Emotions, Learning, Life, Thinking

Self Defeat and Trying

1972italy

I am sorry this is so late today. I had a good day yesterday then ruined it by drinking too much. I need to learn to be happy in the moment instead of trying to prolong the moment with alcohol.

It seems as though when things start to go well for me I do something to make it go bad. It’s as though I am afraid to let something good happen. I don’t trust in the good I always look for the bad to happen. That is my problem with riding. I assume I’m going to do something to screw things up.

I am very frustrated with myself. But today is a new day and I will try again. I will try to be in the moment and be happy. I will try to believe that I won’t screw things up. I will try.

Published by 1972italy

I have been writing since I was about six years old. I love it! I enjoy drawing word pictures and getting people to think in different ways. I have not done much other than my personal journal over the past few years because both fear and betrayal have locked my writing box up tight. I seem to have lost the key. So this is me trying to pick the lock.

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