I’m not sure what to write about today. So much has been going through my mind. Should I keep writing? Should I just ditch both jobs and start a new one? Will they finish the garage today? What am I going to do if they don’t? What makes me happy? What do I want to do with my life and myself? I don’t have answers to any of them right now. Even the seemingly simple one of what makes me happy. Lately not much does.
I am stuck in a groove with my writing. I have been doing “my voice” for so long I have forgotten how to give voice to others. I can’t tell you the last time I tried to write fiction. I can’t step out of myself and into the character. I look at my mistakes and think if I had done this how would I be? and then make that a character. That’s not how it works though. I’m not sure how to get out of this writing rut. Or maybe I’m just supposed to drop it all together. I don’t know.
They are supposed to be here to finish the garage today. When I texted to enquirer when I was told in an hour. That is about 20 minutes from now. I hope that this time he comes through for us. With snow in the ground I’m not sure who we will find to finish if this falls through (again).
So I guess today will be about answering questions. Big and small all are important to my well being. All need some kind of answer.
Mother Nature has done nothing but drop the temperatures and bring on the weather since the month of November started. Introspection weather if ever I’ve seen it. So I’ll grab another cup of coffee and settle in to start thinking and try to answer some of my questions.
Thanks for reading! I hope everyone has a great day! ❤️