I almost did not do this at all this morning. I am not in a good head space. I don’t want to share my anger and unhappiness. But I know if I don’t write this I will feel even worse. The kids are all up and in my face for attention. I appreciate their love but it is just making things worse. I just want to be left alone.
The harder I try to do the right thing the more it seems to blow up in my face. I am going to have to take the kids off their medicine indefinitely. I just can’t afford the medicine. And I feel like such a shitty parent. I think that is what has started everything. I can’t properly take care of them and I am mad at myself. I hate that bills need to come before my family.
There seems to be no solution. Atleast not a good one. I don’t want to get a third job. The kids are doing well with the schedule I have. But what choice do I have? I could sell my motorcycles and gear. That would be some money. Since it is beginning of riding season I would get good money for them.
I can’t write anymore. Maybe I’ll be back tomorrow. I may close this down.
Spring then summer will come again! Maybe you need a different pe time job? Give it time.
Thank for the love. I know it will take time. I don’t want to give up the job. The hours let me be able to work on my writing and at the paper. And I really like the job. I get to help people and I enjoy the physical labor involved. It is a good combination for me. It has been many years since I actually enjoyed my job. I am not ready to give that up.
I am truly sorry for you and the children. I do not know if you believe but I will say a prayer and often I say prayers for my followers and those I follow.
I very much appreciate all the help we can get this week! ❤️. Thank you for the kind thoughts and words (and the follow).
Keep on fire my friend.. Gbu..
❤️ Thank you