dreams, Emotions, Life, Photography

A Bad Night

Bad dreams for most of the night. I hope that it is not a sign for the rest of the day. I very rarely have bad dreams but tonight I had too many. In my dreams my whole world came crashing down at various points. I have awakened a emotionally wrung out mess. If I could call in I would. I set an alarm to remind me of tonight’s meeting. I will forget otherwise. I have been awake since 2:30am with a quick “nap” complete with bad dream from 4am to 5am. My first set of bad dreams came between 11pm and 2:30am.

I started the motorcycle yesterday so if I need to ride in to work I can. It is almost freezing temperatures here and the ground is still wet from the rain yesterday. Hopefully the Jeep starts. I am gonna be off all day. I checked my balance on my debit card and thought a refund was actually them taking money out and started freaking out. Then I remembered. Sigh. It is gonna be a day. And I’m working the gas/courtesy counter today.

Sorry this post isn’t more positive. I am just not feeling it today. I just wanna hibernate. I will share some of the photos I took yesterday. Thanks for reading despite it all. Stay safe.

Ed. note: my phone is offline despite it showing that it is still online so I will try from work. Now the laptop is offline.

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Exercise, Learning, Life, Motorcycles, Nature, Thinking, Writing

Looking Ahead

The winter doldrums are a knockin’. The leaves are falling off the trees faster and faster with all the wind and the colder temperatures. There is so much to do inside but it usually requires you to be in one place (playing games, reading, etc) and I am one of those who wants to be outside. Just not in snow and cold weather. I also need to keep the kids active. So I guess I could design a workout routine of sorts. They do like to play tug of war a lot and catch (not fetch because they want to actually catch the toy, not chase it and bring it back). I’m sure that with some thought I can come up with something to keep us busy atleast for a little bit every day.

With October winding down and November looming before me I am staring NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) in the face. I got myself this year’s tee shirt since I am participating. I’m not gonna lie, I am a bit anxious about this. It is such a huge undertaking. Essentially writing a complete novel in a month. I feel more confident about it than previous years because my job is not long hours that I use up all my energy (especially my creative energy) so when the time comes I have nothing to write. I also have two stories to chose from this time and I have a good background for both. But the question still remains… can I do it? You can preorder a tee shirt that says you finished NaNoWriMo successfully. I am tempted to do it. But if I fall short? Will that be a reminder of a failure? Or will I let myself off the hook and let it remind me that I won regardless because I made the effort? I would like to think that with the improvement of my mental health I would take the positive outlook. But you never know with me.

Work is slowing down considerably. Part of me is grateful but then the other part gets bored. And that means I don’t have to wash everything down as often. My hands are so dried out and hurt from the constant washing of my surroundings as well as the hands themselves. They are starting to crack and bleed. I need to find something that will help. The other gals at work are always putting lotion on but they aren’t always waiting on customers. They might be stocking, facing the shelves of doing work in the offices. When they put the lotion on it will stay for awhile.

Every time I hear the furnace click on I find myself getting anxious. Over the past few years I’ve worried about various things being stuck outside in the weather because we had no place to store them out of the elements. Usually it has been the motorcycles. But this year all four of them are tucked safely in the garage. I can go out and see them etc (this reminds me I need to put my bike on the charger to make sure I have juice in the battery incase I need to ride to work (no he never came to get the Jeep, some medical appointments have put things off until later this week) because the Jeep hasn’t wanted to start). It is weird not having anything to worry about. I try to make sure I notice why I am worried and then tell myself that I don’t have to have that habit anymore. Because that is what it is at this point a habit.

I guess I should wrap this up for now. I found some visitors outside the kitchen windows this morning. The bunnies are getting bold. I tapped on the window and they just looked at me. Before they would take off. Well thanks for reading and all the lovely comments! Stay safe!

Friends, Life, Photography

Gotta Make It Through the Day

Everyone had a great time last night. I just went to bed way too late and I am regretting it. I just want to stay home and sleep. But I am the only cashier tonight so that kind of negates calling in. I have GOT to get sleep tonight. My body woke me at 7am. We went to bed around 3am.

Our maple trees look beautiful this Fall. They are not normally this bright for such a long time. I think all the rain is what caused it.

I got more cleaning done that I anticipated yesterday. I had to have Chris get me oven cleaner when he went to the store. I thought that we had some but I forgot I had used the last a few months ago. He brought home Goo Gone oven cleaner and I literally wiped all that nasty stuff up with a paper towel. No scrubbing involved. And no smell either.

I didn’t get any photos of the event last night because we were too busy talking and having fun. I did take some photos of the yard and such yesterday afternoon though that I will share. I’d better do that now. I just looked at the clock and I am going to have to bolt soon. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, Creativity, Dogs, family, Friends, Gardening, Holiday, Learning, Life, Nature, Photography

Finding Room to Breathe

This morning has been a reversal of routines. Before even turning on the computer I have taken care of the dogs, watered the plants and picked up a little bit. Once the computer was on I checked my classes to see if I had a grade for the final course yet. (Nothing yet.) The kids have been in and out since around 6am. The girls have upset tummies. I have been in the same boat off and on since 5am. I’m not feeling the greatest but I don’t have the heart to cancel. I talked to our friend last night and both he and his girlfriend have been really looking forward to this movie night. So I will hope to feel better by tonight. That is the other bit. They won’t get here until around 6pm. They work nights so they usually get home around the time everyone is getting up. I have to work tomorrow at 11am so I’m not sure how late I will be up tonight.

