I have been reading other people’s posts longer than normal because I honestly don’t know what to write. I am not in a good place mentally. I just feel like everything is exploding in my face. I don’t want to go into details as it won’t help. It will just make me more upset by revisiting everything (I am mentally anyway). I just don’t know what to do.
I was hoping for rain today but it looks as if that will not happen. We are smoking beef again in the smoker. Chris started it around 7am. He has since gone back to bed. Yesterday he did quiches on the smoker. They turned out very well. He is getting very creative with the smoker. It is good to see him doing stuff like that. He is complaining that he is putting on too much weight from all the food though. lol
The kids are all sleeping. I had planned to stay in bed til 8am (or later because I seriously did not want to face the day, I spent probably 30 cuddled up with Moose freaking out (me not him freaking)) but I heard Chris in the kitchen so I got up to see what was going on.
It is going to be hard to get things done today. The flip side it if I am busy then it is not as bad mentally. I honestly don’t know if me working on the car is a good idea today. But it needs to be done before something bad happens. I guess we’ll see what happens. I’ll share some pics from yesterday. Thanks for reading, I hope you have a great day!