Mindset

Here we are, another day.  What will happen?  Some things happen because we make them.  Other things happen to us.  For instance I have a meeting to cover this morning.  What will happen because  I chose to go and cover the meeting?  What would happen if I chose to stay home (other than the obvious I mean)?

I think part of my problem is that I over think things.  Being able to see both sides or conversely be able to look at “all” possible options or outcomes can be a bad thing when over used.  Because “all” will inevitably include the bad side.  And once my mind/imagination gets to the bad side of things it has a heyday.  Imagining all the various bad things that could happen and their possible consequences is overwhelming.  It is a hard habit to get out of.  To be honest I’m not sure how I got this far down the rabbit hole!   But I did and I need to find a way out.  Like Alice I am stuck behind the looking glass and I need to find my way back.

Learning to reprogram my own mind is interesting and difficult.  I know the whys and wherefores but the execution is sometimes iffy.  So I try to do a little every day.  Some days are better than others.  Somedays I fall back to almost the beginning.  But I still have to try.  That is why I’m taking so many photos.  I’m trying to get at my creativity from another standpoint.  I don’t know if it’s working but I am having fun anyway.

On a side yet related note I made the mistake of trying to do the update on my phone before I left for the meeting (the last update was completed in a matter of minutes).  I don’t think it will be done before I leave which means I will probably have to leave my phone here (it will be useless anyway while it updates).  This also means that I cannot upload the photos that I took that I wanted to share with you.  So I guess I will be doing a second post today so I can share my photos.  I need to get ready to head out the door for the meeting.  I hope you have a great day!