Creativity, Dogs, Emotions, Life, Thinking, Writing

Mind Games

Today will be a moderately busy day.  I’m going to take the kids with when I do my running.  They need to get out for a bit.  I’m debating about putting their fleece coats on them because it is really cold out today.  No precipitation but the temperature drop in constant.

This morning’s goal is to keep the anxiety at bay.  Prepare for what could go wrong but don’t live like it will go wrong.  I am trying to be excited about the changes going on instead of freaking out about what could go wrong.  It is hard.  Sometimes I just try to keep myself busy enough that I can’t focus on it.

One problem I have is when I have to wait to do something.  I am one of those people who wants to get up and go and get things done.  No get up and wait for a few hours then get going.  I pace both physically and mentally when I have to go somewhere or do something but I have to wait a while before I can do it.  It could be an appointment or a phone call.  If I can’t get doing whatever it is as soon as I am ready to I start getting anxious and nervous.  I want the situation over so I can be back home where it is safe.

The flip side of all this is that I am happy and excited to finally be doing something different.  I am able to write and get published on a regular basis and I am beginning a new job completely different from what I have been doing the past 15 years.  I have plans for the future that I can actually accomplish as well.  The future looks fab…. from a distance.  I know that the closer I get to this awesome life changing events the more I will freak out and dig in my heels.  BUT… if I try to go into things with a different mindset I might be able to beat myself at my own mind game.  And that is the goal.

Ok, I’m back.  Phone calls have been made for now and appointments set.  I have to wait another hour and a half before I can head out the door with the kids.  I checked the temperature.  7F.  Brrrrr!  I hope the car starts!  Our high today is supposed to be 14F.  If I don’t put the coats on the kids I am atleast bringing the coats with us.  Is it Spring yet?

I need to get to my other writing site and try to do some work on there.  I didn’t do anything but check in yesterday.  Cheers!

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