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Trying to….?

As fun as it has been the past few days with my birthday the big thing is Stella. Last night I was debating whether or not to take her to the ER vet. She was panting like she was in pain (it was not warm). She seems a little better today. She is being a cuddle bug again.

I am a bit disappointed in myself. I did not, I have not, pulled my novel out in days. Maybe even weeks. Things have been so crazy I just read to get my mind off things instead of writing. It’s a good story. I want to tell it. But I can’t seem to get out of my own way. I am thinking I will work on it tonight. I shouldn’t as I need to be back up at 5am and I will (hopefully) be home before 10pm tonight. But I won’t be able to go right to bed let alone sleep.

Stella must really want my undivided attention. I shifted a little and the cushion behind my back made a creaky sound and she picked her head up (she is laying out in the sun in the porch). I still need to take a shower. I wanted to get laundry in and done first. I did bedding last night so that is good.

I find I am expecting too much from myself. But I don’t stop. Sometimes it does help. Then I will actually follow through. But right now I find myself overwhelmed mentally. I am trying so hard to do the right thing all the time. I berate myself when I cannot. Part of me is looking forward to the cold weather since that means I don’t have to work on what is outside, just inside. And I am at a point that I need the inside.

I guess I am planning a Younker’s reunion. Everyone wants to get together again. But no one is offering to pull it together. We have a place to go. So I will just put the word out for a specific date and have everyone bring a dish to pass. I can bring the plates and such. I do want to see everyone again. It was good to just sit and talk for awhile (I guess we were there for over 2 hours on Sunday).

I see by the clock that I need to wrap this up if I am going to get everything done. Thanks for reading and thank you for all the support. It means a lot. Stay safe!

Ed. note: My last two gifts were a really awesome chair and (giggity!) the box set of the Friday the 13th movies! Mom and I are getting together Saturday (we have decided to not go to the wedding Saturday) so I’m sure I will have more goodies to share after that.

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