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A Little of This, a Little of That… Oh and Some of This Too

The temperature is climbing quickly today. I am bouncing between writing this and talking to my friend online. She is in the hospital waiting for her man to come out of surgery. They found cancer in his kidney so they are going in to remove what they can and see what comes next. He should be coming out of surgery soon so I am trying to keep her occupied.

Miss Stella is not happy that I am doing this. She wants to be the center of my world and get love n’ scratches. As soon as she got up she made a bee line out the door and stayed there for quite a while. Once she got too hot she came in and laid in front of the AC for a bit. Now she is on the love seat behind me.

Since Chris got the backyard mowed I think I will do the front after he goes to work. I will also do my best to knock out the last of the front garden. I don’t think it will take too long. I will need to cut the tree back though. And that means climbing on the ladder. I am not looking forward to that part but it has to be done.

Well this has turned into a busy morning! As I was wrapping up that last paragraph I got a call from a cow working asking if she could stop by and get some of my lilacs to send to her daughter. Her daughter wanted them for her wedding (I guess she got married on Memorial Day) but it was to expensive to send them via a florist. As a surprise my friend is sending some she got locally. Problem was after the rain and heat we got over the weekend most of the lilacs are spent. My purple bushes are still looking good but the white ones are really wilted. She took several bunches to send. She was so excited!

And now my train of thought has completely derailed! Lol. Ah well. I will see about adding some of my photos from the other day on here then get this posted. Have a great day! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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A Little Ping Pong Ball

I am still not a morning person. Try as I may. I enjoy mornings for the quiet and solitude but I will never be a morning person. Early mornings just seem to make me tired. Regardless I can never seem to get to bed so get sleep.

Work has been crazy. Today I think will be worse with the schedule we have. But not my call. I hope I am wrong. I keep telling myself that I have tomorrow off.

I did get a LOT of new photos to share. I took my camera and walked around our property after I got home from work. I left Stella at the house. I don’t think she minded too much because she was panting hard from playing. I think I got some good shots. I don’t have time this morning to share them but I will start sharing tomorrow.

I am sorry for the randomness of this post. I can’t seem to get my mind to focus. I should probably wrap this up and get going for work. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Aaaaand There She Goes!

As foretold this will be a quick one this morning. I was almost in the free and clear. Then I got a message asking me if I could still come in at 5am. So here we are.

The yard is coming along. When I came home yesterday Chris was mowing the backyard (the fenced in area). Since that is done I will be able to concentrate on the gardens and get them caught up. If I can muster the energy I would like to finish up the front gardens after work so I can work on the back ones. Then Stella can be out with me if she wants.

I’ve not been working on my novel but I have been journaling so that is something. I am so worried about forgetting about class on Thursday night. I get out at 1pm so I will have some time at home. I am equal parts anxious and excited about class. I have to have pages to turn in so I have to have time to write.

And the clock tells me to get myself moving for work. Thank you for all your support! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Bright ‘n Early

This morning I find the birds’s singing annoying. I’m not sure why. Hopefully the day goes quickly. And well. Tomorrow’s post might not be much. As of right now I have to be there at 5am to let the deli people in.

I spent a bit more time in the garden that I had intended. As a result I am almost done with front and side gardens. I transplanted a few plants but with the temperature dip last night I don’t know if they will all make it. I brought all the plants I took out in as well. Most of them had just been repotted and I worried that the cold would hurt them. The only other things I got done were laundry and I swept the kitchen floor. Oh and we did go for a walk, but on our property.

I would really like a cup of coffee right now. However it is a process using the French press. So I will have to wait until I get to work. I think we will be busy. Hopefully I can get bakery stocked before we get too busy.

I see by the clock that I need to wrap this up. I’d intended to go back out on the property without Stella and get some photos. But I did not. I have several small groves that have appeared. They look rather cool. I hope to get out today and try again. Anyway the photos are repeats. Reprints if you will. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Finding Center

I sit here this morning enjoying some coffee and a biscuit. (A bit of a tee hee here. One of Stella’s nicknames is Biscuit and she is the biscuit I am referring to. She has been in my lap since before I started this.) The morning has dawned chilly and dark. I am of two minds about it. Last night my anxiety was up because my mind felt like I had to turn around and get up for work the next day.

Don’t get me wrong. I love my job (mostly). But so much has been going on at work and I have been giving 200%. We are getting busier and busier with Memorial Day coming up. This is the start of our busy season and we are lacking in help. I know everyone is. It amazes me though that people go through the effort to get hired but once at the job don’t feel the need to work. They want to stand around and get paid for it. If you have them actually go and do something (aka work) they get resentful and decide that they will quit. A lot of the younger kids coming in are like this. And to be fair I am leading by example. I am constantly on the move at work. I also have no problems working with them if it is a big project. There are also underlying currents shifting at work (this doesn’t affect the new people). Marriages are waxing and waning (have no fear, ours is good) and there are more management shifts going on.

