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Looking Things Over

I am still tired this morning. We seem to get up at 9am instead of 8am (or even the 7am) that we used to. Some days I feel rushed while others seem to go ok. Then a long shift at work, come home and do it all again the next day. I like my job but I try to play with the girls when I get home because they have been inactive (I assume) the long time I’ve been gone. I try to play with them a little in the morning before I leave as well. But this morning? We’ll see.

We finally had another hummingbird yesterday. I’m not sure what happened. I was faithful about changing the feeder out and washing it. So I once again washed everything out and put fresh sugar water in. Now we wait. Lots of butterflies though. I am really looking forward to getting my Monarch tattoo. That will be on the 18th of August. I’ll share photos the following day.

Yesterday also was a good long chat with Dad. When we hung up he was in a very good mood and smiling. We had various trips down memory lane and I also got him up to speed with various happenings at my end. He is starting to get out more and experience his world rather than stay cooped up in his apartment. That is helping his mental attitude as well.

As for me I got laundry going, mowed the front lawn (after my four hour chat with Dad) and even spent time on my novel. The girls and I played off and on through out the day. I always feel that it’s never enough compared to what they should be getting. I also got a few photos in the yard.

I suppose I should wrap this up so I can get some stuff (quietly) done around here before I leave for work. Chris is still asleep so I will try to entertain the girls quietly. I also need to check all the plants inside and out to see who needs to be watered. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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The Day That Blew Up

You don’t know how glad I am that yesterday is over! If it could go wrong at work it did. And the night was rounded out with a woman being hurt in our parking lot and being arrested. I am still upset over it. I left a note for the store manager with a brief account of what happened and said that I would be happy to fill in the blanks when I got there at noon today.

With everything happening I didn’t get home til almost 11:30pm. It was just short of a twelve hour day. And I get to do it all again today. Hopefully with minimal issues. I’m grateful that everyone at home was ok. (Not that they wouldn’t be but the way the day was going….) I have tomorrow off but I still have a meeting in Elk Rapids at 7pm. Thursday will be my day I can stay home. On the plus side today is the only day I am manager this week.

I did get a nice text from one of my coworkers about what happened last night. She gave my props for my actions and was very supportive. I had to make sure that everyone punched out etc. since they were in the store rubber necking til quite late. But to be fair everyone was really good with all the issues that cropped up.

I just want to get through today and be home for more than a few hours. I really wish I had today off. I am just tapped out mentally. I am going to wrap this up and try to spend a little bit with the girls before I have to go back to work. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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The Inside of My Eye Lids

Not sure how coherent this will be. I can barely keep my eyes open. Too much happened yesterday. I am falling asleep as I write this. Not that you aren’t good company, you are. I am just that tired. I have a little more than an hour before I leave for my next meeting. I missed last night’s because I was too stressed over Essie. She is now on medication similar to mine. She has arthritis in her back and hips.

To add to it all I thought it would be a good idea to mow the yard last night. It was supposed to rain last night (it did not) as well as Thursday (we’ll see). It’s pretty dark out there right now (I just got a rain notification on my phone). Oh damn. I think that was thunder….

I got done with mowing well after dark (I wish the mower had a headlight) so I hope it all looks decent. I did the front yard first while there was still light so it’s just the back that might be off. There are new flowers blooming in the yard. I got a ton of photos yesterday so I will share as many as I can over the next few days.

The light this morning is reversing itself. Instead of getting lighter it is getting darker. I wouldn’t be able to see my keyboard if it wasn’t backlit right now. I’m going to try to add some photos and then take another hour to nap before I need to go. Sorry this is all over the place. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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So Much

The sun is out and shining and I just want to go back to sleep. Part medicine and part everything going on. (I just lost a few sentences and I have no Idea what happened.) I am hoping a shower helps. I am manager today so I need to be functional. I have tomorrow “off” but Essie has an appointment and I have a meeting that night. I also need to get the article written. Grrrrr…. It says that the meeting will also be via Zoom yet the paperwork distinctly says that there will be no link. WTF?! You can’t have it both ways people! Feeling like I do I would prefer the Zoom but I guess I am driving again.

I was going to try to come home early last night from work but it turned out that I was the closing cashier. I would get teary off and on. There is just some much going on. it sounds like Essie had a bit of a hard day yesterday. I noticed a few times after I got home that she would try to get up from sitting and just end up moving sideways and laying down because she couldn’t get up. It breaks my heart. So I guess we’ll see what we see on Monday. I am grateful that the vet will let me pay later. I think this will be an expensive visit. But Essie is worth it. They all have been.

