I recently sent an email out of the blue to a good friend I’d not heard from in years. I miss him a lot and finally just shot out a random email while I was at work. Last time I did this I didn’t get a response for a few weeks and even then it was only a line or two. This one was a letter. It made me smile and pretty much made my day. Apparently he’d been thinking about me too and was pleasantly surprised to get my email. I got an abbreviated update about what was going on with him (sounds like a lot of changes happening) and what his schedule was (he has been a chef for as long as I have known him… 20 plus years now (?!) so his schedules have never been consistent). I am hoping to either meet up with him at one point or to get him to come out here for a barbeque. He and I were writing buddies for years. I remember going to coffee shops and such with him to just write. I can’t tell you how much I miss that.
Speaking of schedules mine will be jam packed this week. I’m kind of looking forward to it all. I have my job at the lot Monday, Wednesday and Friday; then I have a meeting Monday night, Tuesday morning and Thursday night; Wednesday night I am meeting Mom in Traverse for a class at one of the stores downtown. I will defiantly be ready for the weekend! lol But I am looking forward to the diversity and busy-ness of it all. I am getting in to too much of a routine where I’m not living. I am going through the motions. That is why I am so grateful for the paper. Covering the meetings gets me out and about and meeting new people. And it keeps me writing.
It is getting harder and harder to remember who I am to myself. I am mother to my dogs. I am friend, wife and lover to my husband. I am daughter and friend to both of my parents. But I forget to feel excited when I accomplish something that I have always dreamed of or when I have a piece accepted for publication. I forget to be happy for me. That is why I am excited for this class Mom and I are taking as well as reconnecting with my friend. Both have to potential to help me…. be me. Be myself more fully. It’s hard to explain.
My Pitbull watch (named Essie) tells me it is time to get off of the computer and pay attention to them and get outside. I hope everyone has a great day!