I inadvertently slept in this morning. I guess I needed it. I usually try to take Stella for a walk on Friday mornings at the park. I still may. I really don’t want to go anywhere. I just don’t know ia a walk on the property will give her the same satisfaction. And there have been several deer sneaking along the back fence line. I don’t know if I want to try to hold her back if we encounter one out there (I know, I know… go buy the harness for her so I can use a sturdier leash).

I am not going to have any plans for today. Just things I would like to do. I talked to both my parents yesterday since I got out so early. Well early-ish. I am going to have overtime on this week from staying over for various reasons. So unless something happens I should have the whole day for just Chris, Stella and I. We have brats and kabobs for the grill for dinner tonight. The rest of the day is fair game.

Stella has seen something. No idea what. She is silently staring out the window with her hackles up. I should wrap this up and see about getting us to the park. If no one is there then we will do our 1/2 mile walk. If there are people there then we will probably some back home and walk on the back 40 hoping for no deer. I don’t have many new photos to share but I have a couple. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Nature’s Wake Up

I have peepers on one side of the house going and birds on the other. The peepers slowly become silent as the sun becomes more prominent in the sky. I am so tired. We were very busy and I had all new people so if I wasn’t ringing I was putting out fires. All being said everyone did pretty well. Ohhhh! I hear a peeper right outside the sliding glass door! ❤️

I have the month of June off from the paper. I am excited about going to class again. Writing and having to have it done as a requirement I think will help me immensely. Pages will be required each week. so I will have to find time somewhere. I don’t know as I am looking forward to my road trips. Driving to Ohio is considerably longer than going to Bay City and staying in state but still. I promised and this will probably be the last time I see my aunt.

Since I have most of the day to myself, once I get home I should put pen to paper. I have tomorrow off (thankfully). If the weather continues to be rainy then I will be out of the gardens and on the page. If the rain lets up I will sneak out and weed like crazy. That wet dirt will make things so much easier!

I need to wrap this up and get out the door. I appreciate all your comments! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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June Fun In The Sun

It looks like it wants to rain. I hope it does. I repotted a bunch of plants yesterday and pulled everyone outside. They could all use the rain despite my watering them all yesterday. I think I will need to check everyone every day now. Not all of them need to be watered every day but I find a lot of them are drying out quickly. The big repotting project was the peppers. I separated them into the long window box and several pots. They all seem to be handling the move well.

I decided I am going to take the month of June off from the paper. I have so much going on this month I would miss several of them as it is. I hope they can find someone. I just sent the email so we’ll see how it goes. It will be one less thing that I have to juggle. I said I would be able to step back in for July.

I paid for my class this morning. So I need to remember that I have class on Thursday nights all of June. Hopefully I continue to get Fridays off! I need to let my boss know what is going on too. There are also graduations that I have been invited to and I need to make it to Bay City to see my aunt. Aaaand I guess they changed the date for one of my graduations. I need to get next Saturday off. Fudge. I was told one date and now it is another. Right.

My goal for the writing class is… well there are two. The first is that I will have a publishable finished piece when I am done. The second is that I will have some momentum for my novel. I seem to have petered out. I am just so exhausted all the time. I’m tired of cramming everything in as well. So June will be my month to try to prove that I can write with things going on around me.

I also need to set up an appointment to get my tattoo fixed. That will happen on the first. I will message as soon as I get up. I will get the appointment set up hopefully before I go downstate. But we’ll see if he puts me off. I love all the other work I have gotten from him. Just no portraits. I don’t know how our relationship will be after this.

I still have some quiet time left so I think I will wrap this up and pull out my novel. Maybe push for a page of writing today. Warm up some coffee and get to it! Thank you for all your kind words and support! Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Now Entering Powersaver Mode

This might be a short post. Stella is draped in my lap and wants love. My laptop has just gone into powersaver mode. I slept in this morning because I was up late (as usual it seems). I was falling asleep in my book but when I turned the lights out… oh well. I did fall asleep eventually. Yesterday was busy all things considered. I, thankfully, had a lot of staff. I keep putting more on my plate at work as well. I have offered to take over the liquor department while my coworker is out for surgery and I have offered to help with the annual flower sale. The liquor department will be a longer time at it while the flower sale is a Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Which reminds me the local library is having a flower sale today. Hmmm….

Tonight I have a meeting. I was hoping for a Zoom link but there has been none posted. I just don’t want to drive. But the paper is nice enough to pay me for doing it. Tomorrow I will purchase my seat in the writing class. I hope I don’t regret it. The big concern is me resenting having to go after work. I need to get over it.

On a rather happy note my signed book Kill! by Kane Hodder arrived yesterday! It is an expanded edition of his autobiography that I have titled Unmasked. It has been 10 years since Unmasked and the expanded edition has all kinds of extras. About 400 pages of extras. It is a signed limited edition. It goes well with my photo! And it is now on of my treasures.