I guess I should finish this and get in the shower so I can get ready for work. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

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Now What…???

What a mess… Chris and I both hurt (different reasons, he worked on redoing the stairs in the garage for two days and my broken tailbone), the girls were freaking out over the storms that came through and then Essie gets restless and wants me to get up around daybreak. Essie kept getting up and down once the sun came up and wanted me up too. My alarm was set for 8am since I said I would come in an hour earlier to work. I got her to lay back down a few times but mostly she was up and down off the bed (which worried me because she can’t get up on the bed very well anymore). My alarm went off at 8am and we got up. She won’t go outside. She won’t eat. No frisbee. After Stella got up Essie snuck back in bed and I had to chase her out of the bedroom. Despite what it seemed she would’ve been up and down in bed with Chris and he wouldn’t have gotten any sleep either. I don’t know what is wrong with Essie. I have ideas but that requires a visit to the vet.

I did get a lot of photos taken yesterday. A new Monarch butterfly stopped by and was nice enough to let me take some pictures. She was a fairly new butterfly. Her wings had just dried. Then there were the storm clouds…. A storm literally circled us. The thunder started in the east. Over the next half hour I watched and heard the storm move north, then to the west, south and back to the east where it seemed to settle. It was very disconcerting. Today we have nothing but sun. So we’ll see how busy we get at work.

I have tomorrow off. My hopes are to try to relax and prioritize what I need to do. Both for me and for others. So for right now I will see what photos to add (and how much space I have left on here) and get this posted. I hope you all have a great day! Stay safe and thanks for reading!

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Bits of Joy

This morning dawned and I hurt. Stella was asleep beside me with her head on my pillow. Essie was at my knees snoozing. I really didn’t want to get up but my tailbone wasn’t letting me sleep. And I did need to get up because I had stuff I needed to do before work. Today’s big project is two batches of rice crispy treats. I should’ve done them last night so all I had to do was cut them up but I was too tired and I wanted to spend time with the family. Yesterday was VERY busy at work. I also have the new record for this year (I also believe it is only second in the store’s history) for a total sale of $997 and change. I believe that the high score (if you will) is $1047 and change.

Essie’s birthday was a success. The cupcakes turned out very well and were a big hit at work. I am really glad that I took the time to do everything and share at work. It brightened up everyone’s day. Everyone is beginning to feel the strain. The cupcakes brought many smiles. It was also a coworker’s birthday so that worked out well.

I really want to thank my readers for reaching out. I means a lot that you know only enjoy what I write but that you also take the time to comment. I don’t feel like I am writing in a vacuum. It also helps me to get motivated about my writing projects outside of this. Now I just need to find the time! I am carrying around a piece of paper that has a bunch of notes on it about a short story. I jot things down as they come to me.

The pains from my back and tailbone are getting to me. I’m going to add a few photos and wrap this up. I hope you have great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Birthday Blues

Today is Essie’s birthday!❤️🐾 My baby girl has turned 11 years old. I am so happy she came to us!

After work last night I made cupcakes. This morning I will frost them with little 11s on top. (If I think about it I will take a picture.) I am taking the surplus cupcakes to work. Everyone is excited. Lol

Once again I am writing this on my phone because the internet is going on and our. It’s like trying to catch a wave… sometimes there is a lot of internet then it peters out to all but gone then it slowly comes back. Sometime is just stays gone. Grrrrr.

My post the next few days might be short. Like this morning. I have a lot to do yet before work so I will share a few photos (if I can get everything to work) and be done. It is our busiest time at work and truthfully I am exhausted. And it has barely begun. We just don’t have the staff and those we do have are being worked long and hard. We are now open until 9pm. So that means even longer shifts.

I hope you all have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

A quick edition! Here are the cupcakes

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Trying to Take Care

Dad and I had a good long talk (a little over three hours). I also got to share some cool outside things with him while we chatted. I walked into the gardens and he was able to watch a Monarch butterfly hangout and feed on the milkweed. He had never seen milkweed with the buds or flowering before. So I was pretty proud we could share that moment.

I didn’t do much else yesterday. I spent some quality time in the sun recharging my batteries. I did read on of my research books while I was out there so I didn’t completely slack off. I also got some really cool photos. I was able to get some shots of a morning visitor on the porch before Essie went out. I am very pleased about that one!

