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I had started my morning ready to write about good things and happiness. Then I made the mistake of looking at the news. So much bad and anger out there. And then I read things about my beliefs that people of other faiths are saying/assuming and it seems to have reversed everything. I do not shove my faith down anyone’s throat. I will answer questions if asked. I do not assume that my faith is for everyone. Everyone has different needs when things come down to it. But I am honestly getting tired of others belittling my faith because they believe that theirs is the only way. It is NOT the only way.

I am sorry. I try to keep things like this out of my blog. But this morning, because it is Halloween, everything seems to have just exploded. I am grateful for my time with my friends and family last night. It helped me find my center. I didn’t know how things would go as I managed to mess up quite a few things (it started with me not getting the right amount of ingredients for the stew Chris was making). But things turned out pretty well.

Work was fun but long. I dressed as Jason Voorhes from the Friday the 13th movies. Complete with machete. Good times! Today I hope to get some work done on my novel. It has been a few days since I had time to do anything with it. I also need to reach out to a few people online. I have been out of touch with everything going on. And I should reach out to my parents. It has been a bit since I chatted with them as well. That might wait until tomorrow. We’ll see how things go.

I want to take Stella for a walk at the park either today or tomorrow. I might wait until tomorrow for that as well. I am hoping to take a day to sort things out. I want to tend to things around here. I think I will wrap this up. I find myself staring off into space and my mind wandering. I do have some new photos to share. I will try to find a way to condense some of the photos we took on my phone to share some stuff from work too. The files are too big and I don’t have enough room on my site. But I think I can figure something. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Animals, anxiety, Cooking/Baking, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Food, Friends, Life, Love, Nature, Photography, retail, Thinking, Writing

Where’m I Going Again?

It is dark o’clock. I was smart and pulled everything out before bed. Stella is curled up and asleep on the love seat beside me under a blanket. Oh and now she is cuddling which makes it hard to type this. Trust me baby girl, Momma doesn’t want to be awake and out of bed either.

I still need to finalize with the Girls what time they are coming over. I haven’t thought to reach out the past few days. I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed. I just need to make my liquor order this morning. I can putter around in other areas but that is the only thing that needs to be done today.

Sorry, I am rambling. I am trying to plan my day as I write this. I still need to bake a cake, shower and clean the house before they get here once I get home from work. I was going to bake the cake from scratch but if Chris is making stew there isn’t enough room in the kitchen for all that. So I might resort to a box mix.

I seem to have rambled myself out of time. So I will wrap this up and then tuck Stella in. Have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

Aging, Animals, anxiety, Dogs, Emotions, family, Friends, Gardening, Learning, Life, Love, Movies, Nature, Photography, retail, the World, Thinking, Travel, Writing

Old Memories With New

Oh Friends… it is going to be a long and desperate day. While last night was fun that might be the nail in my coffin for this week. Stella seemed to understand it better than I as she has been a quiet cuddle bug since I got home from work yesterday.

It was good to catch up with both of our friends we all agreed that we needed to get together more often and at a more reasonable hour for all of us. It has me wondering if I should plan a few meals to have guests over. I could use a good excuse to try one of my long lost recipes.

I really missed having Chris with us. Going to see “Rocky Horror Picture Show” at a theatre (movie theatre) was one of our… shall we call it bonding experiences? We both had fun when we went in California together and still laugh about it now.

I guess our group of revelers was the largest the theatre has seen since 2019. We filled the house. Everyone had fun and knew the words to atleast one or two of the songs. Like me there were a lot of people adding new memories to old (one gal in line with us was at the actual release of the movie in Boston and the pair of guys behind us were father and son, they had gone together when the son was 10 years old… the son was now in his 40s and listening to those two throw out the one liners was so funny).

Since I tried to get more than 4 hours of sleep this is all I have time to write. I will try to share some photos of last night as soon as I can. Probably Monday. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

Animals, anxiety, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Friends, Gardening, Life, Love, Nature, Photography, retail, Thinking, Writing


Stella just came out to eat. She is the reason I have had little to no sleep. I went to bed at a decent time but she barked at almost everything last night/this morning. And by the time she stopped I could not fall back asleep. I was hoping for a decent nights sleep since I knew I would not get it tonight.

Sleep is the big reason I don’t want to go anywhere. Everyone I am hanging with this weekend works nights. I don’t. Which normally isn’t a big deal until I’m not getting any sleep.

This is going to be a short one as I slept a bit longer. Today will be full of more deliveries at work as well as the festivities tonight. Wish me luck! I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

anxiety, Emotions, Friends, Learning, Life, Love, Medical, Nature, Photography, Thinking, Writing


I spent yesterday at home. I made myself sick and was unable to function. This morning I feel marginally better physically but mentally I am scrambling. I don’t want to cancel the plans I have made but I don’t really want to follow through with them either.

I will probably force myself to follow through. It has been quite a while since I have seen either couple. This week just seems to have become a bit of a train wreck. So here’s to hoping that I can follow through with everything and that I can make it through my shift.

