I am exhausted so I’m not sure how well this will go. The dream I remember from just before I woke up I had to go back into a store and get my stuff out of a locker. The one thing missing was my purse. Anyone who knows me knows that I hate purses and do not carry them unless I absolutely have to. But I think the meaning for me was I lost my identity, who I am. I remember needing my id for the evening’s festivities. I am losing me.
So where is this elusive being going? Or hiding? I have a feeling that I am slowly uncovering her but something happens and I fall back into my old ways and cover her up again. Fortunately the dirt around her is loose so even if I cover her back up I have a good chance of uncovering her at one point. I don’t think I have managed to completely rebury her with no hope of escape.
To be honest I think this is why I am so bad at staying in touch with family and friends. I am trying to find me and make a fresh start. So I push everyone away from my past. Not the right thing to do but there it is. It just seems to be built in. I get enough of my own issues so I will drift away from others and their problems. I am trying to fix myself (or find myself…?).
That is my insight for the day. I am falling asleep as I try to type this. I may add more later or just wait until tomorrow. Cheers!