Oh, so doctor update. My doctor and I had a good talk (I forgot some of my questions again) and she answered what questions I did remember. We addressed my bruised heel for one. After my appointment with her I went to x-ray and they did two or three views. It sucked because I was laying on a hard surface and my back hated it. Then I had to twist my leg a certain way for a view and that hurt like nobody’s business. I didn’t say anything because it wasn’t for that long (not even five minutes) but it stayed with me the rest of the day. It turns out that I have a good sized bone spur and a bruised Achille’s tendon. Go me! So I am being referred to a podiatrist. (Not sure of the spelling… a foot doctor.)

This is going to be expensive to do all this. But I am trying to do the right thing by me and go to the doctor with my problems (some long term) to see if they can be addressed and (hopefully) fixed. I hope that I am doing the right thing.

Well I guess I should wrap this up. I got my latest issue of Writer’s Digest and I think I will read that a little before work. I also need to send in my word count to the paper. I keep forgetting. I hope you all have a great day! Stay safe and thanks for reading!

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Sleepy Rain

It has been overcast and rainy since yesterday morning. We need the rain but it makes us all very sleepy. The birds seem to be chipper and buzzing around. And that is good. I got both packets of pumpkin seeds and a packet of habanero pepper seeds in the ground before the rain got serious yesterday. So hopefully those will take off.

The family got to spend some quality time together yesterday so that was nice. I got a good chunk of work done on my novel before Chris got up. I am very happy because I made a major breakthrough for my main character. Now I just need to pull it all together. I am hoping to do that (or atleast start) before work today. I may just read some research books instead. I am very sleepy and I worry that I will forget about work. I’m closing manager so I can’t afford to be late. I am glad I am manager tonight so I can sit down. My back and such aren’t very happy today. I go to the doctor tomorrow morning. I need to write down my questions and concerns. Since it is a morning appointment I will be too busy waking up to remember my questions so my goal is to get them written down over the course of the day.

I had a good chat with Mom. She is having problems with her medication. bad problems so I am hoping to get her to go in (or atleast talk) to her doctor. Dad and I still haven’t managed to connect. I am tempted to try to call him. Even if it is $7 a minute. We’ll see how tomorrow goes.

The milkweed was very busy yesterday. I got some decent photos I think. We’ll see once I get them downloaded. I still need to update my photography site. I’ve not added any new photos nor have I done anything to the site itself in terms of making it look good. If I can’t get ahold of Dad tomorrow I may spend a few hours doing that. It needs to be done if I plan to sell any of my work.

The rain is coming down harder. My coffee is almost empty. Essie doesn’t feel very good I don’t think. She can’t seem to settle anywhere and get comfortable. I need to wrap this up so I can try to get stuff done before I have to leave for work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Planting Little Seeds

I am finding my night self coming back. I feel bad for the girls because I have been mostly days for years now. but since I stepped up to manager I have been running on nights and staying up later and later. Which means that I really don’t want to be up at 8am. Our compromise is that I can (usually) sleep until 9am or so.

It is overcast with the promise of rain. Maybe even some storms rolling through. I enjoy the prospect even though the girls are going to be freaked out. I think that is what got a customer and I talking yesterday. Then I said that I had lost Moose in January. It turned out that he had lost his girl (he never gave her name) after 14 years the day before. We talked about the hard decision of letting a beloved furry family member go. Especially when the day before they are going to be let go they are like their old selves and playing like puppies. I guess they took her out on the boat and everything so her last day was a blast. After I finished ringing him up I came around the counter and gave him a big hug. He said thank you for listening. He was a little embarrassed because he was tearing up but I was too so….

With the weather being what it is I think today would be a perfect day to plant some seeds. I have some pumpkin seeds among other stuff to go in the ground. if I find an extra pot the pepper seeds might go in there so the ants don’t eat the plants. I figure with all the rain on the way the next few days I should be good. And this is way early for me to put pumpkin seeds in (the last time it was way late in the season but they did very well until the snow hit so I am excited to see what will happen!).

I also decided to work some on my novel. I got my letters to my penpals written and mailed the other day. I do have other writing projects that I need to do but I told myself that I would give quality time to my novel today. Some other things I need to do are figure out what to what to do for Essie’s birthday (she turns 11 years old on the 3rd) and find a good place for my multitude of rocks. It’s bad enough that I walk through our yard with my head down “looking for toys” and spot some awesome rocks but folks at work bring me rocks as well because they know I love them.

Oh a short update. I finally called the pain clinic about getting an appointment. They have nothing until the first week of August. I am on a list to call if someone cancels but… the gal was very nice at any rate. So August will be a full month for me. I get a colonoscopy three days before my birthday and pain clinic a few weeks before that.

Ok, I need to wrap this up and get the seeds is before this rain starts. Thanks for reading and stay safe!