Ok, battery is almost dead and Stella is heavy in my lap. It also sounds like the stupid squirrel is causing issues outside. Sorry this is so late and short. Thanks for reading and stay safe!

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Eeny, Meany, Miney….

I have gotten myself a new tarot deck. Not to do readings with but just to work with on a daily basis. I like to pull a card out and see what it tells me. And the deck is beautiful! I is all herbs and trees… Nature. The booklet that comes with is especially enlightening to those of us who are gardeners. Since each card represents a certain aspect of the tarot the booklet shows how the natural abilities of each plant or tree represents what we can find in ourselves. The artist also shares different resources to find out more about each plant or tree. I just really really love it!

Another deck that I recently acquired is for writing. Natalie Goldberg released a deck of cards to help writers get past writing blocks and stumbles. It might be something random to write about or it might be something that pertains to your current work. There are many ways to use the deck. I am excited to use this deck with another that I have had for years that I love called The Observation Deck A Tool Kit For Writers. It is a similar concept and I think using both decks will help spur me on. (Yes these are crutches but right now I need all the help I can get to get myself out of my head and on to the paper.)

Where does my gardening fit in all this? Somewhere. I am trying to find a balance between my writing and gardening. I might do some before work today. Even if it is just that last little bit to get to the end of the house. I work better on my writing when everyone is asleep. Then I know that I don’t have to try to rush my words. I should get up earlier. That would solve a lot of problems. But I am a night person and have a hard time getting to sleep after I close at night. (I’m pretty sure that I was finally able to sleep around 2am. I refused to look at the clock after 1:30am.) My other problem is that I love to read. I have so many books going right now it is ridiculous. A lot of them are research for the novel. But what do I read when? Do I finish one before I begin another? What if I need the information from one book for my novel? There’s just so much! And I honestly don’t know what to do. Every night I haul a stack of books to bed with me. I may or may not read a bit in all of them. Then each morning I haul them back out in case I want to read before work. What I need is a vacation to get all this straight. But I don’t have that luxury right now. I need to piecemeal this together and find something that works.

The stack 🙄

Then there is poor Stella. She is so patient while I write. When I am finished with this she usually wants to play. But I normally have other plans to try to cram things in before I got to work. She has been in and out this morning. I think she is falling into a bit of a funk again. After I post this I will take her for a walk on our property and see if that helps. I have tomorrow off so we can do something more then. I have a meeting that night but I think I can Zoom it.

I am not a very good juggler. I am constantly dropping one of the many balls I have tossed into the air. Lately it seems to be the writing ball with the Stella ball. So I will keep trying. Eventually I will learn to keep them all going in the air. I hope. Thanks for reading and all your awesome comments! Stay safe!

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Looking For the Path

I felt good when I was sitting in bed just doing nothing. Now… Stella is doing something odd too. She hunkered down on the love seat behind me, so I covered her up (it is almost down to freezing this morning). Every time I turn around to check on her, she is sitting with her head up just watching out the window. I expect her to have her head down and asleep. I am using her to distract me from myself.

Yesterday was hell at work. Everything that could go wrong did. Gas pumps were going down, we had no sale signs to put up until late (maybe an hour before I left the signs arrived from the other store), I was the only one concerned about getting any signs put up… I had new people that I was trying to train and keep busy, but everyone spent a lot of time standing around but me. I got home exhausted, and Chris tried to leave me to my own devices to unwind. I am so grateful for that! All I seemed capable of was watching tv. Oh, and throwing a ball. Stella was happily entertained.

I am dreading facing another day. I let myself stay in bed as long as I wanted. I am trying to coddle myself a bit where I can. I don’t expect others to. I want to hunker in and do some writing this morning. It might just be in my journal, but I need to do something. (The sun came out as I typed that last sentence then disappeared.) Maybe that will help. I am still on the fence about taking the writing course. It would mean driving to Traverse every Thursday night after work. I think I can swing it financially. I would be giving up one of my meetings. But I think that would be ok. I need to decide soon though. The class starts in June. And it could very well be filled up. So I guess I call tomorrow and go from there.

I am trying so hard to get everything done in our yard. I did make a decent dent in the side garden, but I still have the front, back and raised gardens to do. I also need to get the backyard mowed. Maybe a good cry is what I need. I don’t know. There is so much to be done and not enough time for it all. I think I will cancel the barbeque for work. There is too much going on for everyone. I can’t get it all done before everyone comes over. And several coworkers will be post-surgery. So maybe later this summer I will try again. Right now there is too much.

I see that I am no longer an employee. The past month or so I have been just scheduled as manager. Before those of us who were night managers would kind of rotate thorough and be manager one night, cashier another and gas window another. Not me. And I see that I will be working Sunday mornings while my coworker is recovering from surgery. I usually close on Sundays. This week will be two closes and three opens. The bonus is that this will be a busy weekend and I actually get to leave before things get really ugly.

I see that I have gone on quite a bit. Thanks for listening to be complain and brainstorm a bit. Stay safe!