I thought things could not get worse. I was wrong. The bottom dropped out of my world yesterday. I don’t know if I am coming or going. I was wide awake at 3am with a panic attack. Truly, I don’t know what to write. I almost skipped doing this.
My heart is broken and my soul hurts. I have no idea what to do. Part of me is tempted to take the kids with me to work. But I don’t know how well they would do. And I don’t need to add to our stresses. I have a meeting to cover tonight and another in the morning. I just want to curl up and do nothing.
I don’t know what to do to help this depression and anxiety. Nothing seems to be working and this is adding to the problems. Everything seems to be snowballing.
I look at the clock and it has taken me 20 minutes to come up with those few paragraphs. I don’t even have any photos to add to this to make up for the words. Yep. I just went through my photos. So I am sorry this is just a downer post. I hope things get better. And I hope all of you are doing well.