It is another dark morning with rain and snow mixed. That started about the time I was getting up because I didn’t feel good. Some of the snow remains but most of it has been melted by all the rain. I had a mostly empty gallon bucket on the porch. In one day it has gotten to overflowing with all the rain we’ve had.

Speaking of buckets I got both the mum plants transplanted the other day. They are both very happy right now. I also cut off the bottom half of the root ball. Poor plants had very little dirt beneath them. To show their happiness both plants are blooming like crazy. ❤️ The tomato plant seems to be doing better since I removed the basil plant from the planter. There is more room for both the tomato plant and the pepper plants.

I can’t believe that my violet plant is still blooming! It has been in constant bloom since I brought it home a few years (?!) ago. I have been diligent about dead heading when needed (I also did that when I repotted the mums) as well as making sure it stays watered. All of my plants are doing tremendously well. I can’t wait to get the one shelving unit out of the kitchen and into the garage so I can spread out the plants (I am thinking another shelving unit that fits in the corner possibly). Then we can use the kitchen table again. I also want to move Calypso (our ball python) into that area of the kitchen. It will be much warmer for her there. Right now she is close to the sliding glass door and gets all the cold air when it is opened.

My Jeep will be picked up either today or tomorrow. I am anxious. I want the Jeep fixed but I want my car to drive. I love my Jeep. It will be so nice to just drive and not have to worry about if I will make it.

I suppose I should wrap this up and finish up the last minute cleaning. There isn’t much. Just the living room tables and the stove top. I will probably sweep the kitchen one more time. Ooop and dishes need to be caught up. But not a lot so I think it will be fairly easy. I will try to take some pics from tonight’s event for tomorrow’s post. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Life

Morning? Already? Whaaa…?

I’m writing this on my phone because the laptop is wonky and taking way too long to load. No one got much sleep last night because of rain and storms going thru all night. Moose and Essie are snoozing in the living room instead of going back to bed with Chris the sweeties.

I still have a few things left on my To Do list but nothing major. I will either knock them out when I get home or tomorrow morning. Don’t know what time everyone is coming over yet.

Some good news before I wrap this up… my Jeep is going in this weekend! He is coming over to pick it up and I have use of his car if I need it. Yay!

With that I bid you good day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Aging, Animals, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Nature, Photography, Thinking

The New To Dos

So we slept in this morning. Thing is I feel like I got up with minimal sleep. I can’t believe how tired I am right now… And of course my brain is going rapid fire as to what I need to get done today. Not too much as it turns out. I got a lot done yesterday before work. I am glad I did since it reduced the load for today. I even remade a To Do list for today so that I get as much done as I can.

I can’t believe that October has almost gone. Where did it go? Why didn’t I get to spend any time with it before it left? Maybe the winter months will be just a brief. I hope… But still, time is going way too fast.

Oh and tomorrow’s post will be very brief. I have to be to work at 6am. I can’t bring myself to be up earlier than 5am to get everything done. I get out at 3pm so my logic is I will finish up what I don’t get done today. I feel better knowing that I still will have time. As Chris pointed out our friends won’t really care but I do. And really it’s not too much to do. I can slide on a few things but not on others (the mouse cage has GOT to get done).

Moose is in here with me sleeping on the floor. He seems to be as tired as I. The plan after I do this is to go and do some running before Chris gets up. I had intended to lay out clothes but forgot. I will have to wing it. I don’t want to wake Chris.

This will be a short one too I think. Sorry about two in a row. I just looked at the clock and saw how late it was. I still need to put returnables in the car, load up the kids (probably just Stella and Moose)… Since I haven’t had time to take any photos I will sneak out now with the kids. Thanks for reading and as always stay safe!

Creativity, dreams, Emotions, Gardening, Life, Nature, Photography, retail, Thinking

A Day in the Life

I feel like I have too much going on right now. A good part of it is that I am so tired. Not much sleep the night before and work was summertime busy for me at the gas /courtesy counter. We had a .30 off gas text go out and everyone was gassing up their vehicles. This was new for me so I had to learn how to do the discount etc. (which really wasn’t too hard). I was pretty much non stop for most of my day. (I did receive a few gifts. One customer brought me some hot sauce and another gave me $5 for giving him a winning ticket (he got $110). So that was a nice way to start my day.)

Yesterday’s plan was to get groceries after work (which I did) and then do a little around the house (which I did not). I got home and unloaded groceries and played with the kids and then hit my wall. I had a headache from the mask I had been wearing all day so that did not help. I did manage to get the few pieces washed in the dirty dishes and watered my plants. Both of these were just before bed.

