It is hard to change one’s mindset when you have drilled it into your own head for years. I did some much at Younker’s that seemingly anything I did extra curricular I could turn into a imposition because I was doing too much and I hated my job. I didn’t matter if I enjoyed said activity or not. In the years that have followed that job it has been difficult to undo that mindset. But I am, slowly and brick by brick.
I started thinking about all this this morning after I got up. I was waiting for the girls to come in from going potty and the laptop to warm up. I was trying to go over what I could get done this morning and what I would need to do after work. My brain started getting anxious and angry. There was simply too much to do! I calmed my brain and looked at it all. I could get my article written, this written and my exercises doe before work. I had ample time. I could also get in my two photography classes after work. It would be only an hour. And this stuff wasn’t an inconvenience. These things were for me. They are to help me. And with the exception of the exercising I enjoy doing all of it. My mind was determined to not enjoy any of it. Because of past experiences. I have to keep changing my mind set. Once I get myself to seriously look at things instead of assume I can take another brick out of the wall. Having a job that I enjoy and don’t bring home every night helps more than you would think.
I just looked out the window and it is snowing big fat flakes. I still can’t seem to catch them in a photograph…. Some thing to work on in class. Since I have more to do yet before work I’m going to wrap this up. Thanks for reading and stay safe!