Depression Hits With Bonus Round

I thought things could not get worse.  I was wrong.  The bottom dropped out of my world yesterday. I don’t know if I am coming or going.  I was wide awake at 3am with a panic attack.  Truly, I don’t know what to write.  I almost skipped doing this.

My heart is broken and my soul hurts.  I have no idea what to do.  Part of me is tempted to take the kids with me to work.  But I don’t know how well they would do.  And I don’t need to add to our stresses.  I have a meeting to cover tonight and another in the morning.  I just want to curl up and do nothing.

I don’t know what to do to help this depression and anxiety.  Nothing seems to be working and this is adding to the problems.  Everything seems to be snowballing.

I look at the clock and it has taken me 20 minutes to come up with those few paragraphs.  I don’t even have any photos to add to this to make up for the words.  Yep.  I just went through my photos.  So I am sorry this is just a downer post.  I hope things get better.  And I hope all of you are doing well.