This morning it is cold, wet and gloomy. I just want to stay home, get everything accomplished that I need to then hibernate until Spring. I think this will be an easier winter for me mentally but physically and emotionally I just wanna jump to Spring. Too cold too fast. I don’t do well with no sunshine and it has all but disappeared the past few weeks.

I’ve not taken any recent photos so the plan is to finish this then sneak out to the yard and take a few to add to the post. It is gonna suck to have to get out in the snow to take pictures. Blah…. might actually have to purchase winter boots. Bah humbug. But I can’t stop taking photographs. I am thinking about pulling stuff together to show the seasons here. Again I need to sit down on my laptop and learn the photography programs I have installed, download all the photos and put things together. Another project for another day.

I have taken a few photos to show how dark it is getting here. The leaves are falling off the trees already. It is going to be a bitter cold this winter. Be that as it may I hope you like the pictures. I still have some flowers open and doing their thing. The yellow is one of my Chinese bushes and the white are my garlic chives. The chives are actually still blooming!

Before I keep going on and on I am going to download the photos and upload the post. Thanks for reading and your awesome comments! Stay safe!

Creativity, Dogs, Learning, Life, Nature, Writing

Like a Leaf in the Wind

I am sitting in my office as I type this with a Pibble on my foot. Aaaand here comes another one. Stella came in here and curled up at my feet. Essie is wandering in and out. Moose is asleep in the man cave. He snuck in there while Essie was still outside (she is the one that usually sleeps there in the morning). Essie doesn’t know where to go with her spot taken over.

It is way too early and I’ve had way too little sleep. I have about 15 minutes to get this done and get ready to go to work. I got a lot done yesterday before work. My classwork (my last piece for the whole thing) has been handed in and I have done my reviews. Dishes got done and I made a list of what needs to be done before Saturday. I feel stupid though. I thought I had a meeting tonight but I don’t it is next Tuesday. For some reason I had it in my mind that it was the third Tuesday not the fourth. Ah well. I have also picked up another meeting to cover for the paper. I really really hope I can put off the Capstone part of the course (you only get access to this if you pass all the classes) until after November. But if I can’t then I can’t. It will be a wild ride of writing!

Ok, I need to get going. Sorry this is so short. I don’t have many photos to add since I wasn’t able to take any yesterday. The leaves are beginning to fall of the trees now. The cold is setting in in earnest. Everyone be safe and thanks for reading!

Creativity, Friends, Gardening, Holiday, Learning, Life, Nature, Riding, Thinking, Writing

New Faces and New Plans

I am happy to say that I was able to read a lot of new bloggers this morning. New to me atleast. My feed finally showed me a bunch of the new blogs I was following. Good stuff! It was nice to read some work by new faces.

This morning we woke up to a heavy frost. Looking out over the yard to almost looked like snow. Sigh. I am really not looking forward to winter. It is already getting bitterly cold out. I am getting frustrated because the Jeep is getting worse but I still have no word as to when I can drop it off. It is a good thing I have heated gear the rate things are going. I’ll be riding in cold cold temperatures.

The Halloween Horrorthon is still on for Saturday. I need to clean up some in the house Thursday (my next day off) and we still need to figure out a menu and what movies we are watching.

My big luscious tomato plant is dying. I need to get more dirt and a bigger pot I think. So that means that after work at one point (or maybe Thursday) I need to drive to the store and get a big bag of dirt and some big pots. I only hope that the stress of the transplant doesn’t kill any of the plants I am repotting. I always hate repotting when it is cold out. I might ask for some tips from my plant group. Maybe some of them have a good technique that I can use. Oh I stand corrected. It might be my basil plant that is dying. I started really looking as I was typing (I’m in the living room this morning) and I think it might be the basil plant that is dying. If the plant base is going brown and hard like a twig I might as well pull it out. Once the plant starts to do that the leaves will taste bitter if you use them. But it looks as if a lot of the leaves are gone so it might be best to pull it out. I didn’t realize how big everything would get. I only have three plants in the long box but they grew so big!

I don’t want to go to work today. There is too much around the house that needs to get done. And not just because we have company coming over. That being said I also need to finish my last piece for class. I have about half of it done. I have gotten all my grades for all the other courses so once this is in and graded then I will have completed the whole thing. Just in time for NaNoWriMo to start. I am hoping I can put the Capstone off and not have to do it right away. It would be a bit of a pain to have to work on two full pieces of writing at the same time. If I can put it off until December then once NaNoWriMo is done I can start that. But we’ll see. I need to get gone and see about doing some more on my story for class. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

family, Life

A Quickie

This will be rather short as I am running behind. We had an awesome family day yesterday. We started watching blues music videos but ended up watching a bunch of Van Halen and Eddie Van Halen videos. It was the first time I actually heard him talk. 😱 But I really enjoyed both what we watched and spending the time with my loves.

Aaaaand I need to get ready for work. Thanks for reading and stay safe! ❤️