Aging, Dogs, Emotions, family, Life, Thinking


Essie and Stella are behind me and Moose is beside me as I write this.  I am going to have to call the vet about Essie because she is limping very badly and is having more and more trouble getting up on things.  She has been coddled quite a bit these past few days.

To be honest my positive self is beginning to crack.  Everything that was supposed to happen this week is a no go.  I mixed up my weeks for the meetings and the meting for tonight was cancelled.  Mom called off last night.  Chris’s truck is in for repairs so no Pirate Fest this weekend.  I am bummed.

I slept well until something bit me around 1:30am.  Then I was wide awake.  Around 2am I decided to try a sleep aide as I really need to get sleep.  I was awake until after Chris got home (around 3:15am).  The kids wanted to get up around 7am but I managed to stay asleep til 8am.  I could’ve slept longer but I knew that we needed to get up.

Still nothing done on the garage.  No answer when I call and his voicemail box in full so I cannot leave a message.  I don’t know what else to do.  I told Mom about it last night when we talked and she was surprisingly calm about things.  She suggested waiting until the end of next week and if nothing was done find somebody else to finish it.  If I can’t get a hold of him on the phone I will text him and let him know that he has a week to start doing something.  I think I will also look into taking him to small claims court.

The day has dawned overcast with big fat and fluffy clouds.  I hope it continues.  It fits my mood.  Still Summer but mellowed.  I am trying not to be anxious.  It has been so nice to be without it and feel good about life.  But my concern for Essie is starting to weigh in.  I find myself looking at my birthday (a week from Friday, the 16th) and realizing that I will be 50 in 3 years.  That will make Essie 12 years old (please let her still be around), Dad will be 80 years old and Mom 76 years old.  Where has the time gone?  I’ve been able to do so much that I wanted to do in my life and I am grateful.  No regrets.  But who hit the fast forward button?  I find myself struggling with this as I get older.

I look at the clock and see that the vet should be open.  I guess I will wrap this up and start making my phone calls.  I may write some more on here later.  Thanks for reading!



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