Today is finally my day off. Sort of. I received a link to the meeting I missed last week and I asked if the paper wanted my to watch it and write it up. I got the ok last night at work. I said I would take care of it this morning. So once I finish this I need to get on that. It is one of those you really feel crappy and just need to be days but I said I would and I am not going to back down.
Last night I was miserable. I tried to be as positive as I could (which at times was not very much). Part of my problem was the physical pain (part of that was due to me using an ax to chop down some saplings that I have been trying to get rid of for several months and finally got around to) and the rest was me just being wiped out from my long hours. If I am going to be working long weekend hours then I need one of the weekend days off. I don’t spend any time with Chris unless I have requested the day off and he has the same day off.
Ok…. I need to let that go for now. I am overwhelming myself. Too much needs to be addressed and figured out. I think that is why I finally decided to chop those saplings down. I needed to do something aggressive. I need to just chill today. But my brain reminds me that I haven’t talked with either of my parents. I can’t today. I need today for myself and guilt free. Once my article is done I need to not adult. Not even that I just need to relax. I have a to do list on a yellow post it note. We’ll see what gets done. I am just overwhelmed…. I feel like it is just go go go.
So it feels like today will be the battle between relaxing and getting things done. Which will win out? Stay tuned! Thanks for reading and stay safe!