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Awake Before My Time

Right now I am very irritated with Essie. All I wanted was a little more sleep. But she had to go and get everyone up. So here I am. Annoyed. It also feels like I have a cut around my left eye. I couldn’t sleep so I didn’t get to the actual shut eye until almost 2am. I messaged Chris that I was going to bed around 11pm (I didn’t get home until around 10:45pm) after feeding the dogs because I was wiped out. But guess what? Wide awake. So I decided to watch a movie. I settled for a documentary on Amazon. I felt a little sleepy when that was done so we headed for bed. Then nope. So I read some more. Stella kept giving me desperate please will you turn out the lights glances so I finally did around 1am. I tossed and turned for the next hour or so.

This morning there is barely any breeze and the sky is overcast. I good day to sit out I think. I will haul my stuff out to my chair and small table for a few hours. I have a meeting at 5pm tonight that I need to drive to Elk Rapids for. We are meeting at a park this time. I hope I get the right one. I am contemplating taking my camera with me and trying to get a few photos on the way as well as in the park. I will have to leave early so I will have time to pull over repeatedly for photos. It is quite a beautiful drive along many water fronts. We’ll see. There is so much to photograph that I am never sure where to start. That is why I usually just stick with my own backyard. But after the successful trip to the Alden art fair I am feeling a little more confident about taking more photos outside my usual comfort zone.

I have a new to do list for my day. Most of it is easy work. I just need to pace myself. I should be able to get it all done. I feel like I am getting behind on things. That is one big reason I am unsure about doing NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) in November. On some of my work days I don’t really have any spare time. I beat myself up enough about not working on my novel. Am I going to feel less like a writer if I attempt it? If that is the case then it is not worth it. But if I can make a dent in it then it will be worth it. On days that I can’t make my word count what am I gonna do? The easy answer is make it up another day. But that builds up if you have several days where you can’t write. I know there will be days… it is how I will handle it. My knee jerk reaction is to cram it all into the next days word count. But I can average it out if I need to. Maybe write extra to have a built in cushion. It sounds easy enough but I suck a the execution part, lol. My mind will start to freak out and scream at me that this was a terrible idea and that I am not a real writer.

I guess I ought to wrap this up and get started with the rest of my day. Stella is acting goofy to cheer me up. Little nut… Essie has been trying to get back into my good graces as well. I would like to thank everyone for their awesome comments and support! I love getting your insight into things! As always thanks for reading and stay safe!

4 thoughts on “Awake Before My Time”

  1. I’m loving reading your posts in the morning! What a lovely thing to look forward to 😊 So many people struggle with these questions, and I know for me personally, knowing that doesn’t make it easier. But I can tell you how much I enjoy your writing, and your photos, and that your honesty is inspiring. I can’t wait to see what you do next 😊

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