodder and Tom Savini).

I guess I ought to get myself motivated and get my day going. I can make my phone calls in my office so I don’t wake Chris. I need to see if I can coax little miss outside to go potty before the next chunk of rain comes through. Oh and plant updates! My awesome banana tree now has 3 new leaves, my orange tree is well on his way to becoming a full-fledged tree (he is branching off in various directions and the main trunk is becoming a thick woody type trunk) and I am going to have to repot George (my succulent) as he is growing like some kind of super charged weed (he’s probably 4 inches (10cm) tall and still growing! On that note I bid you adieu! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Surprise!

My little cuddle bug is on the couch asleep. The morning has dawned cool and overcast. I hope it stays this way so we can go to the park for a walk later. Once this is posted we will run to Traverse to deposit the money order from Dad. I have been sitting on it for a while. I also plan to find out just what I need for my passport. I will get the paperwork filled out today and since I have tomorrow off, I may go to the courthouse offices and see about finally getting all the stuff in and get the process rolling. They have photo options there as well, so I won’t need my own photo.

Yesterday ended on a rather fun note! When I got home I had my Supernatural box, my locket and my little order from my artist waiting. It was like my birthday came early! The Supernatural box (based off of the tv series of the same name) had a TON of goodies in it! I swear the keep giving us more and more cool stuff! The nice thing is that I will use just about everything (although not everyone eats with chopsticks… yes there was a pair in the box). There was a planter (it was pretty small so a very tiny pot), a tee (OMG! I love this one!), a beach bag, chopsticks, a cool rubber tray to make popsicles in, a wall hanger (it’s supposed to look like rebar), a small box (it is a representation of something from the series but essentially something to store things in) and a small pin of a main character.

My locket I have been waiting on for almost a month. I LOVE how it turned out! I got it on Amazon from Soulmeet. It is a heart shaped locket (sterling silver) with a sunflower design on the front. They have several choices for what you want to do with the inside. You can get just one photo or two. I went with two. You send them the photo you want to use (they have a very convenient spot where you place the photo you want to use to see if it will fit) and they place it in the locket for you. I have Chris on one side and Essie, Stella and Moose on the other. I felt bad because I could not find a photo with all of them and Dante that would fit. The locket came with a pretty silver chain, a special cloth to clean my locket with (I really like the polishing cloths they have for silver jewelry) and what looks like a guitar pick. I am not sure about the guitar pick. I’m sure it must have some use for either cleaning or keeping the photos in place but they provided no instructions. I plan to shoot them a message later and ask.

I had ordered some “dragon’s eggs” from my artist friend. These are simply various stones that have been cut in the shape of small eggs. About the size of a robin’s egg. I love them! She also included a few extra goodies to say thank you. They included a pretty antique heart locket (!) that is silver with the saying “I love you!” on the front, a beautiful tree of life pendant made from wire and small bits of turquoise and a beautiful griffin’s eye that she made.

I did not think to get photos of all this with my Nikon. I will do that today. (I can fit the Nikon photos on here as smaller files but the photos off my camera take up a lot more space.) I need to get myself moving. Stella has moved out to the back porch since the sun is struggling ot come out. Thank for reading and stay safe!

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Summer Storms

A storm is gently making its way here from the north. There was a very distant rumble (this will explain why Stella was up with me, ate and then went right back to bed) that is gradually getting closer. The skies are darkening. There is barely any breeze. But we need the rain, so I hope it gets everything watered.

Yesterday was a lot of heavy lifting for me. I restocked the beer cooler by myself. I got everything done but two walls. I got the doors all restocked and the side wall when you just walk in the door done. And that was a LOT of beer, hard ciders and hard seltzers. We got hit hard. I got to work early yesterday in hopes of doing my liquor order, but my early time was spent restocking (my shelves are almost bare). Then I tried to do my order and the site was down. We kept trying all day and it never came back up. So I am hoping that the site is up and running today. I think I can order today and still get a delivery. Fingers crossed!

Today is the first day of August. Maybe the rain is a sign that things will be cleaned off. July was not a good month for me. Good things did happen but…. Stella is not a happy girl. She is starting to pace. She stuck her head out here and I talked to her and she turned right back around into the bedroom because thunder sounded. Ooo. I guess the storm is here! There is thunder coming from both the north and the south! I love storms but I always feel guilty because lately atleast one of the dogs we have had was scared during storms. And I worry if I am not home that they are by themselves and scared.

I had weird dreams about my ex and later about getting a dog. He was a big pup too. He was so sad that his owner was getting rid of him but keeping his brother (his brother was sad that he was losing his brother as well). I remember both sets of dreams very distinctly.

I am going to try to snap a few prerain photos since I keep recycling old ones. When I get home anymore I am just wiped out. So I’m sorry about no new pictures lately. Thanks for reading (and commenting)! Stay safe!

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Sleep or Not to Sleep

Have you ever crammed too much living into one day? That is what I did yesterday. We were busier than busy and short staffed for a bit. So I gave 200% at work. Then I came home and had a fun evening with Chris and Stella, goofing around and watching movies. And here I am up at 4 am for work. Stella is nestled in beside me snoozing. What I wouldn’t give for a few more hours of decent sleep!

I have been struggling to keep my eyes open. Which is funny because from 2 am on I kept watching the clock. I almost slept the extra hour but I need to get my liquor order done. My shelves are almost bare because last week’s order was mostly unavailable. And if we are going to be busy again then I need to take extra time in the morning to place my order.

I had better get going. I’ve dozed off twice while writing this. Stella is dreaming of chasing something beside me. Thanks for reading and stay safe!