Feeling a Bit Anxious

I am happy to say that I am writing this on my laptop. It is finally connecting to the internet and after a bit of finagling to the printer as well. I had a busy day yesterday between the novel and various things around the house. The novel work was mostly research reading but I did take a few notes. I was able to spend some good quality time with my family as well. Why then did I wake up at 6am with a panic attack?

It is very frustrating because no matter what I have done this morning my mind keeps rolling around everything that could go wrong in my life. Every possible bad what if scenario. The harder I try to change my mind the deeper it seems to dig in. But I don’t want to think those thoughts!

Yesterday’s snow turned to rain and mostly had disappeared by the time the sun went down. But this morning it is quite the winter wonderland as you will see. I wonder how busy we will be at work tonight. I can laze around this morning as I don’t work until 2pm. I am hoping to spend some of that time on my novel. This time I need to get atleast a page of prose written.

Even though I am in my office Essie is staying out in the living room. A lot of times she will just go back to bed if I am in here. Moose was the only one who would actually spend the morning in here with me on a regular basis. I miss my baby boy.

I think before I turn the laptop off this morning I will try to find and print a map of the area my novel is taking place. I was going to order one from Amazon but I don’t need to. If I can find a decent map online to print it will be just as good.

I think I need to just sit with Essie for a bit and watch the snow fall. Maybe that will help my mind ease up. I tried going back to sleep but I just tossed and turned for two hours before I gave up and finally got out of bed. I hope everyone has a great day! Thanks for reading (and the support) and stay safe!

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