Thanks for reading and stay safe.

Aging, Animals, anxiety, Books, Creativity, Dogs, dreams, Emotions, Exercise, family, Friends, Gardening, Learning, Life, Love, Movies, Nature, Photography, the World, Thinking, Travel, Writing

Creepy Skies

We woke up to everything cast in an eerie yellow light. It gave everything a rather sickly glow that made you think something bad was about to go down. Right now it’s not as yellow but the grey skies still have a slight tinge to them. It’s like everything is starting to go bad visually.

I shed a few tears yesterday. I found out that one of my favorite people, Leslie Jordan, passed away. He was one of those people that just lit up a room. He could always make you smile no matter how bad your day was. He was always fun to watch (so much energy in that tiny package!). I sent one of his dvds to Dad to help him through some of his PTSD. I never got to meet Leslie but he has helped me and mine through a lot of things.

So today I am trying to put on a sort of happy face and move forward. Mom still hasn’t gone in for her phone repairs so I had better call her today. Dad and I also need to talk. I have a meeting at 6;30pm so I’m not sure how to fit all this in. Do you ever make plans in the future and get all excited about them but the closer it comes to doing them suddenly you don’t want to do it? That is how I am about this week. I have so much going on… Fun stuff to be sure but I am starting to feel a bit overwhelmed.

I did get some significant work on my novel done yesterday. I plan to keep shipping away at it. I have also found a fellow traveler on the writing path that has decided to put together a small group to help each other over some of the writing hurdles we encounter. I need to make sure that I put forth the effort to keep in touch on there. I am very bad at that. It sounds great to get together and have fellow writers to talk to but then I let myself drift off and lose touch. I can think of several times that I have done this.

Since I got up late I suppose I need to get myself motivated. I am contemplating taking Stella to the park. Yesterday was raining so we stayed home. Today is overcast but no rain yet. Ok, I can do this. I hope you have an amazing day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Fall Day

Stella is hunkered in on the couch dreaming. There is an annoying lone fly buzzing in the near vicinity. The weather has turned itself back to Fall. The past two days we have been in Summer mode. That meant a lot of people got their yard work done (unless, like me, they played hooky and just enjoyed the weather). Today I just want to chill for the day. No plans. No expectations.

I did manage to get some sleep. It got broken up between the storm and my back. But I got some and I am very grateful for that. I know I have been hard at things at work this week so I expect my body to be unhappy with me. Especially since it realizes that today I stay home.

I cannot believe that October is almost gone! When did that happen?! Soon the ground will be covered in white. While I am not looking forward to the cold and snow I am looking forward to hunkering in. Maybe get the house in order. There are several mini projects I have wanted to do around here. Hopefully I will follow through with the ones I start.

I have been taking photos a lot so I have fresh ones to share. To that end I will need to set up my birdfeeder soon. I try to wait until the first serious freeze that way they know it’s there when they need it. Right now there is still plenty for them to eat in the wild. Once they start coming to the feeder I can bombard you with bird photos. 😉

I’m sorry, I seem to just be rambling along here. Maybe that is a sign to get it together and start my day. Oh and my laptop has gone into battery saver mode. So I guess I will add some new photos and get this posted. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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This won’t be very long. I feel like hell. If I could get out of work today I would. I tried to get to sleep at a decent time. My brain woke me at 12:40am with a panic attack. My body had been waking me with my body temperature all night. Then it was into the bathroom around 1:20am. No idea how long I was in there. I know I finally fell asleep at one point because my alarm woke me.

So with that I am going to share some repeats for my photos. I hope you have a better day than I have so far. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

Animals, anxiety, Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, family, Friends, Gardening, Learning, Life, Love, Movies, Nature, Photography, retail, Thinking, Writing

Plans and More Plans

Stella and I are hunkered together in the dark. I just want to go back to bed. For being our slow season it sure is busy! We also have our usual Fall weather, cold in the morning and by the time the afternoon rolls around we will have Summer temperatures. The Falls colors are still trying to push through. Problem is all the wind has made the trees “bald” in spots. Clumps of leaves will be missing.

My tiny liquor order arrived yesterday. It was made even smaller because they shipped a case of the wrong thing. My delivery guy is very nice and apologized. Apparently his whole week has been a week of misships. Talking to all of our support staff (drivers, IT guy etc) it has been quite the week for everyone.

I also have a busy week outside of work this coming week. Because of that I am going to make it a point to take Stella to the park for a walk both my days off. I have a meeting Tuesday night but I can do it via Zoom (I hope). Friday night will see me going out at night with friends to watch “Rocky Horror Picture Show“ with friends at the theatre (I have warned everyone not to expect too much from me Saturday morning… or my whole shift really… since I will only have an hour or two of sleep) and then Sunday night the Girls are coming over. Hopefully I have Monday off as usual so I can sleep in.

I see by the clock I need to get going. Thanks for reading and stay safe!